PIETRO
“Don Carusso!” Fazio, the Don of Serrano family welcomed me as soon as my head passed the archway of the church.My consigliere, stood behind me quietly, holding the gifts I bought for the two girls who were having their first communion today.In Italy first communions are celebrated with grandieur. In recent years it has been treated as important as weddings.Holy communions marks the person’s puberty, it is a great occasion and a good excuse to flaunt your power and riches to your friends especially as a mafia.It appears that I have arrived too early. There were few people sitting inside the church and aside from the Serrano family, I don’t see that the other families have arrived yet.Serrano kissed me on both cheeks, the Italian way of greeting each other. Then he gave my consigliere a firm handshake before pointing me to the place where I should seat.Fazio looked around, searching for something. His face lit up when his eyes landed on his beautiful wife, Concetta.With a smile on her face, Concetta graced us with her presence, bringing along her kids with her to greet us.Concetta gave birth to six children all in all, the youngest is still a baby, sleeping on Concetta’s arm.Despite giving birth six times, Concetta looked the same way that she had before she married Fazzio. She is still young, so her body did not change that drastically.I still remember when I attended their wedding. Concetta was just nineteen and Fazzio was thirty.I had least expectations about their marriage and I’m surprised to say that their marriage had flourished. The two had learned to love each other and they were blessed with six children.One by one, Fazzio’s children took my hand and reached it to their foreheads, giving me respect without being told by their parents.There was Alessandro, his eldest still twelve years old; Leandro, age 11; Sebastiano, age 10; Sefora, age 4; then the little baby named Oliviero.“Where is Nerea?” I asked Fazzio, looking surprised that I know one of his children’s names.The other Dons get their names jumbled up, and most of them doesn’t even have their names memorized.I know the names of his children and who’s oldest and youngest. I had memorized them including their age.After all, it is my mission to become the mafia’s downfall. The world needs reformation and the reformation starts by getting rid of them.“Nerea is having last fitting of her dress. Special occasions need special dress,” Concetta answered me.Fazzio wrapped an arm around her, hugging her close to him. The two is as sweet as ever even after many years.“Leuzzi’s granddaughter must be having the last fitting with her.”“No, Don Leuzzi is there but his son and granddaughter, haven’t seen them.”I looked at the place he pointed and sure enough, The Don of the Leuzzi family is there, the oldest Don among all the families. Despite being the oldest Don, Tiburzio Leuzzi could still walk on his feet without limping.His mind is still sharp that you couldn’t fool him with a few dollars. He is still as shrewd as ever, especially with multiplying money.“Carusso Ey!” Don Leuzzi noticed me staring at him, he walked towards me and I stood up to welcome him.He gave me a side hug and patted my back as I give him my best smile.“Your first grandchild is growing too fast. She just entered the mark of puberty,” I started the conversation to which he laughed.“I can’t believe that I’m celebrating my first grandchild’s holy communion. It feels like yesterday when we were celebrating her first christening.”“And soon we would be celebrating her wedding.”The smile on his face melted replaced with a sour look on his face. “One lucky bastard. Whoever wants to marry her must face my wrath first,” he scowled, taking my words too seriously.I doubt he would still be alive if that day comes. Seeing Tiburzio without tobacco on his left hand and brandy on his right hand is a rare sight.I admire the resilienceness of his body. Until now he is cancer free, he doesn’t even have any maintenance medication. L’erbe cattiva non muore mai (The bad grass never dies).“I think you already have a man for her in your mind,” Serrano joins in, his words made smoke come out of Tiburzio’s ears.I couldn’t help the snort that came out of me. Serrano have three sons, free for Lavinia to choose from.“Lavinia won’t marry any of your sons!” Tiburzio yelled, his annoyance brought humor to Fazzio Serrano.“Don’t worry, I raised my sons well, but it will still be better if we sign an agreement now. It would be better if you choose Lavinia’s husband now instead of waiting later. My three boys might fight for her, you know. It’s better if we secure their future for them.”“Stronzo rimbambito!” Leuzzi curses him, calling Serrano an Asshole and numbnuts. “Lavinia will marry someone she loves and I will still be alive when that happens so I can guide her with her future!”Serrano took his words lightheartedly. Cursing at one another is normal for us. We curse each other a lot when we are angry, but our businesses had made us thick skinned.Curse at us, shame on us, but don’t ever step on anyone’s toes or else rendere pan per focaccia (to give back bread for cake)Serrano has always been suggesting an arranged marriage with Leuzzi’s granddaughter to ensure the place of his eldest son, Alessandro as the future Don of his family.In the business, it’s common for the youngest brother to get so ambitious and covet the highest position in the business. It just so happpens, that it had happened recently.Eros Cassiano, the guy who had no right in the business is now the Don of Cassiano family, the third most powerful family in the five families.It is suspected that he killed his father and older brother to become the Don of the Cassiano family at an early age. However, there’s no evidence that points out he diid that.His father had a heart attack and was rushed to the hospital. Doctors said he still had chance to live, but he suspiciously died in the hospital a week after. Then he told us that his brother wasn’t interested in the business, but no one saw his brother after that.His brother just vanished and that usually meant that he’s in the ocean swimming with the fishes.Everyone knows in their mind that Eros Cassiano killed his own family to become the new Don, but no one says a word about it.Speaking of the devil, he is finally here looking as dashing as ever in his fine expensive suit. He walked near us when he saw us all bundled together.“Congrats Leuzzi, Congrats Serrano,” he gave them both a firm handshake as he joined us in the conversation.I couldn’t hear what they were saying when the woman I’ve been expecting finally entered the room.“Lucrezia!” My mind shouted her name when I saw her enter the church. She brushed her hair off her shoulder, putting it behind her as she walked right in like a model.My eyes trailed on her neck and on her exposed collarbone then my eyes dropped on her long legs. I gulped and tried to force myself to take my eyes off her, but my body seemed to have a mind on its own.It’s been years since I last saw her, and I did not expect that my body would react this way now that I saw her. It must be her dress. Yes, that must be it.Her dress is too sinfully revealing, that shouldn’t be allowed in church.“Rocchi’s here!” Leuzzi announced, his loud voice caught Raimondo Rocchi’s attention, including his daughters.Lucrezia’s eyes met mine, making me avert my gaze and turn back my attention to the men in front of me. My heart raced inside my chest at the simple eye contact that we made.“Bellissima!” Eros complimented and took Lucrezia’s slender hand in his, placing a light kiss on her fingers.Lucrezia smiled warmly at him, my heart fluttered at her smile as if it was meant for me. “Grazie,” she muttered in strong Italian and heat flushed inside of me.She still had that effect on me.I’ve never heard anyone speak Italian the way Lucrezia speaks it. Her voice is strong, her tongue rolling it off easily, Italian sounded seductive with her voice.When she speaks Italian, I always react to it like an animal. I hated it. I hated that she has that kind of power over me.Lucrezia glanced at me, openly welcoming my gaze. I stared at her alluring eyes, until now I still couldn’t tell what color they are. Sometimes it’s blue, sometimes it looks gray, sometimes a mixture of both.I’m not color blind, but her eyes is a new color that hasn’t been discovered yet. Her eyes is a treasure chest filled with mystery, you couldn’t get enough of.She smiled, that wicked knowing smile, and before I expose myself to her I spoke, “Is it not gonna start yet?”Everyone turned quiet at my question, not realizing that I just interrupted them from their close conversation.Damn you Lucrezia!“My granddaughter hasn’t even arrived yet, you want me to start the event without my granddaughter?!” Tiburzio Leuzzi snapped at me.On cue, her granddaughter finally arrived, her hand on his father, Orenzio, Tiburzio’s son.“Amorino! You look fantastic like a spose bambini,” Tiburzio had forgotten about his anger when his granddaughter arrived in a white floral dress,” Lavinnia smiled at her grandfather, giving him a toothy grin.“Papa, let her be. You can cuddle her later,” Orenzio stopped her father from tearing up at the sight of his granddaughter. He looked at his son sharply like he wanted to kill him.Papi is the Italian way of calling your father, but papi sounded like the “puppy” in English, which would be an insult for a Don.“Looks like its about to start, we should go on our seats,” Serrano informed us, dispersing the little crowd that we made.Finally, I could breath again and think more clearly now that Lucrezia is leaving. However, as if fate is playing a cruel joke, her seat is just right in front of mine where I will have the full view of the back of her head.In the whole ceremony, I couldn’t focus on anything but her. We are sitting just beside the wall, so no one could really notice us.While everyone is so focus at the ceremony, Lucrezia took her chances, giving slight glances to me as I pretend that I did not notice.She sat beside her sister, while her father is sitting with the other Dons.“Vaffanculo! (Fuck)” Lucrezia curses in a whisper when she dropped something.I clenched my jaw tightly when I heard her curse. We are at the church and she’s cursing out loud, as if her dress is not bad enough already.“Don Carusso, keep it down.” My thoughts were interrupted when Pericle Laurenti, my consigliere spoke softly beside me.My brows furrowed, thinking what the hell is he is warning me about, until I looked down and saw a bulge between my legs.Fuck you too, Lucrezia.I might have worn decent clothes and kept my mouth clean, but lusting on someone else is also a grave sin… and in church at that.Lucrezia will be the reason I’ll go to hell. I think that’s a good reason too.LUCREZIA The ceremony did not last long, only enough to bore me. By the time we were done, my stomach is already growling in hunger. After the ceremony, we still stayed behind the church to talk to the priest of the ceremony instead of proceeding to the reception. I had no choice but to pretend that I’m okay, smiling at everyone despite the protest in my stomach. “How is our church donation doing, padre?” My father asked the priest who smiled at him. “Thank you for your kind donation, we are able to build two churches and reach more people. The churches are not fully constructed yet, but with your money it will be constructed soon.” My stomach turned at what I’m seeing and suddenly I wasn’t hungry anymore. It’s awful how my father gain those money and how he’s donating that dirty money to the church. I stared at the countless lifeless eyes staring at us from the wall. Handmade figures of saints that were regarded as gods even though they are not. “Padre, please pray for me and p
LUCREZIA “You don’t want to marry me because you don’t have feelings for me?” I asked him before he could step out of the door and before father could say anything else and defend me on my behalf. “Al cuore non si comanda.” (the heart wants what it wants) He replied, using my words against me. “Then you’re a fool, Don Carusso,” I didn’t mind the people listening to our conversation anymore. All I could feel is anger and all I want is to give him a taste of his own medicine. “I graduated law with Latin honors. I’ve been trained in the business, exposed to the business since I was little. I would be more than just a wife to you, I will be your asset.” I sounded so desperate, but nonetheless I was saying the truth. Only a fool would turn down a marriage proposal from me. Pietro turned around, fully facing me. “Are you looking down on my power and my influence? I don’t need you to become more powerful. I don’t need more assets. Don’t let your feet float off the ground. I don’t need yo
PIETRO My ears felt like it’s going to bleed. The music is too loud, everyone is having a conversation with one another which only adds to the noise, and there were also people who have turned drunk enough that they shout at their every word. This is why I hate parties. We are celebrating a seven year old’s holy communion, and yet this party doesn’t feel holy at all. I guess this is what the mafias are good at, to make holy things unholy. Everyone clapped as Leuzzi’s granddaughter and Serrano’s daughter released a dove to the air. It is an important Italian custom when celebrating the holy communion. Next would be the opening of the gifts and finally after that I can leave the party. If only it wouldn’t offend anyone, I would have left after what had transpired between me and Lucrezia at the secluded part of the venue. I don’t think I can last more in the same place with her. “I had given the gifts,” Pericle Laurenti whispered to my ear as the clapping of the crowd died down. I
LUCREZIA“Where are you going that you don’t want father to know about it?” Letizia asked me, her brows are winkled together and her fingers has been constantly rubbing the tendrils of her hair. It is a habit that she and I share when we are worried.“I’m going out to find myself a husband.” Her eyes widened and she shot up to her feet. “Sorella!” She exclaimed which made me laugh.“I’m just playing with you. You look so worried as if I’m a teenager that cannot protect myself. Don’t worry, no one would dare to try harm a Rocchi,” I assured her as I look at her through the mirror.“You are not going to a nightclub, are you?” She asked me, my words still did not ease her worries. “I’m going somewhere with someone who will protect me.”“Why don’t you just tell me where you’re going?”I sighed at his incessant words. “Letizia, I only called you here to help me with my dress because I trust that you won’t tell anyone that I’m leaving. Now don’t ask me questions that you know I won’t answ
PIETROI couldn’t hide my amusement when Lucrezia glared at me. I did not even bother to open the car door for her earlier, yet she still expected that I’ll pull out a chair for her? She’s only adding disappointments to herself.Lucrezia sat on her seat angrily. I thought she’s going to call me Stronzo again or call me other words. She looked pissed and I’m just waiting for her to lash out on me but she didn’t.Instead, she placed her attention around her other than me to fully take in the place that I reserved only for the both of us.Her eyes traveled from the empty chairs, the decorated walls and the chandeliers hanging from the high ceiling. I noticed the way her mouth twitched slightly as if something had unnerved her.I quietly observed her as she wrapped a hand around her neck and pulled the skirt of her dress underneath the table.The dress she’s wearing makes her look out of place, like a stranger who just bumped into this place. I knew she would wear such dress so I specifi
LUCREZIAI smiled as I watched how his jaw twitched lightly and shuddered under my touch as if electricity is coursing through my fingers. I looked into his eyes that has swirls of desire within them.“Oh Pietro, I am not the only one who is attracted to you. You are attracted to me too?” I thought to myself, relieved to find out that this wasn’t one-sided after all.My eyes dropped to his tender lips. They look plump and soft, tempting me. Before my thoughts could grow dark, Pietro held me by the wrist and pulled my hand away from his touch.My eyes landed back to his eyes again as I look at him in surprise. The swirls of desire in his eyes are gone now. He gave me an icy stare, a look void of any emotion. He looked terrifying and angry.What happened? Why is he like this all of a sudden? Just seconds ago he liked what I was doing, he was even reacting to my touch.Pietro harshly pushed my hand away making my arms swing back to my side. I winced and held my shoulder because of how st
PIETRO“How dare you?! Are you not a part of the mafia as well? Are you not the Don of the Carusso family? If you think I’m disgusting then what that makes you, Carusso?”I stopped on my tracks. My heart twisted at her words, not because of her provocation, but because of how she uttered those words with a sob threatening to leave her lips.I raised my head, but did not look back. I’m afraid that my mask would fail me if I saw her teary face, knowing very well that it was I who caused them. I nearly failed to hold my facade earlier, which is why I turned to leave before my efforts of making her hate me would only result to nothing.With eyes blank of emotion, I swallowed back the answer I have for her question. “I’m different Lucrezia. I may be a part of the mafia, I may be the Don of the Carusso, but I’m more than that. I will be the bigger monster than them. I’m going to swallow them whole. I will break down the five families. I will be the biggest asshole any mankind has ever seen
LUCREZIA~~~When the stars make you drool just like a pasta e fasul That’s AmoreWhen you dance down the street with a cloud at your feetYou’re in loveWhen you walk in a dream but you know you’re not dreaming signoreScusami, but you see, back in old NapoliThat’s Amore~~~My father’s favorite song played loudly inside the mansion that I could even hear it’s slightly muffled sound inside my room.As if the music player knows about my aching heart, it played a song about love on queue.I feel like there is a heavy brick placed upon me as I lie on my bed, my body tangled in bedsheets, my arms opened wide, flatly placed on the bed as I stared at the empty ceiling above me as if it is the most interesting thing I’ve ever seen. I laid there on emptiness as the void in my heart continues to sip the happiness in me. I feel empty. I no longer dance down the street with a cloud at my feet as the song sings because I’ve lost my Amore. I’m no longer dreaming because I’ve lost my love.And t
“Shit! Shit! Shit! You imbeciles! I’m paying you money and you can’t even kill one damn man!” Eros was agitated and he couldn’t stop yelling while staring at his computer. He had cameras all over his mansion so he could see everything that was happening. Eros had never seen Pietro fought anyone before. He didn’t expect him to be this good. He is like James Bond, taking down so many people at a time. Eros is not fully aware of Pietro’s past. He has no idea about the training that he got as a little child. Pietro was trained to be like a killer machine. His training could be likened to that of Black Widow, if only that character was real. Eros kept sending and sending all his people, but Pietro killed all the men trying to stop him from reaching his wife until Eros had no one else to send and stop Pietro anymore. Lucrezia had no access to the computer, but she witnessed how Eros was scared out of his wits as he watched what Pietro is doing to his men. Lucrezia could also fully hear
Lucrezia’s stomach turned. Even though they are criminals and big time mafias, they still have their own principles and things that they couldn’t bring themselves to do.Eros is just pure evil, a monster.He is a disgrace to the mafias. What kind of man could say those words with a straight face.“What does these things have to do with my father? What does it have to do with Pietro? Why do you have to kill him?” Lucrezia asks.“You see, your father and I share the same goal. We want to be the best in the Commission and Pietro is an obstacle stopping us from reaching that goal.Lucrezia felt more guilty upon hearing this. She thought Pietro was the one who was greedy. She thought he was the one trying to become the next capo di tutti capi.“If that is so, then why spare me? Why spare my father? I’m Pietro’s wife. Why not kill me with him?”“Because your father and I had a deal.” Eros answers taking Lucrezia by surprise.“A deal?” Lucrezia mutters breathlessly feeling like she just disco
“Vaffanculo! Vaffanculo!” Lucrezia curses repeatedly inside her car as she drove along with other Italian curses that she grew up hearing from their Italian helpers at home. Lucrezia pressed on the gas pedal, speeding at the almost empty highway at dawn to reach her husband at home who has no idea that his life is in danger. She shouldn’t ave gone to her home. She shouldn’t have told her father anything. She shouldn’t have stuck her nose where it doesn’t belong in the first place. She shouldn’t have opened the door to Pietro’s office and indulged herself in the secrets that he was hiding. No wonder why Pietro is keeping things from her. Just hours after she found out his secret and she had already placed Pietro’s life in danger. Lucrezia had no idea that her father is working with Eros Cassiano to get rid of Pietro. She should have known that in the mafia, everybody has their own dark secrets and hidden agendas to hide. The fact that Pietro has one, shouldn’t have surprised her an
Raimondo was silent for a long time as he listened to his daughter as she confides into him about Pietro’s secret. Raimondo earnestly listened without questioning her daughter’s words or interrupting her. Raimondo just stared into her daughter’s eyes as she went on with her story as if he was listening to her because he was worried about her. Lucrezia is supposed to tell her father about what Pietro’s secrets that she had just found about, the secrets that she discovered in Pietro’s office, but she changed her mind last minute because she thought it was a very important secret and it could implicate Pietro’s life, so she couldn’t rashly share those things to her father. Additionally, Lucrezia knows that her father would react negatively if he founds out bout that. Even she reacted so negatively when she finds out that her husband is planning something against the Commission. Unless she had ensured everything, unless she had everything straight with Pietro, nobody can find out abou
PIETRO woke up because of his nightmare. For the first time, ever since he slept in the same bed as his wife, he woke up with the same dream, the same nightmare again.Ever since Pietro was a child, there wasn’t a night when he had not woken up haunted by nightmares. He always dreamed of the same thing, the friend that he killed. Every night, he would jolt up awake and the last thing he could remember was the picture of him pulling the trigger and killing his friend. His dream is very vivid like it all happened again. It was always exactly how he remembered it happen. Saying that Pietro was traumatized would be an understatement. Pietro was broken by his past, and only Lucrezia was able to piece him together. Through the love and kindness that she showed him, Pietro was able to forgive himself and see his value. Pietro calmly sits up, his breathing was rash and heavy like he had just ran a marathon. When his racing heart had finally slowed down, he opens the light beside him caus
It’s already evening when I arrived home which means Pietro must be waiting for me at home. I wasn’t planning to stay outside until evening, but I had to travel between two different cities because Agrippa’s house and the place where I am going to get the key are located at two opposite cities. I wore a huge smile on my face as if I had the best day of my life as soon as I entered home. Just as I am expecting, Pietro is waiting for me at the living room just like how I always wait at the living room for him to welcome him home. Pietro’s eyes dropped on the shopping bags I’m carrying as soon as I entered the door. Seeing this, he did not dare ask where I went. He just assumed that I went for a shopping spree. On the way home, I stopped at a mall and shopped random things so that Pietro would think I spent the whole day at the mall. “You had a great day?” Pietro asked me as he walked towards me.I grinned at him. “I bought everything that I wanted.”“Good, you own all my money. You
Agrippa sighed at the other side of the door, the loudest that I have ever heard her sigh. She knew that there is no way I’d leave this place. Even though my foot is hurting, jammed and pressed at the foot of their door, I wasn’t willing to remove my foot and let her go.No, I won’t leave this place, not until I find out everything that is happening, and not until I have given all the help that I could give her. No one deserves to be abused like that. No woman or no wife should live in the same house with her husband abusing her. My face softened and my heart ached inside my heart when Agrippa finally opened the door, revealing her inside. Agrippa refused to look at me on the eye. Her head is lowered in shame even though she had nothing to be ashamed about. I swallowed hard, not saying anything. You wouldn’t know what to say once you saw a hurt person in front of you. I’m afraid that if I say something it will only make Agrippa close herself from me even more. Asking her if she’s
LUCREZIALife was back to normal when Pietro had arrived back home. Our life routine is back, and things got pretty boring for me once again as a wife who is always left at home without anything to take care of.If only Pietro gave me kids to take care of, then I wouldn’t have to feel so bored and I would stay all day at home without any complaints.I have sent Agrippa a message that I would visit her today. Although I haven’t received any reply from the heads up message I sent her, I decided to still just go. At least I have given her a heads up. Wheteher she replies or not it’s actually out of my control.With the help of Pietro’s driver and bodyguard that he had hired specially for me. I went to the mall first to buy something for Agrippa and her three little kids.I do not want to go there empty handed. Besides, I rarely go to their house to visit and I don’t give gifts to Agrippa’s kids often. 
LUCREZIAI stared at the ceiling as I lay on the bed with my eyes wide open as Pietro softly snores beside me. While Pietro is having the best sleep of his life, I couldn’t sleep because of I couldn’t stop thinking about the conversation we had in the car.For some reasons, Pietro’s words doesn’t sit well with me. I really don’t believe that Orenzio is the man behind all of this. I don’t think it’s possible that Orenzio knew about his father’s disease beforehand and that he was the one who told Serrano about it.I couldn’t forget the surprised look on Orenzio’s face and the anger that he felt as Serano stood on the stage making accusations against his father and telling everyone that he was hiding his dementia.Even if that was all just an act, I don’t believe that Orenzio could pull all that off so perfectly. A person always leaves a hint when he lies, and his eyes always tells