She impulsively stepped back, her grip tightened. “Don’t come any closer. Don’t give me a reason to hurt you.” Again he stepped closer and she stepped back in response, her heart missing a beat. “Please stop Sir, I beg of you.” The tears threatened but she held them at bay.
Hands in the air in mock surrender, he said. ”You should really put the bag down. I doubt chrysanthemum could hurt anyone.” He put his hands down and sent the one bearing his cigar to his mouth for another drag. “My parents would not appreciate you hurting me. I am an only child you see, very much loved.”How did he know she had chrysanthemums in her bag? “How did you…? How were yo…? How did you know I have only chrysanthemums in my bag?” Her voice helped her thoughts.“I didn’t know you had only chrysanthemums.” He drawled. “They possess such lovely smell. Makes you want to smile all day long for absolutely no reason at all.” It wasn’t a sarcastic comment, it was simply a statement. He knew of flowers.He had no idea she held only chrysanthemums and she threw the knowledge right at his feet. She had been tricked, how wonderful! Her breath slowed down but her heart was still erratic. “Why were you following me?” She lowered her ‘weapon’. “What is it that you want?” He was quiet again. “What do you want?”“I don’t suppose you could give me what I want.” Her breath hitched again as his free hand found his pocket. “I wasn’t following you, at least, not until you started running. Thought you saw something, I want to be safe too.”He was scared? But he was a… “But you are a man.”“Men die too.” He stated flatly.That was true. “Where are you headed so early in the morning?” She demanded. “Isn’t it too early to be going about, frightening people?”He stared. “I could ask the same of you.” Then he continued as though angry, “And why were you running?!”Beth face-palmed and sighed deeply, wearied. This simple morning was slowly wearing her out. She wished she was anywhere else but on the road to the hill, with a complete stranger. “You were walking behind me; naturally I thought the worst and ran. Then you ran after me, scaring me even further.” She threw her bag over her left shoulder. In between running for dear life and holding up a discussion, daylight slowly crept in.His face was nothing as she had imagined. For someone with a voice as deep and broken as his, his face did him no justice. It was calm and unnerving, a total opposite of his voice, which could be frightening if put into good use. There was no expression on his face, not even the anger she thought she heard. She couldn’t tell much from his expression and the light, but it definitely showed strength and struggle. And he had height – she stood small before him. He stared at her and she, at him. “It was never my intention to frighten you, but I did. I deeply apologize.”Okay! Misunderstanding cleared. Now she needed to get out of there, refusing still to trust him. “Alright. I suppose that settles things. I apologize for my thoughts.” Beth bowed slightly and waited for a reply, when nor was forthcoming, she started to walk away until his voice called out to her.Somehow, it was softer. “You never answered my question.”She turned. “What question?”He walked closer to her. A tad too close making Beth step back into the grass, tensed. This gentleman was totally oblivious to how nervous he made her. “Where are you going?”She relaxed a bit. “Uphill.” Her finger pointed in the direction. She reprimanded herself immediately. How could she tell someone she didn’t know of where she was headed? What if he really wanted to harm her? Still, something about him made her feel at ease, his height probably, or his commanding voice, or the aura that accompanied him. “Where are you going?” She returned.He only stared again. When Beth thought no reply was to be heard, she nodded and made to leave. “I don’t know.”His answer was totally unexpected. Who knew not where they were headed? “Then I suppose any road will take you there. Have a good day, Sir.” She bowed and started walking away and he started after her. Her heart skipped a beat. “Are you going uphill? Is that what you’ve decided?”He pulled another drag of his cigar, tossed the butt and crushed it underneath his boot. “Courtesy demands I ensure you arrive at your destination safely.” She stopped and he paused too. “The people need to be protected from you and your vocals.”“That is very much kind of you Sir, and I sincerely appreciate your kindness, but I assure you neither I, nor the people need your courtesy. And, I’d rather be alone on this day, someone dear to my heart awaits me.”“Your husband?”“I am unwed, Sir”“A lover?”“I have no such, Sir.”“The one you are promised to then?”“I am promised to no one. I own myself.” Stopping abruptly, Beth decided this has gone long enough. She was surprised she could hold the conversation so long. “Thank you for your courtesy and kindness but I would rather make this trip alone.” Waiting for his reply and getting neither an acceptance nor rebuttal, she bowed. “I’ll take my leave.”His voice stopped her yet again. “Who are you? I don’t think I’ve had the pleasure to make your acquaintance.”She turned slightly again, worried. Why was he delaying her? Was it some sort of tactic? “I am a young woman who has prior engagements she wishes to attend to. Who are you, Sir?”He made a sound. His eyes perused her and then came the surprise. “You don’t know who I am?” Beth kept her eyes on him and his surprise grew. “You really do not know.” He repeated, more to himself than her.Who was he? “Am I obligated to?” She murmured. Faraway in the eastern horizon, the sun rose with a signal of pale yellow light, illuminating the blue sky. Beth bowed again to the gentleman. “I didn’t know of the obligation to know who you are, so I apologize.” Of course, she was insincere. “And I thank you for your consideration to see me safely to my destination but I would politely decline and appreciate it if you would delay me no further. I wish you good luck and safety to wherever it is you finally decide to go. Good day Sir.” Beth turned, picked up her skirt and ran uphill, leaving him as she realized he wasn’t going to offer any answer to her apology or gratitude.Again came his voice, ringing out, louder. “Will it be possible I see you after today?”She yelled back to him. “I don’t suppose so.” And God knew she wanted far away from him as possible. In the time they were together, he had frightened, entertained, annoyed and scared her. She wished never to see such an egocentric man, be it a Lord, or otherwise.She ran nonstop, grasping at the little air her lungs could take in, pushing herself forth to gain more grounds. Her bag rode on her hip and she struggled not to ruin the flowers anymore than it has been, for minutes ago, it was her most trusted ally.Higher ground! She needed to get to a much higher ground. No, she needed to find the perfect spot, to watch the sun rise, the right place. Pushing herself even more, she ran with all her might, until finally, she found the highest spot. She was out of breath; but it was perfect.And so was the sun rise.* * *From a comfortable position on the bed, Beth watched as Lucy added even more rouge to her cheeks and smiled at the mirror – she looked beautiful. Her ever unruly hair danced on the side of her face as she turned to look more upon her makeup. Gwen sauntered into the room, looking beautiful as well.“Beth, Aunt Marrily said to come to the door in ten minutes.” She approached the mirror. Lucy gave her a thin blue sash.Beth pushed herself down on the bed and closed the book she held, dog-earing where she was. “I told earlier that I want no part of this ball. How best should I say this?” She lifted herself to her elbows. “I do not want to attend the ball.”“Mother!” Lucy turned to the door. “Beth says she won’t attend the ball!”She jolted up. “Lucy!”“What is this I hear?” Aunt Marrily was immediately at the door, hand on her hip. “Why would she not…?” Her Aunt stepped into the room. “Why wouldn’t you want to go to the ball? This is the very reason I asked my sister to send you ove
The ball was as loud and entertaining as any ball could be. Beth was reminded of the few balls her Mother had forced her to attend before giving up the idea, when she realized that Beth truly did not intend to marry. The ball was welcoming to all who loved and hated attention. The hall was large and accommodated the peers of the gentry, for as many that could visit Carlisle and grace the party. Lucy had told them that balls hosted at Carlisle Crest, home to the Duke of Carlisle, were never dull, and it was soon turning out to be shockingly true.From the moment they arrived, the music, the dance and wine opened up to them, and Aunt Marrily wasted no time in passing them over to whichever gentleman came to ask for a dance. By the time Beth had her first drink for the night, she had danced with six different bachelors and her feet were starting to hurt.She quickly escaped her partner as soon as the song was done, and retreated to the wall to gain back her composure, standing, hiding, a
Their Aunt approached them, two fine gentlemen on either side; her smile was broad and naughty. She stopped briefly to hold a discussion with Lucy, introducing the men to her. Beth straightened her stance while Gwen patted her hair again. “You seem happy.” She observed the younger girl.“I enjoy the attention.” She whispered. “I choose to. Hold up your best smile, else Aunt Marrily will never forgive you.”Their faces lit up immediately as their Aunt finally stood before them. “Go easy on the wine, sweet child.” She warned. Gwen turned red but Aunt Marrily didn’t care. “Sir George, these are my nieces, Beth and Gwen. Beautiful, are they not?” Ignoring whatever reply the men would have given, she continued. “Girls, this is Sir George, a fine Cavalry soldier, second son to the Earl of Moore.”“Lovely to make your acquaintance.” He shook both their hands, kissing hers on the knuckle, holding on longer until Beth slowly withdrew. He gave her a too-bright smile.A smile stuck in place on h
She lifted her head, surprised he had heard her. The moonlight danced on her face again. Flustered, she said. “By my standards, I am. I am quite a meticulous being.” She turned to him and tried to make out his face but the light from behind made her effort fruitless. Somehow, he stood on the spot where she couldn’t see him, maybe on purpose. “I can't handle alcohol well,” she continued, “but tonight I am on the bridge, questioning if to cross.” She smacked her lips and whispered. “Maybe I will. That might just be enough for Aunt Marrily to leave me be.”“You don’t enjoy parties? Or is it this particular ball you are against?” He drank from his glass.She thought for a moment. “This ball is amazing, and parties are wonderful, but my ever-forward and free-spirited Aunt has introduced me to every gentleman in that room.” She threw her head in the direction of the ballroom. “I think I have had my fair share for a lifetime.”“That cannot be true.” She turned to him. “You weren’t introduced
This time she laughed lightly, her hand still over her mouth. “I suppose one does, for your sake.” She leaned again on the railing, this time, putting up enough distance between them. “The view from up here is beautiful.”She commented, he said nothing. After a while, “You are Carlisle.” He looked to her. “On the hill, why did you say you were an only child?”He looked away. “Because I am. ““You mentioned both parents. You only have a Mother.”Nothing.Maybe she had been rude. The silence that followed was at first unnerving and scary, but soon it brought comfort, as they listened to the music flowing in from the ballroom and the gay laughter of men and women. Beth closed her eyes and nodded her head slowly to the beat, enjoying it as much as she couldn’t when she was in the ballroom. The breeze swayed the garden's trees again, but she was content enough to not care about anything.He tapped the railing twice. “How is your wound?”She opened her eyes. “What wound?”“From this morning.
She inclined her head, struggling to keep her emotions at bay. “Hate is a strong word.”“And yet not strong enough to convey the feelings you harbour against him.” She looked away, shaken that he could see through her. “Did he pursue you with dishonourable intentions?”“No!” She wished it had been her. He should have pursued her so.“Were you abandoned at the altar?” He threw his cigar to the ground and crushed it.She exhaled deeply. “Please, Your Grace, It was nothing of the sort. Believe me.” His hoarse voice, rather than annoy her with the badger of questions like the morning before, appeased her for he wasn’t a sycophant trying to please. And why should he try to please her? He was higher than her in wealth, status and in every possible way.When she lifted her head, he was walking closer, she oddly stepped back, unsure of the reason for her action. He stopped and said. “I am intrigued. What was it?”“Please, Your Grace, I mean no disrespect, but I would rather not dwell on that
The sound of the opening door woke Charles from his sleep. With the interval balance of the footsteps, coupled with the implicit knowledge that none other would visit his bedroom without his permission, especially when he was in, he knew right away that it was Albert, his valet.Charles opened his eyes slightly and saw the young man pulling back the curtains. "Did she make it?" His voice was broken from sleep and almost inaudible.Albert was startled. "Your Grace, I am sorry to disturb your sleep. I only wanted to draw back the curtains." He bowed.Charles turned to lay supine, ignoring the apology. "Black? How is she?"Albert stood upright, held his hands together. "As was feared, Your Grace, she passed away last night. The stable hand said it was painless and peaceful."The covers fell to his hips as he sat up. Albert quickly rushed to him, picking up his robe and helping him put it on. "Death is never painless. Peaceful maybe, but who has discovered it out?" He rose and walked to t
He closed his eyes and exhaled sharply, enjoying the warmth of her tender hand to his face. "I do not. If I did, I wouldn't be marrying her, would I?""Do not think me a fool or one oblivious to how you address her with such distance. You did not treat your mistresses with as much distance as you treat her." Charles almost scoffed. What did she know about his past mistresses? She touched his shoulder. "You do not hate her nor do you share affection with her." She stated.He didn't reply. It was known to all that his relationship with Lady Cossington was simply for power and to honour his Father's wish, to do his Father's bidding. For the sake of dignity and his Father's honour, he had remained engaged to her for four years.Four years! Charles thought. It had been long enough. He had postponed it enough in the hopes that he would finally get a reason, whatever it may be, to not live by the wish of his father. Or maybe deep down, he hoped that the Cossingtons would ask that the engagem