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~11-Guilty Conscience ~
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2024-10-29 19:42:56I know, everyone at school has a crush on him"says Brit as they continue the chat about Jamie
"Oh he goes to your school?" Beth asks and I listen attentively because that's a question I would have asked myself.
"Nope, he teaches at my school" she says wryly
"Training?" Asks Beth
"Oh no" Brit shakes her head "he's an actual lecturer at my school"
"You said he was 17" Beth's brows creased in confusion, mirroring my own look.
"Yup" Brit mutters, popping the p "He's the youngest lecturer in school and probably in the whole world. He managed to get enough credits to get into college when he was 14 and everything fell into place for him I guess"
Beth and I stare at her in bewilderment.
"He's really smart" she shrugs
"Wow" I breathe, because I honestly can't believe this.
And I thought I was smart.
They continue their little chat and I stand up to leave.
Neither of them even notices as I walk right out the door.
Either that or they're too involved in their conversation to care..
Whichever one it is, I realize that it's time to let them be for a while.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not mad at them or anything, I'm actually glad that my only two friends are getting along.
Is Brit even my friend? She sure acts like it and I love her jovial attitude, it's a great lift to my spirit.
"Hey, Danielle" someone calls.
I scan the environment for who that someone is but I see absolutely nobody.
Who am I kidding? Nobody knows me as Danielle here.
I'm Danny to everyone here. Well, after their little chat, I'm sure Bethany will have blabbed about it to Britney.
Do I mind? I don't think so. As long as she doesn't take to calling me Danielle that is.
"Danielle" the voice calls again.
I ignore the sound, and take a sit on the small staircase at my porch as I scroll through my Instagram feed.
"I'm guessing you changed your name?" Says the voice from right beside me.
I jump, startled by the suddenness.
"You startled me" I frown at him.
"Well?" He quirks his brow.
Is this guy dumb or what?
"You startled me" I repeat, making sure to put just enough emphasis on each syllable.
"Okay, I'm sorry" he shrugs unapologetically but I choose to let it go by giving him a nod of acknowledgement.
"So?" He asks
"So?" I reply
"You changed your name? Or are you still Danielle?" He repeats his question from earlier.
"My name's Danny" I point out and go back to scrolling through my feed.
"Okay, Danny" he gives in "I just wanted to apologize for earlier"
"What happened earlier?" I give him a confused look as I choose to play obtuse.
"I must have embarrassed or annoyed you with my dumb laughter-it was out of place" he says with the humility I didn't think he was capable of showing.
"Oh" I reply
"Oh?" He asks
"Oh" I repeat
"That's really all you're going to say? Oh?" He says, getting irritated already.
"What would you prefer I said?" I say in a mock sweet voice.
"Nothing" he mutters as he storms dramatically away.
"Bye, Jamie" I call sweetly
He turns to glare at me for a brief second and I burst out in laughter.
"Hey, what was all the ruckus about?" Says Britney as she rushes out the door.
You'd think she'll at least leave the laptop inside but no..the laptop rests easily on her bicep.
"Nothing" I shrug "Just Jamie apologizing"
"You kidding?" Brit asks wide-eyed
"No" I answer her with a frown.
"Jamie apologized to you?" She sounds shocked.
"Yes, no big deal" I shrug.
"It's a big deal, Danny. Jamie never apologizes to anyone..EVER.. not even to my school's principal" she explains
"Oh" is all I say in response.
"How did he look? Cute, I know..wait.." She squeals "What did he say? What were his exact words?"
"I don't know, Brit. He just stormed away angrily" I inform, aiming for nonchalance even though I feel really bad.
He apologized to me and I turned him away rudely.
"What?" Beth and Brit scream at the same time.
"Danny, you got the first guy you met there angry on the first day?" Says Beth
"He apologized to you and you got him angry?" Says Brit
"Would you guys drop it? It's not that bad" I reason.
"So you don't feel bad?" Asks Beth "..don't regret it? Not at all?"
Damn...this lady knows me so well
"Okay, I do. I feel bad and you guys aren't helping" I groan.
"Oh, we'll help alright" Brit assures with a ridiculous grin plastered on her face.
Brit leaves with my Mac-book and I'm left all alone in my apartment.
I try to focus on anything but Jamie but he's always there, he's stuck in my head.
Our two encounters keep replaying in my head over and over.
They're etched on my memory like a scar.
What's happening to me?
I've never been this disturbed over anything.
'It was just one stupid conversation' I say to myself
It was more than a stupid conversation Dumbo, you like him says my subconscious.
I roll my eyes at her and focus on the only thing that has the ability to distract me whenever I need it-memories of dad.
I think back to when dad was still alive, the times he told me never to be rude just for the fun of it...then the scene with Jamie comes up again.
Ugh..I'm so freaking tired of it.
And then there's a knock on the door.
"Come in" I call because it's probably Britney
The door clicks open and shut
"Sh*t did someone die?" He groans as he finds the switch and turns on the light.
"Jamie?" I exclaim "What are you doing here?"
"Well, I met a friend of yours who said you feel bad about what happened a while ago" he says calmly "So I came down here to aks if that's true"
"Britney?" I ask, in an equally calm tone even though I know it's not her he's referring to.
"Bethany, I believe" he clarifies
"Oh, Britney" I groan out loud.
It's a chance to make up for my mistake and I'm blowing it.
Bab terkait
Jinxed By Me ~12-Jamie And I~
I don't know what happened or how we ended up like this but a few hours later, we're both sitting in my living room-lights turned off, orange juice and potato chips in my hand, a weird red drink in his hand, watching TV like old friends.It's commercial break and a toothpaste commercial is on.I take this as my que to talk to Jamie.I throw some potato chips in my mouth and munch quickly then swallow before starting."Um..Jamie, I'm really sorry for the way I behaved towards you a while ago" I apologize "I guess, I was just still upset with you so it just...I don't know, happened""Why were you upset with me though?" He asks softly
Jinxed By Me ~13-Date Night~
"Come on, Danny" Brit whines"No" I say simply, making sure to keep my face void of any emotion."I really think you should try it, Danny" Beth says thoughtfully from the screen of my Mac-book.I groan.It was honestly a terrible idea to introduce Beth to Brit.Now it's like they both agree to be against me and make my life miserable-Beth was hard enough to deal with, now there's two of them always ganging up against me.
Jinxed By Me ~14-Jamie's Here~
We arrive at a good looking house-but it's not my house so I don't really care.The car comes to a halt right at the entrance and the engine quiets down with a flourish-it's a nice car."Where did you bring me?" I ask the rich snub with a calmness I'm definitely not feeling."My house" he smiles confidentlyI want nothing but to slap that sick smile off his face."Why did you bring me to your house?" I turn to face him with the fakest smile.
Jinxed By Me ~15-Who Is Jamie Johnson??~
"Well, tell us all about it" says Beth while Brit stares, both of their eyes wide with excitement."Why are you guys so amused? It went badly, the guy was an a*s and you're never making me do that again" I mutter, wanting to frown but I can't keep this I'm not hella mad at you guys right now"Beth rolls her eyes "So you regret going?""Yes" I answer too quickly to be believed.I actually don't regret going-I mean, I hated the date, that arrogant d**k who was going to drug me and basically the whole night, except the part where Jamie arrived.
Jinxed By Me ~16-Who Are You, Jamie¿~
It's been a while since I last went to a gym and something feels really off."Hey, Britney" I greet as Brit comes into view."Hello" she beams "went for a morning jug, I see""Yeah...and you're going out?" I ask"Yeah, school""Oh ok, have fun" I say in a goodbye bid."The only fun thing about school is my Music Teacher" she winks."Oh..um, Brit..where can I find a boxing gym around here?" I ask, remembering my need for a gym."A boxing gym? What do you need that for?" Her brows furrow."Uh..boxing?" I give her a weird look."You box?" She looks vaguely surprised.I hum in response before adding "...and wrestle, fight Kung fu, a little bit of karate""Wow, I would hate to have been David that night" she jokes."As much as he des
Jinxed By Me ~17-Ecstasy~
“See, it’s the exact same boring sound” my boss huffs “We need to make it stand out. I need ideas, people”It’s been three months since I started working here.Jamie’s my boss...it’s the worst feeling ever but thankfully he’s not here all the time.He’s not here right now and Jack seems to be loosing it.There’s a top singer in the booth and we’re meant to produce this song but Jack doesn’t like the way it sounds and frankly, neither do I.But who am I to say anything?I think I can do something to make it better but...I’m just Danny, the high school graduate.Yup, that’s what everyone here knows me for. High school graduate, it’s annoying.“Anybody?” Jack pleads
Jinxed By Me ~18-The Truth~
The last time this happened we spent a night in jail.His words float over us as we stare each other in the eyes.Jamie breaks the silence "No...Uh...I mean, the last time I um...had faith in a woman's driving skills"It's obvious he's lying and usually I'll let it go but not this time- it's been three long months of constant lies and I'm sick of it.For some odd reason though, it kinda hurts that he doesn't trust me enough to tell me the truth."Okay, I guess this is happening now" I whisper and turn my focus back to driving- except I don't go home, I pull over to the side of the road."What is?" He breathes."You're telling me the truth, the whole truth" I unstrap my seatbelt and turn to face him."What truth?" He go
Jinxed By Me ~19-We’ll See~
I unlock the door to my apartment with a wide a*s grin because that’s what Jamie does to you-makes you smile so much your jaw hurts.Just as I throw my bag down and my butt connects with the couch, an incoming video call from Beth pops up on the Mac Pro which I left powered on the table.Quickly, I accept it, wishing this damn grin off my face as I sit on the floor right in front of the table.“Hey, stranger” she beams“Hello, beautiful stranger” I respond, grinning like a fool.“Someone looks happy” she smiles“I think I am” I reply, suddenly remembering to ask her “Beth, did you by any chance tell Brit what I like to have for dessert?”“No” she squints her eyes “Why?”“Nothing important” I shrug “I was just wondering”“More than 10 years, Danny” she stares impassively at me and I frown in confusion before she continues “...and you still think I don’t know when you’re lying? Spit it out”“What?” I go for nonchalance
Bab terbaru
Jinxed By Me ~21-Sleep’s Surely My Punishment~
Flashback(10 Years Ago)I hear the front door open and close.Mommy’s home.Chowders sound asleep. He stopped crying a while ago, I think he feels better.Quickly, I grab my test off the table and sprint down the stairs.“Good Evening, mommy” I beam, my smile so wide that my jaw begins to hurt soon.Mommy just nods in acknowledgment as she starts taking off her shoes.“I got a high score on my Math test today” I inform, proudly holding up my B-minus“A B-minus?” She huffs in disbeliefMy smile wavers. I had hoped she was going to be at least a little bit happy but no such luck. A huge lump forms in my throat and I chew my bottom lip, it’s all I can do to not break out in tears.“Come on, D
Jinxed By Me ~20-Chowder~
It’s Saturday and I’m out for a morning jog.My need for a boxing gym has doubled.“Danielle” I hear a familiar voice call and I slow down“Danny” I groan, rolling my eyes.“Good morning to you too” he says sardonically.“About the gym though...” I start, halting in my track.“We could go today” he suggests and I nod eagerly.“In say thirty minutes?” I offer, giving his non-workout outfit a disapproving glance.“Sure” And then he’s gone.I’ve been avoiding the topic of ‘The Truth’ he told me about because I just don’t think I’m ready to face it.I know running away from or in my case, avoiding your problems is never the right thing to do but I’m sure whoever came up with that saying didn’t just find out about their past lives or met a awesome human who’s apparently lived centuries.So, here, avoiding the topic really does seem like the right thing to do.Jamie...bless him...probably sensed how uncomfortable that
Jinxed By Me ~19-We’ll See~
I unlock the door to my apartment with a wide a*s grin because that’s what Jamie does to you-makes you smile so much your jaw hurts.Just as I throw my bag down and my butt connects with the couch, an incoming video call from Beth pops up on the Mac Pro which I left powered on the table.Quickly, I accept it, wishing this damn grin off my face as I sit on the floor right in front of the table.“Hey, stranger” she beams“Hello, beautiful stranger” I respond, grinning like a fool.“Someone looks happy” she smiles“I think I am” I reply, suddenly remembering to ask her “Beth, did you by any chance tell Brit what I like to have for dessert?”“No” she squints her eyes “Why?”“Nothing important” I shrug “I was just wondering”“More than 10 years, Danny” she stares impassively at me and I frown in confusion before she continues “...and you still think I don’t know when you’re lying? Spit it out”“What?” I go for nonchalance
Jinxed By Me ~18-The Truth~
The last time this happened we spent a night in jail.His words float over us as we stare each other in the eyes.Jamie breaks the silence "No...Uh...I mean, the last time I um...had faith in a woman's driving skills"It's obvious he's lying and usually I'll let it go but not this time- it's been three long months of constant lies and I'm sick of it.For some odd reason though, it kinda hurts that he doesn't trust me enough to tell me the truth."Okay, I guess this is happening now" I whisper and turn my focus back to driving- except I don't go home, I pull over to the side of the road."What is?" He breathes."You're telling me the truth, the whole truth" I unstrap my seatbelt and turn to face him."What truth?" He go
Jinxed By Me ~17-Ecstasy~
“See, it’s the exact same boring sound” my boss huffs “We need to make it stand out. I need ideas, people”It’s been three months since I started working here.Jamie’s my boss...it’s the worst feeling ever but thankfully he’s not here all the time.He’s not here right now and Jack seems to be loosing it.There’s a top singer in the booth and we’re meant to produce this song but Jack doesn’t like the way it sounds and frankly, neither do I.But who am I to say anything?I think I can do something to make it better but...I’m just Danny, the high school graduate.Yup, that’s what everyone here knows me for. High school graduate, it’s annoying.“Anybody?” Jack pleads
Jinxed By Me ~16-Who Are You, Jamie¿~
It's been a while since I last went to a gym and something feels really off."Hey, Britney" I greet as Brit comes into view."Hello" she beams "went for a morning jug, I see""Yeah...and you're going out?" I ask"Yeah, school""Oh ok, have fun" I say in a goodbye bid."The only fun thing about school is my Music Teacher" she winks."Oh..um, Brit..where can I find a boxing gym around here?" I ask, remembering my need for a gym."A boxing gym? What do you need that for?" Her brows furrow."Uh..boxing?" I give her a weird look."You box?" She looks vaguely surprised.I hum in response before adding "...and wrestle, fight Kung fu, a little bit of karate""Wow, I would hate to have been David that night" she jokes."As much as he des
Jinxed By Me ~15-Who Is Jamie Johnson??~
"Well, tell us all about it" says Beth while Brit stares, both of their eyes wide with excitement."Why are you guys so amused? It went badly, the guy was an a*s and you're never making me do that again" I mutter, wanting to frown but I can't keep this I'm not hella mad at you guys right now"Beth rolls her eyes "So you regret going?""Yes" I answer too quickly to be believed.I actually don't regret going-I mean, I hated the date, that arrogant d**k who was going to drug me and basically the whole night, except the part where Jamie arrived.
Jinxed By Me ~14-Jamie's Here~
We arrive at a good looking house-but it's not my house so I don't really care.The car comes to a halt right at the entrance and the engine quiets down with a flourish-it's a nice car."Where did you bring me?" I ask the rich snub with a calmness I'm definitely not feeling."My house" he smiles confidentlyI want nothing but to slap that sick smile off his face."Why did you bring me to your house?" I turn to face him with the fakest smile.
Jinxed By Me ~13-Date Night~
"Come on, Danny" Brit whines"No" I say simply, making sure to keep my face void of any emotion."I really think you should try it, Danny" Beth says thoughtfully from the screen of my Mac-book.I groan.It was honestly a terrible idea to introduce Beth to Brit.Now it's like they both agree to be against me and make my life miserable-Beth was hard enough to deal with, now there's two of them always ganging up against me.
