AUSTIN.
I stared at the sleeping pup in the middle of my bed while thinking about all the actions I had taken in the last two weeks.
Everything happened so fast after I got a message from the tracker Jace told me to use to locate Lexi. The tracker said he found her in Orleans.
I didn’t waste time and took the first flight to that city.
She was already having a contraction when I arrived, and they had just finished giving her an epidural because she was having massive pain.
Lexi didn’t have a wolf, and they said she was carrying a big baby, so I could only imagine the pain she was going through.
They let me in when I told them I was the father of her baby, but I was quickly ushered out again when Lexi started screaming at me. I never felt so little and humiliated all my life until she threw those words at me. But I swallowed all of it, including my pride.
I asked her if I could see her delivery, and I wouldn’t even make a noise. She flatly said no. She told me I wasn’t there for the last nine months when she bore all her pains alone, so I didn’t have any right to be there to celebrate her child’s birth.
Her child. That was a dagger that struck directly into my heart.
I no longer cared about how the people around us in her room saw me. Some looked at me with pity, but most with disgust. Of course, Lexi made sure everyone knew I bailed out on her and our pup.
I was the bad guy. I swallowed that, too. I didn’t even defend myself because, in the state she was in, I knew she would never listen.
But I was also desperate. I needed to bring David home.
While on the way to Orleans, I got excited and called my parents, who were outside of the country, and told them to come home as I had someone I wanted them to meet.
Mom and Dad thought I had found my mate. So in the end, I told them they would meet their first grandpup.
Many questions came after that, especially from Mom, including if I had found my mate.
Not that they would be upset if I had chosen one, because we all knew that even before my parents found out they were fated mates, they were already set on choosing each other.
I didn’t want to lie, but I didn’t want to tell the truth either, at least not over the phone. So I told them that it was only the pup that they would get to meet first.
There was silence after that, but it didn’t take a while before Mom spoke and told me that no matter what situation I was in, she and Dad were excited to meet their grandpup and that they already loved him or her.
I knew I had the best mom, but at that moment, I silently thanked Selene because I didn’t get the scolding that I was expecting.
Instead, they shifted their attention to my pup, which was the most important factor in all this. They already loved him without any question. Something I wish I had done when Lexi told me about her pregnancy.
But it was too late for any regrets, and with Lexi’s refusal to even let me see our son, I was left with no choice. My parents were set to arrive, and she was still flatly rejecting me.
Lexi went into labor for almost a day and was sent to surgery immediately in the next hour after giving birth, as she had a big laceration. She had a hard time pushing David.
At that point, I was willing to beg and compromise until I saw someone visiting her, and I knew I never hated anyone as much as I hated the blond male who came in with flowers and balloons for her.
I couldn’t accept that she treated him nicely and totally differently from how she was with me. And it terrified me. He was taking my place in Lexi’s life. Or worse, from David’s life.
So I went to her room while she was still groggy from her medication and asked her to sign a waiver allowing me to take David home while she would remain in the hospital for another week or two so she could recuperate from her blood loss and make sure she would be back in shape before they let her go.
I paid the hospital bill in full and left a deposit for other things she might need. But I felt guilty, and I wanted to make sure she would never pay a single dime for this, so I left my card open so they could charge it if the deposit was not enough.
It was my way of apologizing because that same day, I took David home with me without letting her know.
“Say that again, Austin?” Davina, my fifteen-year-old sister, asked after she helped me change David’s diaper. Her eyes widened as if she couldn’t believe what I just said.
Of course, I just admitted that I lured Lexi into signing the authority form to discharge David while she remained in the hospital.
I had been home for a week, and so had my parents. But they had no idea I stole my own pup and that Lexi was the female in question. The only ones who knew who David’s mother was were Jace, Amara, Tyler, and Davina. All of them wanted me to tell my parents already, but I kept putting it off.
But today, I decided to tell Davina that I took David home without permission. I needed to tell someone to get it off my chest.
“Lexi will kill you.” She added.
“I know, but at least before I die, I get to spend time with David.”
“You should tell Mom and Dad.”
“No, I won’t. Not yet. Let them enjoy David for now before Lexi comes here and takes him away.”
“I don’t know where you are learning all these things, Austin. Mom will be so upset with you. First, you got Lexi pregnant. Of all the females you run around with, you chose Lexi. And then you abandoned her. And then you steal her pup.”
“It’s my pup too!” My voice went slightly higher, and Davina’s eyes widened as she placed a finger on her lips to quiet me down because David got startled.
“What I’m just saying is, you keep making mistakes after mistakes instead of correcting the first one.”
“You will never understand.”
“Of course, you will say that! Everyone around me keeps saying I will never understand, and it’s annoying already. I might be just fifteen, but I know what you did was wrong. What will you do if she arrives here?”
“Put you in between us.” I chuckled as I picked up David from my bed and began rocking him. “She loves you. She can’t be angry at you.”
“Dream on, Austin, but I will never defend you. Instead, I might help Lexi smash a pan on your head. Now go up there and tell Mom who David’s mother is and how you got him here.” Davina said with raised brows and a finger pointing to the door.
“Nice try, kiddo. But my life, my rules.”
“Karma hits bad, Austin.” She shook her head before she ran her finger on the bridge of David’s nose. “Daddy is such a bad boy, isn’t he? I hope your mommy doesn’t throw a fit and a knife at him when she sees him. But don’t worry baby, I will hold you, and we can watch them together until they figure out what to do with their lives.”
I chuckled, but I knew Davina was right. I was just waiting until my karma, with the name Lexi, would come and hit me.
But I guess I didn’t need to wait long because not even a week after I took David home, she returned to the Black Shadow Pack territory.
She came hurling like a tornado, ready to wreak havoc on everyone standing in her way.
AUSTIN. Tyler was still not okay after Garrett left the packhouse — the little pup that he thought was his. Although he was doing his job as he was supposed to, like the true Beta that he was, he would always be quiet, which was something new. So Jace and I were doing our best to help him cope and make sure he was not left alone all the time. We knew Tyler was strong, but there was only so much a man could take. We all tried to act normal while casually supporting him, while I kept pretending everything was okay on my end. I didn’t tell anyone my own problem, or should I say the problem I created? But what they say is true: all secrets will be revealed in time. Tyler, Jace, and I were at the front of the packhouse, just sitting on the steps and looking at the territory we ran when the sound of an approaching vehicle rang in the air. I heard the other two murmur as they wondered who it was, but with the way my heart was thudding loudly, I was already assuming the car was there
LEXI. I woke up still feeling tired, only to see my grandmother’s worried face as she spoke with one of the nurses, and my heart began thudding loudly. “Where is David? Can I have him?” I blurted out, hoping that whatever was worrying her had nothing to do with my son. “Lexi, we need to talk. But you need to calm down.” Nana said as she took a glass of water and handed it to me, but I couldn’t focus anymore. If I thought the pain of giving birth was the most torturous pain I had ever gone through. I was wrong. Austin was not done hurting me. And he doubled up with his fucked-up ways. I refused to believe Louise when she told me that Austin had taken my son and that I had allowed him to do it. Louise told me that she went out to buy things for me, but when she returned, both Austin and David were gone. But everyone in the ward said I allowed him. But who on earth would think I would let Austin hold him after he rejected him? I forced myself to stand up, even if everyone arou
AUSTIN. Everything around me happened so fast after Lexi arrived. While Dad calmed down, Mom didn’t. In just a matter of minutes, I was not allowed to see David for the rest of the night, and I was cast out of my own bedroom so Lexi and David could stay there. I didn’t even get to take anything, not even a pair of boxers, but it didn’t matter. I wasn’t complaining. They would stay for the night, and I was sure I had clothes in the basement in the laundry area. The important thing was that they were still here. And having her in my room meant Randall, the man she came in with here, would not have access to her. I also decided to take the room in front of that, and I planned to keep my door open the whole night. Aside from that, Jace placed him in the visitor’s building near the warrior’s center, so there was really no way he would be allowed inside the packhouse at night. An hour after Lexi arrived, I was still sitting with Dad in the Alpha’s office. Jace and Tyler had left us
AUSTIN. After my conversation with my parents, I continued with my routine. I tried to shove off any thoughts of Lexi and David. But after I made sure all reports were turned over and necessary instructions were discussed with my team, I called it a night. Marshall offered his company if I needed one, but I declined. I knew he meant well, but with Lexi and David leaving tomorrow, I was hoping I could get to talk with her and see David a bit more. I walked on my way home, contemplating how I would approach Lexi or if I would knock on her door. The streets were empty, and the night wind was so cold that it brought chills down my spine. I was comfortable with the cold and never bothered with it until now. Probably because I knew that was how my heart felt at the moment. Alone and cold. I knew I did this to myself, but even if I kept saying I regretted all the actions I took in the past, there was no use for them anymore. I needed to move on and do better. But I had no idea how.
AUSTIN. I was delighted when Lexi confirmed that she needed my help to ease the pain in her breasts. My hormones surged, and I wanted to keep the momentum by showing her how good I was at handling David. Perhaps I could also have a chance to get laid tonight. “Can I hold him?” I asked. I almost grabbed David, but I remembered Mom telling me to surrender all rights to Lexi at the moment so she could feel she still had David. I smiled at her, but she was just looking at me with a poker face. So, I guess I was not allowed to do it. “It’s okay. I understand. I just thought I’d try.” I added. “Go ahead. Maybe he will fall asleep fast.” She said, and my brows hiked up. I didn’t say anything more, and I turned around to take David. His face lit up, dropping the bottle as he beamed at me, and excitement brewed within me. Lexi could see how I was doing so well and how much David liked me. “There you are, little furball. Daddy missed you today.” I said in a hushed tone as I slowly tur
AUSTIN. We stayed quiet while our son drank from her nipple with the milk I was dropping on it. By the time David fell asleep, his little hand was already curled around Lexi’s finger. I had also moved and sat beside her, my arm resting on the backrest of the couch, just a few inches from her shoulders, while I still held the bottle with my other hand. We might look like one perfect family from the outside, but Lexi wasn’t talking and was just looking at David. If I asked her a question, she would just answer but would never start a conversation anymore. As much as I wanted to talk more, I just kept quiet and let her enjoy her quiet time with him. I also took the time to look at her. She lost weight. Her cheeks were shallower, and her eyes looked tired. Of course, she just gave birth, and after the tricks I pulled, she probably was not able to sleep or eat at all. Yeah, what the fuck was I thinking at that time? But if I didn’t do that, would I have this moment? Probably not. S
AUSTIN. “Suck my breast, Austin,” Lexi said out of nowhere. Earlier, when she let me into the room, I was excited, and thoughts of getting laid were my main motivation. But after witnessing her struggle to pacify and breastfeed David, I couldn’t find myself having the same enthusiasm for the idea of sucking her boobs. Don’t get me wrong. I would still do it — in a heartbeat! However, I felt fucking guilty, knowing I might enjoy it while she was in miserable pain. “I had no idea how to do it.” I blurted out. Lexi chuckled softly before she began laughing, but there was no sound coming out of her throat. I just knew it because her body was shaking and bumping against mine. “What?” I asked. “If those words came from anyone, I might believe them, but not you.” She was still laughing, and I couldn’t help but smile. She was sarcastic with that remark, but it was fun to see her let loose for a while. “Come here and suck them, Austin, before I totally lose my mind. And just so you are
AUSTIN.After my conversation with Dad and after I fixed my office, I went back to the packhouse for breakfast. I still hadn’t made up my mind about where I should go after I was laid off. Either I moved to my parent’s home or I lived on my own.Or maybe I could move to Bernice City so I could be near Lexi and David. I guess anywhere, but not the packhouse anymore. Although I liked the possibility of being near Lexi and David if I moved to the city, my heart shattered at the idea that I had to leave the house that had been my only home throughout my entire life.I tried to look at the positive side of all this, but I couldn’t.All I wanted was to be a Gamma, but maybe without it, I could focus on being a good father and co-parenting with Lexi. But I had no idea how I would get out of the pain of losing my title and my responsibilities.I entered the packhouse, and I was not in the dining room yet when I bumped into two Omegas, each with a tray of food in their hands.“Where are you