"...you didn't show up at your own wedding day!""Are we really going to go there?!" Steven's head snaps to my direction."Yes! Yes we are!" I snap my head towards the therapist whose hand is on his forehead, massaging it."Oh how about we go to the fact that you kissed Blake! My blood bother!""How about we also go to the fact that I am married! To your blood brother and guess whose fault that is! Definitely not mine!”"Enough!" The therapist shouts and both Steven and I shrink into the comfortable couch. "It has been a week since you two started coming here to get healing and advice as a couple yet none of that is happening. You always, always argue about the same thing. Aria you are letting out your pain through shouting and it is a good thing but how about you communicate it nakedly without beating around the bush. You need to tone it down a bit, I believe that Steven knows more than anything that he messed up. You need to start listening to him and have a proper conversation inste
With my mind wrestling me, I knew that it would be a good idea to go to church. I need to speak to someone full of wisdom and guidance cause I am failing in that. “Good afternoon pastor.""Ah Aria, good afternoon. How have you been?" He motions for me to sit down on the benches outside the church."Honestly, I do not know. Things have not been going the way I had anticipated.""Does it have to do with your marriage?"My anxiety levels rise and the only thing I could do is nod my head. "You know when pastor Joshua came and told me about the wedding I was in shock. Mostly because the man he described was not Steven.""So you knew."He nods his head in confirmation, "it sounded as if the roles were reversed.""What do you mean?""When you came with Steven here, I have to admit that I could see his love for you but when I looked at you, your love was much greater and you looked at him adoringly. So when pastor Joshua arrived he said that the young man was the one looking at you adoringly
"Okay, get up!" Bianca pulls the covers shading me from the outside world."No!! I'm fine like this.""You cried yourself to sleep then woke up and watched Grownish the entire morning!”“Your point being?”“You are not fine! Look at you Aria, you are a mess. Stop watching Zoey and live like my normal friend.”"Zoey Johnson understands my pain." I pull the covers over my head."No she doesn't!" She again pulls them off and shuts my laptop, "she has never been married! Okay, maybe at that time in Mexico but it is still different from yours," she sits down next to me and wipes off my tears, "I have the rest of the day planned out for us. It is already twelve pm so please go out with me and stop crying.""Fine, but I want to be home as soon as the sun sets." I get out from my bed and head towards the bathroom."Never going to happen!"* "I knew this was a bad idea." I try to turn around but Bianca holds my shoulders and pushes me towards the escalators."You need to socialize a bit. So wh
"What was that?! You almost died!""Aria, calm down." Bianca pulls my shirt a little bit."I will do no such! He almost die-" and just when I was repeating my sentence, Blake closes the distance between us with a hug eventually calming down, kissing my forehead in the process."Sorry," he throws Bianca an apologetic look and returns his eyes on me, "I'm not dead, this is legal so it is no kill or be killed fight plus I won. Let's focus on that." He wears his shirt and leads us out of his locker room.Now what happened is that after I recognized the man on the ground as Blake, I rushed over to the ring and almost jumped in if it weren't for Bianca stopping me. I also don't know what came over me so I will not go down that road. The road I will go down to is when his opponent said something nasty about me and Blake turned into someone I will consider in my mind before I insult him again. He eventually won after knocking the guy unconscious. They announced him as the winner and he had to
"I'm going to miss you." I fold the last shirt of Bianca's lying on the bed into her suitcase."Lies. You have Blake, don't think I can't sense that he makes you to even forget that I exist." "No! That is not true and you know it." I pout at her. "Okay, maybe it is true but just a little bit.""Whatever you say, now let me lay down some ground rules; no calling Steven to explain to him whatever you want to explain-""But-""Shhh!" She slaps my lips, "don't call him. Do not, I repeat, do not also starve yourself or beat yourself up. Don't miss work unless you are really sick. Lastly, don't do what I won't do while you're at the Parker's house over the weekend.""I hear you and I promise to follow your rules." I raise my hand up."Good. Now let me go see my momma, I miss her." "Give her a kiss for me and are you sure you don't want me to drive you at least halfway?""No. I will be fine, don't worry."I accompany her to her car and kiss her cheek in goodbye. Reaching our apartment, I fe
"Are you alright? You look like you barely caught any sleep." Courtney places the fourth cup of coffee on my desk ever since I arrived at the office.Maybe too much caffeine ain’t good for me, but it is the reason I am still up so caffeine it is! My head starts throbbing in disagreement that I push the cup away, caffeine it is not."Thanks. I actually did not sleep at all. I honestly do not know how Bianca copes, running a company is not easy.”"You should call your husband, he might make you feel better." She winks at me."There won't be a need for a call." A familiar voice says."Ahhhh...Mr Blake, would you like a drink?""No, I'm fine. Thank you though, uhm where shall we be having the meeting?" He says, in a professional manner.Not caring that a look like a mess. A “hey Aria, are you alright?” Or “sorry that I never texted you, are you alright?” Or better yet, “I missed you darling, are you alright?” But no, he just walks in her like he owns the place! I need him to ask whether I
Weird things have been happening lately and of course the cause of it is Blake Parker. That boy has turned my life around in such a manner that he all I think about is him. Not only is that is scary because what if my feelings develop into something more that I fall in love with him? But it is also exciting! I’ve never ever felt this way and I’m just so hoping that all of this is true and there is not back door waiting to be opened to spread bad news.I shake my head of the thoughts flooding my head and concentrate on zipping up the black dress I brought with Bianca. But as soon as the zip reaches its end goal, the thoughts start hunting me again. One thing I am certain about is that, if I was to fall in love with Blake, it will be a disaster. But again am I accompanying him on a Wednesday night to one of his business meetings? I shouldn't have agreed when he dropped by at the office during lunchtime. Bianca is so going to be interested in what I'm to tell her.Grabbing my black pur
"Are you sure you want to go back to your apartment?" Blake asks, as we are driven back from the restaurant by another driver."Yes, you've asked me for the tenth time and my answer will not change." I answer, making the biggest mistake of looking at him.This bo- man is handsome. He is straight out of the magazine…how did I get lucky again?"A guy can't help but hope." He smiles but soon goes back to frowning."What is wrong?" I bite my lip."Nothing, you're just beautiful." He scoots closer, "Okay maybe it is more than you being breathtakingly exquisite… thing is, I need you to give us a chance. I know that it's crazy because you love Steven and all but you can't possibly tell me that you feel nothing for me. I know that what I feel for you isn’t in my head. I know that you are the cause of my many sleepless nights, a change in my heartbeat and definitely the cause of the beasts roaming in my stomach and head. You’re all I think about day in and day out. Even when I don’t want to an
My name is Aria Parker-Johnson a mother to Mirella Parker-Johnson and soon to be mother to twins. I am the wife of Blake Parker, a business tycoon that had been known for his player nature but now is a transformed father and loyal husband. Our marriage has been a rollercoaster, it started off hectic, I did not think it would last. I was never supposed to marry him in the first place but God works in miraculous ways. The way we got together, the way we separated and once again the way we got together, it is all a miracle. “Mirella!”“Yes, mom?” She walks into the kitchen, my baby girl is so grown.“Please take these outside. I am sure people are going to start arriving any time soon.” I try picking up the tray but she stops me.“No need to overwork yourself ma, my siblings need to come out to perfectly fine.” “Thank you baby girl.” I let her take everything then decide to head to the bedroom to change.I am pregnant again and I must say, it is a lot of work. Now that I am carrying tw
The only sound audible in the room is of my nails tapping on the dinner table. The quietness just makes me even more anxious as the seat opposite mine remains unoccupied. I actually believed I would be laughing by now or be swept off my feet.But that is not the case which is why I am still lighting up my phone screen for the tenth time hoping to see something different. Yet once again, my heart drops as the time reads;20:15Fifteen minutes after the time Blake set, there still is no sign of him. There is not even one single text, not to talk about a call. If there were people in the room all they would see is a pretty lady dressed in a sophisticated black dress seated awkwardly in her chair, continuously staring at her phone for a sign. Maybe he will walk in any minute, it's human nature to be late20:45"Would you like to order anything Mrs?” The waiter asks me for the second time ever since my arrival."Uhm do you have juice?""No, we don't serve that here.""Okay...how about nona
"Growing up, I did not feel good looking. No matter how much I had tried to compliment myself, my insecurities got me to my knees. People always reassured me that I was handsome but I did not see what they so saw so I did not bother to date anyone. I was not willing to make another human being suffer. I wanted to fix myself up and become close to this hot thing I am today. I was eighteen when I was let out of the shell and became exposed to the public eye. People were crazy over me and I was all over magazines being called handsome. My good looks made people believe I was a heartthrob not knowing I was a virgin at that time. But the attention made me feel like I was ready to give relationships a try. “I did not know how hard it will be because of my brother. All of my serious relationships went downhill because of Steven. Relationship in and out I will find him in bed with my girlfriends," he laughs to himself as I stare with pity, "I stopped pursuing serious relationships and decided
I just wanna sleepppppp!I just wanna sleepppppp!I just wanna sleepppppp!Last night this time… mhm, I was honestly busy with Blake. The entire night and the fact that it is all different tonight is a bummer. I need the sweet kisses all over my face, sweet kisses all over my body but instead I am in my room all alone, struggling to still walk.My phone starts ringing and my heart jumps in joy hoping to see Blake’s caller ID but once the phone is in my hands, my smile drops. “Hello?”"Hey, is this Aria?" The caller on the end of the line asks.The voice sounds a little bit familiar but I cannot wrap my fingers around it. I know without a doubt that it is not Steven so, who is it?"Yes, may I ask whom this is?” I remove the pillows on my bed, getting ready to sleep. I do not really want to beat around the bush with my current state."Mike.""Mike...Mike...oh Mike!” And it finally clicks…how does he have my numbers again, “how are you?""I'm great, I am so glad that you still remember
I think I should not have allowed myself to be led by lust. Why? Because I am not over Blake instead I'm...I'm deeply in love with him again. It was so stupid of me to believe that I will get over him by sleeping with him after I had pointed out that when you engage in sexual acts with someone the two of you become one. I'm one again with Blake and in my case, that is not a good thing.Groaning at my stupidity I hold on tight to the duvet, looking at Blake who is peacefully sleeping. My mind trails back to when our hands intertwined during our love making, that was the end of me yesterday…it is even continuing to be the end of me now.I sure have to give it to Blake, this boy is very calculative, which I dumbly forgot about. He reminded me of things I had forgotten with just one night. The things he knew would work to his favor...why did I believe that I would fall out of love with him again?I sit up straight, wondering how I am to escape the hole I dug up for myself. My feet touch th
"Father, we thank you for the beautiful days you've brought to us. We thank you for the family you've given us, please continue to protect and guide us. Let your Holy Spirit keep us safe, and may our hearts be open to your word all the time. Amen." "Amen." I say, before opening my eyes.Blake and I look at each other for a split second before I speak, “goodnight." "Goodnight gorgeous." He kisses my forehead, exiting my room.After Blake left me at the dance floor, I decided to make business too. Apparently, Bianca's company is well known so it was a smooth sailing. I'm really proud of my friend, she has done exceptionally good for herself. And also the employees have played a huge part. One thing I love mostly is how she couldn't believe it when I told her over the phone. Lady should start believing in herself and her company.However, getting back to the Blake situation...I'm sexually frustrated. I'm pretty sure people could smell the sexual tension in the air while we were dancing
Shopping is part of those things I love with most of my heart. Shopping with Blake...that is another story."No!" Blake says immediately when the fitting room door opens."Well, I love it." I spin around to give him the full view."A-ah. No ways." He pushes me into the fitting room, then closes the door. "Every male eye is going to be on you. Look how the dress is shaping every curve on your body. Then the back...your back is exposed!" He turns my back on the mirror and I turn to look at it.He is right, my back is on full display. But the blue dress is amazing! The tiny beads are making me shine brighter that the disco lights. I face Blake and dah dah dah!!!! Our noses are touching. A second chance to another kissing moment, I am high on the clouds up for it. His fingers run down the line on my back, and I take penguin steps towards him then he lowers his head and,“Feels like we're on the edge right nowI wish that I could say I'm proudI'm sorry that I let you downI let you down-
His arms immediately grab my waist and I have no choice but to lean into him. My hands become sweaty, my heart starts beating a new tone I am not familiar with as my legs wobble more than a jelly. I feel like a teenager who is about to receive her first kiss. And just like my first, my world is fired up when his lips meet mine. In just mere seconds I have been consumed into an alien feeling. One that I want to experience over and over again, without any break whatsoever.Blake slowly pulls back after the small kiss, but still remains close to me. His breath hitting my lips, making me crave more of them.I open my eyes when he drops his head on my shoulder, "w-why did you stop?" I bluntly ask, saddened by the ending of what I was loving."Because one kiss would never be enough." He whispers enough for me to hear. "Aria I want to devour your lips countless times." My arms find balance on his neck when he grips my thighs, placing me on the table. "I'm just thinking if escaping rehab is w
Things I hate about Blake1. He sometimes smokes2. He...He likes to manipulate situations 3. Loves making me feel younger than him4. He...his...Okay this is not working! Whoever on the internet suggested that to fully get over someone I should write a list of the things I hate about them was totally wrong! I can't use the fact that he used to be a player because that is using his past against him. I wouldn't like it if someone used my past against and I am trying to move it.Ripping the paper from my notebook and shredding it into pieces, I sit back into my chair. It's been five days that I've not had an encounter with Blake which I'm grateful for. The only reason is because he is finalising the whole business move since we have moved back here and he is taking over the company here. The workload is a lot and he comes back very late and leaves very early. We do spend time together but it's when we pray and when he talks to Mirella and I'm surprisingly there. But it's never just him