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Kiss For The Sin 84 The Reason Of My Existence
"Come here, mi hija" I blink my eyes when I saw the man who stood as my father calling me. My innocent mind is trying to figure out what he is trying to say. Although he I am comfortable to him, I could still feel the hesitation especially after I saw his three sons. The two seems doesn't care about me, but the other one's reaction was the opposite. The anger on his eyes is like trying to swallow me whole. Somehow, I felt scared that he might hurt me.Hesitant, I take a little step to come closer to him. He made me sit on the couch before he slightly kneeled down on the floor and show a picture to me. I saw a man who has a stern expression on his face that made me look at Luscio Costello."Who is he?" I ask in small voice."You don't remember him? He was the person who killed your parents, he was the one who burned your house" he told me.I confusingly look at him and then I return my gaze on the picture. As if on cue a series of vague images flash inside my head. I saw unfamiliar fa
Last Updated : 2022-11-30Kiss For The Sin 85 Threaten
"See you tomorrow, wife. Make sure to greet me nicely" he playfully mutter under his breath."See you tomorrow..." I whisper and end the call.I flash a small casual smile when I saw Nicolai heading straight to me. I wave his phone in the air earning a formal yet friendly smile from him. I cross my arms over my chest and roam my eyes around. The heat of the sun is starting to burn my skin and the cold morning breeze was replace with warmth wind. I think it's time for me to go back inside. It would be better if I spent the rest of the day resting because tomorrow is surely a big day not just for Sain Czar but also for me. Laurent's death was a big deal because she is Alcatraz, she is not just someone who came from the unknown mobster. Her family is a known assassins. They were the protector of Ildefonso family. Her role in the organization is huge. I should expect a lot of people. People from Ilde Famiglia."Are you done?" I flinch when I heard Nicolai's voice that drags me back to m
Last Updated : 2022-11-30Kiss For The Sin 86 Her Escape To Nightmare
"You should sleep early tonight, honey" my father said with a sweet smile plastered on his handsome face. I am busy watching movie while he is busy persuading me to go to the bed early for our family activity tomorrow in school. "Do you want to be late tomorrow?" He threaten that made me pout and look at him. "I'm still watching Dad, please..." I whisper. He laugh and pinch my cheek before fixing my long black hair. He was about to say something but then his phone ring so he stood on his seat and walk away. My gaze unconsciously follow him. I saw him walk outside, he's having a serious conversation with the person on the other line so I smile thinking that my father is finally busy so he doesn't have time to disturb my movie marathon. But after a couple of minutes Dad return on my seat and suddenly turn off the television that made me frown. "Daddy!" I scream but he smile warmly. "You can continue watching on your room, honey" he patiently said. "Why? I want to watch here bec
Last Updated : 2022-11-30Kiss For The Sin 87 What Is My Nightmare
His voice lingers on my ears. He sound serious. Dead serious. I press my lips together and blink at him in disbelief. How did he came up in that kind of conclusion? Am I really look fragile that made him think that I'm scared after everything that happen this week and he was not with me. I mentally laugh. I shake my head and look away biting my lower lip. "You're over thinking" I shifted my gaze at his handsome face that I must admit, I miss. "It was just a nightmare. It's not your fault, don't make it a big deal" I smile.But his brows furrowed and caress my face. "How could I not make it a big deal when I saw how you cry because of it?" He insist.Oh come on. I really can't believe it, the famous ruthless, merciless, and dangerous Sain Czar Ildefonso has a childish side like this. If everyone is aware with it, I don't think they still get intimidated to this man.I shake my head. "Enough. Just answer me, what are you doing here? How did you manage to enter my room? And what time i
Last Updated : 2022-12-03Kiss For The Sin 88 He's Back
There is a sudden tension in his muscles that I could clearly feel because we are too close to each other. His body went rigid and I am not sure why does he has that kind of reaction. His embrace tighten as if he doesn't want to let go of me, his arms around my waist gives me an illusion that the son of my enemy is my protector. He is the person who will stood in front of me at all cost, that was in my imagination right now. But I know better. The reality is something that I can't escape. My existence means revenge, my reality is vengeance. Sooner or later when I get everything I need to this man, I will kill him with my hands and dispose him like a piece of trash. Sain Czar Ildefonso's role to my life was just the instrument of my revenge against his father. "Sain-""I will not let that happen" he cut me off.I stop. He sound serious and firm while I am staring on the wall with my void expression face. If he just knew... My real family was long gone, they all disappear in just a sn
Last Updated : 2022-12-04Kiss For The Sin 89 Restless Hubby
We have a lot of things to do this day, although Sain is not telling me anything, on the back of my head I already knew the possibilities that might happen. So instead of having an early arguments with him, I just did what he's asking from me. Besides, his request is part of our deal. Without saying a word, I held his shoulders for support and tiptoe to reach his lips. It was just a peck on the lips. It was just a quick contact between his lips and mine, but ironically, I felt a sudden shiver that instantly crawl to every fiber of my nerves. My heart reacted and it start pounding fast inside my chest as if it wanted to burst out. I don't know what is that for, this is not my first time giving him a kiss but this reaction is strange. The response of my body is freaking strange. I immediately let go of him and step back, giving enough distance between us. His presence is like a strange assault to my system, that is something that never change. Since the first time, I already felt that,
Last Updated : 2022-12-05Kiss For The Sin 90 I Am An Impostor
I'm staring the clear blue sky while Sain Czar, my so called husband is comfortably sleeping on my shoulder. There is a deafening yet comfortable silence inside the car as we're just a normal married couple that planning to have a quick getaway. The driver is silent as well, his whole attention is on the road not minding what's happening in the backseat. The car is moving in a normal pace, the danger that I've been thinking was disappear. I couldn't felt the threat against my life and I don't know did it happen. But come to think of it, its been more than a month since I become Mrs. Ildefonso. The tension I felt the first time we met was gone, I don't know when but I just realize that it was gone. Before, I felt like he was so close yet so far to reach as if he intentionally set boundaries between us. But right now? It was the opposite that happen. Sain Czar was the one who step close towards me, trying to make this marriage work.I was able to experience things that I never experien
Last Updated : 2022-12-07Kiss For The Sin 91 Anxious
The ceremony started. Everyone was silent while listening to the priest in front. This is my first time attending a burial because I never experience this when my parents died. I wasn't able to give them a proper burial because of their tragic death. Daddy Luscio was not able to collect their bodies because the whole house was burned into ashes. It's just sad that they don't have a grave that I could visit whenever I feel that I am losing track of my goal.When it feels like I forget the reason of my existence I wanted to have a tomb to visit. Whenever I'm sad and lonely, I was hoping that there is a place where I can visit them. But then, life is so cruel to me. Cesar Ildefonso was so cruel, he didn't even gave mercy to me and my family. Even Cladia who was supposed to be not part of his plan because Cladie is just my maid but then, he also killed her. He killed everyone in our house not just my parents but everyone who lives in our house.I look at Laurent's picture and then my eyes
Last Updated : 2022-12-08
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Kiss For The Sin Chapter 198 (Final)
"Where is Sain? Please let me see him" I pleaded as I look at the stern expression of Sixto who's standing at the door not wanting me go inside the room."Celeste enough, you haven't fully recover yet. Let's go back to your room" Zachary said who's standing beside me while holding my arm, giving me support.It's been almost three weeks since what happen. Everything are still fresh in my memory, how I escape the Ildefonso's Residence, how Antonio help me, how I killed Teofilo, how Jaxer try to kill me and how Sain was getting shot by Apollo. It's been almost three weeks and yet I haven't saw Sain even just once. They won't let me, Sixto is always stopping me as well as Zachary who disappointingly siding at Sixto. They doesn't want me to see Sain, they are even updating me about his condition. I am dying with so much anxiousness, I am worried sick how he is doing. "Just a glance. I just have to know how he is" I insist not wanting to go back.I know it was my fault but I never wanted
Kiss For The Sin Chapter 197
The car halted in a familiar place. I took a deep breath and rolled down the car window scanning my eyes around the place. It's been a while since the last time I visit here and nothing change despite how my heart change. "Are you sure that you're doing this?" Antonio break the silence that made me look at him."What do you mean by that?" I ask in return."If Enzo is the one sitting here, for sure he will ask the same Hera. This is your enemy's place, you cannot do the first move. You just have to defend" he explain.I mentally shake my head, he almost sound like Enzo. I didn't know that he's coming to me. His loyalty is only for Enzo and I didn't know he will give it to me since he was under Sintti's training. "Have I mention to you that I have a brother? A real one and I just recently find out about him" I said."And what does it has to do with this?""He will save me together with my husband. You know how powerful my husband right? So nothing will happen to me," I confidently sai
Kiss For The Sin Chapter 196
"Hera..."I stilled on my spot when I heard the familiar voice of Apollo on the other line. Unconsciously, I turn my head to look at the direction of Sain and his brothers who's occupying the living room while discussing something that I didn't know.The trio doesn't seem to notice that I am no longer on my spot because their attentions are all on the table while Sixto is talking things that I cannot understand and follow. Perhaps it was about his organization and not Ilde Famiglia. "Please Hera, spare me a minute to talk with you" I blink my eyes and took a deep breath before living the trio. I went out and head straight to the gazebo doesn't want anyone to hear me talking to someone from Costello. "What do you want Apollo?" I ask, controlling the tone of my voice.Knowing that Teofilo Romani is the person who killed my parents, there is a sudden anger rooted inside me towards my brother. They all knew and yet they didn't say anything. They all make me look like a fool. They are a
Kiss For The Sin Chapter 195
The wind is blowing softly and it gives me a shivering sensation every time it touches my bare skin. I lifted my gaze and breath calmly. I am here in the gazebo hugging myself because of the morning breeze. I did stay but I couldn't find myself to sleep after what I find out. And now that the morning came, I still don't know what to do. I don't know where to start because I couldn't believe that I was been fooled for fifteen years and I am oblivious about it.I took a deep breath and gaze down shutting my eyes close. I am not sure if making a deal with Sain Czar is the smartest thing to do, but then I already did it. I already gave him my word in exchange of a very important information. I am not interested how did he finds out, my whole focus is on Sintti Organization and Mafia Romano. Both of them made fun of me, they made me believe a made up stories and I was such an idiot. I couldn't believe that I work for the man who killed my parents. I already meet him but I didn't recogni
Kiss For The Sin Chapter 194
"That's enough!" Sixto's voice filled the whole room, breaking the dark inclement mood that is about to explode. "Celeste is no longer the child we've been searching. She become the woman we never expected, she will not be pleased once she hears this" Zacharias agree. Well, he's right. Everything that is happening right now is not pleasing and here they are fighting as if I can't make decision on my own. Maybe my driven force to live is the vengeance inside my heart, but I stop living as Celeste. I already forgotten how does it feels like to live in the shoes of that innocent girl. "I will discuss this with Father. This is very complicated and I hope we are all expect the consequences..." Sixto added, sounding like a mature brother. "I don't want to see you two fighting about it."That make sense because he is the oldest among them. He has the authority to make the two follow him even the hardheaded Sain Czar. I immediately close my eyes and pretend that I'm still sleeping when Za
Kiss For The Sin Chapter 193
My eyes widen."What the hell are you doing?!" I blurt out and pulled my wrist from his grasp.Sain look at me with those serious and tantalizing eyes that never failed to drown me but I keep my distance with him, flaunting the anger that plastered on my face right now. "I am telling them the truth. You're Celeste Astraea Cortezi, and they should know that fact" My lips parted as I look at him disbelief. "What the hell are you saying Czar?" Zacharias suddenly intervene that made me fisted my hand.I stare at Sain Czar sharply hoping that he will stop this nonsense. There is no point even if he informed everyone about my real identity. I was molded and live as a Costello for fifteen years. I killed people, numerous lives die in my hands. That won't change and the fact that I am Celeste Astraea Cortezi will not cover the bloody life I'm living. But Sain ignore my warning gaze instead he turn to look at Zacharias."You heard me. She's Celeste Astraea Cortezi, the woman we've been fin
Kiss For The Sin Chapter 192
"What do you really want from me?" I ask before he take his step inside.We're already here, I was not able to stop him because his persistent to bring me back to Ildefonso's Residence is hard to break. But I need to know what does he really want from me. I want to know why he's doing this. If this is part of his revenge then he should stop it because I don't like playing this kind of game. Sain Czar didn't speak nor turn around to face me but he didn't walk away either. I am patiently waiting for his response because I need it. I don't know what he's up to because as I said, Sain Czar is difficult to read. He's hard to predict. I don't know what's on his mind, I cannot conclude any idea. He is that mysterious and I don't want to fall with his mystery."You're not my husband no matter how much you insist. You don't have the right to my life" I added.I step back when he suddenly face me. Standing six feet tall looking so handsome yet dangerous, Sain took a step closer to me causing m
Kiss For The Sin Chapter 191
"I am still here,Little. I am still here where you left me and I am just waiting for you to come back"An unknown warmth covers my heart, I didn't know this kind of assurance is what I needed right now. But then, I know that I am not supposed to ask for it. That would be unfair for him and everything will be mess up even more. I fisted hand giving him a void expression despite his pleading eyes. For the first time, I saw a weak side of him. Another part of him that he will never let anyone figure out. I don't want to be his weakness, he should not be swayed just because of me."You don't know what you're saying""I do" he firmly replied. "I am your husband and it will stay that way until my last breath. I warned you didn't I? When you insist to marry me, I told you there will be no turning back. You cannot turn your back at me, I won't let you" he hissed in a controlled tone. He looks determine, more serious than before. I look straight into his eyes, and just like for the first tim
Kiss For The Sin Chapter 190
A loud explosion made me cover my ears as I hide myself in the corner, hoping that a piece of wood I am leaning right now could save me from those sharp bullets that trying to kill me. "I should have killed them all" I hissed to myself, frowning while holding my gun tightly.I am now on the run. Sintti Crime Organization is chasing me just like what Luscio Costello told me. They were aware about the tragic death of my parents, they are aware that Luscio is part of the assassination happens fifteen years ago and now that I am aware about it they are hunting me. Things that I don't understand before is now make sense. The council anger is not about me being a woman, it was because I am a Cortezi the little girl who supposed to be dead years ago. They are trying to kill me now after I obey all their rules and commands for fifteen years. My hands are stained with blood because I stand before them, kill those people who tried to ruined the organization because I thought it was my family
