His skin is so soft for someone who's all too familiar with the battlefield. He held me so gently with his arms as if I was a fragile glass that he's afraid to break but contrary to his touches, his kisses is wild and burning with so much desire that I find dangerous but at the same time irresistible. I can't come to my senses, I am too drown to let go, I am fallen into his trap. I don't know when did it started but I am responding to his kisses, giving the same intensity of passion and desire. This is wrong. This is not supposed to be part of my mission. I was only distracted two things, spy Sain Czar Ildefonso and kill him but because of the contract things become out of control. I am become out of control, I did unnecessary things, say words that I am not sure if I really mean it or not. I feel unwanted emotions, swayed with simple gestures. I am not weak but whenever he's just a few steps away from me, I can't help to feel vulnerable. I like the feeling of how he treated me like
Standing in the dimly lighted balcony of Sain's room, I saw how the two guards open the gate letting the white car enter. My face become serious when another car followed after a couple of minutes. I frown, wondering what's happening but the creased on my forehead slowly disappear when I saw Helena Brown came out from the white car followed by Sixto who's riding the other car. I press my lips together and my eyes become dead with emotion. I saw how the two greeted each other with a smile on their faces. It seems that it's been a while since they had met seeing how engage they are to their conversation. Looking back at what Helena told me this morning, I guess my assumption is right. I just wonder why did she came back. What are they doing here? And last but not the least, who is Sinno? Did they cane here because of that man? The night cold breeze blows, the sound of friction of the three branches and the rustling of dry leaves added tension around me. I keep my gaze on the two and f
My plan of sneaking into the west wing didn't turn out good because Eredia almost caught me in the act. I'm a bit annoyed because I'm close to it and for sure I would get a lot of important information that I would be needed. But how can I get mad to this young girl who's smiling at me innocently? She's too young getting involved in this kind of world. I am not even sure if the maids in this house is aware that Ildefonso are mafioso. "Do you want me to walk you back in the bed, Signora?" She offer that drags me back to my reverie.I tilt my head and smile crossing my arms over my chest. "Thank you but I'm fine" I decline. "Just get back to your work""If you need anything, you can request anything using the intercom Signora" she remind. "I will just prepare their snacks" I nod and watch her enter the kitchen. The smile on my face slowly fade and whip my head towards the close sliding door. Without second thought I wheeled around and open it. The sound of cold evening breeze greeted
I am not supposed to feel betrayed and cheated because I know very well what's this marriage is all about. Besides, he's a healthy man who has needs and that needs is not part of my responsibility. I already make it clear with him. What I just hate is the fact that he's kissing someone else here, in this place that we called home. Silently, I went back upstairs and head straight to my room. I intentionally lock the door not wanting to sleep on the same bed with Sain Czar after what I just had witnessed. I grab his coat I left on the bed and throw it anywhere before slamming my body on the soft mattress. I stared the ceiling for a couple of seconds before shutting my eyes close.I was expecting a difficulties in sleeping but surprisingly, I'm slowly drifting to sleep and it didn't took a minute when darkness finally swallow my whole senses dragging me to the dream land.ON THE NEXT DAYI woke up early and did my morning routine with a smile plastered on my face. Sain didn't dare to ba
I tilt my head as I look at the serious face of Sain Czar. There is an evident darkness lurking in the corner of his eyes and I am not sure what is that for. He's suppressing the dangerous aura around him but the light creased on his forehead is like an indication that I'm giving him a hard time while the clenching of his jaw was his way to control his temper. I bit the inside of my mouth and straighten my back. We're in the gazebo right now because I insist that we need to talk. "You're standing too far," he stated in a low tone of voice. "Come closer" My gaze check our distance. I'm standing about five feet away from him just enough to keep myself safe because he looks like a volcano that ready to erupt any minute by now. Precaution is better than cure, I don't know and I haven't witness how ruthless and merciless he could be. "Selena" he called my attention when I didn't move.I lifted my head and our gaze collided."You're not planning grab my neck and choke me, right?" I make
"The outside of these walls is dangerous for you, Signora" Nicolai told me when the car stop in front of the tall gate waiting it to open for us leaving the vicinity of Ildefonso's Residence. Dangerous? I look out of the window and rested my head while scanning my eyes around with my hands clasp together."I don't think there is a safe place for me since I become an Ildefonso's woman" I whisper as the car start moving when the gate finally open.Does he think Ildefonso's Residence is the safest place for me? He's been part of the Ilde Famiglia for how many years and I am just someone who suddenly puff out on the air. None of them expected me, perhaps, Sain doesn't expect me either although I was chosen to become his future wife.Nicolai should know better, there is no safe place in this world for Ildefonso's women. Even Sain is aware with that fact. Women in their clan can't live a normal and longer life because they all end up dying. They were like the target board, they received
I wasn't able to response immediately because I am taken aback. I was not expecting him to patiently talk to me right now because he was furious when we left the mansion. The heat of his palm on my waist sip through my skin and I couldn't help to stop the bolt of electric sensation that running through my veins. I press my lips together and bit the inside of my mouth. "Alright" I nod.I was about to tiptoe for me to reach his lips but Sain bend down to level his head to mine. I stop with my attempt to kiss him but the jerk lean closer and kiss me instead. My eyes widened and I felt how his lips curved into a smile against mine so I instantly pulled away. "You kissed me!" I hissed, frowning.He shrug his shoulder and slide his hands on the pocket of his jeans. My gaze sharpen but Sain was not bothered at all. My eyes went to Nicolai and Vencer until it landed to Pierro."Eyes on me, wife" I flinch and shifted back my gaze at my demanding husband."We will talk tomorrow" he said firm
"Where are you going, Selena?" I stop on my track the moment I heard Mrs. Castania's voice behind me. I lick my lower lip and straighten my back before I slowly turn around to face her. She's wearing her night dress ready for bed while holding a cup of tea if I am not mistaken because I could smell the sweet scent of honey with a mixture of rosemary. Her eyes automatically train on me from head to toe back to my face. There is a glint of confusion in her eyes seeing me on my short hair while wearing an all black clothes. She take a small steps closer until her pace turn quick to approach me. Her hand reach my arm and cautiously look around as if it already sink in to her where I'm planning to go. "You can't leave, Miss. It's dangerous, Ildefonso's men are just probably around to guard this house because you are here" she whisper, afraid that someone might hear what she said.My face went serious. We are both standing in the dimly lighted living room near the glass window. The maids
"Where is Sain? Please let me see him" I pleaded as I look at the stern expression of Sixto who's standing at the door not wanting me go inside the room."Celeste enough, you haven't fully recover yet. Let's go back to your room" Zachary said who's standing beside me while holding my arm, giving me support.It's been almost three weeks since what happen. Everything are still fresh in my memory, how I escape the Ildefonso's Residence, how Antonio help me, how I killed Teofilo, how Jaxer try to kill me and how Sain was getting shot by Apollo. It's been almost three weeks and yet I haven't saw Sain even just once. They won't let me, Sixto is always stopping me as well as Zachary who disappointingly siding at Sixto. They doesn't want me to see Sain, they are even updating me about his condition. I am dying with so much anxiousness, I am worried sick how he is doing. "Just a glance. I just have to know how he is" I insist not wanting to go back.I know it was my fault but I never wanted
The car halted in a familiar place. I took a deep breath and rolled down the car window scanning my eyes around the place. It's been a while since the last time I visit here and nothing change despite how my heart change. "Are you sure that you're doing this?" Antonio break the silence that made me look at him."What do you mean by that?" I ask in return."If Enzo is the one sitting here, for sure he will ask the same Hera. This is your enemy's place, you cannot do the first move. You just have to defend" he explain.I mentally shake my head, he almost sound like Enzo. I didn't know that he's coming to me. His loyalty is only for Enzo and I didn't know he will give it to me since he was under Sintti's training. "Have I mention to you that I have a brother? A real one and I just recently find out about him" I said."And what does it has to do with this?""He will save me together with my husband. You know how powerful my husband right? So nothing will happen to me," I confidently sai
"Hera..."I stilled on my spot when I heard the familiar voice of Apollo on the other line. Unconsciously, I turn my head to look at the direction of Sain and his brothers who's occupying the living room while discussing something that I didn't know.The trio doesn't seem to notice that I am no longer on my spot because their attentions are all on the table while Sixto is talking things that I cannot understand and follow. Perhaps it was about his organization and not Ilde Famiglia. "Please Hera, spare me a minute to talk with you" I blink my eyes and took a deep breath before living the trio. I went out and head straight to the gazebo doesn't want anyone to hear me talking to someone from Costello. "What do you want Apollo?" I ask, controlling the tone of my voice.Knowing that Teofilo Romani is the person who killed my parents, there is a sudden anger rooted inside me towards my brother. They all knew and yet they didn't say anything. They all make me look like a fool. They are a
The wind is blowing softly and it gives me a shivering sensation every time it touches my bare skin. I lifted my gaze and breath calmly. I am here in the gazebo hugging myself because of the morning breeze. I did stay but I couldn't find myself to sleep after what I find out. And now that the morning came, I still don't know what to do. I don't know where to start because I couldn't believe that I was been fooled for fifteen years and I am oblivious about it.I took a deep breath and gaze down shutting my eyes close. I am not sure if making a deal with Sain Czar is the smartest thing to do, but then I already did it. I already gave him my word in exchange of a very important information. I am not interested how did he finds out, my whole focus is on Sintti Organization and Mafia Romano. Both of them made fun of me, they made me believe a made up stories and I was such an idiot. I couldn't believe that I work for the man who killed my parents. I already meet him but I didn't recogni
"That's enough!" Sixto's voice filled the whole room, breaking the dark inclement mood that is about to explode. "Celeste is no longer the child we've been searching. She become the woman we never expected, she will not be pleased once she hears this" Zacharias agree. Well, he's right. Everything that is happening right now is not pleasing and here they are fighting as if I can't make decision on my own. Maybe my driven force to live is the vengeance inside my heart, but I stop living as Celeste. I already forgotten how does it feels like to live in the shoes of that innocent girl. "I will discuss this with Father. This is very complicated and I hope we are all expect the consequences..." Sixto added, sounding like a mature brother. "I don't want to see you two fighting about it."That make sense because he is the oldest among them. He has the authority to make the two follow him even the hardheaded Sain Czar. I immediately close my eyes and pretend that I'm still sleeping when Za
My eyes widen."What the hell are you doing?!" I blurt out and pulled my wrist from his grasp.Sain look at me with those serious and tantalizing eyes that never failed to drown me but I keep my distance with him, flaunting the anger that plastered on my face right now. "I am telling them the truth. You're Celeste Astraea Cortezi, and they should know that fact" My lips parted as I look at him disbelief. "What the hell are you saying Czar?" Zacharias suddenly intervene that made me fisted my hand.I stare at Sain Czar sharply hoping that he will stop this nonsense. There is no point even if he informed everyone about my real identity. I was molded and live as a Costello for fifteen years. I killed people, numerous lives die in my hands. That won't change and the fact that I am Celeste Astraea Cortezi will not cover the bloody life I'm living. But Sain ignore my warning gaze instead he turn to look at Zacharias."You heard me. She's Celeste Astraea Cortezi, the woman we've been fin
"What do you really want from me?" I ask before he take his step inside.We're already here, I was not able to stop him because his persistent to bring me back to Ildefonso's Residence is hard to break. But I need to know what does he really want from me. I want to know why he's doing this. If this is part of his revenge then he should stop it because I don't like playing this kind of game. Sain Czar didn't speak nor turn around to face me but he didn't walk away either. I am patiently waiting for his response because I need it. I don't know what he's up to because as I said, Sain Czar is difficult to read. He's hard to predict. I don't know what's on his mind, I cannot conclude any idea. He is that mysterious and I don't want to fall with his mystery."You're not my husband no matter how much you insist. You don't have the right to my life" I added.I step back when he suddenly face me. Standing six feet tall looking so handsome yet dangerous, Sain took a step closer to me causing m
"I am still here,Little. I am still here where you left me and I am just waiting for you to come back"An unknown warmth covers my heart, I didn't know this kind of assurance is what I needed right now. But then, I know that I am not supposed to ask for it. That would be unfair for him and everything will be mess up even more. I fisted hand giving him a void expression despite his pleading eyes. For the first time, I saw a weak side of him. Another part of him that he will never let anyone figure out. I don't want to be his weakness, he should not be swayed just because of me."You don't know what you're saying""I do" he firmly replied. "I am your husband and it will stay that way until my last breath. I warned you didn't I? When you insist to marry me, I told you there will be no turning back. You cannot turn your back at me, I won't let you" he hissed in a controlled tone. He looks determine, more serious than before. I look straight into his eyes, and just like for the first tim
A loud explosion made me cover my ears as I hide myself in the corner, hoping that a piece of wood I am leaning right now could save me from those sharp bullets that trying to kill me. "I should have killed them all" I hissed to myself, frowning while holding my gun tightly.I am now on the run. Sintti Crime Organization is chasing me just like what Luscio Costello told me. They were aware about the tragic death of my parents, they are aware that Luscio is part of the assassination happens fifteen years ago and now that I am aware about it they are hunting me. Things that I don't understand before is now make sense. The council anger is not about me being a woman, it was because I am a Cortezi the little girl who supposed to be dead years ago. They are trying to kill me now after I obey all their rules and commands for fifteen years. My hands are stained with blood because I stand before them, kill those people who tried to ruined the organization because I thought it was my family