"I know my responsibility Apollo" I pause and took a deep breath. "I have been living with that responsibility for fifteen years. That is not something I will forget"I added. I know my responsibility very well. Does he have to remind me about it? I never failed to say that my existence means vengeance. My life as a Costello means I need to kill. My hands are not clean since I become a Costello. My hands are stain with blood that I could no longer erase. "You know that I didn't mean anything with that" he calmly utter. "I am just trying to prevent things that will ruined your mission, Hera" I bit my lower lip. Apollo is doubting me just like how I doubt myself right now. No matter how he make his words less offensive and accusing still I know what behind those lines. I also know where did it started. Since I already disobey our father once, of course for them it is easy for me to disobey our father once again. I cannot blame him. I blame myself in fact and I guess I will be in a
I was Celeste Astraea Cortezi before Luscio Costello rescue me from Cesar Ildefonso. I am the woman they have been finding for fifteen years. Luscio Costello protected me, he change my name and adopt me that is why Ilde Famiglia cannot find me. I know it was my father command to keep the details about my past that is why I didn't question him when I heard from Zacharias that someone from Sintti came to him and get the result of the investigation. That is his way to protect me from Ildefonso. I couldn't understand why Cesar Ildefonso is eager to find me. I can't understand especially when it feels as if they had a good intentions that is why they are searching for me. He killed my parents, he killed Cladia in front of me. He tried to kill me as well so why would he find me? The only reason I can think of is because he wanted to kill me too just like what Dad said. After what he did to my family, after he ruined my family. I don't think that I can trust that so called intention that
"I don't want to keep secrets to my wife" My eyes glisten with tears. We are now inside the private room and I guess the woman who was assigned to assist ask is already wondering what is happening to me and Sain. We are just talking and not making order. But what should I do? My heart is aching for him, my husband who will die on my hands tonight. I have so many secrets, dark secret that once he finds out he will kill me in an instant. I shook my head and my eyes landed on the ring I am wearing. I should stop this. I cannot continue this mission while having this kind of feeling, I do not want to regret in the end. "Sain, listen" I held his hand. "We should go-" I was stop when his phone suddenly rang inside the room. Sain look at me a bit apologetic, I am hopeful that he will end the call but he didn't."I will just answer this" he utter. I slowly let go of his hand and he turn around before answering his phone. I lick my lower lip and run my fingers through my hair. I suddenl
I froze on my spot when I saw Sain Czar pointing a gun to my brother Jaxer. I tighten my grip on the gun I am holding doesn't know which side I should choose. On the back of my head, I know that I should sided with my brother because Sain is our enemy but then for some reason I couldn't erase inside my head that Sain become my husband and I become his wife. I am torn in between, in short. I do not want anyone of them get hurt because for sure it will greatly affect me. But then that thinking is stupid. I came here to kill Sain Czar. I plan this, all of this so that I could finish this mission and prove to the council that I can do it and I was not hesitating. I should kill Sain Czar, the son of the man who killed my parents, the brother of the man who killed Enzo. Sain's family took everything away from me and I am left with nothing now. I should not waste this chance given to me, especially now that I am standing at his back, not aware with my presence. "What are you waiting for?!
AT THE COSTELLO MANSION I walk fast attempting to head straight towards my room but Apollo stop me. I look at him sharply but he didn't let go of my hand. "Let me go" I hissed, flaunting the anger in my eyes. "We need to clean that wound. Adhicer is in the clinic mending Jaxer's wound, wait there" he said. He look and sound calmer compared to me. I shake my head and pulled my hand away from him. I don't like the way he treated me right now, he should scold me, he should scream because I didn't killed Sain Czar but look at him right now? He looks calm as if I didn't do anything to him. "I pointed a gun on you" I remind him. "Aren't you mad at me?" I gritted my teeth, almost crying. I hate myself. I am mad at myself right now because since I become Sain Czar's wife, I always failed. Since I went to Ildefonso's Residence, everything I did was a failure. My decisions are failure. "I know that it was not intentional. Even if you point that gun on me, I am sure that you will never pu
"Then who is Zacharias Eron? Why is he claiming that he's a Cortezi? He said Celeste is his sister!" I fire back, still not convince. Apollo tighten the grip on my wrist as if telling me to stop but I am too emotional right now. I will not stop until everything was answered. "Is he your brother?" He ask me in return. I gulp and shut my eyes close. I don't have a brother. I am the only child of Cortezi couple, there's no way I have a brother without knowing it. "I don't have..." I whisper and open my eyes. "See? They are fooling you, Herravie! You let them fooled you that's why you failed this mission!" Dad growl and I flinch a little because of it. "They are trying to save Celeste that's why they are finding her even after all these years without any hint about her whereabouts" I bit my lower lip. "They act as if they are all concern to her and to the Cortezi family. They said-" I didn't finish my sentence when Dad grab my arm and held me tightly. Apollo tried to stop our fat
"Come here, give Daddy a hug mi hija" Nothing change to his embrace. I thought he was mad at me because of what I did but then he show me the opposite. He was like giving me empathy when supposedly he should have scolded me. I was an disobedient child, I was hardheaded, I didn't listen to him, I defy him. "Dad I'm sorry..." I whisper, holding back my tears. He doesn't want to see me crying, that is for sure. I must hold back my tears because for him, tears is a sign of weakness. I shouldn't cry no matter how I wanted to cry right now. Even with my state, I should stay rational. Crying in front of him will never make him pleased. Don't cry Herravie... "I'm glad you came back home alive, mi hija. But I am not apologizing for scolding you a while ago because you need to snap back to your senses" he tap my head and pulled away. "Let's talk about this tomorrow. For now, go to your room and rest. It's been a long and tiring day for you" he utter calmly but still sound authoritative.
"I wanted to know my worth as a Costello, once again..." Tears stream down to my face. I felt a pang of pain inside my chest and I couldn't hide how vulnerable I am right now. I always wanted to act strong in front of the man who molded me as Herravie. I always wanted to show strength to the father who teach me how to be fearless, but right now I am crying desperate to hear his command. UuuWould that be too much to ask? I just wanted to reclaim the same worth I feel before. I was not able to kill Czar Ildefonso, Jaxer ends up getting shot, my identity as Herravie was discover. Everything is a mess now. I am having a dilemma inside my head because I am questioning myself. At this moment, I don't know anymore what am I chasing? Was it the revenge I wanted or because I just wanted to prove my worth as a Costello because I am just an adopted daughter? "We will talk about this tomorrow" he firmly utter and turn his back on me. "Dad!" I call him and try to follow him but Apollo held my