OLIVIA.
I stood behind the wall of the Personnel Department.
It was Saturday and very early. The other employees had not arrived.
I carried out the tasks that my boss asked me to do: choose the flowers for his girlfriend, buy them, put in the office, over her desk, and wait to receive the delivery that would bring a very exclusive breakfast.
I was very sure that my great boss would not be in the building that morning and I thought that this gallantry was a distant congratulation, an apology for not being here, but how wrong I was. The exclusivity of this breakfast was a lingerie kit as a present, attached to the famous meal.
And at detail made him not stand idly by, he couldn't bear to send it to her without him being there.
So, he arrived after a while, closed the door of his beloved's office, and I, hidden like crazy behind a wall, could hear them and even imagine the exact spot where they were... doing it.
Because they were "doing it", yes. They were making love in that office.
Strangely enough, I didn't feel out of place, I wasn't there for long either. I was curious to know what led them to succumb to desire right there. And why breakfast instead lunch or dinner. I usually confronted the night. I’d let go of myself in the same way, but during dinners, two dinners... with a man who was a stranger.
Jezz… That was my life, yes: I slept with a stranger. Then I asked myself, was always will be necessary to have something more with someone to share such things or moments like this? Something more? What would happen if I were to prepare an awakening for my lover? I tossed those questions to the inner drawer of my mind, Carl might run away if I planned something like that. And it was okay for him to do. However, as I considered it, I realized that I was not ready to walk away from that idyll yet, one of the reasons why I left the Personnel Department, headed down through same hallway to the employee dining room, and after having a good coffee, I went back that way to the reception, my workplace. But on my way back, I couldn't walk any further, not right away. What I heard coming out of the mouth of one of those lovebirds made my skin crawl, paralyzed me.
By any kind of sound blocking that could camouflage of ardent declamation, through the closed door, above my grief and any disinhibition, my boss and his girlfriend, under an intense voice, were boasting about the emotion they felt for each other.
Yes, you could hear everything they were doing, but what he said was the most... it was the most... I don't know how to explain it, putting in doubt even my crazy interpretation, but it would have been good if someone had warned me that gasps would be able to make me feel so... My psyche changed a little bit.
From inside that office, I heard the phrase:
I love you so much, damn it.
I love you so much... I love you so much, damn it! Thrown, thrown there, crashing against me.
That phrase was spoken from him towards her, very close to the wood, almost in front of me without them knowing, and provoking in the lady —my co-worker— a transparent choked cry, too passionate for anyone's taste.
I looked ahead immediately because the bustle of some employees arriving. So, I stood sentry trying to guard the area, in case anyone got too close and might find out what was going on in there.
I’d to stay and listen to everything else, I even noticed when the couple walked away from the door. I was a mute witness to that surrender, but I swear I wasn't thinking so much about the pure and literal context. There was a moment when their panting made me forget who they were or the fact they were fucking in the middle of the office. That took me out of my planet for a brief moment and when I was sure they were done, I stepped ashore, withdrew, and in a flutter, made it to my destination.
At my workstation, I answered calls and greeted my colleagues without being able to forget that incantation so forceful and precise. Because that ‘I love you’ was precisely a beautiful witchcraft, a display of beauty, the representation of preciousness. A cry of love, no war. A good sentence without evil, with wings, free, flying over the real world without obstacles or precipices. As if I had discovered the cure for all ills, thus, was how I embraced that sudden apprenticeship, the injection of self-love I needed. I discovered my cure after that foreign declaration and I remembered clearly what that man named Carl, my night lover and almost unknown, made me feel in our second encounter. And what specifically did I remember? Not precisely the phrase I ‘love you’, because between us —by logic— it didn't exist, but my whole new experience with him. My boss's words made me think of that one, because... Good Lord, God! I could finally explain his ways of possessing me, the insistence of a new encounter, his glances while took possession of such important parts of me, his dedication to my body, and mind, and of course, the lovely shot he poured one night before on my soul.
When it was time for lunch, I looked at the wall clock and smiled politely at my replacement, who was arriving at a good hour.
The phone rang with an incoming call.
"No, I'll take it," Betty, the other receptionist, told me. "Go to lunch, I'll see you later." She always caught her lunch an hour before me.
I thanked her and went to the employee cafeteria. The path I took to get there was not the same as every day, of course not. That hallway had a shortcut that I used earlier. I confess to wishing I knew the status of the couple: I don't know why I thought they might still be meeting there, but the truth is that all day I did not see my boss again, and so she did either. Thinking perhaps they had decided to take the afternoon off and had left by the back door, I approached the fortunate place. The door was ajar, I pushed it slightly... and I smiled.
The flowers had been arranged next to the desk and on the floor. The things on the table were exaggeratedly tidy. It smelled like a man's perfume and a soapy scent as if they had spread some cleaning product. I smiled even more and felt happy for them.
I went to eat quietly and cheerfully then, planning in my head what I would buy next week, something or garment intended for my next Friday, some outfit or combination of clothes I would wear to go to dinner again with a certain gentleman.
CARL."You don't look good."I lifted my face to see my cousin after letting out her opinion, while we chewed our lunch, one we shared in her office on a Saturday at noon, something exclusive because the place where she worked.It was already too much that she had to work on weekends, which made me want to keep her company."Totally disaster last night," I told her. "Marc got a nasty allergy and in the hospital, it wasn't particularly nice, you know?""What do you say?" She stopped eating. "But... he's fine? What do you mean allergy with?" My cousin's eyes were quite wide."Yeah, he's fine, don’t worry. They injected him with a powerful anti-allergic, but the damn Insurance, which is bleeding me dry, got shitty and acted with a stupid bureaucracy that almost killed me, I was almost furious.""What...? What?!"I swallowed my piece of bread with meatloaf, wiped my lips with a napkin, and settled better in the chair in front of the desk."The Insurance Card," I counted on my fingers, "ou
OLIVIA.I got dressed, made up, and perfumed. I left the house at the appointed time to arrive on time. I was too excited—as I had never been before—for this meeting with Carl. I was so engined that I completely forgot to call the restaurant and reserve a table.On my way home from work, I was imagining the idea of reserving one of the farthest and most private tables in the place. I wanted to return to the enjoyment that he provoked in me the time we met, where he enveloped me with his body, his hands, and his psyche in the middle of the restaurant, almost in front of everyone. I wanted to live again the risk of being seen, even if we were hiding.I wanted so many things... The itch, the sensation caused by his flattery in the fragmented panorama of danger, that gloomy vision, that delicious nervousness. The truth is that I wanted him in La Napolitana because the place had already been baptized by our ways of living.In the end, however, so much mist made me forget the reservation.B
CARL.I was in the front, she was in the back, I wouldn't her let go.Her hand was glued to mine and she was sweating, maybe it even hurt, I didn't give a damn.I pushed my way through the hustle and bustle and dragged her over the sidewalk without even noticing her shoes. I trotted with her to my car and with a single touch of a button, I opened her door..."Wait."I looked at her with wide eyes."What's up?!"She raised her eyebrows at my shout, let go of my grip and after a few seconds of looking at us, she hid a smile.Olivia stared at the floor. I followed her gaze, but I didn't understand anything. The woman didn't say anything and I almost died."What happened?"Oh, shit.I let out all my breath. I dropped my shoulders and changed my expression. I was going overboard with my desperation."Okay." I approached and spoke to her again, "I'm sorry. What happened?"She wanted to tell me something, but for some reason, nothing came out of her lips."Olivia, if you don't tell me what's
CARL.I heard her gasp, choked and desperate for me to give her some respite, but her voice and my urgency turned me into a headdress, into a damned and pinched madman.I let her lean against my body as I lifted her dress.I unbuckled my belt almost whimpering, because I felt my task was taking too long.I pulled my cock out, grabbed Olivia's thighs, settled them around my hips, pushed the fabric aside and penetrated her hard."Damn it!" I exhaled in anguish.She screamed. She didn't speak, screamed! But with each thrust, I knew that she was liking it as much as I did, especially that barrier of stinging and stretching amalgamated with a damned relief, like a pain that gives pleasure because doesn't end, one of those deceiving because you think find the end of the tunnel when it's not. I practically hit her, I penetrated her nonstop. I dug my fingertips into her back as my assaults peeled her off the wall, put her diagonally, upright, arched, and back to the wall against my palms, whi
OLIVIA.I thought we had died, but the dead people do not breathe, especially not like this.I don't think they (dead people) get tired either, and even less enjoy these precious acts; with all the respect that the afterlife deserves.I hugged Carl, I rubbed his back supporting the weight of his anatomy, sweeping the sweat with my palms, or maybe pouring more. Or maybe soaking that ground with drops that seemed not to dry.I wanted to talk, to tell him everything he had made me feel, but how to do it with my throat closed and tired? I could hardly breathe, Carl took all my breath away."You are absolutely beautiful..." I remembered his words, the way he released them. That man had arrived that night with problems, something had happened in his life before our date and I felt committed to making him forget all the negative. If we were to remain casual, at least as the occasion, I would have to be the good thing.He stood up, got off of me, and giving me a few kisses, lay down next to m
OLIVIA."Are you a public or private accountant?”"Both," he answered, "although at the moment I'm in private practice."I nodded.After a few long seconds of absolute silence, he bent to put his can down and asked again:"Why couldn't you finish your degree, Olivia?"I looked at him. I sighed deeply."I had to work," I explained.He nodded slowly, taking the lime covered by the bag spreading another loaf, and putting it together as well. I waited for him to finish to do the same, but he indicated that he would do it for me.And without expecting it, when I was about to take a bite to my lips of the one that was already assembled, he touched my hands to stop me, denied it, broke it in two, and placed one of the halves in front of my face.I looked at him surprised, he wanted to feed me. Literally.I brought my lips closer, opened them, and bit down. As he did so, he bowed his head, smiled thinly, and bit his lower lip. He shook his eyebrows and shook them."You're beautiful." He exhal
OLIVIA.A few hours later (I didn't know how many exactly), I found my face pressed against his chest. And I felt such a divine comfort...Carl was awake. I sighed and smiled. And more, when I noticed him rubbing my hair.A phone rang."It's mine," he said.He got out of bed and opened his eyes wide, staring at the floor. He made a face of circumstance and horror."We've knocked everything down, Olivia." He pointed at the floor and laughed. His phone was still vibrating.I moved quickly to the edge of the quilt and widened my eyes."Oh my God, what a mess! I'll fix it...""Let me help you," he interrupted me."Please, don't worry. Go, take the call."He walked to his pants and checked his pockets, while I was busy picking everything up.I went to the bathroom to get paper and towels. He answered and made conversation (without hiding or turning away) during my labor. I pretended I wasn't paying attention, but logically, he was aware very well that I listening."Again?" he asked the oth
OLIVIA.I did not expect all this commotion. Something was happening and had to be work of the head of the Human Resources Department, by advice or requests of the Director of this company, because I could not explain that all the employees of the insurance company stopped their work and interrupted their lunch hours a few minutes because of me."Happy birthday, Olivia. Congratulations!", they said to me with hugs and huge smiles, after singing one of the oldest songs in musical history."Thank you very much. Thanks. Thank you!" I'm replying a little overwhelmed if I must confess.In all the years I'd worked for (and with) those people, they'd never celebrated anyone's birthday. It was all new to me."Olivia?", the Director called me somewhat seriously."Yes, sir."He hid a genuine smile, I think he was amused by my formality."I'll wait for you in my office," he said in a low tone, expressly for me and so the others, who were still in mid-heat, would not hear."Okay", I replied and s