CHAPTER 05

Bago pa ako makasagot ay yumuko siya at mariing hinalikan ako sa labi. I was stunned. I can't even move to push him away. He was fucking kissing me!

This was the first time that there was someone who was actually kissing me with this kind of position and intensity. I had never been kissed before, and Ruther was the only man who had the guts to do it to me.

I'd tried to push him away, pero para lang akong tumulak ng matigas na bato na hindi man lang natinag. My breasts were pressed against his hard and masculine chest. Bahagya niyang pinakawalan ang labi ko pero sapat lang upang makasagap ako ng hangin na nagmumula pa rin sa bibig niya.

"Hindi ka rin naman magaling humalik, pero bakit ang daming gustong magpakamatay para lang matikman ang labi mo?" he murmured right in front of my lips. I could smell the minty scent of him that slightly teased my stammering senses. His lower lip was slightly touching my upper lip when he insulted me. Yes, he was actually insulting while kissing me.

"You are crazy!" I yield. "Get off me!"

He then claimed my mouth without gentleness. "What's the big deal? It isn't like as if you were not kissed before..." he said and then claimed my mouth again. I can taste my own blood the way he kissed me. "...remember, hindi lang naman halik ang kaya mong I-offer? You were caught sleeping next to a married man's arm six months ago in the Soho Grand Hotel. How was that Ryza? Does he make your throat soar?"

Dahil sa pinaghalo-halong galit, kahihiyan at pagtataka ay malakas ko siyang itinulak na kinabigla niya. Halos bumalikwas ako at gumapang pababa ng kama mapalayo lang sa kanya.

Nagpupuyos ang kalooban na sinalubong ko ang galit sa mga mata niya. "I don't fucking care what people wanted to say about me. And I don't fucking care about your perception. I don't even need your opinion, Mr. Ruther Ford!" I was furious and forgot that I was standing in front of him naked. "And oh, I thought you were allergic to me? That I am not beautiful? Then why all of a sudden you were kissing me? Although you kissed me harshly, don't deny that you enjoyed my lips like those men who desired to kiss and fuck me endlessly!"

I turned around, ready to walk out but he grabbed my hand and pulled me back. "'Wag kang tanga!" he said harshly. "Lalabas ka ng hubo't hubad? Hindi ito New York Ryza! Baka hindi lang pagkuha ng larawan mo ang gawin sa'yo... unless you wanted to showcase yourself to everyone."

I groaned. Nawala sa isip ko na tanging ang kumot lang pala ang pinangtapis ko sa aking katawan at ngayon ay nasa lapag na dahil sa pagkawala ko sa sarili kanina.

Bahagya akong nakaramdam ng hiya at dama ko ang pamumula ng pisngi ko, lalo na ng walang kaemo-emosyong pinasadahan ni Ruther ang katawan ko.

"Nasaan ba kasi ang damit ko?" tanong ko. Nakita na rin lang niya ang lahat-lahat sa akin, much as well na panindigan ko na rin.

"I have spare clothes in my closet, you can use them."

Pagkasabi niya niyon ay kaagad din siyang tumayo  at nagtungo sa isa pang maliit na pinto sa kuwarto. Malamang na 'yon ang banyo. Madulas sana siya at mabagok ang ulo, baka sakaling tumino at magbago ang ihip ng hangin.

Nang buksan ko ang closet na tinutukoy niya ay wala naman akong ibang nakita roon kun'di isang t-shirt na puti, isang boxer, and boxes of XL condoms! Nanindig ang balahibo ko. I've never seen a man's private part in my twenty fucking six years of existence, sa t.v pa lang. Pero ano pa kaya kung sa actual at XL pa talaga!

Kinuha ko ang boxer na nakalagay pa sa kahon at walang pakialam na isinuot 'yon. I felt uncomfortable wearing Ruther's boxers but I have to. Sinunod ko ang t-shirt niya na umabot hanggang sa kalahati ng hita ko. Maluwang sa akin at nagmukha akong hanger pero pwede na rin kaysa nga naman lumabas akong walang saplot sa katawan. As Ruther said, my breast wasn't that big kaya naman hindi na halatang wala akong suot na bra.

I was about to close the closet door but then I got curious about the box of condoms. I grabbed the one box and looked at it, reading the information and description written on it.

So it has flavor huh?

As my curiosity became more intense, I opened the box and saw the actual look for myself. It was literally a strawberry flavor. The smell of sweet strawberries exploded as I opened the box. There are five sachets inside and I pick one. I was about to tear off the sachet when Ruther came and caught me on the spot.

"I thought you only needed clothes?" he asked and then looked down at my hands. "Wan'na take one of my condoms too?"

"N-no..." I cleared my throat. "I... w-well, I w-was just curious-"

"Curios?" he repeated then smirked. "To my condoms? Or to my thing? Wanna see it?"

Napalunok ako. Alam ko namang inaasar lang ako ng gagong ito. But what if- nah! That fucking XL thingy might shock the hell out of me.

Instead of answering him, I ask him making me blush a little. "Yours is XL?"

Tumaas ang isang kilay niya. "What can I do, pinagpala ang nasa pagitan ng aking hita."

Pahagis kong ibinalik ang condom sa closet niya at nilampasan siya. Daig ko pa ang sinilaban sa sobrang init ng pakiramdam ng aking tenga at pisngi.

Mahina kong pinitik ang aking noo... "ang gaga mo talaga Ryza!" singhal ko sa aking sarili.

Tuluyan na akong lumabas mula sa silid na 'yon kung saan ko iniwan si Ruther ng wala man lang paa-paalam. That man... gosh! He really pissed me off!

Saka ko na lang iisipin ang "pinagpalang" 'yon, ang mahalaga lang sa akin ngayon ay kung paano ako makakauwi sa Casa del Rio. Ni hindi ko na nakuha ang clutch ko, wala rin ang cellphone ko. Ni piso wala ako... peste, paano ba 'to?!

"Ryza?"

Natigilan ako ng bumungad sa harap ko si Robert. Sa lalim kasi ng iniisip ko ay ni hindi ko na namalayan ang pag bukas ng pinto sa gilid ko.

"What happened to you? Saan ka galing?" nagtatakang tanong niya saka ako pinasadahan ng tingin mula ulo hanggang paa.

Nilunok ko na lang ang kahihiyang nadarama ko. Kailangan ko ng taong malalapitan ngayon, maliban na lang sa kapatid ni Robert na si Ruther. That asshole may araw din siya.

"Hey... you're not planning to kill me right?" muli niyang tanong na nagpabalik sa aking diwa.

I look at him and smile. "Pwede mo ba akong ihatid sa Casa del Rio?" I ask. "And p-please... don't ask me anything like those paparazzi."

He smiled back. "Oh well, sino ba naman ako para humindi sa isang magandang modelo na tulad mo." Niluwagan niya ang pag bukas ng pinto at inakay ako papasok sa loob. "Wait for a while, magpapalit lang ako." I nodded.

Nilibot ko ng tingin ang silid na mukhang pamilyar sa akin. There was a medium-sized billiard table in the middle and a countertop that separated the kitchen and living room. Tumayo ako at nilapitan ang billiard table, gusto kong matuto ng larong ito noong Senior High palang ako kaya lang ay mahigpit sa akin si Mama.

As I touched the corner of the billiard table, the image of two people came out of my vision. Nasapo ko ang aking noo upang burahin sa aking isipan ang imahe ng babae at lalaking nagtatalik, but it just became more clearer.

"Look who's here..." Kaagad akong napalingon. "Ryza Reyes, the seductress supermodel."

She looks at me from my head down to my toes with disgust. I remember her... Krisza Mendoza the calendar girl and Ruther's latest girlfriend.

"Look at you... yan ba ang usong fashion ngayon?" nakangising tanong niya at tinuro pa ang suot ko. "Saan ba pwedeng makita ang ganyang fashion clothes? Makabili nga ng isang dosena pang donate sa mga dukha."

Tumaas ang sulok ng labi ko. I hate bitches, and this woman in front of me is not an exemption. "In someone's closet..." I said and smirked. "Oh lemme recall his name... Ru... Ruber- oh, Ruther there you go! Ruther Ford, are you familiar with that name? He let me wear his clothes as I couldn't find mine, but sadly... it was the last clothes he had in his closet. Yah better find another one dear-"

"You bitch!" nagngingit-ngit niyang sabi. "Don't tell me kinakalantari mo na rin ang boyfriend ko! Don't you fucking dare-"

"Edi don't! Hiniram ko lang naman ang damit niya, isusuli ko rin."

Mas lalong nag-init ang pisngi niya dahil sa galit sa akin. "Tama nga sila, you are nothing but a whore!

Women... a complicated and stereotypical bitch who can't shut up until they get what they wanted. And this Krisza Mendoza is one of those, sorry na lang siya dahil kung m*****a siya... triple ang pagiging m*****a ko.

"Gasgas na yang linyang yan, wala na bang bago?" pang-aasar ko pa sa kanya. Akma niya akong susugurin at sasampalin pero kaagad ko rin namang nasalag. "Don't you dare! I know what you and your lover did last night. Should I name him?"

Yeah, I was able to remember what happened last night. I was drunk and dizzy, looking for a ladies room to freshen up. And then I saw Krisza and Robert having sex till their heart's content in the middle of this billiard table.

“Really? May maniniwala naman kaya sa’yo gayong sa mata ng tao ang hinahangaan at inspirasyon nilang Ryza Reyes ay gamit na gamit na at napagpasa-pasahan na ng kung sinu-sino. Now tell me, ano nga ulit ‘yong alam mo tungkol sa akin at sa lover ko?” she smiled sweetly, too sweet that almost broke her teeth. “A piece of advice… let’s just be a friend na lang, coz you will regret it if you choose me to be your enemy!”

My eyes rolled up. “I’d rather be friends with the gutter press than be friends with you. I hate snakes, lalo na kung kamukha mo," baliwalang sagot ko.

Sa tinagal-tagal ko na sa industriyang pinanggalingan ko, nakasalamuha ko na halos lahat ng tao. At ang ugali ng babaeng ito… wala pa sa kalingkingan ng ugali ng mga mahaderas out there.

“Kung wala ka namang ipinunta rito pwede ka nang bumalik sa pinanggalingan mo. FYI, this is Robert’s place, not your boyfriend Ruther’s… em I correct?” giit ko pa ng matigilan siya.

Pulang-pula ang mukha niyang tinitigan ako bago tumalikod at pabagsak na isinara ang pinto.

Tsk... What an attitude!

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