It's been a hard couple of days since Landon hasn't talked to me and Jayden is staying away. I'm unsure of what is happening, but I just let it go. I have been so consumed with Jayden that I forgot I'm about to become a mother.
My belly has been growing, I am starting to feel flutters in my stomach, I'm uncertain if that is the baby moving. I think that I have blocked out my pregnancy on purpose. Just because I'm scared and not sure how I'm going to do this. I know that I will find a way no matter what. I just wish I wasn't scared of what is coming.
I have been spending most of my time in my cabin just relaxing. Forgetting how good it feels. All of a sudden, I hear a knock at the door, uncertain who it is I grabbed my robe to put it on. I walk over to the door and I open it hoping that it is Jayden, but when I open the door to my disappointment it is not Jayden.
I put on a fake smile "hi how can I help you?"
"Hi my name is Jasmine I'm in the pack alpha La
As I am waiting for Jasmine to come to train not sure when she is coming I don't leave not wanting to miss her. I hear a knock at the door. I rush to the door thinking it is her but when I open it, I notice it is Landon. I didn't invite him. I ask "what do you want?""May I come in please?"I don't want him to come in, I am pissed because of the way he treated me. "can't you tell me from where you're at?""Look, I just wanted to apologize for the way I treated you. It was uncalled-for. I was so full of rage and I took it out on you, I'm sorry."I want to believe him that he wouldn't try to do that again. It's not like I told him no or tryed to even stop,, but he treated me like a whore. I also don't want him to think that he affected me in any kind of way. I don't want to show him any kind of weakness. I am quite not sure how to respond to him."Look, Jayden has been asking for you, I have been trying to keep him away because of my own jealous reas
As I approached his door I go to knock I become nervous I never was nervous before it's different now. I'm not afraid of Landon it's just I'm nervous because of what he has done to me. I should have stopped him but I allowed it. I'm not sure if I am going to be able to just forget about it. I want to pretend that it never happened.As the door opens I see that it is Jayden His eyes go bright once he realises it's me. I will say I like the excitement that I see in him When I approach him. To see how my appearance just gives him so such joy."Lilly you're here I've been waiting for you all day it seemed like forever I was starting to worry that you might not come.""Yes it is really me it did seem like forever I missed you so much. I would never not show up for you."As I scrunched down to his height I open my arms for a much needed hug as he runs in to my chest and my arms wrapped around him and I squeeze all I feel is comfort. Once our bodies connec
As soon as I get out the door, I shift into my Wolf. As I hear Star howl I am so relieved she's happy. She takes off and we run as fast as we can loving the chilly breeze going through our Fur. I can tell that she enjoys it just as much as I do.I'm sorry Lily with everything that has happened I had to regain control. Finding out we are pregnant and everything that has happened with our mate. Especially the fact that we are about to be parents. I'm freaking out. I needed time to absorb all of it. I'm sorry I'd never left you. I was always there, just silent.It's OK Star. I'm just happy that you're back. We all need time to adjust to our new life that we are given. We are going to be parents and I know I am scared, and I guarantee that you are too. Everything has changed so fast but one thing that has not changed is we have each other forever.Lilly, I want us to find out what we are. I know that Dean was supposed to start training but why hasn't he.I do
IVAN'S POVWhat have I done to my mate, I am a monster? I needed her to hate me, so it would be easier for me when I marry. Instead, I made it worse by hurting her. I will never be able to forgive myself for what I have done to her. I know that she pushed and pushed until I reacted. She just wouldn't stop. I wanted to make her pay for ruining everything. I could have controlled my wolf, but instead I wanted to hurt her. She felt pain, so I left him to take control and take what he wanted, knowing I wanted the same thing.I wanted to punish her for defining me. I'm so angry I never wanted her in the first place. Why did she have to come along? I lied to her, and I told her that she was my third mate, knowing I've never had a mate until now. I have given up all hope and then there she comes along, I hate her for it. I had a plan, and she ruined it.I can feel her pain because of what I have done, and it makes me feel even more rage. I want to apologize for what I
LILLY'S POVI have been lost for words since I ran into Ivan. Surprised that he left me free, I still wonder for how long it will be for. Now that he knows I'm alive. I have to tell Landon everything, I can't put it off any longer he needs to know. I have never lied to him. He really has never asked about my past. I am just afraid. That he will make me leave.As I toss and turn in my bed, there's no use for sleep. I get up, head to the bathroom. I turn the water on for the shower, maybe this will relax me. I undress while the water is warming. I look at myself in the mirror with my growing belly. As I can feel her movement, I become grateful that I have her.Lost and thought, the mirror steams. I open the shower curtain and step in, letting the hot water pour over my body. I try just to relax, but my mind is everywhere. All I can remember is his touch that made my body crazy. I crave his touch, I don't know why, I wonder what is happening to me.Star is a
I continue to walk up to Jayden to talk to him about last night, "Hey buddy, I'm sorry for just taking off."But when I speak, it's like I have no words. He acted like he didn't hear me and just walked to Landon. "Daddy, can we please go home now."?I'm confused as to why he is treating me like this. I have done nothing but be nice to him, but instead he is now acting like I don't exist. I want to chase after him. But I will not beg to be loved. As I held my tears back, Dean approached me. "Lilly, is there something that you need?""Why are you not helping me with my abilities? You said that you would begin my training, but you have done nothing?""I was waiting for you to become a member of the pack, so you would have a bond with a pack.""As you can tell, I'm not wanted here, to be honest, I'm not wanted anywhere.""Lilly, I wouldn't be so sure that you are not wanted here. I know that you are, and that you are even loved here.""La
When I hear star's words, my heart aches knowing that something is happening. I stand up and fight through the pain and shift. I take off knowing that I need to find him, so I can help him. Knowing that he doesn't deserve it,, but my child deserves to have a father. I don't want him dead, he needs to survive.I can feel the pain worsen and ease up at the same time. Then I wonder if he is being tortured. Wondering if they are torturing him almost to death but not actually allowing him to die just being barely alive. Is that why I am feeling this pain what is happening. I'm running as fast as I can, trying to pick up his scent, hoping I won't be too late?He is an alpha, he is strong so why is he on the verge of dying. As I become closer, I'm surprised by what I see. I see Ivan tied to a tree, tears fill my eyes at the sight of his agony. I run up to the tree then touch him as his head comes up, he looks at me with black eyes full of anger. Once he realizes it's me, his
IVAN'S POVAs I am leaving the woods from my encounter with Lily. I am in shock, wondering how the hell she survived that fall. All this time I was calling her weak, but I was so wrong. I hate myself even more now for treating her the way I did. Remembering When I touched her skin it felt like a delicate flower, so soft. I tried to snap out of my thoughts of thinking of her, it's distracting me as I am tripping over branches that are on the ground. Realizing that I have made the biggest mistake Underestimating my own mate.I shift into my wolf and take off to the pack house. I need a distraction. From thinking of her it's making me crazy and craving more of her, I want to respect her and let her be free. Even though I'm not going to be able to let her free for long. I am hoping now more than ever that Jenny finds a way out of this marriage.Not really sure how she is going to do it, but I'm looking forward to it. If she can get out of it, then I will be able to