CHAPTER 40.2William shakes his head, “That’s absolutely harsh, man.”“Harsh but Harry’s just being true to himself. Good decision though, Harry.” Liv backs me up.“Thank you Liv.” I responded. “Anyways, do you guys know anyone who could help me in finding this woman?”William takes the sketch and stares at it intently, “What if this woman is married? Or this woman is actually already very old and this was how she looked when she was younger?”“It doesn’t matter, I just want to see her. Something tells me that I should find her.” I answered sternly.“You’re smitten?” Liv quizzed.“It’s more than just being smitten. It feels like I really know her and I have been with her somewhere and… it’s crazy how this woman appears in my head out of nowhere after my coma when I have not even met her.” I explained something which was hard to explain. “If you were me, you’d be very much curious about this woman too.”“I wonder if this is the effects of the drugs that those doctors were giving you du
CHAPTER 41UNFILTERED CONFESSIONSA M E R I C ALUAHU has never been the same without Harry.Months after Harry went missing, the whole island has never been the same compared to the times when he was here with me. There was never a day that I never missed him because I could never move on from his pain since I don’t know how to anymore. I don’t know how to move on because I don’t want to move on.“Here you go.” Zion approaches me while we stay in this cafe as he hands me my fruit juice.I smiled, “Thank you.”He sits right across me while sipping his drink, “Your sad eyes tell me that you’re thinking about something. Or… someone?” His eyes looked concerned but inquisitive.I sigh heavily, “I still think about Harry. There was never a day that I never thought of him.” I smiled to myself as I stare at my hands before looking back at him, “Zion, should I follow him?”His eyes widened in shock, “To England?” He questioned while cocking his head to the side.I nod. “Maybe he is there? I r
CHAPTER 41.1As soon as we finished cleaning up, Zion volunteered to throw the trash while I tried to cover Diana with a blanket as she was comfortably sleeping on the couch. I walked to the veranda where I was welcomed by a very chilly wind that was brushing over my warm cheeks. My eyes travelled to the moon which was huge in the starry sky and it was really bright up there making me reminisce again to the days when Harry was still here because I don’t think I will ever forget about him or us. There was still no closure, explanation or anything from Harry and I have never been left this way before.Where are you now Harry?Do you still think about me?Do you still know who I am?Do you even miss me?Do I even cross your mind?“There you are.” Zion’s voice made me flinch a little as I see him stepping back inside. He walks towards where I was and joined me in the veranda. “I love being here at night.”I smiled softly, “It’s a nice view.”He nods as he finally stands next to me, “Not a
CHAPTER 42ADRENALINE RUSH AND ALCOHOLZ I O NI wasn’t able to sleep the whole night last night thinking and recalling about how I acted in front of Merry. It was definitely the adrenaline rush and the alcohol talking and I have never felt much worst. My conscience didn’t put me to sleep and I was absolutely fucking stupid for letting those words out of my mouth when I shouldn’t have had.You are incredibly stupid sometimes Zion. You have never actually embarrassed yourself in front of a woman before drunk or not and it has to be America.If I can only tell America how awfully sorry I am for the words I said and hope that my apologies would make everything go back to normal. Shit, I doubt. Jesus Christ, how am I going to face her after what I said? God damn it, I swear to God it was not my attention to confess to her in that awful way and it was never my intention to kiss her like that too. Especially those words I said about Harry, she must have taken in heartily and she must have b
CHAPTER 43CHANCES & CHANGESH A R R Y London, England“Wonderful Harry!” Frank says over the microphone from the control room before he smiles at me. I smiled back at him and felt thrilled to be doing this for the very first time in my life. I have sang before but not inside a studio and it feels totally nerve-wracking to be here. The pressure was surreal and even though the people who were around were totally nice to me, I still can’t help but feel all pressured. I hate this kind of pressure especially when they know that I am Jackson’s son. I hate how this whole thing feels more terrifying than being out on the beach catching some waves.It has been a long time since I sang for people, but in the back of my head I feel like I have sang an acoustic song in front of a crowd. I feel like I did sing a song but the song remains unknown and the whole thing is just absolutely vague. The only problem is, I don’t know when and where it happened but in the back of my head, I know I did.“
CHAPTER 44TRUTH ABOUT THE OTHER ONEH A R R Y Malé, MaldivesTree Top Hospital Rm. 477“You know me?” I couldn’t help but ask inquisitively.Her eyes glued on mine and for a second she seemed as if she snapped herself out from her deep thoughts. Subtly, she shake her head before she travelled her eyes back at me, “Sorry, what?”I blinked, “You sound like you know me.”“I… I don’t know why I said that.” She replied softly. “I’m sorry, who are you?”My feet begins to drag me towards where she was, “I’m so sorry for barging in like this. I’m Harry.”“Harry.” She says my name and it feels kind of different when she does so. “I’m Rose.”I know, I responded mentally.“W-What are you doing here Harry?” She asks while her eyes seemed inquisitive. “May I know why you came here to visit?”“I… I really came here to see you.” I confessed as I finally stand close right in front of her.“See me? You know me?” She asks.“Umm, I don’t… I don’t personally know you and you don’t know me for sure.”He
CHAPTER 45THE ALTERSH A R R Y Malé, MaldivesTree Top Hospital“W-What do you mean?” I asked again.“You didn’t know?” Jessica questions.I blinked at her and I was totally confused, “Know about what?” I quizzed, dumbfounded.“About Rose’s Multiple Personality Disorder.” Doctor Ali answers me and I was astounded with what I have found out. “She has four personalities living inside her.”He looked at me and I was completely shock with their revelation. At first, I didn’t want to believe it but then there’s a doctor discussing about this very confidential issue so it could be true. Rose has alter-egos and I can’t believe there is four of them inside her.“I thought you knew?” Doctor Ali adds.“I… I didn’t have any idea.” I answered completely in shock. “I mean all these days I spent with her, she didn’t… change.”“That’s why we are thankful because she is trying her best to control her alter-egos from taking over ever since you came.” Jessica tells me and she sounded so happy.I brea
CHAPTER 46THE LITTLE GIRL NAMED CALLIEA M E R I C A A lot of people say that the beach is therapeutic and I always agree to it. Watching the calming sea at dawn from the window of my art room heals me in a different way. The way the waters dance with the waves and how the sea makes the crashing sound as soon as it reaches the shore are profoundly miraculous when it comes to finding calmness and peace with your bothering thoughts.I have finally finished the sketchbook that I was supposed to give to Harry but I ran out of time and wasn’t able to give it. I finally finished filling everything in with the memories that I have spent with him and it makes me sad yet it makes me cherish those times we were together. I even included the eerie dreams I have had a week ago and I don’t think I will ever forget those horrible nightmares because it never felt so real when I woke up from it and how my heart felt tremendously heavy when I woke up. I find those dreams worth remembering so I decid
EPILOGUEPOT OF GOLDI have always been fascinated of the beach.There are so many things to do to enjoy and relax and there are a lot of sexy girls wearing bikinis almost looking like it is close to nudity. Yet, I love it. I love it all. I love watching girls in swim wears and how they play beach volleyball. Although I loved the sexual stuff of it, I have always thought that there is something about the sea that just calms my soul and my mind to a whole different level.I never really told anyone about it but it always has that kind of effect to me. Although no one knows much about it, I didn't want to look too softy on the outside being all sentimental about a petty thing.Everyone I know has always seen me as strong and very masculine with the way I dress, talk and act. With all the physicality that I have, everyone assumed that I am a cold-hearted tough guy. People who don't know me well would say I am an aloof. Kids and other townspeople would rather say I am scary. I have had a
CHAPTER 94 WELCOME HOMEM E R R Y Time: InfiniteWhere am I?Those were the first words I thought to myself.I looked around and found myself standing alone on the pristine beach. The water was gorgeously light blue and the horizon was insanely astounding. I paused and felt that I have said those same words somewhere before.Dejavu. It definitely seemed like it.Although I was lost, somewhere deep inside me felt like I was found. I felt surprisingly calm and warm as the sun was hitting my face. Sunlight always felt nice and even though most people don’t like to be under the sun for too long I think there’s something about it that’s calming at some point.Scorching was a word that would best describe the heat of the sun right now. I closed my eyes and felt the gentle and cool sea breeze passing through my hair and hitting against my skin. It was a bright sunny day but the wind felt chilly which provided a perfect balance. For a while, I stood there just feeling nature which was surro
CHAPTER 93 47 YEARSH A R R Y North Carolina, U.S.AForty-seven years laterSummerThe woman flinched as she spins around. Her eyes looked surprised as soon as she saw me. It was definitely her and I could never be wrong. It was the same face when we were in LUAHU but her hair was shorter now yet everything about her was the same. It felt so surreal seeing her again.“Diana, is it really…” I trailed off and realized how frightened and shocked she was. I realized that I was getting a little too suspicious and too close knowing that she is a young woman and I am an old man approaching her pettily. I didn’t want to look like a predator.I chuckled humourlessly, “I’m sorry.”She smiles wearily, “I’m sorry too but I think you have the wrong person?”I felt disappointed.“My name isn’t Diana.” She adds.I smiled tightlipped. “Of course. I’m sorry if I approached you like this and pretty much giving you a fright.”She shakes her head and smiles at me, “No, it’s… It’s not really a big deal.
CHAPTER 92 SATURNH A R R Y North Carolina, U.S.ADeath can seem cruel and unfair, especially when you feel someone has died before their time or when you had plans for the future together and growing old together.Death of someone we love is probably the most devastating experience that can ever happen to any of us.The loss and pain can strike you deeply and can shook your mental state of mind and your core.America died from a ruptured brain aneurysm that no one knew she had.All those terrible headaches, nausea, collapsing and drooping eyelids that she been complaining and experiencing, were signs of a grown malignant aneurysm after she was in coma. We all assumed that it was her pregnancy but the latter symptoms were already too late to figure it out that she was experiencing something so much more critical and dangerous.There were so many what ifs that I had after she died and so many regrets that I wished I did and didn’t do. There were so many things in my head and so much
CHAPTER 91.1I smiled as the heart monitor was echoing in the room in synch with the sound from the ventilator. “The second time was when you fainted a day before our wedding. I think your mom laughed at me when she saw me arriving the hospital because I looked stupid with what I wore as I was in a hurry.”I chuckle softly as I was remembering it. “Although I didn’t really notice how bad I wore until it was the morning. It was so funny, you should have seen it.”I placed her hand intertwined with mine against my lips, “That time, as I watched you sleep the entire night, I was able to write a short song. Do you want to hear it? I was never able to finish it though.”I rubbed the back of my forefinger against her cheek, “I’m sure you want to hear it. So give it a good listen, okay?” I speak to her.I cleared my throat as I tried my best to keep my shit together because I didn’t want to cry as I sing for her.“Sweetheart you look a little tired. When did you last eat? Come in and make
CHAPTER 91REALH A R R Y I was speechless and my felt as if my knees went weak and immobile.I wanted to say something but my mind went blank and I wanted to move towards Merry but because of shock, I just stood there completely frozen.My tears fell over my cheeks as soon as I see my wife looking horribly pale while the medics were giving her CPR. She looks lifeless, I thought to myself again and again and it pains me.My feet slowly drags me inside the room as my heart was getting heavier each time I get close towards where Merry was, My entire body was still completely shaken up with what I was witnessing what happening to her with questions fogging my head wondering what really happened to her.I can really feel my whole body quivering in fear, despair and weakness while my lips were trembling as I call out her name softly, “M-Merry…” My soft voice escapes my lips,“Sir, we request you to make way.” The medic instructed me.I shake my head vigorously because he cannot just leave
CHAPTER 90ANOTHER SONGSan Siro Stadium, BrazilThe crowd cheers for Harry as soon as he finished another song.His fans chanting his name continuously was ringing in his ear.The entire stadium was filled with girls screaming, chanting and cheering for him while he keeps a forced smile plastered on his face as he mouthed the words, “Thank you.”Despite how he loves entertaining his fans and performing on stage in front of people who paid this entire event just to see him, his mind was elsewhere and he couldn’t stop himself from doing so. It was evident in his eyes that he was searching through the front row near the stage if America had arrived, but she hasn’t. She was still not around and it made him even much more worried.He was not liking it especially that he hasn’t talked to Jordan about any updates regarding Merry.“I tried calling Ginny earlier and she said there was an emergency.” Those words keeps invading his thoughts making him feel uneasy on stage.“You are a lovely aud
CHAPTER 89.1“Useless?” He subtly moves his upper torso. “Have I ever made you feel like that? I’m sorry if--”“No no no. It wasn’t any of your fault. Like I said, I am grateful for you.”“So why do you feel useless?”“Because I always depend on you. I depend on you when I get out of bed, I depend on you when I need a shower, when I need to go somewhere, when I need to pee, when I need to clean myself as embarrassing as it has always been, when I change my clothes, every thing. Every single thing that I do that are basic things I need for myself on a daily basis, you’re doing them all for me.”“I don’t mind doing them.”“But I do.” I sobbed. “I do mind.”“I.. I’m sorry.” He says with a soft voice as we were now sitting on the bed while he tries to comfort me while wrapping his arms around me tight. “I’m sorry if I made you feel that way. Am I invading too much of your personal space?”I shake my head, “You don’t understand.”He pulled himself away and cups my face, “Then allow me to u
CHAPTER 89 IT WASN'TA M E R I C AMt. Sinai Hospital, North CarolinaHours before the wedding day“Are you sure you don’t want me in there with you?” Harry questions.I gave him a reassuring smile as I squeezed his hand a little bit, “I will be fine.”“So why you don’t want me in there with you?”“I just want to ask him a few things.” I answered nervously.“Like?” He asked.I pressed my lips together, “You trust me, don’t you?”“Of course.” Harry answers quickly.“Then trust me on this. It’s nothing serious.” I responded.He exhales heavily and felt him kissing the back of my hand. I love when he does that to be honest. He tells me, “Okay. I will wait here.”I smiled at her, “Thank you.”Harry walks me to the doctor’s office as he greeted us as soon as we entered his room. The doctor offered us a seat right away while Harry assist me before he plants a kiss on my hair. “I’ll be waiting right outside.”I nodded and smiled at him. I listened to his footsteps which were then followed b