I feel more powerful now than I ever have now that I let myself feel for Landon and forgive him. I know that this will help make the right choice on what needs to be done with the pack. I just hope that Landon and I will agree on whatever is best for the pack. I still am curious why the pack still hasn't named Landon as the Alpha there really isn't anyone else that is more capable of keeping them safe than Landon God I hope they don't make a dumb decision.
I feel a strong-arm wrap around my waist. "Hey, Beautiful I'm going to go and get Jayden and get ready for the memorial."
"Wait, I thought we were going to talk about what will be best for the pack."
"Lilly, it's starting rather soon, and I need to make sure Jayden is ready. Can we finish this later please."
"I guess I just wanted to have a plan going in just in case the pack is in a dark place and just want revenge."
"Lilly it will be okay we will get our revenge you can count on that but let's
Uncertain what to do with Jayden missing, it's like a piece of me went with him. I have been searching for him, but I haven't found any trace of him. I haven't fault anything either which I'm glad that he at least he isn't being tortured. I don't know what else to do but search for him. I don't want to give up but everywhere I go it just leads to a dead end.With the disappearance of Jayden the memorial never happened and no one was named Alpha. They want to do the memorial along with naming the Alpha. I don't want to go but now that I'm a part of this pack it's my duty. I just don't know if I'm going to really be any kind of good company. I can't stand even being around people right now.I know that Jayden's disappearance isn't my fault, but I just feel that if I just showed him more attention and been there for him that this wouldn
I am shocked, I don't even know what to do. I stand as I'm watching everyone clapping. They named me their alpha. As the crowd grips hold of me and pushes me forward, my feet are moving, but it feels like I'm floating. I am trying to register what is happening, But I don't know how.I have never seen myself much as a leader. I have always just followed those who are in charge. Not knowing what to say or do at the most important times. I become nervous, what if I'm not cut out for this. They chose me to lead them, but what if I lead them to their death.As I make it up the steps to the stage. I look over at the crowd of people and I become terrified. Wondering why the elders of the pack feel that I am capable of being their leader. As I raise my hand for those to be silent. I begin to feel different. My doubt is leaving and confidence is taking over. Shocked as It becomes quite so quiet that you could hear a pin drop. Just for a moment, I take in the silence and just en
My wolf is pulling to her mate, she wants to see him. I am nervous I didn't let him to die afraid of what he may think. I hide him, so he wouldn't be found but was it enough. Damn it, it's not like I left him out in the open and put a sign on him to come get me. I feel so bad for what I did, but I had no other choice at the time.Star is yelling inside my head, "please take me to my mate, he's alive, I want to be with him."I don't know what to do, I also felt the connection with Ivan but all the things that he has done to me. I don't know what I feel when I look at him, I know I felt fear before, but its seems different now. I don't feel any kind of genuine love for him but could I. Star is attempting to take over my body, but I am stronger, I don't allow her to.Ivan is becoming closer, his scent is sending arousal through my body, I purr to the delight. Unsure what to make it out as. This is the man who has terrified me And put me through so much misery, but
Life is starting to feel like a blur. I accepted to give Ivan a chance, But I feel lost. I had reasoning behind my existence. But now I don't know my reasoning. I am an alpha I should be strong um, but I feel weak. I thought that I could forget about Landon and Jayden and just move on. The harder I try, the worse I feel. I know what needs to be done, but it will put everybody and danger.I wanted to escape to a place that we would all be able to be safe and live a life that is without fear. I'm not sure if that is possible for me, I would be running from those that I love. The whole point of everything was always to keep Jayden safe, without him there is no point into anything I need to find him even if it kills me, I have to bring him back to where he belongs.I'm not sure of what the pack is going to see of me as. I don't really care, though I can't be the alpha I need to be. Not caring what anybody thinks. This is what has to be done for me to be able to
It can't be true. She couldn't have done all this. She is the only person who Landon has that he loves. I become confused on how the world has become. I know families have their issues, but my family, we would have never betrayed each other. No matter what the cost would have been.Ivan has no reason to lie. What I am curious about is why she would give it to him. She would have known that I would figure it out, eventually. Is she trying to blow her cover? Or is something worst coming? I hate all the deceit that is happening. I will not stand for it. If she wants to play this game, then fine. I will play until I find Jayden and he's with me.I look at Ivan with a Stern face, “do not speak of me being here tonight and what we talked about.”He looks at me. I can see that he's worried, but he does not admit it he shakes his head and, says, “yes alpha”!I don't know what's going to happen, but what I do know is I will find Jayden. She
I am waking up by the sun shining through the window into my eyes. I can feel anger consume me. But I do not react. I hold it and bury it. I need to act like nothing is wrong. I hear a knock on my bedroom door. It surprises, me not sure who it may be.“Who is it” In gently tone“It's Mary, sweetheart. With your breakfast, I offered to bring it to you today. I figured that we could talk about what will be our next step.”As she is walking over and placing the tray on my bedside. I say to her,” We will just have to wait and see what the next steps are."“Well, alpha, I think it's time that you establish what our next steps are. The pack is waiting for you to lead them you need to lead them.”I make myself seem weak as I respond, “I don't want to lead them into destruction. I don't want anybody to get hurt, Mary. What am I to do?”“You are the Alpha. You must determine what is right fo
My senses have improved dramatically, but something else that I have noticed is my anger. I feel my blood boiling inside me. Trying so hard to control it, I don't want to blow my cover. I don't want Mary to know what I know. If she gets any idea that I am up to something, my plan could go very wrong. So wrong that I actually might kill her.She thinks the first move should be me naming my mate as my 2nd in command. Usually, packs have male alpha's and the females are their Luna. In this case, it's very much different, since the female is the alpha. I want to avoid making it official with Ivan. I don't love him. I'm aware that I should since he is my mate, and I'm met to be with him, but I feel nothing.I was always told once you find your mate that the bond is unbreakable. But the bond that I have is nothing. When I look at him, all
He pushes me inside his grip, making me feel uneasy. Everyone's staring, wondering what my move will be, but I do nothing. I let him push me to the bedroom, not knowing what he's about to say. I'm nervous. It has been almost a month since I have seen him last. I watch, I'm waiting to see his lips move, wanting to hear what he has to say. “Lilly, I have looked everywhere for him. I can't find him. He is gone.” I watch as he falls to his knees crying in despair, my heartbreaking for him. And my body builds up with anger, knowing that his mother is making him feel this way. I ran over to him and let him sob in my arms. Not knowing what to say, I know that I can't tell him what I know. If he found out that his mother had been behind all this, I'm not sure what he would do. “Landon, I'm so sorry that all this had to happen to you. I wish I could take away all your pain.” I feel bad for Landon, but I will not jeopardize saving Jayden just to make him fe