CHAPTER 65I LOVE YOU AMERICAA M E R I C A ‘Even if I am going to be on the verge of life and death, I will always find you.’‘I love you America.’‘I love you America.’‘I love you America.’My eyes opened wide as I was grasping on my bed sheets in fear and drenched with my own sweat.I was breathing heavily as I realized that it was all a dream. The dream felt so real because I was completely drowning profoundly into the deepest waters of the sea. I can still feel my heart racing so fast that I can hear my own pounding heartbeat inside my chest if that makes any sense at all.I clawed my fingers on my soft blanket as I realized that I was no longer in the tent nor on the beach. I sat on top of my bed feeling as if I was going to have a headache because I was absolutely confused with what was going on. I know and I am a hundred percent sure that I was definitely on Sunset Beach camping with Claudine and May and that guy named Harry just a few hours ago.Out of nowhere, visions kept
CHAPTER 66 REPLACEA M E R I C A North Carolina, U.S.A8:19PM “Lance Hartley backed out this morning?” May exclaimed as soon as I told her the news.I nod. “His wife was sent to the hospital because he said she’s terminally ill.”“I don’t think his wife is terminally ill. I just saw her grocery shopping this morning and she was fine.” She gasps dramatically, “That could be the reason why she was hiding from me earlier!”“I just don’t understand why Lance would reject it like that.”“Because he’s greedy that is why he cancelled on the last minute since he isn’t getting money from it. He only agreed to be in this concert because his wife, which is his manager, forced him to.” She answers.“But he sounded so excited about it. I don’t understand.” I replied.“He acted as if he was but they were only doing it to save his failing reputation. He was never really into it in the first place and I knew it! Ugh!” May groans softly in frustration. “The nerve of that guy to cancel a day before
CHAPTER 66.1“No. I won’t allow you to. You two have already done enough for this event.” I declined. “He gave me his number so I can ask him about that matter. Rest assured he said that he would be more than willing to join the concert.” I explained and out of nowhere I hear the both of them yelping with excitement.“Oh my God this is going to be huge for real!” Claudine exclaims happily. “I cannot believe Harry Scott is going to replace Lance Hartley!”“Wait.” May hollers. “How did you even know him in the first place? How… How did it all happen and how were you able to ask him? Where?” She asks curiously.“Well…” I muttered as I tried to look for some words on how to tell them.Now that I think about it, it would be hard to believe if I would tell them that a famous singer like him actually visited me not once but many times. I couldn’t believe that he actually visited me when I was in a coma without my mom telling me about it if he didn’t tell me. He visited me again after I woke
CHAPTER 67 LEAPEDA M E R I C AHarrison Scott.My heart leaped as soon as I heard his real name because it brought me a lot of unexplainable flashbacks inside my head. Flashbacks that seemed unfamiliar but looked as if they were real. There is this pounding inside my chest and it’s so annoying because I don’t know why I was feeling like this.“Hello? Merry?” I flinched in shock when I felt a soft nudge on my side. “Are you still there?”I realized that I have been lost in my own thoughts and that I have been quiet for a minutes. “Umm, sorry. Yeah, I was... I was lost in my own thoughts."“Thoughts? Would you mind telling what they were?” Harry asks and his voice sounded more intriguing.Thoughts? My thoughts is that you could potentially be someone important to me even though I don’t remember but the feeling’s just overwhelming. It’s too strong for me to ignore it.“It’s just nothing.” I answered as I was trying to recover myself. “But, we are all thankful to you and your generosity
CHAPTER 68 NAMEA M E R I C A North Carolina, USA There’s absolutely no way that he had an accident on the same day as I did because it’s already as eerie as it is right now. Wait, maybe I’m just thinking too much and it was just purely coincidental. But I have always been asking myself if the weird things that is happening right now which involves him are even real because I am still actually doubtful and scared of what’s really going on.There have been so many instances that are still unexplainable to me, like how that sketchbook got here and why I don’t remember drawing it but I see visions of myself holding a sketchbook and sketching on it by the beach. These visions are playing right in front of me as if I was watching a movie of myself that I didn’t know I starred in.The visions has been giving me so much feelings of longing and emptiness. Whenever I see them, I get a heavy feeling of missing someone that I don’t know who. This man in my vision has almost the same physical
CHAPTER 69 LUCKA M E R I C A The day finally came for the concert-for-a-cause and I was beyond nervous just thinking about how the entire even will go. Around noon, I arrived the venue with May and Claudine as they accompanied me and described how everything looked the moment we got on the huge lot.“Merry!” I hear Charles calling out my name from a distant and I kept a smile on my face to be civil with him since he has been nice to me the moment I woke up from my coma. “Wow.”I smiled tight-lipped. “Hey Charles.”“Hey. Um, what’s in that paperbag?” He asked.I held tightly on the strings as I begin to feel a little scared that he might see it. “A hug notebook?” He questions. “What’s it’s for?”“Yeah. I wanted to bring it with me.” I answered hastily.“I see. Well, it goes perfect with your baby blue dress.” He replied.I smiled, “Really? Wow, thanks.”“You’re looking beautiful today America.” Charles commented.“Um, thank you.” I answered shyly.“Oh come on Charles.” I hear Claudi
CHAPTER 70WELCOMING SPEECHA M E R I C A When I gave my welcoming speech on stage, I was nervous as hell even though I prepared myself numerous times last night. The good thing was, I was blind and I couldn’t see the audience so it made me less nervous but I did try to think that it was my advantage.I feared that the people might get bored but May and Claudine were the perfect hosts for the concert as they made the entire event even livelier.I can tell that the audience were enjoying because I can hear happy cheers. The sound of the applause from the audience put me in really good mood because I can tell that they are really having fun. I was so proud of the performers that even though I cannot see them, I can hear the songs they are singing and how they sound amazing on stage.In the back of my head, I wanted to see all of the performers on stage so badly but then I didn’t want to make myself feel bad just because of my condition since the event is successfully wonderful so far.
CHAPTER 70.1“I've waited a hundred years, I’d wait a million more for you.” Harry sings. “Nothing prepared me for what the privilege of being yours would do.”My heart begins to hurt so bad as he continues to sing the rest of the song. There was the this feeling inside my heart as if he left me and the feeling of nothing but complete sadness makes me yearn for something that I do not know what.Out in a spur of moment, I hear waves crashing from the shore as if I was by the beach which I wasn’t. The ultimate sound of silence of the night was accompanied with a melancholy music coming from the piano.Physically I am in the concert but spiritually, I see myself inside a dark living room of a beach house and I am sitting on a piano chair next to a man playing the piano soulfully.Emerald. I see nothing but emerald eyes looking back at me as he sings the words, “Your love is my turning page, only the sweetest words remain.”Drowning. I feel myself drowning because of these cavities of re
EPILOGUEPOT OF GOLDI have always been fascinated of the beach.There are so many things to do to enjoy and relax and there are a lot of sexy girls wearing bikinis almost looking like it is close to nudity. Yet, I love it. I love it all. I love watching girls in swim wears and how they play beach volleyball. Although I loved the sexual stuff of it, I have always thought that there is something about the sea that just calms my soul and my mind to a whole different level.I never really told anyone about it but it always has that kind of effect to me. Although no one knows much about it, I didn't want to look too softy on the outside being all sentimental about a petty thing.Everyone I know has always seen me as strong and very masculine with the way I dress, talk and act. With all the physicality that I have, everyone assumed that I am a cold-hearted tough guy. People who don't know me well would say I am an aloof. Kids and other townspeople would rather say I am scary. I have had a
CHAPTER 94 WELCOME HOMEM E R R Y Time: InfiniteWhere am I?Those were the first words I thought to myself.I looked around and found myself standing alone on the pristine beach. The water was gorgeously light blue and the horizon was insanely astounding. I paused and felt that I have said those same words somewhere before.Dejavu. It definitely seemed like it.Although I was lost, somewhere deep inside me felt like I was found. I felt surprisingly calm and warm as the sun was hitting my face. Sunlight always felt nice and even though most people don’t like to be under the sun for too long I think there’s something about it that’s calming at some point.Scorching was a word that would best describe the heat of the sun right now. I closed my eyes and felt the gentle and cool sea breeze passing through my hair and hitting against my skin. It was a bright sunny day but the wind felt chilly which provided a perfect balance. For a while, I stood there just feeling nature which was surro
CHAPTER 93 47 YEARSH A R R Y North Carolina, U.S.AForty-seven years laterSummerThe woman flinched as she spins around. Her eyes looked surprised as soon as she saw me. It was definitely her and I could never be wrong. It was the same face when we were in LUAHU but her hair was shorter now yet everything about her was the same. It felt so surreal seeing her again.“Diana, is it really…” I trailed off and realized how frightened and shocked she was. I realized that I was getting a little too suspicious and too close knowing that she is a young woman and I am an old man approaching her pettily. I didn’t want to look like a predator.I chuckled humourlessly, “I’m sorry.”She smiles wearily, “I’m sorry too but I think you have the wrong person?”I felt disappointed.“My name isn’t Diana.” She adds.I smiled tightlipped. “Of course. I’m sorry if I approached you like this and pretty much giving you a fright.”She shakes her head and smiles at me, “No, it’s… It’s not really a big deal.
CHAPTER 92 SATURNH A R R Y North Carolina, U.S.ADeath can seem cruel and unfair, especially when you feel someone has died before their time or when you had plans for the future together and growing old together.Death of someone we love is probably the most devastating experience that can ever happen to any of us.The loss and pain can strike you deeply and can shook your mental state of mind and your core.America died from a ruptured brain aneurysm that no one knew she had.All those terrible headaches, nausea, collapsing and drooping eyelids that she been complaining and experiencing, were signs of a grown malignant aneurysm after she was in coma. We all assumed that it was her pregnancy but the latter symptoms were already too late to figure it out that she was experiencing something so much more critical and dangerous.There were so many what ifs that I had after she died and so many regrets that I wished I did and didn’t do. There were so many things in my head and so much
CHAPTER 91.1I smiled as the heart monitor was echoing in the room in synch with the sound from the ventilator. “The second time was when you fainted a day before our wedding. I think your mom laughed at me when she saw me arriving the hospital because I looked stupid with what I wore as I was in a hurry.”I chuckle softly as I was remembering it. “Although I didn’t really notice how bad I wore until it was the morning. It was so funny, you should have seen it.”I placed her hand intertwined with mine against my lips, “That time, as I watched you sleep the entire night, I was able to write a short song. Do you want to hear it? I was never able to finish it though.”I rubbed the back of my forefinger against her cheek, “I’m sure you want to hear it. So give it a good listen, okay?” I speak to her.I cleared my throat as I tried my best to keep my shit together because I didn’t want to cry as I sing for her.“Sweetheart you look a little tired. When did you last eat? Come in and make
CHAPTER 91REALH A R R Y I was speechless and my felt as if my knees went weak and immobile.I wanted to say something but my mind went blank and I wanted to move towards Merry but because of shock, I just stood there completely frozen.My tears fell over my cheeks as soon as I see my wife looking horribly pale while the medics were giving her CPR. She looks lifeless, I thought to myself again and again and it pains me.My feet slowly drags me inside the room as my heart was getting heavier each time I get close towards where Merry was, My entire body was still completely shaken up with what I was witnessing what happening to her with questions fogging my head wondering what really happened to her.I can really feel my whole body quivering in fear, despair and weakness while my lips were trembling as I call out her name softly, “M-Merry…” My soft voice escapes my lips,“Sir, we request you to make way.” The medic instructed me.I shake my head vigorously because he cannot just leave
CHAPTER 90ANOTHER SONGSan Siro Stadium, BrazilThe crowd cheers for Harry as soon as he finished another song.His fans chanting his name continuously was ringing in his ear.The entire stadium was filled with girls screaming, chanting and cheering for him while he keeps a forced smile plastered on his face as he mouthed the words, “Thank you.”Despite how he loves entertaining his fans and performing on stage in front of people who paid this entire event just to see him, his mind was elsewhere and he couldn’t stop himself from doing so. It was evident in his eyes that he was searching through the front row near the stage if America had arrived, but she hasn’t. She was still not around and it made him even much more worried.He was not liking it especially that he hasn’t talked to Jordan about any updates regarding Merry.“I tried calling Ginny earlier and she said there was an emergency.” Those words keeps invading his thoughts making him feel uneasy on stage.“You are a lovely aud
CHAPTER 89.1“Useless?” He subtly moves his upper torso. “Have I ever made you feel like that? I’m sorry if--”“No no no. It wasn’t any of your fault. Like I said, I am grateful for you.”“So why do you feel useless?”“Because I always depend on you. I depend on you when I get out of bed, I depend on you when I need a shower, when I need to go somewhere, when I need to pee, when I need to clean myself as embarrassing as it has always been, when I change my clothes, every thing. Every single thing that I do that are basic things I need for myself on a daily basis, you’re doing them all for me.”“I don’t mind doing them.”“But I do.” I sobbed. “I do mind.”“I.. I’m sorry.” He says with a soft voice as we were now sitting on the bed while he tries to comfort me while wrapping his arms around me tight. “I’m sorry if I made you feel that way. Am I invading too much of your personal space?”I shake my head, “You don’t understand.”He pulled himself away and cups my face, “Then allow me to u
CHAPTER 89 IT WASN'TA M E R I C AMt. Sinai Hospital, North CarolinaHours before the wedding day“Are you sure you don’t want me in there with you?” Harry questions.I gave him a reassuring smile as I squeezed his hand a little bit, “I will be fine.”“So why you don’t want me in there with you?”“I just want to ask him a few things.” I answered nervously.“Like?” He asked.I pressed my lips together, “You trust me, don’t you?”“Of course.” Harry answers quickly.“Then trust me on this. It’s nothing serious.” I responded.He exhales heavily and felt him kissing the back of my hand. I love when he does that to be honest. He tells me, “Okay. I will wait here.”I smiled at her, “Thank you.”Harry walks me to the doctor’s office as he greeted us as soon as we entered his room. The doctor offered us a seat right away while Harry assist me before he plants a kiss on my hair. “I’ll be waiting right outside.”I nodded and smiled at him. I listened to his footsteps which were then followed b