Word of her return had come in quickly. The buzzing of gossip followed me everywhere and even though people no longer mentioned her name when I was around I knew by the look in their eyes who they were talking to. She had arrived hours ago, and most likely was in bed by now. Staring at the darkened house told me everything I needed to know. Her father's second heart attack had finally drawn her home. But she didn’t seek sanctuary at my house, no she’d chosen her old home. Funny, it was mine but that was semantics. Ours was a set-to-fail relationship, she was too tame and I was too wild, for a second she almost got me to settle, to care but the more I cared and the more I wanted to get away. I didn’t blame her for running away from me and adding to it the constant calls from Cynthia. The arrangement had been her idea but it had stayed with me days later, and when she said no. That got me thinking, a pretty wife and land because she was pretty, too pretty and innocent. Had she staye
After letting Buddy out for the second time I leave her locked inside my room while I prepare breakfast for Cameron. He barely says a word as I move about the kitchen. His eyes are full of curiosity, but he occupies himself with the black cup of coffee as I finish the eggs and toast. “Where’s your shadow?”“Upstairs.”“Don’t worry about me, let her out.”“She gets too riled up in new spaces, once you’re gone I will let her explore.” Once the steamy plate of eggs touches the table he pulls in and thanks me. We might not have been able to get along before but now we can at least civil towards each other. He praised my food and I smiled, we talked a little about nothing at all and then continue eating in silence. “McKinnon came by.” Until he said that. I froze, my fork in mid-air, his expression serious. “He almost walked into your bedroom.” An awkward silence followed until we both heard a loud bark coming from upstairs. “Buddy.” He nodded. “That would have stopped anyone.”I had b
It was like a sixth sense, I felt it. Being watched. My window outlook the side of the house, towards the back road, and in the darkness all was visible were the silhouettes of the trees. The set snow shone under the moonlight. The red fiery dot was what gave him away. It could have been anyone but my gut told me it was him. Leaning onto the big oak that once had a tire swing hanging from his big branches. I watched him for a few minutes, trying to guess what he wanted but it was obvious. The cold immediately made me regret stepping outside. “Sit,” I told Buddy before closing the door behind me. The porch was nude, aside from the two old rocking chairs on the left. I waited until he apparated from the shadows, flicking the cigarette to the side and watching its light disappear on the cold ground. He was dressed in a warm winter coat and leather gloves. “Wife.” He said, his voice thick. “Husband.” He kept walking forward until there was any space between us. I felt his gaze taki
What a couple of years can change or that’s what I thought as I watched the scenery in front of me. We were no longer heading towards the house I almost called home for six months, instead, we just passed it and continued north. Behind the tall trees, a big two-story structure could be seen from the distance. Apparently, he bought the old Rice place and with that united the land from what it seemed. Which meant that he had been very busy while I had been gone. The big house had pillars on the front, a big circular driveway, and a huge lawn, all was covered in snow but still, I could see that once summer came it would be covered with flowers and shrubs. The massive house became larger and larger as we came closer, he stopped a few feet from the entrance, and without a single word, he got out and proceeded to call someone. Soon two people appeared from the darkness, my suitcase was already sitting on the wet ground when I hopped out. Grabbing Buddy by her collar I stood frozen watchin
The silence is unnerving, as the seconds go by I try to tell myself that he fell asleep, that he just didn’t hear. He’s choosing to ignore me. That’s it. My ears are ringing, all the blood is rushing through my head. The moment of braveness is gone, just as soon as the words slipped out. I’m blinking trying to see the shapes in the darkness, I know he’s next to me. I can feel him. He’s right there, but neither of us moves. The whole room seems as if it was charged with electricity. Tension maybe is me. Maybe I wasn’t loud enough for him to hear, I’m constantly having one-way conversations but that mostly happens when Buddy is in the room. God, who hasn’t said something? Minutes, maybe hours have gone by and he hasn’t moved or made a sound. When I rise he doesn’t react and when I pad slowly to the door and twist slowly on the knob he doesn't rouse. He’s dead to the world or a very good actor. The light on the other side is soft on my eyes but bright enough to catch the resentful
Once I started talking I couldn’t stop.She dabbed her eyes with a crumpled paper napkin as I told her about Melanie’s last days, how Buddy was gifted to me, and how I couldn’t leave her after seeing how much she needed a friend.“Poor family.”“I wanted to come back, I really did but…”“I understand.” Our cups are half full most likely lukewarm, with the dog at my feet we conversed. I told her about my friends back in the little town. How Connie had taken me in and about my job and the kids. How much I loved my independence and how much I dreaded their hate. “But I could never hate you.”“Lacey,” I started licking my lips, tasting the salt of my tears. “She came and she definitely hates me.”“You had your reasons.”“He doesn’t want me.” There it is, telling one person doesn’t give me peace but lifts a little weight off my shoulders. “He just wanted the land.”“No, Rebecca, you can’t say that.”“He never touched me or treated me like his wife. We pretended for his sake and then the m
Sunshine lights up the room. I frown as I try to recall last night's events. The blurry memories start building up slowly as I continue to stare into the hazel eyes that seem to watch mine. Andreas was sick, the power was out and now he looks at me with angry eyes, his eyes always look like he’s angry. At the world, at me. Mostly me.“Your dog is whining.” Oh shit. I didn’t set the alarm.Pushing myself onto a seating position I look around the room, the sheets sticking to the side of my face. My brain is hazy and my limbs are heavy. Last night was an adventure, walking in the darkness was nerve-racking. Shaking my head as I crawl off the bed, trying to get rid of the sleepy cobwebs around my brain.Putting on a thick sweater and rain boots I take Buddy’s leach and close the door behind me. She knows better than to pull while we walk down the path, I have little energy and she can read me too well. “I’m going to sit here and you enjoy yourself.” She looks at me with her big brown ey
The big three in the backyard provided enough shadow for a picnic. The sun is out, is hot enough to sit on the plastic chairs laid out and enjoy the little warmth the day offers after days and days of rain.Buddy trots from here and there, while I skim the pages of a romance book. Looking over my shoulder every time I’m outside has become a habit, right now I know I’m safe but knowing he’s around on the property gives me a sense of anxiety. “Rebecca.” Buddy barks and runs toward the old woman. “I have been calling your name for a while now.”“I’m sorry, I was lost in my thoughts.”“I can see that.” She holds a big brown bag. Is Thursday, and she usually comes Wednesday but with guests staying at the old house she’s been busy.“What are we making today?”“Something simple, spaghetti, and vanilla muffins.” For two months she and I have our small meetings, girl's days. Sometimes Andreas drops us off. Ever since that comment, and John Clark being at the ranch he hardly ever leaves me