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BENEDYKTA
All my choices have always been monitored by society, and whatever I did didn't shy away from the media. Being the oldest kid of the Rebels made my life only difficult. As the only girl in the family, I've always vowed to work hard and prove that I was capable of handling the company better than my brothers. Let's just say that I wanted to be the first choice. In the family, nothing really gets handed to you, especially with my grandfather around; he's probably the one guy you need to impress, and I plan on doing that. There was a knock on the door, and I sighed deeply, keeping my gaze on the work I was typing. "Come in." A few seconds later, Monica walked in holding a few folders in her hands as she slowly made her way towards me. I adjusted my reading glasses. "What do you want?" I snapped. I hated being disturbed while I was working. My personal assistant looked timid, and it makes me wonder what I saw in her the day I chose to hire her. She placed the documents on the table. "Ma'am, these are documents about the upcoming meetings you have this week," she mumbled softly. I chuckled darkly, and I could see the fear on her face. "Get out." She swallowed hard and nodded eagerly, sprinting out of my office. I narrowed my eyes at the documents and noticed that one of the papers was sticking out. I pulled it out and began to read the letter, and halfway through it, my blood ran cold. It was him. I moved out of the chair, debating my next move. He was back. I ran my fingers through my hair and began thinking of how to get rid of him other than murdering him. There was only one man on earth who had gotten under my skin and into my head. Zane Gray. Was he back in the city? My mind kept reeling back to those memories, and I opened a drawer and took out some anxiety medication. This was my only shame. A secret I had vowed to take to the grave with me no matter what. Zane and I have history. We were childhood sweethearts, and most people thought we'd get married someday, and that almost happened because years later he proposed to me after my graduation. The timid me back then instantly agreed and didn't pay attention to the warning signs. Fuck, I was in love, and I'd do anything to be with him, to the extent of sabotaging my family's company. I slumped in my chair tiredly as tears filled me. My collected demeanor slowly fading away as I returned to the vulnerable girl on that horrible night. We were going to get married, and yes, there had been rumors of Zane sleeping around with one of my friends, and that was the last straw for me. That person shamelessly sent me their hotel room number and location, and I went marching there like a bull and caught them in the act. I beat up the girl so bad that she ran out of the hotel room half-naked. Then I turned to Zane. The man who was the bane of my existence. I'd sacrificed so much to be with him and made sure that his father's company was always on top. There was no remorse in his eyes. I only saw anger. A bed of roses seemed blissful at first glance, but it turned into a bloodbath. A color of romance now turned into a shade of death and betrayal. A safe house. I thought I'd be safe in the arms of my beloved, but I was wrong. I was just a pawn in his twisted game. Frozen with fear, I was trapped with a monster. This wasn't the man I fell in love with. Hands pinned against my will, but I still tried to fight back. My screams died out as the happy memories we shared this past year flashed before my eyes. Those memories were mocking me. With no remorse in his eyes, he tore my dress to shreds, leaving me vulnerable under his unforgiving gaze. How did I fall in love with such a cruel monster? Maybe I had turned a deaf ear to the warning signs. He forced his way into my body, and I cried out in pain. It felt wrong. My body felt it too. This wasn't love. He was killing me. I begged him to stop… nothing seemed to work. I felt disappointed in myself. I let this happen. I let him do this to me. I let him break me. “Stop overreacting, Ben," were the only words he could say to silence my sobbing. I felt used as he pulled away, staring at me in disgust because the sheets beneath me had turned crimson. He took my virginity and didn't bother to even use protection. I broke down crying, imagining what would happen to me if I got pregnant. What would I tell my parents? What about my dreams? His face softened, and he wiped my tears away, claiming that he was sorry. “I love you so much, Ben, but if you're going to be my wife, you need to know your place," he said, justifying his actions. I didn't believe it. I felt like I was on the verge of losing my mind. He reached to his nightstand and placed some money into my hands like I was some wanton prostitute he picked up on the streets. "Go to the pharmacy and get the pill." He drove me home that evening as tears continued streaming down my cheeks. I didn't report him to the police for what he did to me, but instead I chose to block him out of my life. I called off the engagement, and my family hated me for it. That horrible day still haunts my dreams. I don't think I'll be able to give myself the chance to trust or fall in love with anyone ever again because deep down, something will always hold me back. I don't know how to get past this. I don't know how to get back on my feet without stumbling with every step I take. I don't know what happiness feels like. I'm drowning in an ocean of dark, scary thoughts, and no one even notices that I'm sinking. We haven't spoken in six years, and the bastard decides to casually send me a love letter. There was a knock on the door, and I snapped out of a trance and wiped my tears away. I was back to being the cold-hearted bitch people always gossiped about behind my back. "What?" Monica's head popped in halfway, and I felt more pissed off than ever. She was trembling. "Your grandfather wants to see you, ma'am." I stood up and opened the door wider. "Who slipped a love letter into my documents?!" I yelled furiously. She went pale, and I could see the fear in her eyes. "I-I don't know, ma'am..." I chuckled darkly. "Consider yourself fired," I exclaimed sternly and walked past her, venturing to my grandfather's house. I took a deep breath and opened the door. My grandfather looked up; he gestured for me to have a seat. "It's nice to see you too, Grandpa." He didn't seem amused. "I have a proposal for you, Benedykta, and you're going to say yes if you want to redeem yourself." I didn't like where this conversation was heading. My grandfather was still holding a grudge against me because of the potential business ties we lost because I didn't marry Zane Gray. I released the breath I was holding. "Mr. Ambrose Esteban has offered to give a very tempting investment for our upcoming project and has promised to handle all the necessary funding." I was trying my best to hide the shock, but it felt like there was a catch. "What does he want in exchange for the investment?" I asked curiously and crossed my arms over my chest. My grandfather smirked in amusement. "This is why I like you, Benedykta, you're more intelligent than your brothers." He pushed some documents towards me. "Mr. Ambrose wants a stable, long-term relationship with our company and family, and what better way to strengthen the partnership than by getting you married to his son." I could feel the color draining from my face. "Why do I always have to be the scapegoat when it comes to making sacrifices for our company?" My grandfather maintained his poker face and adjusted his reading glasses. "You want me to marry some douchebag?!" Ben angrily yelled. "He's a very respectable man, and I'm sure that you'll like him. I chose the man myself; all you have to do is marry him, and the company is yours." That was all it took. He knew how hard I've been working to become CEO, and now he was using it against me. Only my signature was missing on the document, and the future husband took the liberty of signing it. Filled with rage, I stormed out of the office and went to the parking lot. I needed a drink. My grandfather was going to have his way, and I was going to be stuck in some loveless contract marriage.BEN POV“Kiss me…”The words barely left my lips before I realized what I had done.What I had asked for.But I didn’t take them back.I couldn’t.Because the way he was looking at me like I was something he had lost and somehow found again.It unraveled me completely.Ambrose stilled for a second.Just a second.Like he was giving me time to change my mind.I didn’t.His hand came up slowly, cupping my jaw, his thumb brushing just beneath my lip.“Ben…” he whispered, my name heavy with warning.With restraint.With everything we weren’t supposed to cross.“I know,” I breathed.I knew about Nolan.I knew about the past.I knew about how wrong this could become.And yet…I leaned into his touch instead of pulling away.That was all it took.His lips found mine again.This time, there was nothing hesitant about it.No careful distance.No restraint.It was deeper.Warmer.Like everything we had buried for eight years had finally broken free.My fingers tangled into his shirt, pulling him
BEN POV The moment the car stopped, I was out. “Ben—” “I’ll call you,” I lied, shutting the door before Nolan could say anything else. I didn’t look back. I couldn’t. Because if I did… I might break in front of him. Clay opened the door before I could even knock twice. His brows furrowed instantly. “What happened?” And just like that…I shattered. “I heard the heartbeat…” I cried into his chest, gripping his shirt tightly. “Clay, I heard it… it was so strong and—and real…” “Hey… I’ve got you,” he murmured, holding me steady. I pulled back slightly, wiping my tears. “And then Nolan…” my voice cracked. “He said I don’t have to keep the baby.” Clay froze. “He said what?” “He didn’t say it directly,” I rushed. “But that’s what he meant… like I’m trapped. Like this baby is a mistake.” Clay exhaled slowly, trying to keep calm. “That’s not his decision,” he said firmly. “I know,” I whispered. “But it still hurt.” We sat down, and I rested my hands over
**BEN POV**Maybe it was the right thing to do, I thought to myself as I scribbled down my signature on my resignation papers. I looked at Alessia, who was peacefully sleeping on the sofa. She had a bit of a fever, so she missed school today. A part of me was asking if I was doing the right thing. Asher couldn’t stand my mere existence, and leaving New Way Group was the best decision. I worked hard to become CEO, but my sleepless shifts and sacrifices got swept under the rug, all because of a mere golden boy. As they say, blood is thicker than water. I wasn’t even a Rebel to begin with. A lone tear rolled down my cheek, and I wiped it away hastily because this wasn’t the time to be weak. I closed my laptop after sending my resignation letter to my grandfather since Asher wanted the hardcopy documents. Knowing his ego, he would gladly display them in a picture frame and place them on the wall for everyone to see. My phone began ringing, and my grandfather’s name flashed on the scree
AMBROSE POV Her words hit me like a freight train.“I’m pregnant.”The world slowed to a crawl. Snow swirled around us, muted by the weight pressing on my chest. My gaze instinctively dropped to her stomach, and my mind raced.It wasn’t mine.It had to be Nolan’s.My son. My own flesh and blood. And yet… the thought of it made my chest twist in ways I couldn’t explain.I should have been happy for her. I should have congratulated her. But all I could feel was a strange mix of shock, longing, and jealousy....jealousy at a life I had no claim to, at a son I barely knew, at a future I hadn’t imagined.I forced a tight swallow and said, “Congratulations.”Ben froze. Her body stiffened, her arms wrapping tightly around herself. Her gaze bore into me, sharp and accusing.“Congratulations?” she repeated, disbelief and pain in her voice. “That’s all you can say?”I took a step back. “Ben… I—”“No!” she snapped. “Don’t. Don’t call me that. You disappeared eight years ago, Ambrose. You left m
AMBROSE POV “Are you happy now?” Matteo taunted after watching my third mental breakdown. A part of me was always scared, thinking that I should have told Ben the truth while she was here. I sighed deeply, gulping down my third drink. “If she means a lot to you, why don’t you just call her and tell her the truth? Who knows, she might even forgive you.” I stared at him in disbelief. “Don’t think that I’ve forgotten what you did.”His eyes widened in surprise. “What are you talking about, Ambrose?” I rolled my eyes at him. “I saw you cozying up to Benedykta while she was still here… were you doing it to mess with me?” He smirked. “Ben is a nice girl who recently got divorced. She might be a single mother right now, but she looks good for her age. Since you don’t want her, I might as well take my shot.” I stood up, glaring at him. “Don’t even think about it,” I warned. Matteo raised his hands in defense. “Do not cross me, brother, or else you will be dead to me
BEN POVWhen the nurse finally left the room, I was in sheer shock. Nolan slumped on the floor. I kept replaying her words over and over in my head. This didn’t make any sense. I always took the pill when Nolan and I got intimate; how on earth did this happen? I pulled my hair, hoping that the pain would remind me that this was just a mere dream and nothing more. Nolan grabbed my hands, stopping me.Our eyes locked in a frenzy. He swallowed hard. “Did you…” he trailed off, trying to find the right words. I stared at him in disbelief. “Is it mine or my father’s?” he finally asked, his gaze fixed on my face. “Nolan…” I warned. He raised his hands in defense. “Don’t look at me like the bad guy, Ben, because I’m just trying to understand the gravity of this situation. The last time you wanted me to take responsibility for a child I didn’t even father… that child was my sibling. Do you understand how fucked up that would have been?” I remained silent, trying to calm myself. “I
BEN POV I had begged Clay to drive me back to my apartment, but he refused to let me spend the night alone, fearing that I would do something crazy—and he wasn’t wrong. Clay lived in a two-room apartment in town, and a part of me felt like I was invading his privacy. He went upstairs as I sat
AMBROSE POVI hadn’t heard from Nolan since the wedding was canceled, and ever since that horrible incident, his cellphone has been switched off. It was the same thing with Ben; she never answered any of my calls, but at least I had peace of mind because she was in the company of her best friend. I
BEN POVI was done with this damn family. I was done being the sacrificial lamb. This time I was going to live my life on my own terms, and no one was ever going to tell me what to do. Once I finally stepped outside, I took a calming breath because I didn’t want to start cryin
BEN POV The moment he finally left, I slumped to my knees and broke down crying. Why was I this way? I don’t know why I couldn’t just tell him the truth and get this over with, but something held me back. I broke out of my thoughts when I heard my phone ringing, and when I checked the caller







