6

Adlan

“Marry me. Marry me, Laura George.”

I said the words. I hadn't planned to but staring into her bright eyes gave me the certainty I wanted.

I had no idea if that was a great thing to do or if I was going crazy but I said it still.

She stared into my eyes and creased her eyebrow as though she had heard me wrong.

“What?”

“I know it seems too early. I know we haven’t gotten to any point in love to think of marriage. Fuck! We haven’t even started dating and it's insane to propose marriage now but what’s more insane is how I feel about you. I…”

She yanked her hands from my grip and glared at me.

“Adlan…” she shook her head in uncertainty, disbelief evident in her countenance. She ruffled her hair before she spoke again. “This is insane.”

“Yes. It is. I’m insane. I have no idea what’s going on with me. I can’t even think straight and Laura, we’ve only met for a couple of days now.”

“It's all fake. The feeling you feel now, it isn’t real.”

“You don’t know that.” her words hurt me. She has no idea what is real or not. She has no idea what my heart feels like right now. She had no idea what I was feeling.

“I know as much that you cannot fall this deeply in love with a person you’d just met but saying you wanna marry them? That's diabolical.”

I breathed out heavily. What was I thinking when I said this? Obviously nothing. How on earth was I expecting her to just agree to this?

“What do you feel for me?”

“Adlan.”

“I wanna know. What do you feel for me? Do you at all feel any form of compassion in your heart towards me?”

She sighed, shutting her eyes and ruffling her hair. She has no idea how beautiful she looks doing that.

“This whole conversation is going in a direction I had not planned.”

“Tell me!” I managed the tone of my voice but I could feel the rush of emotions bustling within me. It was driving me nuts.

“I don't know. Okay. I don’t fucking know what I feel for you. It had all been foggy ever since we met. I have no idea what’s up with my mind!” she rushed the words out and I stared blankly at her. I wanted to try and read her. I wanted to know what she was thinking. I wanted to know if there were underlying meanings behind what she had just said but I couldn't see through her. She was blocking me.

I slammed my hands on the steering wheel and she jumped a bit, startled.

“Fine.”

“I do not mean to hurt…”

“It’s fine.” I feigned a smile and she nodded before stepping out of the car.

Without watching her walk into her place, I zoomed off.

I stared in the rearview and watched her standing, staring at my car as I drove off and then she walked back inside.

I had no idea what feeling was rushing through me but I hope it wasn’t anger. I was in no place to be mad at her but I couldn’t help the feelings that were rushing through me.

My head felt as though it was spinning and my eyes felt like they were bulging out. I abruptly stepped on the brake, making a screeching sound.

I rested my head on the steering wheel before angrily slamming my hands on it repeatedly.

I hate being rejected. I was used to having things go my way and in a long time, I hadn’t felt like this but the thought of her resumed the feeling of anger I was feeling.

My mind juggled back to how miserable I felt throughout those days I didn’t get a response from her. I thought about how bad my day was today. How hard it was for me and how I couldn't help but think of her.

“Fuck!”

The thought of my lips encapsulating hers consumed my thoughts.

“Fuck! Fuck!” I yelled, hitting the steering wheel angrily and I ruffled my hair out of frustration.

I know this feeling! I fucking know this feeling I was feeling right now. I had felt it before in my previous relationships and the fact that I still had no control over it means I had no control over the result.

But I love Laura George!

Without thinking twice, I turned the car around and drove back to her. She had become my haven.

I knocked on the door and it took her a while to open the door. I had almost given up when the door jerked open.

Her hair was wet and she had a towel wrapped around her chest with the water from her hair dripping down her neck.

Oh, Lord!

I swallowed hard and watched the stunned look on her face.

“Adlan. I thought you drove…”

I couldn’t help it and before I could stop myself, I cut her off before claiming her lips.

I had been fighting my demons and with her, I doubt if I’d ever win.

We took a few steps away from the door and I shut it behind me.

She fought a bit, trying to push me back and break from the kiss but I tightened my grip around her. I pressed her against my chest but not allowing full force to take over me.

“Adla…” She stopped and wrapped her arms around me.

She gave me full permission as she opened her lips for me to take full control of her lips. She thrusted her tongue inside my mouth and I sucked on it. I sucked her lower lip, making a squelching sound.

I could feel my inside turn, my lower abdomen twisting as such, down to my cock.

There was something about her.

I grabbed her ass and fuck! They felt so soft. So soft that I felt my hands could tear through them.

“Fuck!” I moaned before breaking abruptly from the kiss.

I was breathing heavily, staring down at my feet as I tried to catch my breath. I looked up at her face and she looked confused.

“Uhmm… I know it was stupid of me to have spoken the way I did earlier. It’s insane. Crazy! But I want to do it right.” I let out a hard breath, staring into her brown eyes. “Please, be my girlfriend.”

And without hesitation, she nodded.

“Yes! Yes, I’ll be your girlfriend!”