Chapter Nine

Carden P.o.v

I was now pacing in my room. I ripped the guards head off right in front of her. She looked so confused. I can't believe he touched her twice just like she was anybody else. He was raised better than that!

The two of them made me so mad almost trampled her that very morning. I knew if I went to see her she'd have hateful words for me but I needed to see her. I found myself at her door. Adrian opened it and gestured for me to come in. I was really starting to loathe Adrian but the more I saw him with Blair-Boo the more I decided he was good for her being a mute along with her. They seemed to talk thought their minds.

"What the hell did that doctor rig into that brace she woke up screaming to take it off?" Sarin said from the couch.

"It's an antibiotic for the transformed werewolf bodies. Werewolves have been known to be in large part killers of in-betweens. That coven you killed used it to coat their weapons. She's younger so it acts fast. The brace works to keep her from puking up everything in her stomach and the injections are on a timer to fight off the foreign bodies." Sarin looked from Blair-Boo to me.

"Why did you have to kill him?" Sarin's eyes held hatred for me. I've seen that in his eyes since the day I last saw Belladonna.

"It was better than killing my half brother." I really didn't have any other answers. I went and laid with Blair-Boo. I heard the injection go off this time she just turned away from me.

"Why wasn't Trax aware of us being in-betweens then?" Sarin flipped through the channels.

"I knew he was coming. I just didn't know when he'd arrive. It's a sensitive subject when I tell him that he can't go around touching people. I was only informed of his arrival on my way to see Blair-Boo make plans for tomorrow." I ran my fingers through her hair.

"What did you want to do?" Sarin said giving up on something to watch. Coming to the end of the bed, "Was it going to start really making things up to her?" His words cut into me.

"It will just have to wait until she's better. It was going to be a trip for just the three of us," I saw the look in Sarin's eyes asking where "it's a surprise. I have things to take care of with the community board." I got up and left. Sarin took the spot I was in looking over Blair-Boo before heading off to sleep himself. Adrian was holding the door for me. I gave him a nod bye and left.

"Why are you being such a monster I thought you wanted to change that." Blake was sitting in one of the chairs opposite of mine. I sat down.

"I thought I had changed. I hate myself because every time I look at her I know that I caused her to be in that pain. That I've given into the monster I've always been. Don't you just sit over there acting like you're so much better than me? You've killed about the same if not more than me." My body felt as weak as Blair-Boo looked though I wouldn't let any of them know especially those brothers of hers.

"I wasn't saying I was any better than you but I'm sure as hell not going around ripping guards heads off just because Trax was clueless to the fact that they're in-between." Blake's supernova eyes let off an explosion. She's livid with me. "He's never been around them because all this time you had him chasing after Sarin!"

"I really don't care what you do to me because I've already done the worst to myself." She nodded and went to the door stopping before she opened it.

"You really have done the worst to yourself. I just hope you get back on track to keep your girl this time. The community is watching more now than in the past. Get your shit together or I'll have to it and it won't be pretty." She left the door slamming shut behind her.

"Trax is a weapon of many uses. Our father saw to him being born for our use, sister." I said to myself.

Blair-Boo P.o.v

I woke to an empty room, I slowly got ready for the day. It took three hours by myself. I walked until the stairs I sat down and slowly moved down to the bottom.

I heard the noise for the first time today outside at the front entrance. The blood pool on the floor was gone like it was never there. I walked out to be caught by Carden pulling me up to him in one arm.

"Watch," Carden said pointing to the big gravel driveway.

In the middle were a circus being put on with dangerous animals and toying handlers. I really didn't want anything to do with this cruel act going on. I only wanted my soup and my book in the sunroom. I kicked my legs down. Carden just held onto me tighter. I kicked harder and hit his chest.

I was placed down only then and I stormed off. "I told you this wasn't a good idea." I heard Blake say with Trax, Adrian, and Sarin in tow. Carden came in to defend himself.

"It's supposed to be fun and a surprise," Carden replied back "I didn't want a long car ride for you to see the show. So I brought it here."

"I told you how she'd react and you did it anyway." Blake's eyes gave off an explosion and Carden backed off and went back outside.

Sarin picked me up and took me to the kitchen to have my soup. Adrian handed over my book. I was happy now, I had the things I wanted for the day.

"I'm so sorry I hurt you Blair-Boo," Trax said timidly as he sat down beside me he was wearing gloves. I places my hand on his and gave him a smile and a thumbs up.

"She's mute thanks to Carden. That was your forgiven now smile because I'm great." Sarin said not holding back the hatred he had for Carden. I gave him a sidelong look of really you have that tone. I wasn't happy with Carden but he is our beloved.

"I see," he was quiet for a moment and then gave his big smile again "I'm Trax at your service." I took his gloved hand and kissed it.

Once I was done eating and reading we went to a private living room. It had Carden's smell all over it.

"Why are we here his smell it is all over it in the grossest way," I asked Sarin

"Blake's livid with him and has locked him out of the room with the help of a witch. Were taking his sitting room hostage until it smells of us all. Maybe for as long as we feel."

"It makes me uncomfortable. I wanted to get away from him not sit in a room that smells of him." I refused to sit that Adrian just held me where he stood. Everyone just chatted about whatever small things were on their minds.

"I'm not to heavy for you am I?" I asked Adrian looking up at him. He was starting to look more like a person than something in a closet withering away.

"No I'm a full vampire and I'm getting a higher dosage of the injections since I'm with you two. Though I can put you down if you'd like to seat?" I could tell that his mind was getting stronger by the way his voice had slightly changed. I shook my head and gave him a smile in response to his question.

"Can I take her?" Sarin asked 

Adrian looked down at me and I nodded and so he handed me off to Sarin. Sarin took me to a table were Trax was sitting.

"Sarin said that you and that guy are mute and you communicate through a bite you gave him?" I nodded "Could you do that to me?" I looked at Sarin with deep questioning eyes.

"He has so many foreign bodies on him that would only make me sick again. Is there really a way to get around that so I can talk to him?" I could see his brain working out the scenarios to see if we could even try in his eyes.

I felt a burning of my tattoos as I was sitting. I ignored it until I looked to see that Sarin's tattoos were glowing the red that I had met him with. He took off Trax's gloves handed me his right hand and took his lift biting the palm at the base of the thumb I did the same. Trax gave an earth-shattering scream as we let go.

Blake looked over to see what we were doing and turned to shove Adrian out of the room. Leaving Trax to scream his head off in agony.

"It'll pass soon, Trax." I gave him a small smile as I put his gloves back on. Our tattoos subsided but it still itches a great deal. He passed out for a few moments afterward.

"I heard you!" Trax shot up picking me up swirling me around then bringing me close to his body in one whole smooth motion.

"Yes," I mentally giggled "you'll hear a lot from me now. That's what you wanted after all." I giggled some more as he smiled sitting me down. He looked me over making sure I wasn't injured seeing my still glow subsiding tattoos.

"May I see them?" Trax asked holding my ankles in his gloved hands. I gave a nod.

"They're just like Sarin's only prettier and easier to hide," I told him as he rolled up my loses pant legs into shorts. Sarin gave a laugh remembering when I'd walk him into walls and trip him over things to sell the whole blind thing because his whole face would be covered in a scarf to hide his tattoos. I laughed inside my head as hard as he was.

"What's so funny?" Trax asked looking between us.

"It's just back before Blair-Boo was reincarnated she was Belladonna. When we went into town I'd have to pretend to be blind to cover up my tattoos that we were born with. While in town she would walk me into walls and trip me using the things in the street to sell that I was blind. She was only able to do that to me because I was always closing my eyes to selling the whole being blind. The only time I wouldn't have them closed was in a bad part of town so I could keep her safe." Sarin explained. "We should really get going back to the room. I'm glad it worked with little to no pain for all parties involved. Though it's quite draining to use our whole self being that Blair-Boo is so weak." He kissed my head as I got comfortable in Sarin's arms and soon was asleep.

Trax's P.o.v.

It had only been an hour since the two of them bite me. The wounds had yet to heal at all. I was going to go get to the doc to look at them in another hour if they didn't heal. It wasn't as if they had drunk from me. Carden had done that once and his marks on me didn't stay on me more than a second.

I looked out the window from the guest house to their room. I could hear her talking inside my head,

"Sarin they burn still."

"Let's go take a cold shower. I hope Trax is faring okay. The way we bite him was the only way to both establish the link and fight off his foreign bodies at the same time."

"I hope so too, Trax is so kind and happy. I'd hate myself if something we did was to hurt him."

I had hurt her once already and now because I wanted to be able to talk with her. I was hurting her yet again and this time Sarin. My foreign bodies all over me like tiny little tanks of death were always there. When I was younger I had scrubbed my skin raw in the bath trying to get them off of me. Father had found me in layers and layers of my own skin and blood. The tub was overflowing with it.

"...Sarin why...why is it that after everything I still feel like my life is a lie?"

"I really think it had to do with you being reincarnated. Belladonna knew that Carden wouldn't be able to make it after we had last settled. We were as close as we could be to him, he took his god damn sweet time about getting there too. I hate that I didn't die with you Blair-Boo I hate it so much then we would've to know peace."

"Do you think Carden would've lived on without us if that coven had killed us both." Her voice seemed to change to an older level along with Sarin's voice.

"Yes, he would've been able to live. I was left alive and he for the most part flat out denied that I existed. In truth, I was nothing without you, Belladonna, but he didn't even want me that night. He didn't let us grieve you together, he didn't change the law right then and there, he just left me with a dead you. I went to the cachet and buried you were only I'd know where you where that Carden would never lay eyes on you again."

"The really pretty cachet, Sarin?" Her voice still had that old soul sound to it.

"Yes, that one," Sarin's voice was sad "go to sleep you need it more than ever."

It was quite inside my brain after that. Had I been connected to them? I sat on the foot of my bed and laid back taking off the gloves to see the marks had healed on both hands. I undressed all the way and crawled into bed.

Blake woke me pulling me off the bed from my ankles. I landed on the tip of my tailbone.

"Really, Blake do you really need to wake me that way!?"

"Get dressed we're going to the sitting-room again," She slapped my head lightly "and yes it brings me minimal joy to see you in minimal pain." Her eyes gave a twinkle in several places.

"I'll be there now leave!" I throw a pillow at her head as she left the studio. I got dressed and went to the room.

"Adrian," Blair-Boo was laughing "you don't look good at all in that pose." I walked into the room to see Adrian doing some kind of charades. It was wired being in the same room with her. Hearing her sweet young voice but not seeing her say anything.

"Sarin, can I talk with you privately as we can?"

"Sure," we walked over to an unused corner of the room to converse "what is it?"

"Last night I heard your conversations until you told Blair-Boo to go to sleep and I could hear her conversation with Adrian. I don't understand, Sarin." His face looked like I'd stabbed him.

"You speak nothing of this to anyone else not even to Blair. Carden said you're part werewolf right?" I gave a small nod. Sarin walked back and forth a little.

"Are you part of a pack?"

"No, my father took my mother away from her pack for ten or so months and made her have me. Raise me until I was strong enough not to need her anymore and let her go back to her pack. I don't have a pack. I have my half-sibling now. Carden fought with his father for a ruler and killed him. Soon after my mother died."

"By biting you we became part of your pack. I don't think you'd need those gloves with us anymore."

I hesitated to even take them off Blair didn't have the collar anymore. Apart of me wanted to see if what Sarin said was true but I was in hot water with Carden as it was.

"Sarin, I'm hungry. I want to go outside and play." she seemed so much stronger than when I had touched her. I knew her body was still getting over the incident with Sarin and Carden's fight. She'd have to live with the results for several years. Do I slip a touch just to test Sarin's thinking-

"What the fuck are you bitching on and on about this time? I can't believe I'm stuck in here all the damn time ignored while he just fucks up both our lives. I can't believe she's our mate and we can't even have her because she doesn't feel that way to us..."

"Who are you? What do you mean mate?" Inside my mind, I saw a large red wolf step out in front of me.

"I'm your wolf, Fallon. That fragile thing is our mate, beloved, whatever you want to call the one that completes us."

"I can't she's Carden's mate. The other big glaring problem is that she's an in-between! If Sarin isn't right then I hurt her again or this time even kill her." Fallon just tilted his head at me. Looking at her through my eyes, my body felt such strong urges to just fuck her there at the table. I found myself walking towards her.

"We can't Carden would kill us. If not him then her flat out rejection of us." We stopped in our tracks. I sat down beside Sarin with a smile starting to read a book that Blair-Boo had been reading, By These Ten Bones, By Clare B. Dunkle.

"Would this book be about us or would Vampire Diaries fit better. We are a hybrid after all. A forced into existence, freak of nature."

"I'm starting to hate you being in my head. Do you always make comments on everything I do?" There was no reply as Blair-Boo had laid her hand on my neck. Skin to skin contact happening. I looked behind me to see her pointing at her book. I'd finished it was just staring at the cover of the boy's hair waving in the wind and what could be imagined as his face behind the title of the book. I handed it to her.

"Thanks, I love this book. Adrian said he left it last night but wouldn't leave the room without me to get it." She walked off sharing a look with Adrian that just has a non-readable look. I felt Fallon was jealous of that look she gave him of fellow relationship or commitment in some strong feeling.

I knew they were mute, that Sarin faired better and Blair came out broken and they both hated Carden even more than before. I knew that I was trained as a weapon but as this weapon, I had many uses and I was going to use them for Blair-Boo over Carden any day.

"For fucks final sake. I'm glad we agree on that. I loath Carden, I loathe that we have to breathe the air he walks through. I'm glad I can leave my sent all over this room. He really pissed off Blake if she took his playroom away."

"The playroom where he fucks the blood whores?" Fallon was before me in our mind's eye. "It's why she didn't like the smell in here the first day. This smell was getting rid of is the smell of his deep flung spunk. It's why she clung to Adrian smelling the room in disguise." We looked at them as they waved goodbye. Blair was fine.

"You've been quiet, Trax. Have you finally meet your wolf." My eyes widened she knew of Fallon this whole time. He's in my head and Blake knew! "I've known since you came to stay with us. He was the one that got you in trouble with father when you were still very young. It got so bad he sent you to the witched for training. That was just a cover to conceal Fallon in the back of your head. If he's finally out things are going to be great interesting fun!" Blake left with a skip in her step. Blake really loved to keep all the knowledge to herself.

It seemed like I couldn't get to my room fast enough. My skin burned, I felt like I wanted to rip my father's head off his corpse just to show my displeasure in his handling of me from the very beginning. Carden was in my room looking across the way at their room. I was so close to turning that angry on him.

"You smell of my room, Blake still won't talk to me. However, you smell more and more like my beloveds have been all over you. I want to know one thing have you had sex with them?"

"No, I read a book she had. By These Ten Bones, it's a very good book. I'm sure Adrian smells of them too he lives in the same room as them. Not as big as the room you fuck the blood whores in. That smell takes three good days cleanings of our smells to get out." I saw anger flash over his eyes.

"Don't you speak of Adrian or those blood whores I've fucked every again." His voice was an eerie calm. "Moreover I don't want to see you talking to Blair-Boo about anything, not even the weather."

"Even if I don't talk to her there's no stopping her from talking to me or even wanting to be around me. They are their own people Carden. I'd watch that temper more if I were you; don't want to piss them off more than you have already. Poor Blair, I wonder what her voice will sound like after it's healed. Will she even want to talk with it once she can?" With that, he was in my face though Blake marching into interfering. She dragged Carden out by his ear in one hand and his long dark hair in the other. I felt a twinge of sadness as I wasn't able to fight with Carden. Thought I never know it could've ended as bad as Blair-Boo.

Blair-Boo P.o.v.

It had been at least three months since we had been here. Sarin had been healing me through our past life together I could play outside, I went out into town. Sarin, Blake, Adrian, and Trax always went with me. Carden was still on Blake's shit list for one thing or another we had made the room over two times before we all agreed on the setup. Carden was begging for the room back.

I was in the hall that day when they had that fight it went down something to the effect of, "I want my room back!" Carden was giving off another worldly growl

"It's our room now that we got all your decades of sex smell out of it. It will remain our room as long as Sarin and Blair-Boo want nothing to do with you or at the very least are willing to tolerate you!" She was seething, growling she pushed him up against a wall and left.

I left feeling weak. Trax carried me back to my room. The fight happened two days ago. My brain was on the fight the whole time. He wasn't just keeping up with the way sex was perceived he was having sex to go at it. He used people like dear Adrian in the most disresperful way. I couldn't keep it inside me anymore the burning question.

" Adrian, did Carden make you a blood whore? If it wasn't you did he make the others?" Adrian came closer to where I sat on the couch with Sarin. He held my hand while he answered, "I was rejected by my beloved he then had his friends rape me till I rejected him back. By then I was already a whore. Here there are two groups the whores that are a step up from the blood whores. I'm not sure if they throw themselves at Carden or if he had fun taking them for everything they had. The whores all become blood whores at one point. We have a guest that wants only to drink from us until we're almost dead."

"Carden lets them do that!" If I wasn't already livid I was more so. I felt every fiber in my body was screaming to not ever be left alone with him. He was getting sneaky in wich his outburst or anger. Trax said he was getting more agitated.

"It's one of those things that our community doesn't talk about. Blair-Boo, just be happy today." He went back to standing near the door. Trax seemed to be always watching me. I'd asked him that day why he was coming down that hall.

"I wanted to keep an eye on you. The people that work here avoid you. My family however don't avoid you. Carden even has hurt you." Trax had been watching me even before that day. I could see it in his eyes they had this sad look.

Sarin has told me that because of the bite he could touch me without his gloves. Trax's touch was warm and welcoming in this most unexpected way. I was going to have a good day it would have to be with Trax and Sarin outside in the sun.

"Come outside with Sarin and me to play a game." I got up grabbing those warm hands dragging him to the door. He didn't fight me as we went outside with Sarin behind us. Adrian went back to the room. He had been getting more injections but even with sunscreen he still sunburned.

"I want to play tag!" I said as we came out to the back of the house.

"Let's not wear you out. Let's just sit here and watch the sky." Trax said sitting down in the shade.

"There's no stopping her when she's set her mind to something." Sarin said hanging his arms over my shoulders.

Trax stood up, "So who is going to be first in this game of tag?" They both had this look and bolted around the yard away from me.

"Oh, I see. That's rude!" He went running after Sarin.  He was so close to touching him but his fingertips barely missed him so he went after me. I was too quick using the whole self with Sarin. Soon I was being picked up, "Cheating isn't fair."

"It isn't cheating when it's what you're born with. Besides you need to go get Sarin and he killed the Coven of In between killers so he's super fast."

"Sarin was doing that?" I nodded as he sat me down. "Sarin you were the one that was killing that coven?"

They both stopped running around, "Yes, they killed Belladonna. Carden wouldn't even take me with him. So I went on my revenge stage of life. Blair-Boo had her reincarnation but still has her own life experiences. She's not all Belladonna. She's still an in-between that's been living without her complete self."

"I was sent to you to find you. I'd been on your tail forever you were always ten steps ahead of us. You're really the one that was killing the coven? How did you do it?"

"I had a coven of witches help me in locating them. Then I killed them just like how you would kill a vampire." Sarin came and scooped me up and sat with me in the shade.

"So that's why I was brought back home. Blake said I didn't need to be out looking anymore because you came here to be with Blair-Boo." Trax sat down with us playing with my hair. It had gotten quite long since I'd been on a blood diet. I didn't mind as long as it wasn't pulled by things.

"Your hair is so soft," Trax mumbled it sounded deeper than his usual self. I gave a warm smile to both of them.

  Carden came out of the back door to see the three of us seated together, "Blake finally told me where you were. I'd like to talk with you alone." Carden kicked at some lose rocks as he talked.

  "I don't want to go anywhere with you. I definitely don't want to be alone with you." Carden's eyes flashed with anger and then sadness.

 "I understand...would you at least talk to me if we're over there and they can see you?" Carden pointed to a bench near a derelict garden.

  "I see no reason to refuse that reasoning." I got up after Sarin gave me a sweet small kiss on the forehead. I walked slowly over to Carden that held out his arm. I refused it continuing to the bench. Closer to the garden it smelled like death. I gagged a bit causing me to hyperventilate.

  "I just want to know if you're ever going to truly forgive me. Do you think you could ever mate with me?" His black starry eyes gave small twinkles of hope.

 How could he just go on talking like I wasn't having trouble breathing? No concern for me at all just for himself to feel whole. To want me like I'm a position to him.

 The realization hit me that I was in this because he couldn't stand the fact that I wasn't sure if I wanted to mate with him. With all the things Belladonna knew and felt to what I knew and felt seemed so contradicting. I knew that I didn't like any of this.

 I'm young and I've hardly lived a normal life. I didn't have friends, I never had a boyfriend. I only had my family that made sure I had a sheltered life. In my past as Belladonna, Sarin was the boy next door that I couldn't get away from that was the air of life. I looked over at him with Trax. I felt this strange familiar pull to be wrapped in Sarin's arms and never leave. I looked to Carden which was still looking at me.

  "I still don't have the answers. I just know that I need Sarin more than ever before. It's wired back when you were a bat I knew that you do well. I figured that you were just like Stefan but I've realized that's only a very tiny part of you that's a small dying flame. I need that part to be a bonfire, reliable ever-present you at your core and I'm not sure you truly want to change to be with me. Belladonna didn't need that she just needed you and you failed to be open to her when she was shoving the truth in your face. We would've had a better life all of us together if you had done a lot of things differently. Not just back then but now also." I stood not even looking at him. I went straight to Sarin that took me into his warm, strong embrace. I breathed him in.

  "I'd like to go to our room." Sarin nodded

 Trax came with us quietly. His happy face was gone and so was Sarin's. The mood of things had changed very quickly when Carden came out. I think I wasn't just me that went rigid with his presence.