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i ignored my instincts

Author: PetuniashWP
last update Last Updated: 2022-07-02 02:49:44

Dear Annie,

I was right.

I was so, so right but it's my own fault

because like an idiot,

I ignored my instincts

and let myself become fond of him.

And because I went against my better judgement of staying away and keeping distance

and not warming up to people,

like I expected,

another person got to know me just a little better

and then left.

Realized I was a freak, a loser, a nerd like everyone thinks I am.

Should I be surprised? No. Not at all.

Anyways,

it's okay because like usual,

I'll just stick to myself.

- Annie

Leo felt a pang of guilt as he read the letter, very well knowing that it was about him. He hadn't spoken to Annie in almost two weeks, ever since they went to get smoothies.

All he wanted was to protect her from getting hurt and now he was the one who was hurting her.

He knew they weren't close so maybe it shouldn't be a big deal but he also knew that Annie didn't get close with anyone or bother at all with anyone expect her two best friends. So the fact that she was st
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