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From a comfortable position on the bed, Beth watched as Lucy added even more rouge to her cheeks and smiled at the mirror – she looked beautiful. Her ever unruly hair danced on the side of her face as she turned to look more upon her makeup. Gwen sauntered into the room, looking beautiful as well.“Beth, Aunt Marrily said to come to the door in ten minutes.” She approached the mirror. Lucy gave her a thin blue sash.Beth pushed herself down on the bed and closed the book she held, dog-earing where she was. “I told earlier that I want no part of this ball. How best should I say this?” She lifted herself to her elbows. “I do not want to attend the ball.”“Mother!” Lucy turned to the door. “Beth says she won’t attend the ball!”She jolted up. “Lucy!”“What is this I hear?” Aunt Marrily was immediately at the door, hand on her hip. “Why would she not…?” Her Aunt stepped into the room. “Why wouldn’t you want to go to the ball? This is the very reason I asked my sister to send you over.”“You asked Mother because Lucy is lonely.” Beth point blanked. “And because you feel Lord D’Averette might ask to court Lucy, and you want to make a strong impression, of how close-knitted our family is.”Her Aunt cleared her throat, looking guilty, while Gwen and Lucy giggled from behind. “You would never utter a word in public but rain on us any slight chance you get.” She waved aside. “That may be true; still I used the excuse of a ball to get your Father to agree. I see no reason why you wouldn’t want to make full use of my ill-thought excuse. You are too quiet around the peerage.” She sat herself down beside Beth. “The ball promises to be fun, besides eligible young gentlemen would be in attendance. Who knows we might finally be planning your wedding in a few months.”Her Aunt would be shocked, and perhaps, proud if she ever found out that she held up a conversation with a stranger on a lonely road. “That being the exact reason I'm refusing to attend. I don’t ever want to be wed.”“Nonsense!” Aunt Marrily shot up to her feet. “Everyone wants a husband, or a wife in the case of a man.”“But I don’t.” She didn’t want a husband. That wish had die on the hill that very day.Aunt Marrily stared her down. Beth blinked. “Don’t be silly child. You should refrain from uttering such complete nonsense.”“I want my very own husband,” Lucy threw herself on the bed and playfully pushed at Beth, who quickly rescued her book from underneath her cousin. “A home for myself to tend to lovingly; children to surround me in my old age, and ornaments to adorn myself.”“Someone like Lord D’Averette?” Gwen asked with a smile and Lucy quickly blushed. “He doesn’t have to be rich or titled, be good to me is all I ask.” Gwen added much to Beth’s despair. How could she even think of marriage after all she had been through? “And a kitchen to reign supreme.” She added smiling.Aunt Marrily waved a finger in her face. “Listen to them, you are much older, I suppose I thought you knowledgeable.” She tsked with a slight shake of her head. “I guess I was wrong. Get dressed immediately, it doesn’t matter if you want a husband or not, your family wants for you, therefore you and every other person in this household will attend the ball.”“But I don’t feel like it.” She said under her breath.“But Beth, it’s your birthday.” Gwen whined, leaning on her.She stroked her little sister’s face. “Precisely.” There was no reason to be happy, no reason at all to celebrate.“But why wouldn’t you?” She raised her head. “You always walk around the house sad on your birthday. You wouldn’t let us celebrate it for you or with you, Father and Mother are eagerly looking forward to the day you would permit us a ball – or at the least, a dinner – in honor of you.” Her eyes fell as she added sadly. “He would want you to enjoy yourself too.”Beth smiled softly. “I don’t want a ball in my honour. Also, our economic status wouldn’t allow us a ball.”“Nonsense!” Aunt Marrily’s voice resounded. “Your parents have let this go on for far too long. The sooner you choose to understand that you are not at fault and lay that issue to rest, the happier everyone would be.” She frowned. “What business of yours is it with the economic status of your parents? Get married and worry about the economic status of your husband and your household.”“Don’t worry Aunt Marrily, such a time will never see the light of day. Like I said, I have absolutely no intention to be a wife.” And that was final.“How brave you are behind closed doors.” Aunt Marrily’s stare grew intense. She crossed her hands over her chest. “Are you a mistress?”Beth was beyond shocked. “I beg your pardon?” Gwen and Lucy exploded with laughter. “I most definitely am not.” What was her Aunt saying?“Are you pining after a love that can never be yours then?”She breathed out. “I assure you, Aunt Marrily, there is no one. There is nothing of the sorts.”“Then you must have gone mad.” Aunt Marrily concluded, laughter exploded from the younger girls again. Beth chuckled but quickly fixed her face. “I see no other reason for your utterances. Whatever it might be,” she waved off, “that is your concern. The ball awaits, and attend we must.”“But Aunt Mar…”“Shh! Not a word more. I have had it with you and your stubborn, quiet ways.” She turned and began to order out instructions. “Lucy, hold your hair up with a ribbon, it is always so uncontrolled; this is your Father’s fault.” Gwen and Lucy giggled again. Uncle Fitzwilliam did have wild hair too. “Gwen put more colors to your cheeks, and Beth,” she looked her over. “Why do you still look like a housekeeper? You had better be dressed for when I call you lots down.” Her words rang with finality. “Now excuse me for I must see to my husband.” She smiled at Beth, clasping her hand bashfully. “That felt good to hear, didn’t it?” Before Beth could refute, she danced out of the room.Lucy laughed. “She is always so giddy.”“She married right.” Gwen noted as she got out of bed, pulling Lucy along. They rushed back to the mirror and set to obey Aunt Marrily’s instructions.Lucy turned back to Beth, hand in her hair, “They make me believe in marriage and the possibility of a good home all the time.” She struggled with her hair, forcing it into the ribbon tie, but it escaped every time she thought she had it secured. Finally getting just enough to stay still, she gave up on the fight. “Up, up cousin,” she called from the mirror to Beth, “we’ve got a ball to prepare for and a rogue of bachelors to rile.”Beth groaned but got up reluctantly. No one dared to disobey Aunt Marrily, not even Uncle Fitzwilliam. When they were called down later on, all three girls were looking beautiful and presentable.The ball was as loud and entertaining as any ball could be. Beth was reminded of the few balls her Mother had forced her to attend before giving up the idea, when she realized that Beth truly did not intend to marry. The ball was welcoming to all who loved and hated attention. The hall was large and accommodated the peers of the gentry, for as many that could visit Carlisle and grace the party. Lucy had told them that balls hosted at Carlisle Crest, home to the Duke of Carlisle, were never dull, and it was soon turning out to be shockingly true.From the moment they arrived, the music, the dance and wine opened up to them, and Aunt Marrily wasted no time in passing them over to whichever gentleman came to ask for a dance. By the time Beth had her first drink for the night, she had danced with six different bachelors and her feet were starting to hurt.She quickly escaped her partner as soon as the song was done, and retreated to the wall to gain back her composure, standing, hiding, a
Their Aunt approached them, two fine gentlemen on either side; her smile was broad and naughty. She stopped briefly to hold a discussion with Lucy, introducing the men to her. Beth straightened her stance while Gwen patted her hair again. “You seem happy.” She observed the younger girl.“I enjoy the attention.” She whispered. “I choose to. Hold up your best smile, else Aunt Marrily will never forgive you.”Their faces lit up immediately as their Aunt finally stood before them. “Go easy on the wine, sweet child.” She warned. Gwen turned red but Aunt Marrily didn’t care. “Sir George, these are my nieces, Beth and Gwen. Beautiful, are they not?” Ignoring whatever reply the men would have given, she continued. “Girls, this is Sir George, a fine Cavalry soldier, second son to the Earl of Moore.”“Lovely to make your acquaintance.” He shook both their hands, kissing hers on the knuckle, holding on longer until Beth slowly withdrew. He gave her a too-bright smile.A smile stuck in place on h
She lifted her head, surprised he had heard her. The moonlight danced on her face again. Flustered, she said. “By my standards, I am. I am quite a meticulous being.” She turned to him and tried to make out his face but the light from behind made her effort fruitless. Somehow, he stood on the spot where she couldn’t see him, maybe on purpose. “I can't handle alcohol well,” she continued, “but tonight I am on the bridge, questioning if to cross.” She smacked her lips and whispered. “Maybe I will. That might just be enough for Aunt Marrily to leave me be.”“You don’t enjoy parties? Or is it this particular ball you are against?” He drank from his glass.She thought for a moment. “This ball is amazing, and parties are wonderful, but my ever-forward and free-spirited Aunt has introduced me to every gentleman in that room.” She threw her head in the direction of the ballroom. “I think I have had my fair share for a lifetime.”“That cannot be true.” She turned to him. “You weren’t introduced
This time she laughed lightly, her hand still over her mouth. “I suppose one does, for your sake.” She leaned again on the railing, this time, putting up enough distance between them. “The view from up here is beautiful.”She commented, he said nothing. After a while, “You are Carlisle.” He looked to her. “On the hill, why did you say you were an only child?”He looked away. “Because I am. ““You mentioned both parents. You only have a Mother.”Nothing.Maybe she had been rude. The silence that followed was at first unnerving and scary, but soon it brought comfort, as they listened to the music flowing in from the ballroom and the gay laughter of men and women. Beth closed her eyes and nodded her head slowly to the beat, enjoying it as much as she couldn’t when she was in the ballroom. The breeze swayed the garden's trees again, but she was content enough to not care about anything.He tapped the railing twice. “How is your wound?”She opened her eyes. “What wound?”“From this morning.
She inclined her head, struggling to keep her emotions at bay. “Hate is a strong word.”“And yet not strong enough to convey the feelings you harbour against him.” She looked away, shaken that he could see through her. “Did he pursue you with dishonourable intentions?”“No!” She wished it had been her. He should have pursued her so.“Were you abandoned at the altar?” He threw his cigar to the ground and crushed it.She exhaled deeply. “Please, Your Grace, It was nothing of the sort. Believe me.” His hoarse voice, rather than annoy her with the badger of questions like the morning before, appeased her for he wasn’t a sycophant trying to please. And why should he try to please her? He was higher than her in wealth, status and in every possible way.When she lifted her head, he was walking closer, she oddly stepped back, unsure of the reason for her action. He stopped and said. “I am intrigued. What was it?”“Please, Your Grace, I mean no disrespect, but I would rather not dwell on that
The sound of the opening door woke Charles from his sleep. With the interval balance of the footsteps, coupled with the implicit knowledge that none other would visit his bedroom without his permission, especially when he was in, he knew right away that it was Albert, his valet.Charles opened his eyes slightly and saw the young man pulling back the curtains. "Did she make it?" His voice was broken from sleep and almost inaudible.Albert was startled. "Your Grace, I am sorry to disturb your sleep. I only wanted to draw back the curtains." He bowed.Charles turned to lay supine, ignoring the apology. "Black? How is she?"Albert stood upright, held his hands together. "As was feared, Your Grace, she passed away last night. The stable hand said it was painless and peaceful."The covers fell to his hips as he sat up. Albert quickly rushed to him, picking up his robe and helping him put it on. "Death is never painless. Peaceful maybe, but who has discovered it out?" He rose and walked to t
He closed his eyes and exhaled sharply, enjoying the warmth of her tender hand to his face. "I do not. If I did, I wouldn't be marrying her, would I?""Do not think me a fool or one oblivious to how you address her with such distance. You did not treat your mistresses with as much distance as you treat her." Charles almost scoffed. What did she know about his past mistresses? She touched his shoulder. "You do not hate her nor do you share affection with her." She stated.He didn't reply. It was known to all that his relationship with Lady Cossington was simply for power and to honour his Father's wish, to do his Father's bidding. For the sake of dignity and his Father's honour, he had remained engaged to her for four years.Four years! Charles thought. It had been long enough. He had postponed it enough in the hopes that he would finally get a reason, whatever it may be, to not live by the wish of his father. Or maybe deep down, he hoped that the Cossingtons would ask that the engagem
* * *Beth did not say anything, she couldn't say a word. Time and again, she had found herself rendered speechless by the Duke of Carlisle. His words and the look in his eyes held her in place and time; she was stuck in the particular moment. It was a miracle she could breathe at all.When she had left Rosethorn Hill – her relative's home – for his, she had promised herself that she would not be entertained or marvel at whatever she would see, but as the Duke's coach drew closer to his home, she couldn't help herself; its size and beauty were breathtaking. For although she had visited it the night before, seeing it in daylight, though not materialistic, Beth thought one had to be happy simply working there. Tightly, she had clenched her dress in both fists, trying to hold on to her resolve but she had known it was a losing battle.The halls, as the butler had led her in, were even more amazing to behold than she had thought. And when she saw the portraits and the paintings of running