I couldn't recall exactly how we made it home because the long drive was like in a daze. I couldn't remember anything honestly, maybe because my mind is just forcing my body that I am already fine but it was actually the opposite. Perhaps it was the effect of those freaking medicines that was directly injected to me that's why my body feels weak even more as if I was tortured for three days. By the time Sain guided me inside the house, relief instantly crept into me that lessen the exhaustion I've been experiencing. I take a deep, calming breath the moment we step in on the capacious living room. The familiar scent in the air filled my nostril and somehow, it makes me feel at ease."Welcome back home, Mia Signora" Eredia greeted me who I failed to notice when we enter. I flash a weak smile. "Thank you Erie" I saw her blushed because of my response and shyly smile at me. I mentally giggle because of that. I find this young woman adorable, for sure Enzo will like her because that guy
NEXT MORNINGSain left earlier than he used to and again, I don't know where he's up to. As I've mentioned yesterday, he was strangely busy these past few days. Well, I am not complaining because I prefer that he's not around so that I have the free will to look around the mansion. What's not good about is was because I couldn't monitor what he's doing, I am a bit worried that he's been having a serious discussion with the Ilde Famiglia council to plan something against Sintti. Wearing a long white floral midi dress, I decided to went down on the kitchen and have my breakfast in gazebo. I am not sure if Pierro and Nicolai is around or maybe they were with Sain because I felt as if I was locked inside our room, staying there the whole freaking day because of my sprained ankle. Good thing it is getting better now. Stuck in one place is not really my thing because I've been into a lot of places for the past fifteen years because of my responsibility in the organization."I feel sickened
"I'm Helena, nice meeting you Mrs. Ildefonso" Her friendly smile is suspicious, even the way she look at me as if memorizing every corner of my face because of her intent stare.Helena? Her name sound familiar. Was she the Helena Brown that Nicolai mentioned to me. The woman who was supposed to be Sain's wife but unfortunately, Sain rejected their marriage. "Helena Millie Brown," she stretches her smile even more and step closer. "I'm sure Czar already mentioned me to you" she confidently said.Out of the corner of my eyes, I saw a woman on her white blonde hair standing a few feet from us which I assume her companion. She's shamelessly staring at me and this woman who's silently boasting that she's Helena Brown."No he didn't" I replied and casually fix my hair when the wind once again stirred my hair. I stood up and her eyes automatically landed on my sprained ankle but she immediately shifted her gaze back at me.Her expression change and I am not sure if she was offended or some
I feel like most of my life was spent planning for my revenge. The world spins faster than it used to but I was left behind because I choose a different path. A path that Luscio Costello wanted me to take, the path that will save me from all of my pains and mourning. It's a bit disheartening seeing how those women like me spent their lives in a normal every day routine while I am living in the shadow chasing a prey at night and hiding in the eyes of everyone in the morning.I don't have a normal life. The only thing I find normal is when I got home after a life threatening mission and Dad made a huge dinner preparation for me. It feels normal sitting on the same table together with the man who treated me as his daughter, while getting along to his sons who I consider as my brothers. We're like a normal family except the fact that we're discussing how to kill someone over dinner.The vague memories of my childhood that I spent with my real parents is slowly fading away. Those are happ
"Mia Signora"I wheeled around at the sound of Nicolai's voice. Holding the railing of the staircase, I tilt my head with an eyes asking him. Helena already left and that was a good thing because I don't think I can stay on the same place with her the whole day. I don't know, I just really don't like the idea that she was the first woman who manage to get close to Sain Czar. Let's just say that I don't like it when someone gets ahead of me."I apologize of what Helena did or say that upset you" he sincerely said.I look at him intently. Why am I seeing a different side of him?"Do you like that woman?" I ask without hesitation.I saw him stilled for a moment. He glance on his back before shifting back his gaze at me."What made you think of that?" He query but I could feel the uneasiness lace on his voice.I raised my shoulder. "Let's just say that I'm good at guessing" Nicolai doesn't have to answer me because I already know. The instinctive response of his expression was too obviou
His skin is so soft for someone who's all too familiar with the battlefield. He held me so gently with his arms as if I was a fragile glass that he's afraid to break but contrary to his touches, his kisses is wild and burning with so much desire that I find dangerous but at the same time irresistible. I can't come to my senses, I am too drown to let go, I am fallen into his trap. I don't know when did it started but I am responding to his kisses, giving the same intensity of passion and desire. This is wrong. This is not supposed to be part of my mission. I was only distracted two things, spy Sain Czar Ildefonso and kill him but because of the contract things become out of control. I am become out of control, I did unnecessary things, say words that I am not sure if I really mean it or not. I feel unwanted emotions, swayed with simple gestures. I am not weak but whenever he's just a few steps away from me, I can't help to feel vulnerable. I like the feeling of how he treated me like
Standing in the dimly lighted balcony of Sain's room, I saw how the two guards open the gate letting the white car enter. My face become serious when another car followed after a couple of minutes. I frown, wondering what's happening but the creased on my forehead slowly disappear when I saw Helena Brown came out from the white car followed by Sixto who's riding the other car. I press my lips together and my eyes become dead with emotion. I saw how the two greeted each other with a smile on their faces. It seems that it's been a while since they had met seeing how engage they are to their conversation. Looking back at what Helena told me this morning, I guess my assumption is right. I just wonder why did she came back. What are they doing here? And last but not the least, who is Sinno? Did they cane here because of that man? The night cold breeze blows, the sound of friction of the three branches and the rustling of dry leaves added tension around me. I keep my gaze on the two and f
My plan of sneaking into the west wing didn't turn out good because Eredia almost caught me in the act. I'm a bit annoyed because I'm close to it and for sure I would get a lot of important information that I would be needed. But how can I get mad to this young girl who's smiling at me innocently? She's too young getting involved in this kind of world. I am not even sure if the maids in this house is aware that Ildefonso are mafioso. "Do you want me to walk you back in the bed, Signora?" She offer that drags me back to my reverie.I tilt my head and smile crossing my arms over my chest. "Thank you but I'm fine" I decline. "Just get back to your work""If you need anything, you can request anything using the intercom Signora" she remind. "I will just prepare their snacks" I nod and watch her enter the kitchen. The smile on my face slowly fade and whip my head towards the close sliding door. Without second thought I wheeled around and open it. The sound of cold evening breeze greeted
"Where is Sain? Please let me see him" I pleaded as I look at the stern expression of Sixto who's standing at the door not wanting me go inside the room."Celeste enough, you haven't fully recover yet. Let's go back to your room" Zachary said who's standing beside me while holding my arm, giving me support.It's been almost three weeks since what happen. Everything are still fresh in my memory, how I escape the Ildefonso's Residence, how Antonio help me, how I killed Teofilo, how Jaxer try to kill me and how Sain was getting shot by Apollo. It's been almost three weeks and yet I haven't saw Sain even just once. They won't let me, Sixto is always stopping me as well as Zachary who disappointingly siding at Sixto. They doesn't want me to see Sain, they are even updating me about his condition. I am dying with so much anxiousness, I am worried sick how he is doing. "Just a glance. I just have to know how he is" I insist not wanting to go back.I know it was my fault but I never wanted
The car halted in a familiar place. I took a deep breath and rolled down the car window scanning my eyes around the place. It's been a while since the last time I visit here and nothing change despite how my heart change. "Are you sure that you're doing this?" Antonio break the silence that made me look at him."What do you mean by that?" I ask in return."If Enzo is the one sitting here, for sure he will ask the same Hera. This is your enemy's place, you cannot do the first move. You just have to defend" he explain.I mentally shake my head, he almost sound like Enzo. I didn't know that he's coming to me. His loyalty is only for Enzo and I didn't know he will give it to me since he was under Sintti's training. "Have I mention to you that I have a brother? A real one and I just recently find out about him" I said."And what does it has to do with this?""He will save me together with my husband. You know how powerful my husband right? So nothing will happen to me," I confidently sai
"Hera..."I stilled on my spot when I heard the familiar voice of Apollo on the other line. Unconsciously, I turn my head to look at the direction of Sain and his brothers who's occupying the living room while discussing something that I didn't know.The trio doesn't seem to notice that I am no longer on my spot because their attentions are all on the table while Sixto is talking things that I cannot understand and follow. Perhaps it was about his organization and not Ilde Famiglia. "Please Hera, spare me a minute to talk with you" I blink my eyes and took a deep breath before living the trio. I went out and head straight to the gazebo doesn't want anyone to hear me talking to someone from Costello. "What do you want Apollo?" I ask, controlling the tone of my voice.Knowing that Teofilo Romani is the person who killed my parents, there is a sudden anger rooted inside me towards my brother. They all knew and yet they didn't say anything. They all make me look like a fool. They are a
The wind is blowing softly and it gives me a shivering sensation every time it touches my bare skin. I lifted my gaze and breath calmly. I am here in the gazebo hugging myself because of the morning breeze. I did stay but I couldn't find myself to sleep after what I find out. And now that the morning came, I still don't know what to do. I don't know where to start because I couldn't believe that I was been fooled for fifteen years and I am oblivious about it.I took a deep breath and gaze down shutting my eyes close. I am not sure if making a deal with Sain Czar is the smartest thing to do, but then I already did it. I already gave him my word in exchange of a very important information. I am not interested how did he finds out, my whole focus is on Sintti Organization and Mafia Romano. Both of them made fun of me, they made me believe a made up stories and I was such an idiot. I couldn't believe that I work for the man who killed my parents. I already meet him but I didn't recogni
"That's enough!" Sixto's voice filled the whole room, breaking the dark inclement mood that is about to explode. "Celeste is no longer the child we've been searching. She become the woman we never expected, she will not be pleased once she hears this" Zacharias agree. Well, he's right. Everything that is happening right now is not pleasing and here they are fighting as if I can't make decision on my own. Maybe my driven force to live is the vengeance inside my heart, but I stop living as Celeste. I already forgotten how does it feels like to live in the shoes of that innocent girl. "I will discuss this with Father. This is very complicated and I hope we are all expect the consequences..." Sixto added, sounding like a mature brother. "I don't want to see you two fighting about it."That make sense because he is the oldest among them. He has the authority to make the two follow him even the hardheaded Sain Czar. I immediately close my eyes and pretend that I'm still sleeping when Za
My eyes widen."What the hell are you doing?!" I blurt out and pulled my wrist from his grasp.Sain look at me with those serious and tantalizing eyes that never failed to drown me but I keep my distance with him, flaunting the anger that plastered on my face right now. "I am telling them the truth. You're Celeste Astraea Cortezi, and they should know that fact" My lips parted as I look at him disbelief. "What the hell are you saying Czar?" Zacharias suddenly intervene that made me fisted my hand.I stare at Sain Czar sharply hoping that he will stop this nonsense. There is no point even if he informed everyone about my real identity. I was molded and live as a Costello for fifteen years. I killed people, numerous lives die in my hands. That won't change and the fact that I am Celeste Astraea Cortezi will not cover the bloody life I'm living. But Sain ignore my warning gaze instead he turn to look at Zacharias."You heard me. She's Celeste Astraea Cortezi, the woman we've been fin
"What do you really want from me?" I ask before he take his step inside.We're already here, I was not able to stop him because his persistent to bring me back to Ildefonso's Residence is hard to break. But I need to know what does he really want from me. I want to know why he's doing this. If this is part of his revenge then he should stop it because I don't like playing this kind of game. Sain Czar didn't speak nor turn around to face me but he didn't walk away either. I am patiently waiting for his response because I need it. I don't know what he's up to because as I said, Sain Czar is difficult to read. He's hard to predict. I don't know what's on his mind, I cannot conclude any idea. He is that mysterious and I don't want to fall with his mystery."You're not my husband no matter how much you insist. You don't have the right to my life" I added.I step back when he suddenly face me. Standing six feet tall looking so handsome yet dangerous, Sain took a step closer to me causing m
"I am still here,Little. I am still here where you left me and I am just waiting for you to come back"An unknown warmth covers my heart, I didn't know this kind of assurance is what I needed right now. But then, I know that I am not supposed to ask for it. That would be unfair for him and everything will be mess up even more. I fisted hand giving him a void expression despite his pleading eyes. For the first time, I saw a weak side of him. Another part of him that he will never let anyone figure out. I don't want to be his weakness, he should not be swayed just because of me."You don't know what you're saying""I do" he firmly replied. "I am your husband and it will stay that way until my last breath. I warned you didn't I? When you insist to marry me, I told you there will be no turning back. You cannot turn your back at me, I won't let you" he hissed in a controlled tone. He looks determine, more serious than before. I look straight into his eyes, and just like for the first tim
A loud explosion made me cover my ears as I hide myself in the corner, hoping that a piece of wood I am leaning right now could save me from those sharp bullets that trying to kill me. "I should have killed them all" I hissed to myself, frowning while holding my gun tightly.I am now on the run. Sintti Crime Organization is chasing me just like what Luscio Costello told me. They were aware about the tragic death of my parents, they are aware that Luscio is part of the assassination happens fifteen years ago and now that I am aware about it they are hunting me. Things that I don't understand before is now make sense. The council anger is not about me being a woman, it was because I am a Cortezi the little girl who supposed to be dead years ago. They are trying to kill me now after I obey all their rules and commands for fifteen years. My hands are stained with blood because I stand before them, kill those people who tried to ruined the organization because I thought it was my family