KANE POV
I am hyped to see Joanabe perform again when she told me she is participating in the talent search at La Romanina. I did not even get the chance to tell her my name or did get the chance to know the song she played in the store.
I didn't even get the chance to tell her that I also joined the show but backed out because it isn't the thing that I want to do.
The time my eyes landed on her performance in the shop was mesmerizing to make me stop and stare at her the whole time. She is brighter than the spotlight. The moment she opened her eyes, it was teary. I can feel her sadness. I want to know who causes those tears. Somehow I want to make her happy. It lightens the sleeping candle in my heart.
The moment she walked out the door, it feels she blow the lit candle away.
Now that I know where she will go. All I have to do is to go.
I asked my mom to drop me off at La Romanina because I have to see her.
"Honey, are you sure you did not regret backing out of the show?" My mom asked softly without even showing her emotions to me.
"I did not regret a single thing about it, Mom," I said calmly to her while knowing she is hurt deep inside.
I know she wanted me to be like her, a performer, but it is not the thing that my hearts wish to do. I feel like I have to learn more about myself, about what my heart wants to do.
I arrived at La Romanina. I saw Shally Mae's performance. It was either bad or good, in my opinion. It does not take my breath away.
The Host announces my excuse for backing out of the show, and I did not expect Joanabe will be the next one to perform.
*WHAT A SMALL WORLD INDEED*
When Joanabe walks in the center of the stage and prepares her keyboard, I feel excited. I know that she can do it.
She started playing the song.
And I miss you B
F#E F#
And now I wonder...
I noticed her voice quite hoarse, and her nervousness is showing off. I can tell she wanted to sop.
"DON'T STOP! KEEP GOING! YOU GOT THIS!" I shouted out of nowhere, and I don't care about the people's stare at least make that song just for me.
"Play it even nobody listens to you because I will listen to it just for you," I whisper in the air like not for myself but her while watching until the end of the song.
She walks away after the performance. I hurriedly run after her. She slips her toe and quickly grabs her waist to prevent her from falling hard.
Moreover, her body wants to look at me. I pull her forcibly into a back hug.
*SOB**SOB*
She cries like a child. Yet, I don't want those tears. I do not want to hear her sobbing. It's breaking me to see her like this.
What the hell is wrong with me?
"You did your best. You were wonderful," I give compliments while hugging.
She moves and pulls away from my hug. She turns around to see me.
I smiled at her, she giggles.
"You know, you keep appearing out of nowhere, and thank you," Joanabe said while wiping her tears with her hands.
"Am I? Didn't you say you will perform here?" I grin at her, slightly teasing her. I hope I did not offend her.
"Yeah..you are right... You see me suck in my performance." She said while her tears keep on falling to her cheeks.
I pull out my mint green handkerchief in my pocket and wipe her tears in her cheeks with it. She looks shocked, and so am I. My body is moving on its own, but I know it is the best thing to do right now.
"Th-Thank you." She shutters with her words while thanking me with my small gestures to her.
"Keep this," I handed her my handkerchief.
"But it's yours. You can't just give it away directly. I will wash this and return this for you," She said while holding the handkerchief in my hand.
"Silly, you can keep that. I don't need it. I think you need it more than I do." I responded to her while holding the handkerchief tighter. I look into her eyes. It is a pair of beautiful big brown eyes that compliments with her chocolate hair.
I do not know, but I am lost with those eyes.
Her eyes were shining like the stars in the night that will make you wish that it will fall for you.
We keep staring at each other's eyes in silence. I mean, it's not a bad thing. I get the chance to see her at this distance.
Then her eyes landed on our hands.
*WHEN DID WE JUST ENTANGLED OUR HANDS TOGETHER?*
I am speechless, her eyes widen, but her hands feels like it is made for me. It matches mine perfectly.
She quickly looks away from my face to block me from seeing her tomato cheeks, but I can see her blush from her burning red ears.
I chuckled as I blushed.
She looks at me and pouts.
"You are cute," I smirk at her while her eyes are throwing daggers at me.
She suddenly pinches my nose.
"Ouch! What was that for?"
"When will you let go of my hand?" She asked me, but I turned the question around.
"When will you let go of MY hand?" I said to her teasingly, and I hold her hand tighter.
She lets go of my hand with the handkerchief.
Joanabe looks at me again, "Someday, let me wipe your tears with this," she raises the handkerchief in her hand.
I smiled at her and nodded, "Someday."
We laugh together.
I enjoy my time with her. I hope this will last.
"I am glad to see you happy right now." I blurt out what I feel for her.
"That's because of you.....Ummm"
"Kane, My name is Kane Boucher," I said while completing her sentence since Joanabe doesn't know my name, and she is planning to say my name.
Finally, I got to say my name to her. I'm on cloud nine. Her eyes glitter as she hears my name I suppose.
"Thanks, Kane, because of you, my tears are wiped and all gone. How I wish I can return the favor." She said in puppy eyes that I find adorable.
"It is not a favor, Joanabe, and you are welcome. We should go to the waiting area and chat there."
She nods at my idea, and we walk together side by side to the waiting area.
We sit in the chair near there.
"You know, my dad hates me for being passionate about music."
I looked at her in a questionable look, raising my eyebrow and mouth open.
*WHAT IS SHE SAYING?*
"I feel like I can never prove to him myself that music is for me. I could not make him proud or call me his daughter." She continued.
I can hear her sniffing.
I close my mouth and look blankly.
"Do you know my mom wants me to be like her, to be a performer?"
I can feel her eyes on me. I inhale and refuse to stare back at those eyes.
"But it is not what I want. I know I hurt my mother for not choosing to take her path. I want to do what I truly want to do, so I backed out in the show with a lame excuse." I catch her eyes, staring at me sadly. I smile weakly.
"Maybe not today, but someday, we are free to do with our parents' support," I added, and I pat her head with my hand. Her eyes glare at me for no reason.
She shoves my hand out of her head, "don't treat me like a puppy. Wait! Did you what?"
*Oh! So she thinks that patting her head makes her a puppy, funny.*
"You look like you were begging for it. I said I pull out of the show, which is why you got to perform next." I jokingly said to her that makes her burst into laughter.
"You are pretty silly," she gleams brightly like a sun in the sky.
I give her a warm smile.
"Only for you."
She pinches my shoulder for teasing her.
Glad to know her better.
Her eyes suddenly look away from me and lock it to someone.
Joanabe sprinted away from me.
She left me again.
JOANABE POVI see my mom standing looking so worried afar, I run towards her to seek comfort."MOM!" I scream calling my mom while running closer to her I feel so stupid. How can I forget about her?"Joanabe! You got me so worried!" She said while spreading her hands for me to embrace."Mom, I am so sorry. I let you down. How can I make daddy proud?" as I jump on her for an embrace. I cried in her arms.*I AM SO PATHETIC*"Joanabe, you do not have to be sorry, it has nothing to do with your dad." Mom pats my back to ease the pain inside of me.*KANE? WAIT! I LEFT HIM!*I let go of my mom and look directly at the place where I went with Kane, but compare to the shop, he is not there anymore, waiting for me."Is there something wrong Joanabe?" Mom asked me, I shake my head maybe hi
JOANABE POV**KNOCK**KNOCK**"Happy sixteenth birthday Joanabe! Make a wish!" Said Cheryl, standing in front of our door while holding a white chocolate cake and of course with a note wishing happy birthday to me.Is it really supposed to be happy for me?Funny it is, it's exactly the same after 5 years.~Five years earlier**KNOCK**KNOCK**"HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANABE! MAKE A WISH!" Cheryl said happily as I open the door for her wondering if it was my dad. Sadly, it was my friend that's so excited about celebrating my birthday."Cher, you know my birthday is next week," I said to her sadly, I do not want to kill her joy but I just want to remind her that it is not yet my birthday.*MY BIRTHDAY IS THE DAY I SHOULD BE CELEBRATING ABOUT, IT IS THE DAY WHEN THIS TRASH WAS BORN."*~~~~
THIRD PERSON POVIt's been a week after Joanabe's birthday after she dreamt that dream. She seats in quietly while the other students are busy chatting, vocalizing, and getting ready for their recital.Her thoughts can't help but dive deeper.That fog dream etched in her head that she cannot keep herself calm. It's intriguing her."UGH! THIS FEELING IS SO WEIRD!" Joanabe claimed, shaking her head, frustrated."You are weird, your running thoughts. You have a recital for today." Her mother said, sitting beside her in the backstage. She shot glares at her mother's comment.*WHO WAS THAT MAN IN MY DREAM?*Joanabe's mind keeps thinking about her dream, but her imaginations are interrupted by the sound of an opening door.**CREAK**She stares blankly at the person who gets inside in the preparation room."Hello students, are you all prepared for this year's recital?" Professor Melissa, the head of the music club, asked happily to the students, clapping her hands together with a confident s
JOANABE POV"You really forgot all about me, right, Joanabe?" The girl said in a snarling face, and her eyes are serious. Her shoulders are up high in her annoyance. Wow! She acts superior or popular or something--"Aren't you Shally Mae?" Kane said, pointing at her, looking quite shocked."Oh! How do you know?" Shally said happily as her face gleams while seeing his reaction to knowing her name."Nah! Saw one of your performance before in-." Kane said awkwardly as he stroke his nape. I can see he is getting uncomfortable."Ehem!" I cleared my throat, cutting their conversation. I did not like where it was heading."You and Shally Mae. Watch my performance today. I will come up to the stage to show you both I am not the Joanabe you knew five years ago." He crosses my hands at my chest level. One of the organizers calls for me, and I nod. "Catch you guys later," I said while patting Kane's broad shoulder.All the murmurs of the crowd are inaudible, and the lights were blinding as I pr
JOANABE POVIt's been three years I've lost contact with him, It's been thirty-six months I've been wanting to hear him, It's been twenty-six thousand two hundred eight hours I've been missing him, longing him. The person I've been seeking for is right on my phone talking to me like he did before.He loudly exhales that creates a vibration through my ears, "Hello, Joanabe?" Is this the day, He will ask me out?Is this finally the day he will say 'I miss you and I love you?'Is this it?~~~~~~"Joanabe?" he said to the seventeen years old of me while swinging his feet, sitting in the chair. "Knock, knock." I looked at his eyes with a questionable look in my face, and I gave him an awkward smile."Yes?""You are supposed to say who's there?" His eyes were locked in the dark blue skies.I looked up and met the moon on my face. "Who's there?""Joanabe." He plainly said to me.I raised my brow without turning my face to him. "Joanabe, who?""Joanabe, my prom girl tonight? I mean, my gir
JOANABE POVThe news that comes from his mouth is not what I wanted to hear from him. The word 'engage' is not for me. He did not say the words that I am expecting to hear.My eyes filled with tears are like candles that slowly melted away. I clenched my hand to hold back my will from slapping him.My blood boils in my veins as anger inside of me is slowly reaches my mind. My heart breaks into pieces while his warm hand touches mine. His words set cold water in my burning love for him. Now my heart is cold it is pitiful.Love sucks, love hurts----Love failed me.My sniffing nose clenches from his odor, his presence.I stand from my seat. I look into his blue eyes and my mouth coldly said, "Congratulations, you have a happy ending awaits you. I am sorry, I am not hungry. I should get going."Feet of mine start moving on their own aw
JOANABE POVMy heart just got stabbed by Kane Boucher in the restaurant, and now the knife is getting deeper by the sudden news that got strike on me.*MY BESTFRIEND IS MARRYING THE MAN I'VE BEEN WANTING FOR SO LONG.*I forced a laugh, "Pfft... AHAHAHA... Congratulations, Cheryl. Soon to be Mrs. Boucher.""Thank you. Your coming to my wedding, you are going to sing for me, okay?"She softly said to me through the phone."Yes, I-I will." I shutter under my breath while saying those words. I cannot imagine that things will end up like this. I did not know there was something between them. I thought that he is willing to wait for me, nor am I the only one who loves him?*WAS I REALLY THAT NAIVE TO BELIEVE SUCH A PROMISE?*I hang up the phone and throw it away from me. I send punches in my steering wheel. I kick in my pedal, and I just want to hurt myself physically as I am feeling the pain emotionally--mentally. I am drained, for today. My head is spinning not because I had alcohol, but
JOANABE POV"Joanabe."I feel someone shaking me."Joanabe! Get a grip on your life!" Shally Mae furiously said, holding my body forcefully."What were you thinking?" She sounds so worried, but I was thinking of Kane running to me, saying he was looking for me. What on earth, Joenabe? He is married. You can't have him, so you better stop it. Shally pinches my shoulder to make me gasp in surprise. I can't be mad. She wants to get me back on my feet. Her eyes look at me like they want to scold me.My eyes enlarge as I could not speak. I am too busy thinking about him. But Kane wasn't thinking about me, and now Shally is sending chills all over my body.I shrug and move Shally Mae out of my way."Joanabe!" Cheryl waved at me, smiling happily. I walk towards her, biting my lower lip, and said in response, "Hi! Cher, Congratulations to you and Kane.""Thank you so much. You look wonderful!" She hugs me, and I am not sure whether to hug her or not, but I patted her back in assurance."Thank
THIRD PERSON POVYears have passed. Joanabe travels to different places. She hopes to bump her mother around the streets accidentally. She sits on a bench facing the family park as she used before. She gets lost in her thoughts, and her face is like daydreaming. "Excuse me, Miss. May I sit beside you?" An innocent angel with freckles on her cheeks asks humbly to Joanabe. Her thoughts suddenly stop to give the girl her attention. She snickers, "yes, you may take a seat." The little girls hop on the bench as she hums a song in herself. Joanabe can't stop staring at the girl, and she tries to open a conversation, "where are your parents?"The girl gets startled, and she pouts, "they left me. My aunt raises me." Joanabe feels sorry for the girl, thinking that the little girl did not deserve to be left alone under her aunt's care. Funnily, she realizes that there are people who have serious obstacles. The kid is opposite to her because Joanabe is the one who left her loved ones."Sorry
THIRD PERSON POV"Joanabe?" "Joanabe?" The familiar voice calls for her in a deepwater dream that suffocating her. Her eyes dull, and her skin feels cold as she can't move a single muscle. 'WHO IS THIS?' she asks herself."JOANABE!"The man screams at her name. Then, the man pulls her out of the water within seconds. She coughs while she gasps for air. Joanabe is surprised by the man who saved her hopeless state. "You look familiar." Her eyes slowly regain its clear sight. "I think I saw you in my dreams before... Who are you?" She tells the man in a weak voice as she tries to examine. The darkness of the place is what she notices. "AM I DREAMING?" Joanabe can't see the man's face in the darkness, but she feels his touch. They are cold like icy, and she can't help it but feel terrified. "WHO ARE YOU!" Joenabe asks again in a panic as she moves away from the man in her dreams, shaking. The man stands up, and Joanabe notices that he is floating in the fog, wearing a long black c
JOANABE (JOENABELL) POVThe clouds turn to grey as thunderclaps are roaring from the sky. A drop of water touches my cheeks as I lift my head in the sky. It starts to drizzle then, Leonel quickly grabs my hand that catches my attention back at him to lead me back to the souvenir store. We dash as it starts to rain heavily. I thought we are heading to the souvenir store, but we ended up in the tower. I hug myself as the wind blows chilly in my skin. Leonel hangs his hand on my shoulder and pulls me closer to him. I think he notices that I am feeling cold. "Sorry, I did not have a coat to keep you warm," Leonel says as his finger runs in my wet hair."You don't have to worry about it. We did not even bother to take a bath today and change our clothes." I remind him, and I chuckle because his parents did not even notice our appearance. "I mean, our clothes are not that bad." He claims with a smirk on his face, trying to tease me. "Well... It's not that I disagree," I return his smirk
JOANABE (JOENABELL) POVHis heartfelt confession leaves me no question. The place makes it even more perfect. His eyes stare at mine, which convinces me to give myself a chance to fall in love again. I want to fall in love at the right time. But is it the right time? The right person? Our hands are entangled, and I did not recognize that it teaches me something-"Leonel... I am certain that I am learning to love you," I hesitantly speak as I do not wish to hurt his heart by my words."It is fine... I told you we are taking things slow. Let me ask you, do you know what's the greatest love of all?" Leonel sits beside me in the pew as I move to give him enough space.I smile because I know the answer to his question. I put my head in his shoulder as I answer, "Learning to love yourself is the greatest love of all." He nods and touches my head on his shoulder gently."You are right..
THIRD PERSON POVLeonel force Joenabell to walk with him outside for relaxation. Joenabell wants to protest, but she can't seem to do as her heart wants to be with him. They walk together, holding hands while swinging it from back and front. Mrs. Yvonne Relish spots the two with a joyful smile on their faces. Mrs. Relish thought at first that they are just making fun of each other. But when her eyes land on their hands. It is clear to her that something good might happen to them. She smiles while watching them from afar."Looks like they are in love," Mr. Relish walks to his wife while speaking to her softly. Mrs. Relish looks at her husband."Their eyes are the same the way we look at each other, don't you agree, love?" Mr. Relish chuckles at his comment making his wife blush at his sound. "Don't you think they will be fine?" She asks her husband, worrying for the two (Leonel and Joenabell)."Of course! You can see it to our son that he loves her. It makes him want to grab the star
JOANABE (JOENABELL POV)I get up from the bed while busy thinking about my phone. I might have fallen asleep thinking too much of the item.**CREAKS**I hear the door open, and I look at the person entering the room."How's your sleep?" Leonel asks charmingly, such a dear man.I sigh heavily, looking troubled. "Uhh... Great!" I am not sure if my sleep is good or bad, but one thing is clear to me I did not have any nightmares. Thank goodness!"That's great! Do you perhaps have plans for today?" Leonel looks at me with puppy eyes while closing the door behind him. Then, he walks to me."YES! I am searching for my cellphone," I inform him about my phone because I need it today.I can perceive his hand snakes in my waist to hold my body.*WHAT'S UP WITH HIM AND ME?*I wonder these days I've been feeling light beside him as
JOANABE (JOENBELL) POV Mrs. Relish lets me stay in the guest room. We had dinner in their kitchen silently without Mr. Relish's presence. I wonder what Leonel's father looks like*WHAT KEEPS HIM BUSY TO SKIP DINNER WITH HIS FAMILY?*I noticed Mrs. Relish keeps bugging Leonel about something I don't know that makes him shy. And here I am alone in this big guest room. I can have a solo concert in this spacious room, but I prefer to rest my mind because today is not a perfect day to jam. I hide the bracelet under the pillow. To keep it safe.Not to mention, Mrs. Relish gets me a pair of pajamas to sleep comfortably in the room's queen size bed. I roll my body around and hugs a gold pillow. They are must be a royalty I mean from their house, things, and appearance. It looks classy and expensive at the same time. I must be dumb for admitting it now.**KNOCK**KNOCK**Someone knocks at my door, and I wonder who. I get up from the bed and opens the door slowly.A man with grey eyes meets mi
THIRD PERSON POVThere this day when things are wearing thin. When someone is lost, where do they usually begin? One look into the reality, it always comes to be so far, looking for the acceptance that never came her way. Joenabell finds herself running away from Shally and Leonel, even though Leonel tries to snap her back. She swift her body to sprint somewhere. She gets intimidated when Shally threatens her to leave or hit her.Her steps splash the waters in the ground as the skies start to cry, and it rains. The tears flow in her cheek, the same as the raindrops that fall in her skin.Feet stop to move as she looks for a roof to keep the rain off. She finds a closed store that has an extended roof to shelter her cold and trembling body.Joenabell opens her palms up, head to the sky to feel the drops of the rain in the palm of her hand. Her eyes show the emptiness in her heart as she wants to open it to the people around her, but it seems like the people prefer to let it closed.In
JOANABE (JOENABELL) POVLeonel drives us to Shally Mae's place, and we have arrived in her house safely."Let me treat your cheeks, Joenabell. Then, I will treat your boyfriend's bruise next," She tells me, rushing to get a first aid kit. I examine her house. It's simple, and she has a dreamcatcher hanging in her door. Then, a big brown wooden clock on the left side of her living room."Her house looks comfortable," Leonel comments while looking at the ceiling, adoring the crystal clear chandelier.Shally Mae's footsteps echo in the living room as she walks to us with the first aid kit in her hands."What is your relationship with each other?" Leonel covers his mouth while whispering to my ears to ask the question. I hit his shoulder purposely. How dumb can he be?Leonel shrugs at me and pouts."Make yourself at ho