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demons that don't allow me to let myself be happy

Author: PetuniashWP
last update Last Updated: 2022-07-02 02:50:20

Leo thought he had made good progress with Annie. He was beyond glad that she was actually trusting him and opening up to him.

She was always on his mind, he could never stop thinking about her. When he wasn't with her, even if it was for a little while, he would miss her and hearing her voice and seeing her little smile that he wished she would show more often.

Like I said, he thought he made good progress.

Dear Annie,

I cannot figure out whether or not I messed up.

I opened up to Leo and told him things that nobody aside from family, Jay and Amari know.

As much as I do think I'm starting to trust him,

and as much as I do like his company

and want to tell him things

and feel comfortable doing so,

telling him about my mom was one thing.

If I start to open up more

and tell him the worse things,

the things that might've hurt me more,

how do I know he's not going to get scared

or think I'm a freak

or look at me differently

or think I'm disgusting

and then just walk away like everyone els
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