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Chapter 29
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2024-10-29 19:42:56IVAN'S POV
What have I done to my mate, I am a monster? I needed her to hate me, so it would be easier for me when I marry. Instead, I made it worse by hurting her. I will never be able to forgive myself for what I have done to her. I know that she pushed and pushed until I reacted. She just wouldn't stop. I wanted to make her pay for ruining everything. I could have controlled my wolf, but instead I wanted to hurt her. She felt pain, so I left him to take control and take what he wanted, knowing I wanted the same thing.
I wanted to punish her for defining me. I'm so angry I never wanted her in the first place. Why did she have to come along? I lied to her, and I told her that she was my third mate, knowing I've never had a mate until now. I have given up all hope and then there she comes along, I hate her for it. I had a plan, and she ruined it.
I can feel her pain because of what I have done, and it makes me feel even more rage. I want to apologize for what I
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I continue to walk up to Jayden to talk to him about last night, "Hey buddy, I'm sorry for just taking off."But when I speak, it's like I have no words. He acted like he didn't hear me and just walked to Landon. "Daddy, can we please go home now."?I'm confused as to why he is treating me like this. I have done nothing but be nice to him, but instead he is now acting like I don't exist. I want to chase after him. But I will not beg to be loved. As I held my tears back, Dean approached me. "Lilly, is there something that you need?""Why are you not helping me with my abilities? You said that you would begin my training, but you have done nothing?""I was waiting for you to become a member of the pack, so you would have a bond with a pack.""As you can tell, I'm not wanted here, to be honest, I'm not wanted anywhere.""Lilly, I wouldn't be so sure that you are not wanted here. I know that you are, and that you are even loved here.""La
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When I hear star's words, my heart aches knowing that something is happening. I stand up and fight through the pain and shift. I take off knowing that I need to find him, so I can help him. Knowing that he doesn't deserve it,, but my child deserves to have a father. I don't want him dead, he needs to survive.I can feel the pain worsen and ease up at the same time. Then I wonder if he is being tortured. Wondering if they are torturing him almost to death but not actually allowing him to die just being barely alive. Is that why I am feeling this pain what is happening. I'm running as fast as I can, trying to pick up his scent, hoping I won't be too late?He is an alpha, he is strong so why is he on the verge of dying. As I become closer, I'm surprised by what I see. I see Ivan tied to a tree, tears fill my eyes at the sight of his agony. I run up to the tree then touch him as his head comes up, he looks at me with black eyes full of anger. Once he realizes it's me, his
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I know that Landon is unsure of letting Ivan stay and not telling anyone. Convincing him wasn't easy. I had to make sure that Ivan would at least make it through the night. I don't know who would do this to him, but they left him for dead. I know that I should not have any compassion for him, but I do. As much as I want to hate him, I just can't.As I get back to my cabin to check on him, I see that he is still sleeping, but he's breathing. I feel relief coming over me. I can breathe now, knowing that he's going to survive."Lily, we need to lay with your mate and cuddle into him.""Star, you can't expect me to do that.""Lily, you have to understand it will help him heal faster and take away some of his pain."I hesitate. I know that all I should want to do is help my mate and make him feel better in any possible way. As I look at Ivan, all I see is a man who broke me. I'm still healing from what she has done. I Want to forget about it, but
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