HAZEL
The smell of thick smoke fills my lungs. Ashes burn the back of my throat as I try to get a decent breathe of oxygen. I can't breathe.My eyes fling open to a room full of flames. A room all too familiar to me. "Mom!" I yell out through the roar of the fire. "Dad!" I scream- making my way to my bedroom door. The smoke rolls in through the top of the door just as if a train would. I reach for the door knob whilst in pain because the metal knob is burning hot."Mom! Dad!" I scream, looking around in a panicked trying to figure out a way out of here. Where are my parents? My breathing becomes more ragged as my eyes gaze out the window. Even out there is covered in black smoke.The fire burns its way into the room. The red hot flames fill the room faster than anything I have ever witnessed. I run to my window as quick as I can, but it won't open. What do I do?I search the room and grab the first thing I see on my desk. A photo frame. With everything I have in me I swing it at the window, but nothing happens."Come on!" I yell, banging the frame against the window over and over again and nothing ever happens. The heat from the fire causes beads of sweat to form all over my body. It's angry breath slowly creeps it way to me.What do I do? I'm stuck! The window will not break and I can't get through the door. I begin to cough, because now all the oxygen is being burned away by the fire. My blankets begin to burn. I swing at the window again and I heave a sigh of relief as a small crack forms.Outside the window, two figures appear through the smoke on the grass. Mom and dad. They are out there, screaming at me to get out. I can't hear them- but I'm sure that's what they are saying. I need help! I yell at the top of my lungs, hoping that they would be able to hear me. However, it doesn't work.The smoke consumes me. My coughing becomes uncontrollable and the fire only seems to be getting hotter. I bang my hand on the window harder as the fire heads towards me."Help me! Please!" I yell, heat spreading throughout my body. I look down at the flame, praying that this isn't how my life ends. All too soon though, my prayers were unanswered.The flames reach me. The hot waves eat away at my skin. I scream in agony. The unbearable pain eats away any fight I had left in me.The fire eats away at my nerves, and continues to fight it's way up my body until there is nothing left to take.I wake up screaming in pain. My heart is racing and my body is on fire from where my dream had gotten me.... Mmmh, I'm glad it was a dream after all.Ramon is gone, and the room is dark. I can't catch my breathe.In a matter of seconds, a pair of strong arms pulls me from my curled position on the bed and I'm under an ice cold shower. The pain continues, but the heat from it begins to cool down."I know little wolf, I know." The deep voice coos. I feel safe. I try my best to slow my breathing. There's a pain in his voice, but he continues to hold me under the water. "Just breathe, honey." He whispers. His voice is groggy, but when I peek my eyes open and look up at him, he looks wide awake."It's okay." He assures me. I whimper as another hot wave washes over me. Even the water can't cool it down. Carefully, he sits me down in the shower and lets out a heavy sigh. He reaches for my shirt and I willingly raise my hands for it to come off easier. I'm too hot to worry about if I'm naked or not at this point. I just want the overwhelming pain to go away.My stomach aches. My head pounds. I whimper in agony as I watch Ramon turns and walks out of the shower without a word. Where is he going to? What is happening to me? Why do I ache more now that he's gone? I curl into a tighter ball. The pain is making me want to scream bloody murder. The water feels like a bucket of ice, and my body feels as though I'm in a sauna.My dream felt so real. It still feels real. What happened? What started that fire? Why didn't my parents come save me? I was just...locked in. Trapped and no where to go. It was horrible.The sound of the bathtub beginning to fill catches my attention. So many sounds are making me anxious. I focus my attention back on the shower, and the gentle pitter patter of the water falling onto me."Kid wolf," I hear Ramon say as gently as he possibly can. A sense of urgency washes over me at the same time his voice registers in my head. I painfully lift my head and make eye contact with the giant man who is kneeled down to match my gaze. He reaches out and pushes hair from my eyes. "Let's get you in the bath instead, I think it'll help." He finishes.Carefully, he cradles me in his arms and pulls me from the cold water. The feeling of his skin on mine is very comforting. Another wave of pain rolls over me, but this time it isn't as bad. I was fine. I felt fine when I fell asleep.I whimper. "What did when I fell asleep.I whimper. "What did you do to me?" Ramon takes in a sharp breath when he hears my question.He then takes another, deeper, slower breath before replying to me. Carefully- he sits me down in the tub and kneels beside it. "I have been waiting a very long time for you, and your wolf has been waiting for me." He says as softly as he can. "It's heat my dear, and as appetizing as you look right now this is the best I can do. I'm so sorry." He brushes my cheek with his thumb and I tremble in the cold water."Just relax, I will sit right here with you until you cool down. Everything will be alright." He assures me, running his thumb over my shoulder now. My ragged breathing slows with his warm touch. I'm in heat already? How is that possible? Why is all of this happening to me?I gaze at the man before me. His eyes remain on mine. Painful huffs fill the room. He is shivering cold. I feel bad. "Relax." He repeats, caressing my cheeks. "We can talk when this passes. Right now I just want you to rest and cool off, okay?" He assures me. I nod my head and shut my eyes. Make it stop.*****I wake up in bed all alone. I don't know exactly how I feel about that but I do know I feel so much better than I did last night. Or the early hours of this morning. My hair is still wet, and the pillow under my head is damp."Good morning," Ramon says walking into the bedroom. I pull the blankets up to my chest to cover my exposed skin from him. His eyes move from mine to my neck then back at my eyes. "Are you feeling any better?" He asks.I push my fingers through my hair and nod my head yes. "Much." I let out a tired breath. I hold the blanket against my body as he simply looks at me."Stop doing that." My mate furrows his eyebrows. Stop doing what? I wonder what he's talking about. "I'm going to see you naked anyways, so stop hiding yourself from me. I don't like that." He breaths. I sigh and lay back in bed and roll to my side. I try to snuggle into the blankets but because they're wet it isn't as great as I thought it'd be."That's different." I mutter. "Anyway, you won't really even see me naked." I add. Ramon let's out a little chuckle."I'm going to see you naked." He says lowly. "I'll have each of your limbs tied "I'm going to see you naked." He says lowly. "I'll have each of your limbs tied to the bedpost and maybe even watch you struggle around in the restraints for awhile. I'm going to learn how you taste, how you feel. How you sound. Trust me," he gives me a cheeky grin, "everyone is going to hear you yell my name." His eyes are darker now. I swallow. I feel somewhat threatened by what he just said, and another part of me wants to jump his bones right now."What do you want for lunch? We could have brunch since we both just woke up but it's up to you." He says, changing the conversation completely. I sit up in bed and rub my eyes tiredly. I notice how under his eyes are dark from a lack of sleep."Can we just go back to sleep?" I ask. His lips curl into a smile. He glances away from me towards the bathroom. The light is on in there."You, my dear don't want me to get into bed with you. That'd be a bad idea, especially while you're dressed in the clothes you're wearing." He says. I let out a huff of air and exaggerate falling back onto the bed and curling into a ball."You go eat and I'll be in here," I mutter. Ramon let's out a loud breath and silently shuffles around the room. The bed sinks in next to me and a smile grows on my face. My head is buried in the pillow so I don't know what he's doing."Get out of bed." My mate utters into my ear. I shake my head against his request. My mom and Trevor always had a problem with trying to get me out of bed too. Even for food. Suddenly, his hand takes hold of my butt and he pulls my hips dangerously close to his.I shift and face him. "Don't make me." I pout out my bottom lip. "I'm cold, and I didn't sleep very well last night." I try to make excuses. I get through to him after reminding him about last night."A few more hours of sleep wouldn't hurt." Ramon says softly. He pulls me against him until my head sits comfortably in the crook of his neck. I feel his lips against the top of my head for a brief moment.My eyes get heavy, and I lay there for awhile. I can't fall back to sleep, though. Too much is on my mind and the fact that Ramon's words made me uncomfortable and needy in my lower part of me was keeping me from sleep.He's asleep. His heart rate is slower than it was before he had fallen asleep, plus his breathing had slowed drastically. I lie there, taking it all in.My eyes slowly close, I press my lips against the base of his throat and linger there for a moment. My fingers trace the lines of muscles on his stomach. They slowly trace down the V of his body and his hand quickly stops me. I didn't notice that he was awake."Not yet." He says softly. His voice is filled with sleep. His hand travels back to my bottom and rubs it softly. I kiss at his throat one more time then close my eyes."Go to sleep, cupcake." Ramon utters, the hand on my bum continues to move around massaging the surface. I don't know what it is about it that's so relaxing, but eventually that's what I finally fall asleep to.HAZEL"When is the next full moon?" I ask, my fingers brush over the counter top. Ramon is slicing up some carrots for some kind of soup he's making. He purses his lips while he concentrates on not chopping his fingers up."In a few weeks. Why?" He scrapes the carrot into the pot and turns to look at me. I poke my bottom lip out and shrug my shoulders."I just don't want the..heat to happen-" I try to explain without embarrassing myself. Ramon raises an eyebrow at my shyness."It only really hurts when you're still human." He says. I feel his eyes on my body before they're ripped from me completely. "But you won't have to worry about that." He adds, stirring the pot."Why?" I ask. I've already confused myself. I take a seat at the nearest barstool and spin around to ease the awkwardness."Trust me when I say I'll have all of you before then. Yeah?" His back is to me but I can almost feel that he has a smile on his face. I go quiet."Why didn't you just do it last night?" I ask. Ramon
HAZELI don't wake up to the unbearable heat waves washing over me, or the shooting pain up my spine. Instead, I wake up in the middle of the night, all alone.'Maybe he just went to the bathroom'. I try to be logical with myself. My eyes move to the bathroom door- there isn't a light on. They linger there, then I focus my gaze back on Ramon's empty spot next to me. It's cold. He hasn't been here for a while.Or maybe he could be outside smoking. That's probably it. I lie back in bed, but can't help but wonder where he is. A cigarette doesn't take that long to smoke.I roll over in bed, and let out a frustrated sigh. I begin to get restless-more like my wolf- and I climb out of bed. My shirt falls over my legs as I start my journey down the spiraling staircase.I inhale. Nothing. I'm careful as I decend the staircase. Once I'm down stairs, I flick on the living room light. Everything is still there- even the messed up blanket on the couch that I should have folded back.I run my finge
Chapter 6HAZEL"Hazel." Ramon calls out my name and I knot my eyebrows while looking over my shoulder at him. I didn't sleep in the same bed as him last night, nor did I even sleep on the same level of the house as he did.I'm still scared of him. Well, not of him. I'm afraid of what he is capable of doing. Ramon is a strong and spoiled man. He didn't come this far giving everyone in his path a hug and a friendly smile.He is a dangerous man to test. His patience is a thin string and he doesn't like questions. It's like defying his ruling over you to him. He doesn't like it."Hmm?" I hum tiredly because I was up most of the night dreading that he would come into my room as angry as he was before. I didn't sleep very well at all! My back hurts from sleeping in a ball and my eyes are heavy. The only good thing that came out of being here last night were the churros."I need you to get ready for the day." He mumbles, adjusting the shirt that's falling off of my shoulder. I remain calm.
HAZELRamon lets out a sigh as I bury my head into the crook of his neck."No, we're just watching a movie." he replies. "Did you find my papers?" He questions and I can note that he doesn't sound as nice as he is to me. I silently leave feather like kisses on his neck and feel him struggle underneath me.As soon as the door shuts behind her, I nibble on his ear. The wolf in me has awoken and she's not letting up."Stop it baby," he groans, craning his neck for me. I continue my assault on his skin like he has done to me. "I can't concentrate on what I'm reading." He shifts and I can feel his huge bulge in his pants. I playfully giggle and nibble at where his mark will be before I pull away completely."Can we go now?" Mmmh, it feels like I just missed dozens of the Pack's annual events!He nods then we both stand up to leave."Are we going anywhere else?" I ask Ramon, totally clueless. I don't want any more surprise stops on the way. I'm not going to tell him that though because I d
HAZELThe Pack House is absolutely breath taking, just like a prestigious palace. However, we don't get to spend too much time there. Ramon has been bombarded with questions and concerns that he doesn't want me to get involved in quite yet. Most of them regard the Pack stuff which I shouldn't even know that they exist!"You know, I really hate seeing you frown." Ramon points out, running his thumb over my bottom lip. I only blow out a breath in response."All I want to know is, what did you mean by 'soon'?" I ask, knotting my eyebrows and looking into his dark eyes. Curiosity won't make me wait any longer! "I waited until we go home, why won't you tell me?" I ask, continuing to frown.He let's out a sigh and looks at me through his eyelashes. He's so darkly handsome."That's what's bothering you?" He asks, his lips curling into an amused smile. "You could have a million other questions about anything you heard today, and soon is the only thing that's stuck in your mind?""You make it
HAZELI've been curious ever since Ramon warned me never to open the room with a red door and the curiousity is getting the best of me. I can't keep calm any longer!"Will you tell me what's in the room with the red door, now?" I ask him as I glance at it. He merely looks at the door and then back at me with his dark eyes."In time, my dear." He assures me. I knot my eyebrows and look up at him. He takes my look as if it's not good enough, and let's out a sigh. "There are things that you won't be able to understand quite yet, and our bond hasn't been sealed. As of right now, I don't have to share with you what's behind that door!" He simply states without blinking an eyebrow. He never minces his words!"You can just save your breath and say you don't trust me." I say, frowning lightly at his response."Fine, I don't trust you." He says. "I didn't want to sound rude, you put the words in my mouth, Hazel." He says gently, pulling my back against his front and kissing the top of my head.
HAZELI wake up to my cellphone buzzing off the charts. My eyebrows knot as I look at the brightly lit screen in the dark room.I glance over to find Ramon fast asleep by my side. His arm is draped over my body, as if he's trying to protect me from my nightmares. I reach for my phone and answer the unknown number."Hello?" I croak tiredly. The last thing I want to do is wake Ramon's beast. It seems as though his cruelty gets worse after midnight."Ah, Luna, I'm glad you answered." An eerie voice calls into the phone, making me to knot my eyebrows."Who is this?" I ask, suddenly more awake. I have no idea who could be on the other end of the line.There's an eerie laugh. "I'm a very old friend of Ramon's, but there is no need for an introduction. I need you to send a message to my dear old friend." I take in a deep breath and knot my eyebrows."A message?" I repeat. I don't understand, why can't this person say it themselves."Yes, my sweet adolescent. A message. Tell Ramon that it's ti
HAZELA broken glass is stuck inside my skin and Jackson is looking for something to get it out."You're an idiot, you didn't have to get yourself hurt." Jack says with a grin on his face. I roll my eyes and push myself up on the counter."You're an idiot. You made the mess." I grumble, watching him dig around in a drawer for the tweezers."But I was smart enough to wear shoes after glass had been broken." He says with mockery in his tone."Just, shut up and get the glass out of my hand." I roll my eyes. Suddenly I feel guilty and add a "please?". Jack holds up a set of black tweezers and grins."Yes ma'am." He agrees, "I will." He groans, concentrating with a scrunched face. I roll my eyes."Okay, it's starting to burn again!" I whimper when he starts picking at the glass in my hand."Why can't you do it yourself?" He grunts, trying to find the glass. The open cut and glass in my hand burns, but to add to it there's pickle juice on the glass, making it feel like my hand is on fire."
HAZELFive years are over since Ramon marked me and turned me into a Lycan. For the last three years, my body has been responding and I've been slowly turning into a full blown Lycan and on the fourth year, I finally fully transformed to a Lycan and that's when Ramon and I decided to start trying for a child.However, I sometimes keep on reminding my mate about his mistakes which happened around three years ago. Whenever I remember how he fooled me into believing that both of us were unable to have a baby of our own, I feel like swallowing him alive.He has been apologising since then and even now that I am three months pregnant with his heir. So far, we've been taking the necessary precautions as adviced by the doctors so as to give birth to a fully developed Lycan. Both Ramon and I do not want to lose our child just as he lost his son with Paloma.At least, Ramon's heart is at rest now that I am carrying his child and he keeps on hoping that everything will go well eventually.He n
HAZELWhat the hell? Why would Ramon do that to me? I know that I may have gotten off on the wrong foot and came at him a little aggressive- but he shut the door. On. My. Face. After I brought him food and everything!"Are you serious?" I grumble aloud. Quiet. I can hear the crickets chirping outside. I clench my jaw and reach for the doorknob to open it. As soon as my fingertips touch the knob, the latch clicks and he locks the door.Wow. Just...wow."Fuck you," I mutter and walk away from the door. 'It's quite unlike you to make the first move, little wolf.' Ramon says through the link. I groan and stomp myself back down the hall. Who does he think he is?I stop in my tracks when I hear Ramon cough. I pause for a moment longer, waiting for him to open the door. He never does. My frown grows.I get that he's all emotional and on his man period, but this is just dramatic. Why are men like this? I remember the time that I made my dad cry and he was mean to me for a whole week! This is
HAZELShe was beautiful. Her eyes sparkled like the night sky. Her hair fell down her back as if it were made of silk. I'm sure her skin was soft, and I bet she had the warmest laugh.'Stop it!' She grumbles, inside my head. I can't help but compare myself to the person he had before. She got him. Not me. She was the one who got to carry his heir, not me. She was the one who got told she was the love of his life. Not. Me. I am nothing more than a blueprint that had been lost for ages that had sloppily been built back together. I am not me. I am just a replacement of her.I've always felt this empty void in me, could that be it? Has it been because of her this entire time? I cannot blame her for any of this, as much as I want to. I stare at her picture with a thousand questions in my head. I don't look a thing like her. There is something about her that seems familiar- but I know that's just the wolf's spirit that had resided in the both of us.I think about how much her heart must hav
HAZELShe was beautiful. Her eyes sparkled like the night sky. Her hair fell down her back as if it were made of silk. I'm sure her skin was soft, and I bet she had the warmest laugh.'Stop it!' She grumbles, inside my head. I can't help but compare myself to the person he had before. She got him. Not me. She was the one who got to carry his heir, not me. She was the one who got told she was the love of his life. Not. Me. I am nothing more than a blueprint that had been lost for ages that had sloppily been built back together. I am not me. I am just a replacement of her.I've always felt this empty void in me, could that be it? Has it been because of her this entire time? I cannot blame her for any of this, as much as I want to. I stare at her picture with a thousand questions in my head. I don't look a thing like her. There is something about her that seems familiar- but I know that's just the wolf's spirit that had resided in the both of us.I think about how much her heart must hav
HAZEL"Did you love her?" I break the silence. Ramon runs his fingers over my face and tucks a chunk of hair behind my ear. It isn't angry. It isn't forced. Everything is calm."Who?" He wonders, scrunching his eyebrows. His eyes search mine for some kind of answer, and he eventually realizes who I am talking about. He lets out a breath and responds."I did." He says softly. "We fall in love with many people in our lives. You are the last love I will meet, for now." He smiles. I knot my eyebrows at him."So eventually you'll move on?" I wonder. "Why didn't that work out?" Ramon shrugs his shoulders."I will never find anyone that compares to you. The only person I can ever love besides you, has to be like you." He kisses my forehead. He doesn't say another word."Can you at least tell me about her?" I wonder out loud. What was she like? What made Ramon want her?"What is there to tell you?" He wonders back to me, confused. When I do not answer him, he speaks up. "I figured you already
HAZEL'Do you really think that I will be loyal to an animal?' I growl, managing to scratch his face with my claws. He stumbles and loses his balance.'You are weak and you need me. Don't forget that.' I hiss. Things have escalated quickly. His wolf is being extremely dominant right now. I continue to test his patience.Ramon growls and it echos through the house. 'The only thing I need from you right now is between your pretty little legs. If not that, you have no other use for me!' he confesses and I immediately tense.I lunge at Ramon, sending us both flying into a table. The sound of glass crashing fills my ears. I snap my teeth at his face, missing it by only a few millimeters. Instantly, it turns really violent, very quickly.I cannot believe that that's the man who I decided to marry. I really thought that he was better than what he actually is. My mind is racing and my body is aching, but he has hurt me for the last time. I will either come out of this by myself, or dead.Ramo
HAZELThe car ride home with Ramon is silent. Other than when he tried to start a conversation with me by asking me what the hell I thought I was doing out running while I'm in heat. It really isn't the kind of thing you say to someone who you just left with your friends. Ramon's grip on the steering wheel looks like it's going to break it, and he's going unreasonably fast. I must have pissed him off.When we pull into the driveway, Ramon puts the car in parking mode and turns to look at me. His jaw is clenched, and his hair is a mess. "Please never run off like that again, Hazel. I was worried sick about you." He goes to reach for my arm and I jerk away."You were worried about me?" I furrow my eyebrows. "You didn't call or anything while I was staying with Jack and Bertha. You didn't care how I was doing, so don't you dare say that you were worried sick about me after you got what you wanted from me." I growl loudly. "You, the first time you see me all you want to do is to sleep wit
HAZELI wake up feeling the worst I have felt in months. It isn't a sickness in my stomach making me need to throw up. It's the type of feeling where you know what you have done is wrong and you just want to punish yourself in any way possible. My body still tingles as I roll over, feeling the warmth of the body next to my own.The heavy breathing next to my ear warms my neck, and the grip Ramon has around my waist is like that of a cobra's. I try my best to keep my heavy eyes open, but exhaustion is beating me right now. I shut my eyes and tell myself just five more minutes.I lie there in my thoughts, wondering why I have just let him in so easily. Maybe he would have changed his mind and taken me back? No. Ramon doesn't get influenced by that. He wouldn't. Maybe it's the fact that I desperately wanted him in ways that I shouldn't have, and I cannot blame it on my heat either. I wanted it even before I went into heat. Does that make me an awful person?I shouldn't have given in as e
HAZELAs the days drag into weeks, and the weeks into months, the only thing coursing through my veins is sadness and the thought of Ramon. I would be alright without him, but the truth be told; I am nothing without that man. He was the one who brought out my happiness, in it's most pure state. The feeling of his embrace was what kept me asleep all night long. Now I find myself waking up every hour of the night, reaching for someone who isn't there. Bertha and Jack always try and keep my mind off of that man, but nothing works. It comes in spurts: I am okay but then five seconds later my mood completely changes. I don't understand how one man can change my life completely.My heart yearns to be with the man that I love, the one who has changed me into a wife, a lycan, and most of all a woman. It was so childish of me to put my own wants before his needs. All he ever wanted was for me to be happy, and I wouldn't even let him get that. I would love to hear from him just one more time. I