CHAPTER 7: THE LETTER

Larry took her out of the acting class and they continued to walk down the corridor till they got to a secluded place and he dropped her hand.

he turned to her with a pained look and sighed as he ruffled his hair.

" Why? why Clarita? do you like him that much now? " he asked, even though his voice was calm, his anger and disappointment could not be hidden totally and Clarita could feel them vividly.

She lowered her head as she couldn't utter a single word. she felt guilty and ashamed . she was never like this, why has she changed this much just because she was already 18?

"" is this what they call puberty?" she kept asking herself but she had bigger problem now and that was to appease Larry.

It wasn't because she wanted to date him but she could have embarrassed him today if not that he was wise enough to twist the whole situation. She knew he liked her even though he never for once confessed it and she felt bad that the one she liked back was the cold and arrogant Nelson who did not even acknowledge her existence.

" Im... I'm sorry." was all she could say as she raised her head and looked at the eyes of her male best friend.. They've been friends for a very long time and there was a time, he was all she had, he was the only one that stood up for her and treated her like a princess when her very own parents ignored her.

" But... I really don't know what is wrong with me anymore..." she confessed as a single tear ran down her eyes. " I don't know this feeling nor do I know when it started, but ... I'm having silly and weird thoughts about Nelson these days and its getting to me... I'm worried and confused at the same time, Larry..." she added and Larry's pained face immediately turned to that of concern as he pulled her in for a hug.

" Its okay... you will be fine... It will be alright.. " he kept mumbling as he stroked her hair gently. he understood what her feelings meant and he felt really hurt to hear that from her but he was more hurt to see her crying.

" Are you sure?" Clarita asked, with her head still on his chest and he nodded.

" Very sure." he replied with a sardonic smile.

Class ended and Clarita went home with her driver.

she had a lot on her mind but what kept her heart beating the most was the confession her friends told her to work on. she knew lots of confession messages as she had received a lot from guys before but she wanted a more heartwarming message, one that Nelson won't be able to resist and one that would make him fall completely in love with her but the thought was giving her headache because all the ones that came to her mind were not pleasing enough to her.

" What am I supposed to do?" she asked herself inwardly.

She felt the urge to ask the chauffeur but the thought of what would happen to the chauffer if her father gets to know terrified her a lot and she decided to keep quiet.

Her father had stopped the workers from playing with her and talking with her like friends as he thought that would make his dear daughter less of a princess he wanted her to be. The only thing he could say to the workers was give orders and they would do it instantly.

She got home and threw her bag in the sitting room before walking to her room..

" Welcome Miss!" the maids greeted but she wasn't in the mood to reply as she scrunched her face together and entered her room, slamming the door hard behind her.

The maids all understood her plight and they always felt pity for her as they all wished to speak with her and choose the right path for her at all times but the consequence might be too much for them to bear.

" Argh!" Clarita groaned as she slumped on her bed and closed her eyes...

Soon... she was dragged into the land of dreams...

" Nelson!" she screamed, panting hard as she fell on the ground.

Nelson, who ignored her before, looked back when he heard the sound of falling and he rushed toward her.

" Why are you chasing me?!" he asked with anger filled voice as he stared at her injured toe that was bleeding.

he bent down and wrapped the wound with his clean towel and looked into her eyes " I can't love you, you should find someone that is good enough for you please..." He said painfully.

Clarita lost her words for her while as she looked back into his eyes with her eyes moist with tears.

" Why? why can't you love me?" she asked bitterly " Am I not pretty enough?" she asked again and he shook his head slowly.

he bent in to her and kissed her forehead... " No, it's because you are not brilliant enough. " he said and disappeared.

" Nelson!!!!" Clarita shouted as she jerked up in her bed and she looked at her room in shock.

" Was... that a dream?" she questioned herself as she wiped the sweat on her face but then.. she reminisced about how he kissed her forehead and she smiled...

" he kissed me..." she mumbled.

" But what?! I'm not brilliant enough?!" she shouted as if he really said that to her in real life.

" I'm brilliant! I'm brilliant, right?" she asked the little toys in her bed and slumped back in her bed again.

" Seems i have to start reading again. he might be harsh to me because I'm not as brilliant as him and I keep failing too. Hmmph!" she lamented.

She was in deep thought for a while before her phone rang out loud...

" Miss, Its time to shower." the duty tracker told her and she hissed.

she didn't feel like bathing but she knew the duty tracker app wouldn't stop ringing until she shower.

She had a very quick bathe and fell back in her bed...

" should I just ask my dad?" she asked herself " Maybe he can tell me how he proposed to my mum?" she added and her eyes lit up!

that was right! that was the best thing to do but then... Will her dad pick the call?

She picked her phone and started dialing her father's number. she dialed and dialed till her hands ached from dialing too much but her dad still did not pick the call.

" Argh!" she grunted with displeased face and decided to give up. " I should have known he will never pick it." she said to herself and closed her eyes.

Clarita resumed in school very early the next day with the love letter in hand. she was going to drop it inside Nelson's desk before anyone came around and see her.

" I don't want to get embarrassed just because I'm in love. " she said to herself as she entered his class and looked for his seat.

they were both second year but their class was different... " I found it!" she exclaimed inwardly and looked around to check if there was anyone watching her.

" I think there is no one watching me." she assured herself and smiled but a frown slowly crept unto her face as she looked at the table..

" A love letter?" she mumbled with confusion in her eyes as she picked the pink heart shaped card on Nelson's desk and checked the sender...

" This... who is this person?" she mumbled as she checked the card over and over again but what broke her heart was the fact that someone else sent card the same day she wanted to send her letter...

" Should I dispose this and drop mine?" she was confused with what to do.

She wished to drop hers but she did not want her heart felt words to be compared with someone else but then again...

she didn't want to betray someone else who was in love with Nelson too.

" I..." she was just about to say something when she suddenly heard footsteps coming toward the classroom and she quickly dropped the card, she turned around only to see Nelson walking into his class and she quickly hid her letter behind her.

" Hi!" she greeted and he stopped. he stared at her for a while as if he was going to ask her what she was doing beside his desk but he just walked past her without saying anything and she immediately rushed out of the classroom.

Hours later...

Clarita had spent all her morning being moody because of the letter she could not drop after spending the whole night writing it.

" You did not drop it, did you?" Binta asked and she shook her head.

" You!"

Clarita suddenly heard a familiar voice and she looked up only to see Nelson holding up a letter and looking at her with a deadly glare!.