THIRD PERSON POV
It's been a week after Joanabe's birthday after she dreamt that dream. She seats in quietly while the other students are busy chatting, vocalizing, and getting ready for their recital.
Her thoughts can't help but dive deeper.
That fog dream etched in her head that she cannot keep herself calm. It's intriguing her.
"UGH! THIS FEELING IS SO WEIRD!" Joanabe claimed, shaking her head, frustrated
.
"You are weird, your running thoughts. You have a recital for today." Her mother said, sitting beside her in the backstage. She shot glares at her mother's comment.
*WHO WAS THAT MAN IN MY DREAM?*
Joanabe's mind keeps thinking about her dream, but her imaginations are interrupted by the sound of an opening door.
**CREAK**
She stares blankly at the person who gets inside in the preparation room.
"Hello students, are you all prepared for this year's recital?" Professor Melissa, the head of the music club, asked happily to the students, clapping her hands together with a confident smile while holding her excitement in her chest.
"YES!" The students that are present in the room said in unison except for Joanabe, who is busy maintaining her poker face.
"Best of luck to all!" Professor Melissa said before leaving the room.
"I'll go cheer you on, don't lose your focus, okay? You got this." Her mom gives her a warm smile, holding her shoulders in a sign of believing in Joanabe.
"Thanks, Mom, do not worry. I got this." Joanabe tells her mother in a calm voice, which reliefs Alexandra's nervousness for her.
Her mother turns away and walks out of the backstage to exit and watch her daughter in the audience area.
She sighs heavily, rubbing her hands together, creating heat of the cold pressure inside her.
"Are you ready, Joanabe?' A girl student asks.
Joanabe turns her face to the girl who had asked her the question.
*SHE LOOKS FAMILIAR. I THINK I'VE SEEN HER BEFORE. I CAN'T REMEMBER WHERE AND WHEN?*
She smiles and nods in response to the question. The girl patted her shoulder before walking away.
Joanabe sighs heavily to relieve some of her stress.
She decided to go to the restroom.
There she closes her eyes, vocalizes her voice, and shakes her nerves to prepare herself for the stage.
Joanabe did not even notice the time is running fast. She missed the entrance and opening number. The professor and the others were looking for her, but sadly no one knows where she goes.
The moment she opens her eyes. She feels better. Her heart calms in her chest while her face pales.
She smiles in front of the mirror.
"YOU CAN DO THIS!" Those are the words escapes from Joanabe's mouth as an encouragement to herself.
She walks out of the restroom and rushes to the center stage.
*SHOOT! I MISSED THE OPENING! IT LOOKS LIKE THE FIRST PERFORMER IS PREPARING.*
The show has started. The girl who had asked her a question earlier hurriedly run to her while panting hard and said, "Joanabe! Where did you go? We were looking for you. You got us so worried. The first presenter is called and now is preparing to perform. We should take a seat."
"I am sorry, I went to the restroom, busy calming my nerves." She reasons out honestly.
The girl was panting and sweating hard for Joanabe, but she is not interested in responding to the girl's feelings. Instead, her attention is on the first performance for this day.
"Let's take a seat here," Joanabe said, pointing to the empty seats near them. The girl nods in agreement.
They sit together in the audience chairs.
"Hello, Everyone! I hope you like this song. This song is about loving someone when it is not the right moment is you need to set them free."
The man strums the strings of his guitar and started opening his mouth to sing the song.
His voice is deep, low, and tone voice sends a familiar feeling to Jonabe's heart as he sings the first line of the song.
Joanabe can't help but stare at the man. For an unknown reason, they catch their eyes and lock it to each other. There is a spark in her eyes.
The burning sensation in her chest together with the butterflies on her stomach, makes her feel comfortable. Her melt in the music as well as to the person who sings it for her?
She feels like the song is dedicated to her. The music is for her. She thinks of that way.
Their eyes never leave each other. Their emotions are building up in their brain.
The boy finishes his song this particular line with a strong strum on his guitar.
"The day you said goodnight."
The man whisper in the air, "Joanabe."
Those brown eyes that shine were like the sun that's warily watching him afar. Those stares remind him of Joanabe's. His guts are telling him to go after her because it is Joanabe.
He quickly leaves the stage and goes to the audience chairs. He sprinted, avoiding the cheers of the crowd and people that block him from running away.
On the other hand, Joanabe stands up from her chair after the man finishes his performance.
Her mind thought of Kane, the kind man she wants to see again.
She pulls out her lucky mint green handkerchief in her pocket.
"It's him, right?" She asks herself in confusion.
"It's him!" She exclaimed loudly.
"It is me, Joanabe." A deep voice of a man confirms it to her. She slowly faces the man.
She smiles weakly, "Kane!"
"That's me. The one and only, Kane, you know." He proudly says yet breaks a little chuckle on his face.
Joanabe grabs him and pulls him closer to her.
"I-i miss you." She blushes while saying those in front of Kane, but this time she did not look away to hide her red cheeks. She lets Kane see it.
Kane's lips curl, "How have you been?"
"I am doing okay, you?" Joanabe's smile is extending to her face.
"Here, performing for Mother's sake. It looks like you've got no tears left to cry." Kane was about to scratch his head, but Joanabe is gripping them firmly.
"Pfft, you never change. You can let go of my hands." Kane sneered while looking at his hand's clasp together, by Joanabe.
"Oh-oh! Sorry, I did not mean to hold them." She let's go of his hands.
Kane smiles at her claims mischievously.
"Really?" Asks Kane.
Joanabe pinches his nose cause him to flinch away from her.
"You do not have to hurt my nose for that, Joanabe," Kane says while rubbing his nose to soothe the pain.
"Really? Because I think so," She giggles at his hurt face.
Kane could not bring himself to be upset by her because her giggles are enough to make him feel better.
"Um... Kane..." Joanabe speaks his name softly.
"Yes?" Kane looks into her brown fondly.
"Kane, watch me sing," Joanabe said confidently. Then she swift her face away from his eyes to look at the platform.
"Watch me sing in that stage." She continues to inform.
"I will." Kane nods with approval, which encourages Joanabe to do her best in the presence of Kane.
"You change a lot, Kane," she said under her breath while looking at change appearance. He now towers Joanabe and is sweeter to her.
"Ehem! Excuse me for ruining your sweet and intimate reunion. But don't forget about me, Joanabe."
*WHO IS THIS FAMILIAR GIRL?!*
JOANABE POV"You really forgot all about me, right, Joanabe?" The girl said in a snarling face, and her eyes are serious. Her shoulders are up high in her annoyance. Wow! She acts superior or popular or something--"Aren't you Shally Mae?" Kane said, pointing at her, looking quite shocked."Oh! How do you know?" Shally said happily as her face gleams while seeing his reaction to knowing her name."Nah! Saw one of your performance before in-." Kane said awkwardly as he stroke his nape. I can see he is getting uncomfortable."Ehem!" I cleared my throat, cutting their conversation. I did not like where it was heading."You and Shally Mae. Watch my performance today. I will come up to the stage to show you both I am not the Joanabe you knew five years ago." He crosses my hands at my chest level. One of the organizers calls for me, and I nod. "Catch you guys later," I said while patting Kane's broad shoulder.All the murmurs of the crowd are inaudible, and the lights were blinding as I pr
JOANABE POVIt's been three years I've lost contact with him, It's been thirty-six months I've been wanting to hear him, It's been twenty-six thousand two hundred eight hours I've been missing him, longing him. The person I've been seeking for is right on my phone talking to me like he did before.He loudly exhales that creates a vibration through my ears, "Hello, Joanabe?" Is this the day, He will ask me out?Is this finally the day he will say 'I miss you and I love you?'Is this it?~~~~~~"Joanabe?" he said to the seventeen years old of me while swinging his feet, sitting in the chair. "Knock, knock." I looked at his eyes with a questionable look in my face, and I gave him an awkward smile."Yes?""You are supposed to say who's there?" His eyes were locked in the dark blue skies.I looked up and met the moon on my face. "Who's there?""Joanabe." He plainly said to me.I raised my brow without turning my face to him. "Joanabe, who?""Joanabe, my prom girl tonight? I mean, my gir
JOANABE POVThe news that comes from his mouth is not what I wanted to hear from him. The word 'engage' is not for me. He did not say the words that I am expecting to hear.My eyes filled with tears are like candles that slowly melted away. I clenched my hand to hold back my will from slapping him.My blood boils in my veins as anger inside of me is slowly reaches my mind. My heart breaks into pieces while his warm hand touches mine. His words set cold water in my burning love for him. Now my heart is cold it is pitiful.Love sucks, love hurts----Love failed me.My sniffing nose clenches from his odor, his presence.I stand from my seat. I look into his blue eyes and my mouth coldly said, "Congratulations, you have a happy ending awaits you. I am sorry, I am not hungry. I should get going."Feet of mine start moving on their own aw
JOANABE POVMy heart just got stabbed by Kane Boucher in the restaurant, and now the knife is getting deeper by the sudden news that got strike on me.*MY BESTFRIEND IS MARRYING THE MAN I'VE BEEN WANTING FOR SO LONG.*I forced a laugh, "Pfft... AHAHAHA... Congratulations, Cheryl. Soon to be Mrs. Boucher.""Thank you. Your coming to my wedding, you are going to sing for me, okay?"She softly said to me through the phone."Yes, I-I will." I shutter under my breath while saying those words. I cannot imagine that things will end up like this. I did not know there was something between them. I thought that he is willing to wait for me, nor am I the only one who loves him?*WAS I REALLY THAT NAIVE TO BELIEVE SUCH A PROMISE?*I hang up the phone and throw it away from me. I send punches in my steering wheel. I kick in my pedal, and I just want to hurt myself physically as I am feeling the pain emotionally--mentally. I am drained, for today. My head is spinning not because I had alcohol, but
JOANABE POV"Joanabe."I feel someone shaking me."Joanabe! Get a grip on your life!" Shally Mae furiously said, holding my body forcefully."What were you thinking?" She sounds so worried, but I was thinking of Kane running to me, saying he was looking for me. What on earth, Joenabe? He is married. You can't have him, so you better stop it. Shally pinches my shoulder to make me gasp in surprise. I can't be mad. She wants to get me back on my feet. Her eyes look at me like they want to scold me.My eyes enlarge as I could not speak. I am too busy thinking about him. But Kane wasn't thinking about me, and now Shally is sending chills all over my body.I shrug and move Shally Mae out of my way."Joanabe!" Cheryl waved at me, smiling happily. I walk towards her, biting my lower lip, and said in response, "Hi! Cher, Congratulations to you and Kane.""Thank you so much. You look wonderful!" She hugs me, and I am not sure whether to hug her or not, but I patted her back in assurance."Thank
THIRD PERSON POV*BEEP**BEEP*Joanabe's eyes open slowly, and she scans through the room. She looks at her arms with dextrose attached. She heavily sighs when she turns her head to the right. There is a woman on her side, sleeping like a log. She shakes the sleeping body, and its response a hum. The woman stretches her body and looks at Joanabe sadly. Joanabe stretches her body. She positions herself in front of the woman beside her.A tear fall on her face as she says the word, "Mom."**SLAPS**Her mother's eyes reflect anger and scold her, "Joanabe! Why did you do it? How DARE you do it! You don't know what I feel. I was so worried about you. You didn't bother to contact me for months, and now I see you like this!" Joanabe cries and pleads to her Mom, "Mom! I am so sorry, please, forgive me. I do not know what to do anymore. I feel so useless. I feel o lonely. I've lost everything. Forgive me, Mom! Please! Please!"**SLAPS**This time the slap is strong for her face to withstand. H
THIRD PERSON POVIt's been two months since Joanabe passes away. Cheryl breastfeeding her two months old baby as she feels the pain in her nipples.**BITE**BITE**Joanabe, Joenabell rather, is busy biting her mother's nipples instead of drinking her milk.*WINE TASTE BETTER THAN YOUR MILK BLURGH! WHAT A SHAME CHERYL* Joanabe thinks while continuing her business."Baby? Do not like mom's milk? You've been biting my nipples since your first breastfeed," Cheryl looks at her daughter's blue eyes, carrying her close to her chest, and sends kisses to her daughter's cheek due to her adorableness. Joenabell lets go of her mother's breast and shake her head. She keeps swinging her little arms in her face. Cheryl is surprised by her daughter's response to her and thinks that her daughter understands what she was asking. *I MISS MY MOTHER. CHERYL SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN MY MOTHER.* Joenabell suddenly cries, kicking, and moving from left to right in her mother's arms. "UWAHHH!!!""Oh, baby! Sorry,
JOANABE (JOENABELL) POV"Joenabell, are you still awake?" Cheryl asks me, holding me close to the chest, and I pretended to sleep by closing my eyes forcibly, so I hope she won't notice it. I don't really want to get caught for this.This is exciting. I wonder what kind of mother Cheryl would be since she always loves children compare to me, but what do you know, I become her daughter, f***k this."So cute! You look like your father while you are sleeping innocently." Cheryl couldn't hide her feeling of the delight of having a child.I feel that I already hated myself for looking like a carbon copy of my father's sleeping face. I wouldn't want to look like him if I had the chance. I rather, take Cheryl's face voluntarily."Sweet dreams, my baby." She kissed my forehead but--"BWAH!" I started saying random things that my mouth can say in a cute face. I want to see Cheryl's reaction on her face.She looks so shocked. 'Heh! I caught her!'"You are still awake! Are you fooling me, Joena