CHAPTER 78 I DIDN'T WANT TOA M E R I C A “A-America.” Her voice sounded shocked frightened as soon as she heard me.It was then followed by silence in the living room and it was too deafening to hear. It seemed as if nobody wanted to talk or tell me what and who they were talking about.“Why do you know Callie mom?” I asked her again and I can sense from the silence in this room they know something that I don’t know and it’s obviously has got something to do with that little girl in my dream.I was then answered by silence again.“Who is Callie?!” I screamed angrily, demanding the need to know.In the back of my head, I can really feel that my parents are hiding something because the silence is far too evident. My mind was battling with so many thoughts and questions invading my head. It could possibly be the reason why they wanted to have dinner with me and Harry but why would they need to invite him here too? It doesn’t make sense. Not unless Harry know something and had kept it
CHAPTER 79 MUTIPLE PERSONALITYA M E R I C A“What are you sorry for?” I questioned.Mom apologized again but softer this time and I hated it even more. “W-We got too scared.”I gaped, “What?! Y-You mean you didn’t do anything?!”“We’re sorry, Merry.” Dad answers me.My own sister went through all that alone knowing these two adults could have done something to help her. They could have done something that could have protected her. This whole thing makes me even more furious just thinking about it because they didn’t even dared to help her with what she was going through. Moreover, their reason for only being scared is just undeniably pathetic.“We were too frightened to be involved in such thing.” Mom clarifies.“What do you mean too frightened?” I chuckle humourlessly. “You let a child as young as her to go through hell all by herself?!”“We wanted to help.” Dad answers right away. “But your mom was too scared for us to be involved.”I shake my head to disagree, “That’s not even th
CHAPTER 80 SEVERELY COMPLEXA M E R I C AMultiple Personality Disorder is thought to be a severely complex psychological condition that is likely caused by many factors including severe trauma during early childhood which is usually extreme, repetitive physical, sexual or emotional abuse.As many as 99% of individuals who develop multiple personality disorders have recognized personal histories of recurring, overpowering, and often life-threatening traumas or disturbances at a sensitive developmental stage of childhood usually before six years old.“Merry?” I pulled myself out of my own thoughts as soon as I heard Harry’s voice. “Why are you sitting there in the corner of the room?” He asked and as soon as he approached me, I can smell the same perfume he had on the island. His scent makes me want to hug him as tight as I could and never let him go.“I just can’t stop thinking about Callie.” I answered him. From behind me, he encapsulates me around his arms and gave me the warmest h
CHAPTER 81 POUNDING A M E R I C A The next morning.I went to my mom's house accompanied by Harry and one the way, I was tremendously nervous on how things will turn out. Harry reassured me that everything will be okay and that no matter what happens, I shouldn’t let my anger get in the way. I trusted Harry’s advice and tried my best to allow myself to calm down.When we arrived, mom was shocked to see us but still welcomed us happily and I was relieved that she did. She mentioned that she was just cooking breakfast and that dad was in the backyard fixing her vegetable garden which was ruined by the rain from last night. Harry was the one talking to her most of the time since I didn’t know how to actually start the conversation knowing that we were both at fault last night.I told Harry that I wanted to be in my bedroom so we went upstairs together since he wanted to see my own space growing up. We sat on my bed, talked about my old photos from before and we had a good laugh as I w
CHAPTER 82 IN A BLINK OF AN EYEA M E R I C A London, England7:19 PMMom said the dress that Harry picked out for me to wear tonight was beautiful and she told me that it matched perfectly with my eyes. The dress, as what mom described it, was light blue but didn’t look too pale on my skin since it had a sheer shimmering cloth overlapping the entire dress.Harry was the one who picked us up from the hotel that we were staying and my heart just went insane when we finally arrived outside the residence of the Scott’s. I tried to tell myself that things were going to turn out well and that I didn’t have to worry much but the more I think about it, the more I feel nervous.“Harry.” I grabbed onto his sleeve before he can lead me to the dining area with my parents.“What’s wrong?” Harry asks worriedly.“America are you alright?” Mom questions right away.I nod vigorously, “Can I talk with Harry first?” I asked kindly.“What’s wrong sweetheart?” Dad asked quickly.“Nothing dad.” I answer
CHAPTER 83 FINDINGSSolitude Gardens Sanitarium, Maldives8:20 AM“Callie was recently transferred to a better psychiatric ward by Jessica.” Harry informs America.“That’s right. She’s taken extra care of here than Tree Top Hospital since our main focus is patients who are mentally unstable.” Kim, a nurse in the sanitarium, responded.“That’s really good.” Harry commented. “I’m glad Jessica thought of the transfer.”“We are happy to have her.” Kim answered.“How’s Callie as a patient?” America asked instantly.“Callie?” Kim questioned.“I… I mean Rose.” America corrected herself.“Rose is a lovely patient.” Kim answers with a smile on her face. “When she is well-rested and has a peace of mind, she is a really good conversant. Although her alters keep coming out a lot than they normally did before as what Doctor Ali said.”America felt more depressed and sad when she’s reminded again about what her twin had went through in her childhood. Even though those thoughts are hard to accept a
CHAPTER 84 A LOT WORSEA M E R I C A Solitude Gardens Sanitarium, MaldivesA person with schizophrenia doesn’t have two personalities but instead they have false ideas or have lost touch with reality. People with schizophrenia has difficulty to determine what is real and what isn’t since it is characterized by false sensations which are hallucinations, delusions, or false beliefs. Usually, people who are diagnosed with schizophrenia, usually experiences jumbles words and jumbled thoughts.On the contrary, multiple personality disorder, a trauma-based illness, has alternates having its own voice, characteristics and mannerisms inside one individual. Each identity was said to have distinct social relationships, agenda and most importantly, memories. Moreover, when one personality is in action, it doesn’t know that there is also another personality, hence the inability to remember actions and decisions made while the other personality was active.With Callie’s case as per Doctor Ali, i
CHAPTER 85SOLITUDEC A L L I E Solitude Gardens Sanitarium, MaldivesDay 1 That feeling when I walked through a doorway into an unfamiliar building and have completely forgotten why I was here in the first place.I remember Doctor Ali telling me that I needed to be transferred to another facility for a better treatment for my condition but I vaguely remember if it was real or not since there are these voices that I keep hearing inside my head and people that I have been seeing how are always chasing me and wanting to hurt me.I looked around and realized that I was in a different psychiatric ward, far bigger than the one I was admitted to before. The first time I entered these doors was years ago – I was just 16 where my adoptive parents escorted me through the doors leading to the ER.When I was much younger, probably on my teens, I can remember how I always hide under a blanket because in the frame of my mind that I was in, it was hard to describe but I was frightened out of my m
EPILOGUEPOT OF GOLDI have always been fascinated of the beach.There are so many things to do to enjoy and relax and there are a lot of sexy girls wearing bikinis almost looking like it is close to nudity. Yet, I love it. I love it all. I love watching girls in swim wears and how they play beach volleyball. Although I loved the sexual stuff of it, I have always thought that there is something about the sea that just calms my soul and my mind to a whole different level.I never really told anyone about it but it always has that kind of effect to me. Although no one knows much about it, I didn't want to look too softy on the outside being all sentimental about a petty thing.Everyone I know has always seen me as strong and very masculine with the way I dress, talk and act. With all the physicality that I have, everyone assumed that I am a cold-hearted tough guy. People who don't know me well would say I am an aloof. Kids and other townspeople would rather say I am scary. I have had a
CHAPTER 94 WELCOME HOMEM E R R Y Time: InfiniteWhere am I?Those were the first words I thought to myself.I looked around and found myself standing alone on the pristine beach. The water was gorgeously light blue and the horizon was insanely astounding. I paused and felt that I have said those same words somewhere before.Dejavu. It definitely seemed like it.Although I was lost, somewhere deep inside me felt like I was found. I felt surprisingly calm and warm as the sun was hitting my face. Sunlight always felt nice and even though most people don’t like to be under the sun for too long I think there’s something about it that’s calming at some point.Scorching was a word that would best describe the heat of the sun right now. I closed my eyes and felt the gentle and cool sea breeze passing through my hair and hitting against my skin. It was a bright sunny day but the wind felt chilly which provided a perfect balance. For a while, I stood there just feeling nature which was surro
CHAPTER 93 47 YEARSH A R R Y North Carolina, U.S.AForty-seven years laterSummerThe woman flinched as she spins around. Her eyes looked surprised as soon as she saw me. It was definitely her and I could never be wrong. It was the same face when we were in LUAHU but her hair was shorter now yet everything about her was the same. It felt so surreal seeing her again.“Diana, is it really…” I trailed off and realized how frightened and shocked she was. I realized that I was getting a little too suspicious and too close knowing that she is a young woman and I am an old man approaching her pettily. I didn’t want to look like a predator.I chuckled humourlessly, “I’m sorry.”She smiles wearily, “I’m sorry too but I think you have the wrong person?”I felt disappointed.“My name isn’t Diana.” She adds.I smiled tightlipped. “Of course. I’m sorry if I approached you like this and pretty much giving you a fright.”She shakes her head and smiles at me, “No, it’s… It’s not really a big deal.
CHAPTER 92 SATURNH A R R Y North Carolina, U.S.ADeath can seem cruel and unfair, especially when you feel someone has died before their time or when you had plans for the future together and growing old together.Death of someone we love is probably the most devastating experience that can ever happen to any of us.The loss and pain can strike you deeply and can shook your mental state of mind and your core.America died from a ruptured brain aneurysm that no one knew she had.All those terrible headaches, nausea, collapsing and drooping eyelids that she been complaining and experiencing, were signs of a grown malignant aneurysm after she was in coma. We all assumed that it was her pregnancy but the latter symptoms were already too late to figure it out that she was experiencing something so much more critical and dangerous.There were so many what ifs that I had after she died and so many regrets that I wished I did and didn’t do. There were so many things in my head and so much
CHAPTER 91.1I smiled as the heart monitor was echoing in the room in synch with the sound from the ventilator. “The second time was when you fainted a day before our wedding. I think your mom laughed at me when she saw me arriving the hospital because I looked stupid with what I wore as I was in a hurry.”I chuckle softly as I was remembering it. “Although I didn’t really notice how bad I wore until it was the morning. It was so funny, you should have seen it.”I placed her hand intertwined with mine against my lips, “That time, as I watched you sleep the entire night, I was able to write a short song. Do you want to hear it? I was never able to finish it though.”I rubbed the back of my forefinger against her cheek, “I’m sure you want to hear it. So give it a good listen, okay?” I speak to her.I cleared my throat as I tried my best to keep my shit together because I didn’t want to cry as I sing for her.“Sweetheart you look a little tired. When did you last eat? Come in and make
CHAPTER 91REALH A R R Y I was speechless and my felt as if my knees went weak and immobile.I wanted to say something but my mind went blank and I wanted to move towards Merry but because of shock, I just stood there completely frozen.My tears fell over my cheeks as soon as I see my wife looking horribly pale while the medics were giving her CPR. She looks lifeless, I thought to myself again and again and it pains me.My feet slowly drags me inside the room as my heart was getting heavier each time I get close towards where Merry was, My entire body was still completely shaken up with what I was witnessing what happening to her with questions fogging my head wondering what really happened to her.I can really feel my whole body quivering in fear, despair and weakness while my lips were trembling as I call out her name softly, “M-Merry…” My soft voice escapes my lips,“Sir, we request you to make way.” The medic instructed me.I shake my head vigorously because he cannot just leave
CHAPTER 90ANOTHER SONGSan Siro Stadium, BrazilThe crowd cheers for Harry as soon as he finished another song.His fans chanting his name continuously was ringing in his ear.The entire stadium was filled with girls screaming, chanting and cheering for him while he keeps a forced smile plastered on his face as he mouthed the words, “Thank you.”Despite how he loves entertaining his fans and performing on stage in front of people who paid this entire event just to see him, his mind was elsewhere and he couldn’t stop himself from doing so. It was evident in his eyes that he was searching through the front row near the stage if America had arrived, but she hasn’t. She was still not around and it made him even much more worried.He was not liking it especially that he hasn’t talked to Jordan about any updates regarding Merry.“I tried calling Ginny earlier and she said there was an emergency.” Those words keeps invading his thoughts making him feel uneasy on stage.“You are a lovely aud
CHAPTER 89.1“Useless?” He subtly moves his upper torso. “Have I ever made you feel like that? I’m sorry if--”“No no no. It wasn’t any of your fault. Like I said, I am grateful for you.”“So why do you feel useless?”“Because I always depend on you. I depend on you when I get out of bed, I depend on you when I need a shower, when I need to go somewhere, when I need to pee, when I need to clean myself as embarrassing as it has always been, when I change my clothes, every thing. Every single thing that I do that are basic things I need for myself on a daily basis, you’re doing them all for me.”“I don’t mind doing them.”“But I do.” I sobbed. “I do mind.”“I.. I’m sorry.” He says with a soft voice as we were now sitting on the bed while he tries to comfort me while wrapping his arms around me tight. “I’m sorry if I made you feel that way. Am I invading too much of your personal space?”I shake my head, “You don’t understand.”He pulled himself away and cups my face, “Then allow me to u
CHAPTER 89 IT WASN'TA M E R I C AMt. Sinai Hospital, North CarolinaHours before the wedding day“Are you sure you don’t want me in there with you?” Harry questions.I gave him a reassuring smile as I squeezed his hand a little bit, “I will be fine.”“So why you don’t want me in there with you?”“I just want to ask him a few things.” I answered nervously.“Like?” He asked.I pressed my lips together, “You trust me, don’t you?”“Of course.” Harry answers quickly.“Then trust me on this. It’s nothing serious.” I responded.He exhales heavily and felt him kissing the back of my hand. I love when he does that to be honest. He tells me, “Okay. I will wait here.”I smiled at her, “Thank you.”Harry walks me to the doctor’s office as he greeted us as soon as we entered his room. The doctor offered us a seat right away while Harry assist me before he plants a kiss on my hair. “I’ll be waiting right outside.”I nodded and smiled at him. I listened to his footsteps which were then followed b