MollyThe moment Christian mentions the letter he found I know it's the one. Archies suicide note. I know because he mentioned how crispy it was, it's crispy from getting wet so many times. Wet from my tears. Wet from my heart breaking every goddam time I read it. Thousands of tears have landed on that letter. I've spent thousands of hours re-reading that letter. Have travelled the world and back and still, that letter has stayed with me. Always on me, always reminding me of my loss, of how much my life has changed and lately... lately it has just been taunting me. The thing has been through a bloody Tornado and yet it survives, how is that even possible? Homes have tumbled to the ground, vehicles torn to pieces, and people have died because of the storm and yet that letter survives it all. It's unbelievable.As Christian's words register with me my heart begins to pound while my mind starts thinking through a thousand different thoughts. He knows... he knows the truth about Archie's
ChristianA few minutes of silence have passed since Molly's words and I'm somewhat grateful for it as it's giving me some time to try and work through what she said. If what's in that envelope is enough to turn her love for him to hate this fast then it's got to something awful, something unforgivable.Sitting here and listening to her and Tom as they talk about Archie's death has been hard but what's been even harder is seeing the look of hurt on Molly's face. How could he do it to her?When I read the letter, Archie's suicide note I instantly felt sick, sick and angry. The more I read it the angrier I became and all I've done since the first time I read it is pray that I was wrong. I've prayed that the words didn't mean what I thought, that they were some kind of code words because why would he do that to her?I've run through so many emotions since reading it including hatred towards him but then I took a moment to try and see it from his point. I've never suffered from depression
ChristianI watch as Molly struggles to control her breathing and I'm worried that she's about to give herself a panic attack. "Molls, it's ok. You dont have to do this." We're both sitting on the swing on the back porch but there's a huge gap between us so I move closer to her and gently rub her back. She looks up at me and slowly shakes her head. "No. I need to do this. It's time." She takes a couple of slow deep breaths and thankfully she seems to somewhat calm down.As she goes to open her mouth Tom appears out of the back door, he doesn't say anything just takes a moment to look at Molly before coming to stand in front of us and handing her a large envelope. It's the envelope from earlier, the one holding the secret. "I thought you may want this darlin' may make things a bit easier to explain. She gives him a small smile as she takes it from him but doesn't say a word as he gives us both a nod and disappears back inside the house.Molly spends a few seconds playing with the envel
Molly I feel completely drained, just talking about everything that Archie has done is hard work, it feels like it's taking every ounce of my strength and I've had enough. Had enough of feeling betrayed and hurt. Had enough of feeling sad and lost and every other emotion that has come to me and believe me there have been more than a few. I've also had enough of the anger and hatred that I've been feeling toward him. I don't like feeling that way, never have and he always knew that which makes it just feel like another betrayal from him. "You ok baby girl?" Tom's gentle words have my eyes filling with unwanted tears once more but no matter how hard I try I just can't seem to control them. "Yes... no... I don't know." I shrug my shoulders as a shudder runs through my whole body. I'm startled when I feel a hand gently run up and down my back but it soon disappears when I remember that it's Christian and that I'm sitting on his lap. When he pulled me onto his lap earlier and told me I w
ChristianI swear this has been the longest night of my life. After Molly fell asleep on me out on the swing I kept her with me for a little while then carried her in and put her to bed. The poor girl was so worn out that she didn't even stir the whole time that I carried her. Tom and Callum had the kids in with them so I put Molly in my bed and I took the couch. I knew that I wouldn't be getting much sleep tonight so it really didn't make any difference to me and I was right, it's almost 4 am and I'm still laying here wide awake.I've tried everything I can to get some rest even the old classic counting sheep but nothing will work, my brain just won't shut off. Katie is at the very front of it and I can't get my mind off of her. I just keep praying that she's ok that Amy has got her somewhere safe. I reckon she has as all she cares about is getting her hands on the money and if keeping Katie safe and looked after is the way to do it then she will, that I believe more than anything.T
ChrisitanTom and Molly left for the bank almost an hour ago which means they should be here any minute, not a minute too soon if you ask me. I pace along the long driveway as I anxiously wait for them to get here with the money for Amy. "Chris, your going to wear a hole in the ground if you don't stop soon." Jack grabs hold of my shoulders bringing me to a sharp stop. "It's going to be ok, Chris we're almost there."I give him a nod as I will my body to stay still but it's a struggle, I feel like I have way too much energy and need to burn some of it off which is hilarious considering I didn't even get a wink of sleep last night and I haven't sat down since the kids got up at 5,30 am. Thinking of Sophie and Brody brings a smile to my face. My Mom asked them if they wanted to go to the movies today to see some new Disney film that's out and between that and the promise of popcorn and candy, I'm pretty sure that they were close to exploding with excitement and it was the cutest thing t
Christian"You have got to be kidding me, Amy!" Whenever I think that she can't shock me anymore she goes ahead and does just that. I've had a niggling in my brain all night telling me that she wasn't done yet and I think that's one of the reasons that I couldn't sleep and now here she is proving me right once more."Why the fuck do you need more money, Amy? Surely one million is more than enough for your drugs an-""Tom, wait!" He looks at me shocked and confused at why I'm stopping his rant. "Not in front of her." I nod at Katie who is cuddled up in my arms and I know he now gets it by the look of understanding that he gives me. "Sugar, I'm sorry baby girl!" He walks over to me and kisses her on her head. I know she's only a baby and doesn't actually understand what's being said or what's going on but still, I don't want her witnessing any of this."I'll take her." Callum comes to a stop at the side of me, they must be able to hear us inside the barn. "Hey bubble bum, wanna come cud
MollyFuck Amy has more front than Walmart, asking for more money when she's about to become a millionaire any day now. Although I can't say that I'm surprised that's why I withdrew that extra fifty grand. I just wish that I had been wrong about her but once again she sinks to new lows.It took everything in me not to knock her out when I heard her saying that she would keep Sophie and sell her to someone else. The bitch is crazy if she thinks that any of us would ever let that happen. As much as I despise giving her any money, I would give her my last to keep those kids safe.Another thing that's pissed me off about her wanting more money is that I was the one who had to go out and sort it with her. When Tom and I had picked the money up from the bank I was so concerned with getting it to the farm safe that I forgot to tell him about the extra money that I had withdrawn and so he was stuck at that moment and now... well now I'm pretty sure Christian knows that it's my money or at the