KANE POV
I am hyped to see Joanabe perform again when she told me she is participating in the talent search at La Romanina. I did not even get the chance to tell her my name or did get the chance to know the song she played in the store.
I didn't even get the chance to tell her that I also joined the show but backed out because it isn't the thing that I want to do.
The time my eyes landed on her performance in the shop was mesmerizing to make me stop and stare at her the whole time. She is brighter than the spotlight. The moment she opened her eyes, it was teary. I can feel her sadness. I want to know who causes those tears. Somehow I want to make her happy. It lightens the sleeping candle in my heart.
The moment she walked out the door, it feels she blow the lit candle away.
Now that I know where she will go. All I have to do is to go.
I asked my mom to drop me off at La Romanina because I have to see her.
"Honey, are you sure you did not regret backing out of the show?" My mom asked softly without even showing her emotions to me.
"I did not regret a single thing about it, Mom," I said calmly to her while knowing she is hurt deep inside.
I know she wanted me to be like her, a performer, but it is not the thing that my hearts wish to do. I feel like I have to learn more about myself, about what my heart wants to do.
I arrived at La Romanina. I saw Shally Mae's performance. It was either bad or good, in my opinion. It does not take my breath away.
The Host announces my excuse for backing out of the show, and I did not expect Joanabe will be the next one to perform.
*WHAT A SMALL WORLD INDEED*
When Joanabe walks in the center of the stage and prepares her keyboard, I feel excited. I know that she can do it.
She started playing the song.
And I miss you B
F#E F#
And now I wonder...
I noticed her voice quite hoarse, and her nervousness is showing off. I can tell she wanted to sop.
"DON'T STOP! KEEP GOING! YOU GOT THIS!" I shouted out of nowhere, and I don't care about the people's stare at least make that song just for me.
"Play it even nobody listens to you because I will listen to it just for you," I whisper in the air like not for myself but her while watching until the end of the song.
She walks away after the performance. I hurriedly run after her. She slips her toe and quickly grabs her waist to prevent her from falling hard.
Moreover, her body wants to look at me. I pull her forcibly into a back hug.
*SOB**SOB*
She cries like a child. Yet, I don't want those tears. I do not want to hear her sobbing. It's breaking me to see her like this.
What the hell is wrong with me?
"You did your best. You were wonderful," I give compliments while hugging.
She moves and pulls away from my hug. She turns around to see me.
I smiled at her, she giggles.
"You know, you keep appearing out of nowhere, and thank you," Joanabe said while wiping her tears with her hands.
"Am I? Didn't you say you will perform here?" I grin at her, slightly teasing her. I hope I did not offend her.
"Yeah..you are right... You see me suck in my performance." She said while her tears keep on falling to her cheeks.
I pull out my mint green handkerchief in my pocket and wipe her tears in her cheeks with it. She looks shocked, and so am I. My body is moving on its own, but I know it is the best thing to do right now.
"Th-Thank you." She shutters with her words while thanking me with my small gestures to her.
"Keep this," I handed her my handkerchief.
"But it's yours. You can't just give it away directly. I will wash this and return this for you," She said while holding the handkerchief in my hand.
"Silly, you can keep that. I don't need it. I think you need it more than I do." I responded to her while holding the handkerchief tighter. I look into her eyes. It is a pair of beautiful big brown eyes that compliments with her chocolate hair.
I do not know, but I am lost with those eyes.
Her eyes were shining like the stars in the night that will make you wish that it will fall for you.
We keep staring at each other's eyes in silence. I mean, it's not a bad thing. I get the chance to see her at this distance.
Then her eyes landed on our hands.
*WHEN DID WE JUST ENTANGLED OUR HANDS TOGETHER?*
I am speechless, her eyes widen, but her hands feels like it is made for me. It matches mine perfectly.
She quickly looks away from my face to block me from seeing her tomato cheeks, but I can see her blush from her burning red ears.
I chuckled as I blushed.
She looks at me and pouts.
"You are cute," I smirk at her while her eyes are throwing daggers at me.
She suddenly pinches my nose.
"Ouch! What was that for?"
"When will you let go of my hand?" She asked me, but I turned the question around.
"When will you let go of MY hand?" I said to her teasingly, and I hold her hand tighter.
She lets go of my hand with the handkerchief.
Joanabe looks at me again, "Someday, let me wipe your tears with this," she raises the handkerchief in her hand.
I smiled at her and nodded, "Someday."
We laugh together.
I enjoy my time with her. I hope this will last.
"I am glad to see you happy right now." I blurt out what I feel for her.
"That's because of you.....Ummm"
"Kane, My name is Kane Boucher," I said while completing her sentence since Joanabe doesn't know my name, and she is planning to say my name.
Finally, I got to say my name to her. I'm on cloud nine. Her eyes glitter as she hears my name I suppose.
"Thanks, Kane, because of you, my tears are wiped and all gone. How I wish I can return the favor." She said in puppy eyes that I find adorable.
"It is not a favor, Joanabe, and you are welcome. We should go to the waiting area and chat there."
She nods at my idea, and we walk together side by side to the waiting area.
We sit in the chair near there.
"You know, my dad hates me for being passionate about music."
I looked at her in a questionable look, raising my eyebrow and mouth open.
*WHAT IS SHE SAYING?*
"I feel like I can never prove to him myself that music is for me. I could not make him proud or call me his daughter." She continued.
I can hear her sniffing.
I close my mouth and look blankly.
"Do you know my mom wants me to be like her, to be a performer?"
I can feel her eyes on me. I inhale and refuse to stare back at those eyes.
"But it is not what I want. I know I hurt my mother for not choosing to take her path. I want to do what I truly want to do, so I backed out in the show with a lame excuse." I catch her eyes, staring at me sadly. I smile weakly.
"Maybe not today, but someday, we are free to do with our parents' support," I added, and I pat her head with my hand. Her eyes glare at me for no reason.
She shoves my hand out of her head, "don't treat me like a puppy. Wait! Did you what?"
*Oh! So she thinks that patting her head makes her a puppy, funny.*
"You look like you were begging for it. I said I pull out of the show, which is why you got to perform next." I jokingly said to her that makes her burst into laughter.
"You are pretty silly," she gleams brightly like a sun in the sky.
I give her a warm smile.
"Only for you."
She pinches my shoulder for teasing her.
Glad to know her better.
Her eyes suddenly look away from me and lock it to someone.
Joanabe sprinted away from me.
She left me again.
JOANABE POVI see my mom standing looking so worried afar, I run towards her to seek comfort."MOM!" I scream calling my mom while running closer to her I feel so stupid. How can I forget about her?"Joanabe! You got me so worried!" She said while spreading her hands for me to embrace."Mom, I am so sorry. I let you down. How can I make daddy proud?" as I jump on her for an embrace. I cried in her arms.*I AM SO PATHETIC*"Joanabe, you do not have to be sorry, it has nothing to do with your dad." Mom pats my back to ease the pain inside of me.*KANE? WAIT! I LEFT HIM!*I let go of my mom and look directly at the place where I went with Kane, but compare to the shop, he is not there anymore, waiting for me."Is there something wrong Joanabe?" Mom asked me, I shake my head maybe hi
JOANABE POV**KNOCK**KNOCK**"Happy sixteenth birthday Joanabe! Make a wish!" Said Cheryl, standing in front of our door while holding a white chocolate cake and of course with a note wishing happy birthday to me.Is it really supposed to be happy for me?Funny it is, it's exactly the same after 5 years.~Five years earlier**KNOCK**KNOCK**"HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANABE! MAKE A WISH!" Cheryl said happily as I open the door for her wondering if it was my dad. Sadly, it was my friend that's so excited about celebrating my birthday."Cher, you know my birthday is next week," I said to her sadly, I do not want to kill her joy but I just want to remind her that it is not yet my birthday.*MY BIRTHDAY IS THE DAY I SHOULD BE CELEBRATING ABOUT, IT IS THE DAY WHEN THIS TRASH WAS BORN."*~~~~
THIRD PERSON POVIt's been a week after Joanabe's birthday after she dreamt that dream. She seats in quietly while the other students are busy chatting, vocalizing, and getting ready for their recital.Her thoughts can't help but dive deeper.That fog dream etched in her head that she cannot keep herself calm. It's intriguing her."UGH! THIS FEELING IS SO WEIRD!" Joanabe claimed, shaking her head, frustrated."You are weird, your running thoughts. You have a recital for today." Her mother said, sitting beside her in the backstage. She shot glares at her mother's comment.*WHO WAS THAT MAN IN MY DREAM?*Joanabe's mind keeps thinking about her dream, but her imaginations are interrupted by the sound of an opening door.**CREAK**She stares blankly at the person who gets inside in the preparation room."Hello students, are you all prepared for this year's recital?" Professor Melissa, the head of the music club, asked happily to the students, clapping her hands together with a confident s
JOANABE POV"You really forgot all about me, right, Joanabe?" The girl said in a snarling face, and her eyes are serious. Her shoulders are up high in her annoyance. Wow! She acts superior or popular or something--"Aren't you Shally Mae?" Kane said, pointing at her, looking quite shocked."Oh! How do you know?" Shally said happily as her face gleams while seeing his reaction to knowing her name."Nah! Saw one of your performance before in-." Kane said awkwardly as he stroke his nape. I can see he is getting uncomfortable."Ehem!" I cleared my throat, cutting their conversation. I did not like where it was heading."You and Shally Mae. Watch my performance today. I will come up to the stage to show you both I am not the Joanabe you knew five years ago." He crosses my hands at my chest level. One of the organizers calls for me, and I nod. "Catch you guys later," I said while patting Kane's broad shoulder.All the murmurs of the crowd are inaudible, and the lights were blinding as I pr
JOANABE POVIt's been three years I've lost contact with him, It's been thirty-six months I've been wanting to hear him, It's been twenty-six thousand two hundred eight hours I've been missing him, longing him. The person I've been seeking for is right on my phone talking to me like he did before.He loudly exhales that creates a vibration through my ears, "Hello, Joanabe?" Is this the day, He will ask me out?Is this finally the day he will say 'I miss you and I love you?'Is this it?~~~~~~"Joanabe?" he said to the seventeen years old of me while swinging his feet, sitting in the chair. "Knock, knock." I looked at his eyes with a questionable look in my face, and I gave him an awkward smile."Yes?""You are supposed to say who's there?" His eyes were locked in the dark blue skies.I looked up and met the moon on my face. "Who's there?""Joanabe." He plainly said to me.I raised my brow without turning my face to him. "Joanabe, who?""Joanabe, my prom girl tonight? I mean, my gir
JOANABE POVThe news that comes from his mouth is not what I wanted to hear from him. The word 'engage' is not for me. He did not say the words that I am expecting to hear.My eyes filled with tears are like candles that slowly melted away. I clenched my hand to hold back my will from slapping him.My blood boils in my veins as anger inside of me is slowly reaches my mind. My heart breaks into pieces while his warm hand touches mine. His words set cold water in my burning love for him. Now my heart is cold it is pitiful.Love sucks, love hurts----Love failed me.My sniffing nose clenches from his odor, his presence.I stand from my seat. I look into his blue eyes and my mouth coldly said, "Congratulations, you have a happy ending awaits you. I am sorry, I am not hungry. I should get going."Feet of mine start moving on their own aw
JOANABE POVMy heart just got stabbed by Kane Boucher in the restaurant, and now the knife is getting deeper by the sudden news that got strike on me.*MY BESTFRIEND IS MARRYING THE MAN I'VE BEEN WANTING FOR SO LONG.*I forced a laugh, "Pfft... AHAHAHA... Congratulations, Cheryl. Soon to be Mrs. Boucher.""Thank you. Your coming to my wedding, you are going to sing for me, okay?"She softly said to me through the phone."Yes, I-I will." I shutter under my breath while saying those words. I cannot imagine that things will end up like this. I did not know there was something between them. I thought that he is willing to wait for me, nor am I the only one who loves him?*WAS I REALLY THAT NAIVE TO BELIEVE SUCH A PROMISE?*I hang up the phone and throw it away from me. I send punches in my steering wheel. I kick in my pedal, and I just want to hurt myself physically as I am feeling the pain emotionally--mentally. I am drained, for today. My head is spinning not because I had alcohol, but
JOANABE POV"Joanabe."I feel someone shaking me."Joanabe! Get a grip on your life!" Shally Mae furiously said, holding my body forcefully."What were you thinking?" She sounds so worried, but I was thinking of Kane running to me, saying he was looking for me. What on earth, Joenabe? He is married. You can't have him, so you better stop it. Shally pinches my shoulder to make me gasp in surprise. I can't be mad. She wants to get me back on my feet. Her eyes look at me like they want to scold me.My eyes enlarge as I could not speak. I am too busy thinking about him. But Kane wasn't thinking about me, and now Shally is sending chills all over my body.I shrug and move Shally Mae out of my way."Joanabe!" Cheryl waved at me, smiling happily. I walk towards her, biting my lower lip, and said in response, "Hi! Cher, Congratulations to you and Kane.""Thank you so much. You look wonderful!" She hugs me, and I am not sure whether to hug her or not, but I patted her back in assurance."Thank