Chapter 11 My heart is racing. Did the world just stopped? Because the moment he locked me in his arms, I felt like our worlds paused for a moment. The warmth of being in his arms seems to vanish the aching of my entire body. It's like a magic that heals every wound I got from the accident. “I'm so scared, Dahlia… I was so fvcking scared that it might happen again.” My brows met while I was in front of his broad chest. I was not moving. I can smell his scent, now that are bodies are glued to each other. “I thought I will lose you again,” that moment, I was able to get the message. I quickly pulled him gently and even avoided those eyes. Suddenly, I remembered what Ford kept telling me. ‘Again’. He was not pertaining to me, he was pertaining to Celeste that he once lost. I don't really get why Sean sees me as Celeste, or even all the people around us. I am so befuddled about everything. The racing of my heart was replaced with a harsh squeezed after realizing that. I force
Chapter 12 Days after, I got discharged from the hospital. However, I cannot say that I am completely fine because of my left leg. Well, I could walk easily unlike before where I feel an excruciating pain each step that I make. There is only a tiny bandage on my left foot. “Not just his secretary. Is it not clear to you, Dahlia? He's telling you his intentions,” she kept rolling her sharp eyes at me and I can see how frustration was painted all over her face. I blew out a heavy air. “You don't understand, Charlotte.” “What do you mean that I don't understand?” Here she goes again, cornering me with those eyes of hers. I knew that she won't let me escape, unless I give her an answer. I bit my lower lip and chose to bring my eyes on the road outside. We are here again at the café near the company. I intentionally decided not to come early there in order to avoid Sean for the meantime. I'm not even sure why I am avoiding him. “Come on, tell me. I'm your best friend, Dahli
Chapter 13 I didn't regret asking Sean about Celeste. When he told me the entire story of what happened to her, I supposed, I was able to observe him keenly. I was right all along. The truth slapped me in one snap. There is no doubt that Sean Cohen is still madly in love with Celeste. “So, do you plan to avoid him?” Charlotte asked while we were at the mall. Today is my day off. I also asked Sean that I will take a day off as I want to clear my head from everything. I was hesitant at first, because I was not present for two executive days and then I asked to take a day off. But then, Sean allowed me. “I decided not to. Do you think I should avoid him?” I landed my eyes at her. “No. There's no need,” she replied. I simply nodded. My decision is to stay friends with him aside from being his secretary. Me and Sean bonded a few times and I will not deny that I enjoyed it a lot. I just realized that he's just naturally like that. Just like Charlotte, he's benevolent. “An
Chapter 14The next day, I made sure that I would not be late for work. I have to be productive, at least. At some point, Ford was able to clear my head slightly. Sean only sees Celeste to me, that's all. Perhaps, that's the reason why he sometimes acts like he has a deep intention when he doesn't. Now, I think he's just confused and being carried away. Still, I don't get it. Do I look like Celeste? It's not like I don't find myself beautiful; I am beautiful. It's just that, from Ford's description, Celeste is a perfect woman from inside and out. The reason why I don't understand how Sean sees her to me when Celeste and I are totally different. I mean, in what aspect does he see Celeste to me, right? “Dahlia,” I glanced at one of my neighbors who coincidentally saw me while I was locking my apartment. My face almost crumpled. Why do I have to meet any of them now? “Hey, how's pregnancy?” I faked a huge smile.Her name's Fiona, and I know her well. If the landlady is the source of
Chapter 15 “Careful, it's hot!” I exclaimed to the kids while we were giving them food. Some of Sean's people are giving the food while I was the one giving them a hot choco and a milk. It depends on what they want to drink. “Thank you!” The young boy uttered and drew his broad smile at me. “You're welcome,” I replied and even patted his head. I couldn't erase the smile on my face while watching them. They were all enjoying the food and drinks and it made my heart delighted. “Hi! I want milk,” the young girl said with a soft smile. “Milk? Okay, hold on.” I replied before I quickly poured milk in the cup and handed it to her. “Are you enjoying the food?” I asked. “Yes, it's delicious.” She replied cutely. “That's great. Go on, eat and drink your milk.” I uttered and watched her go with the other kids who were enjoying their food. I didn't know that I would be here again, witnessing the orphan children like me. “You're sweating,” I was disturbed when Sean went
Chapter 16 I was staring at the empty desk and seat of Sean. I’ve been here for an hour and I already started my job, but Sean is not here yet. What his former secretary said is playing in my head along with what Ford and Charlotte kept telling me since before. Charlotte was indeed right. Sean doesn’t do the same thing to my colleagues, not even to his former secretary. He doesn’t pick them up and he doesn’t drive them home. He doesn’t hang out with them and bring them to amusement parks or to the orphanage. He doesn’t allow them to call him just by his name. He doesn’t double their salaries, and most importantly, Sean won’t skip his significant flight for his mere employee. I shut my eyes firmly. Sean Cohen did all of that to me—only to me. I chuckled as I tilted my head. You don’t have to say it. I know that it looks like I’m going mad. But then, perhaps I got it wrong. I’m not the only one who experienced all of this from Sean. Someone experienced all the real and genuine love of
Chapter 17“Excuse me,” Sean’s driver glanced at me from the rear mirror. I witnessed how pale I looked from there.Damn, you wanted this, Dahlia. Bear with it now. “Can you lower or turn off the aircon?” I smiled awkwardly.Fuck it. I’m freezing to hell! It’s flooding inside because Sean and I were soaked from the rain. Our entire bodies including our clothes and hairs were dripping in the back seat. He immediately turned it off after I requested it. I can’t pretend that I’m fine anymore when I was already freezing to death.“Are you cold?” Sean asked worriedly as he glanced at me beside him.“I’m freezing,” I replied and embraced myself. I even crushed my palms together to feel a light warm from it. “Sorry. I should have not involved you,” he uttered and felt bad. I paused for a moment. I didn’t know if it was right to blame him. Because I know to myself that it was me who wanted to accompany him as well. If he will go to a dangerous place, I would not be surprised if I will find
Chapter 18 “Celeste,” Fvcking hell. I can feel his tough abs on my tummy as I ended up on top of him. But then, what made my eyes bawled was when I felt something that was placed on my private part as well. Damn, is that his… Our faces were so close that we could already smell each other's breath. One wrong move, Dahlia, and you can kiss your boss. “I…” I quickly pulled myself from him and stood back on my feet. I chose to turn my back to him for a moment as my entire face was burning. It seems like all my blood suddenly went up to my face. I bit my lower lip and I just want to be eaten by the earth right now. I couldn't find the right words to say after that. “I think you're dreaming,” I added, with my back facing him. My heart was racing and I was trying my best to calm it. He called me Celeste again, which slapped me on what Ford kept telling me. Does he really see her with me? Even in his dreams, Celeste was the one he's thinking about. Even in his sleep, Celeste is
Epilogue1 month later…“It's been a while, Sean.” I muttered as I placed the flowers on top of his tombstone. I paused when I felt how the cold breeze embraced me and I felt like it was Sean. It sounds crazy, I know. But then, for the past month that Sean is gone, I never really felt like he really left us. There are these weird moments where I feel like he was around me, responding to any of my thoughts through the wind. “Perhaps you and Celeste are really destined forever,” I added and made a chuckle before my eyes landed at Celeste's tombstone beside Sean as well. I was the one who decided to bury him beside Celeste. Well, I know that Celeste has a biggest place in his heart and this is where everything started. If it is not for Emman, I would feel like I was only an extra to their love story—perhaps, I am Sean's side story. I placed other flowers at Celeste's tombstone as well. Looking at her tombstone reminds me of the day I witnessed how miserable Sean was because of his de
Chapter 80“I'm sorry, Dahlia…” Nathan uttered to me right after I still brought Sean to the hospital. He eyed me with so much despair, mourning already while I was standing there with my tears couldn't stop from pouring out of my eyes. “I'm afraid what we fear just happened,” he added. The moment I heard that from Nathan, I fell on the ground, losing all my strength. I wanted to scream but I felt like I lost my voice. I wanted to cry aloud but I felt like I had no strength to. My world shattered into a million pieces again and it felt like everything just stopped. “I'm sorry,” Nathan's voice cracked. He tried to hug me, but I moved away and quickly stood up to see Sean once again. “Sean,” I called, feeling so weak. I wanted to hear his voice and see his smile that I used to admire, but then, I knew that it is not possible anymore, which breaks me even more. My hands were shivering but I managed to grasp his now cold hands. He died while he was with me to the place where he first
Chapter 79“They want to see you, Sean.” I uttered. Emman was still with us, sitting on the other side of the bed. He looked away, and I knew that he didn't want to see them or should I say, he didn't want them to see him looking feeble like this. I heaved a light sigh while still holding his hand. “Don't you want to see them? They have been worried about you, especially Ford.” I mentioned trying to convince him. He shut his eyes firmly before he finally made a nod at me. “Really?” I asked delightedly. “Yeah,” he replied. I smiled from ear to ear after hearing that.“Hold on, I'll call them.” I quickly said before I ran out of the room to call the three of them waiting downstairs. “Can you calm down? You'll see him,” I heard Charlotte say to Ford who was walking endlessly in front of them. “He wants to see you,” I said, loud enough for them to hear me. All their eyes shifted at me from upstairs while I was wearing a soft smile, feeling a glimpse of hope. After a few weeks of no
Chapter 78I was staring at the coffee in front of me, watching it become cold. I am at home now. Later, I will go back to Sean's house to look after him again. I feel tired, but I know that it is not because of taking care of Sean; I'm tired of seeing him struggling and hearing his screams each day. I feel like it traumatized me. His screams stay in my head and I still hear it wherever I am. “You okay?” Knox asked and sat beside me. I had to pull myself back together as I don't want to worry him. “Yeah, I think so.” I replied as I forced myself to draw a tiny smile. “Are you sure? I know you, Dahlia. You can't hide things from me,” he added and I felt his hand invade my hand on the table. That was the moment I glanced at him—and in one snap, I felt my eyes watered immediately. I look like a kid who cries automatically after seeing her father. “Perhaps, not.” I replied. Knox did what he always does. He pulled me closer to him and hid my face on his broad chest. I began to sob and
Chapter 77“AHHHHHHH!” “Sean, please! Let's bring you to the hospital!” I exclaimed for the third time while everything was a mess inside his room. I couldn't do anything while he was shouting in pain and crumpling on his bed. He looks so pale and weak and yet I couldn't do anything to help him out. He was panting, chasing his breath before he just grabbed the bread knife from the side table of his bed and now glanced at me, pointing me out with that damn knife. “Kill me, Dahlia! Just fucking kill me, please!” At that moment that he was almost begging me to just kill him, I felt how many daggers pierced my chest that I knew it was bleeding so much. My tears began to betray me again while staring at Sean. His eyes were glazing over while he was holding the bread knife so tight. “What are you waiting for? K-Kill me! AHHHHHH!” The knife fell from his grasp as he screamed again and started to crumple in so much pain on his bed. “Sean,” my voice broke as I went beside him and held hi
Chapter 761 month later…Some people hate to stare right through the sky when it is too bright. They get blind from it and the sky's brightness is hurting their eyes. But then, I am different. Watching how each cloud moved slowly in front of me felt like it was dragging me along with it as well. Seeing the beautiful color of the sky along with the sunshine shining upon us captivates me entirely. I heaved a heavy sigh as I closed my eyes calmly, feeling the heat of the sun shining upon my skin. I just offered myself there, laying down on the sand and enjoying the peace. I could hear the noises of the people around me who were having their own worlds but nothing can beat the deafening but mesmerizing sound of the ocean’s waves. I could hear every move of it, back and forth. The sand on my skin was so gentle that I felt even more comfortable with it. “Wake up, woman.” My eyes remained closed even after hearing that voice. I don't need a minute to identify whose voice is that. I heard
Chapter 75 “Have you asked him?” Nathan asked. He came here this morning and I guess he only stopped by to ask about that. I placed the coffee on the small table in our living area before I glanced at him and sat beside him. “I did,” I replied. “He already knows that truth as well about Emman,” I added and wore that tiny smile. “How sure are you that Sean will live if he takes the treatment?” I asked again, even though Sean already refused to take it no matter how I persuaded him.Nathan paused and looked away for a moment before he blew out a little sigh.“As I said it's a risk, Dahlia. Who knows? He might still live if he decides to take the trea—”“And if he doesn't?” It shut him up. I witnessed how he was lost for words the moment I brought up the other side of Sean's situation. No matter how we avoid thinking about that negative side, we cannot run away from it; we cannot deny that death is indeed chasing him, trying to collect his life. “Dahlia, you know that I'm just doing
Chapter 74 “Do you think he won't hate me for being absent all those years?” Sean asked while he was driving. We are already near our house. After I revealed the truth to him and right after we fought, we reconciled for the sake of Emman. I still feel bad everytime he mentions his absence, which was not just his fault, but mine. I do not blame myself as I know that I had a deep reason to leave and hide my pregnancy from him, however, I couldn't help but wonder what change could it make if I came back and just told him that I was conceiving our child. “Emman thinks like an adult,” I uttered as the side of my lips rose. That is one of the things that makes me proud as his mother. “Like Claire before?” He asked and chuckled. “Yeah,” I paused for a moment. “Raising him alone wasn't hard. Not because Knox was there, but because Emman stood up with me like a real man beyond his age. He did everything to avoid worrying me and making me feel a headache. He's matured at his young age,” I
Chapter 73“Emman is your son, Sean…he's our son,” I bursted into tears as soon as I said that. After carrying it for 6 years, I finally spilled the truth to Sean. His lips parted but he remained stunned. He didn't move as if he became a statue who was still absorbing it in his head. Instead, a single tear just fell from his left eyes while his eyes were firm and surprised, glued at me. “I-I’m so sorry, Sean.” He dodged my touch before I could even reach his arm. He stood up and turned his back at me, facing his desk. He didn't say a word, but I could see right through his face that he was upset because of what I had done. “You were pregnant?” He uttered as he faced me again. I nodded slowly in tears. What I just told him weakened him. I can see that from his eyes right now. I was only trembling while looking at him. My chest was aching every pound of it. “And you didn't tell me?” He asked unbelievably with unfairness invading his eyes. “I'm sorry, Sean. I'm so so—”“Bullshit, D