Madeleine
The VIP room is comfortably cool, but sweat drips from my brow and soaks into my uniform. I pull at the tight skirt, aware of the many eyes on me.
Afterall, I’m not supposed to be here.
If the Sisters saw me now, dressed in this skimpy outfit, mixing with the worst sinners this world has to offer, they'd probably faint.
Goodness knows, they nearly had a collective heart attack when they found me talking to Dom alone in the garden. “You are tainting your own soul”, the sisters shouted, horrified.
Dom apologised profusely, almost clumsily, as he stuttered the words out. He swore to them that we had done nothing inappropriate - he respected me too much to do anything that would harm me or my reputation.
Oh, how he blushed. I’d never seen any other man as genuine and kind as him. And there will be no other.
The people surrounding Rafael have their eyes on us. Our every move is being scrutinised, every word they speak is calculated. The low hum of voices is the only sound filling the air.
Rafael, veiled in shadows, gets to his feet and taps his glass with a knife. The room falls silent. “We welcome Matteo Sforza,” he announces, “and his family. We are here to discuss the dispute about the ownership of the docks.”
Rafael’s voice is calm, even. “My wish is that we can reach an agreement that is beneficial to all of us, and that we can end this night with a celebration.”
A massive man with a scarred face turns his attention to me. His dark eyes are narrow and his lips set in a thin line of disapproval.
A red-haired girl, I don’t know her name, grabs me by the elbow and pulls me away. “Don’t listen,” she whispers urgently. “They don’t like it. Just pretend you can’t hear them.
I wish I could sink into the floor and disappear. I lean in closer to the redhead. “I don’t know what to do.”
“It’s easy. All we have to do is bring them their drinks, and later we’ll serve them dinner. Stick with me,” the girl offers, her voice light and soothing. “You’ll do great.” She offers me a small smile, picks up a tray of drinks, and hands it to me. “Take a deep breath. It’s not as bad as it seems.”
I nod, my grip tightening around my tray as though it’s the only thing keeping me upright.
“You’ll see,” she continues, her voice warm, like we’re old friends. “They’re just men. A bit scarier than the ones you know, sure, but they don’t bite.” She winks. “Remember to smile. They'll give you bigger tips if you flirt with them a little.”
I’m overwhelmed with gratitude. She didn’t have to warn me. It’s unusual to receive kindness in this gruesome place.
I can’t quite see Rafael Andoletti’s face from where I’m standing, but his presence fills the entire room. He’s almost larger than life, the air bending around him to suit his desires.
My throat tightens as I approach the table, my tray feeling heavier with each step.
By the time I reach him, my hands are shaking so badly that I’m afraid I’ll upend the entire glass on his lap. “It’s customary to serve the don first,” the massive man sitting next to Rafael remarks brusquely.
“I- sorry, Sir,” I mutter. “It won’t happen again.”
I deliberately don’t stare at him when I put the glass down, but I feel his gaze. It's like a weight pressing down on my chest.
Remarkably, I manage to give him his drink without spilling a drop.
Mission accomplished.
“Wait.”
The word slices through the air like a blade.
I turn slowly, my stomach dropping as I stare at the man with the scars. He holds up Rafael’s glass, his eyes fixed on the liquid, his brow furrowed.
“She’s trying to poison our don,” he snarls, his voice booming across the room.
“No!” I blurt out, panic clawing at my throat as I try not to think about the three people who died during Rafael’s last visit. “I didn’t… I didn’t touch his drink! I swear, I just took the tray-”
“You’re lying,” he snaps, stepping closer. “I personally chose every girl for tonight. I don’t remember seeing you-”
“Stop,” Rafael says, his deep melodious voice is calm, even. “Let her drink it.”
The already quiet room is somehow even more quiet. All eyes turn to him. He doesn’t raise his voice, but it carries an authority that forces everyone to pay attention to him.
I freeze, my mouth going dry. I may not know what’s going on, but even I can see that there’s something in the wine that doesn’t belong there.
It could very well be poison.
“You heard the boss,” the man repeats, shoving the glass toward me.
I purse my lips together and shake my head.
I don’t budge. I’m transfixed by Rafael. Up close, he looks oddly familiar, but before I can give it much thought, he says, “Do it.”
The scarred man reaches into his pocket and pulls out a pistol.
The loud click-clack of the slide being pulled back echoes through the room, jarring my mind into a complete standstill.
My heart drops and tears sting my eyes. All I can think about is Betsy. I am going to die tonight, and what will become of my poor Betsy?
Two men wrestle me to the ground. My instincts kick in and I start to fight them, arms flailing against their iron grip, legs kicking against the floor, but it’s futile. One of them sits on my chest, pinning my shoulders to the floor with his knees.
The burly man on my chest takes the drink from the scarred man, and with a maniacal grin, he pinches my nose shut, forcing me to open my mouth so I can breathe.
He immediately pours the wine down my throat. I start to spit it out, but then I feel the cold steel barrel of a gun against my temple. “Swallow it,” Rafael orders is that same, calm tone. “Or Enzo here will blow your brains out.”
My throat locks up, then it opens - maybe it’s not death being poured down my neck.
I swallow as much of the wine as I can manage. Some of it dribbles out of my mouth and runs down my cheeks, pooling in my ears. They don’t stop until the glass is completely empty.
The liquid burns as it slides down my throat, an odd heat spread through my chest. I struggle to breathe and my limbs go heavy.
The man sitting on my chest lets me go. The onlookers laugh at me. “That’ll teach a whore, all right,” someone says.
“Don’t mess with Rafael Andoletti,” another offers an opinion.
My head starts spinning, and I blindly grab at something, anything, to hold onto. It hurts. Everything hurts. Whatever was in that wine is working. Fast.
I feel his presence before I see him, his footsteps deliberate, unhurried. He crouches next to me. A strong, warm hand grips my chin, firm but not cruel, tilting my head in his direction.
I blink up at him, my vision blurring.
NO. Wait. It’s impossible. It’s HIM.
DOM.
It can’t be. The man I met all those years ago was kind. Generous.
How can this monster be my Dom?
For a moment, I forget where I am. I forget the fear and the pain. All I can see is him - his sharp features, the dark intensity of his gaze.
The indifference vanishes from his eyes as we stare at each other, and there’s a brief moment of recognition in his irises.
He’s still just as handsome as I remember. The thought drifts through my mind, strange and detached, as the world tilts around me.
His lips move as he continues staring at me. I might be hallucinating, yet I’m sure I hear him ask, “What the fuck are you doing here?”
And then everything simply blinks out of existence.
MadeleineI wake up in a strange room. The air is fresh, quiet, and bright.I’m alive?The bed beneath me is softer than anything I’ve slept on in years, and the faint smell of cedar and leather clings to the air.My body feels heavy. My limbs ache as though I’ve been run over by a bus. My throat is dry, and it feels as if someone stuffed my head full of cotton.The first thing I hear are muffled voices right outside the door, droning in the background like a distant thunderstorm.“I can’t tell you what the long term consequences will be,” someone says in a cool, clinical voice. “ It is likely that there might be lasting damage to her nervous system.”“Is there anything you can do?” Rafael’s voice is low, soft, but no less commanding. “No. The dosage was extremely high. Frankly, Sir, I’m surprised she is still alive.” “Do everything you can for her.”The world swims in and out of focus, nausea pushes up in my throat, and I think I pass out. When I manage to drag my eyelids apart agai
Madeleine“Betsy!” I scream as I run from the apartment, my voice echoing down the hallway.The sunlight outside is blinding, but I barely notice. My heart pounds like a drum, and my breath comes in sharp, shallow bursts as I dash out into the shared courtyard, frantically scanning the dilapidated lawn and rusty play area.She’s not here!My mind spins. How could I let this happen? I should have been home two hours ago, in time to get Betsy up and ready for school.Where did she go? What if someone took her?“Betsy!” I call again, my voice cracking.A flicker of movement catches my eye. I spin around and relief floods through me. Clarissa, my neighbour, is walking toward me, holding Betsy’s hand.Betsy skips along at her side, her tiny yellow backpack bouncing with each step. My daughter did what she does every day. She got up, she dressed herself for school, and then she waited for me.Her eyes are bloodshot from all the crying, her little face swollen, and I can see faint bruises on
MadeleineI run as fast as my legs can carry me, not stopping until the school comes into view.I line up with the other parents who are here to pick up their children. I can’t wait to get Betsy out of here. I found a school for her. A good school. With other children who are like her. A place where they will understand and help her.I keep my head down, aware of the whispers behind my back. The parents cluster in small groups, chittering about me. “I wonder what she did this time?” Riana’s mother gossips. “Probably one of her johns,” another mother says. “I hear some men like that kind of thing."“Tsk, tsk, tsk. It’s no wonder that little bastard of hers is so… stunted. Poor kid has no mother to teach her any better. She should have dropped that baby on the church’s steps.”I shove my hands in my coat and curl my fingers into fists.“She’s a mess,” another woman mutters, her voice low but loud enough for me to hear.“Did you see her neck?” another says. “We should really phone the s
RafaelI grip Madeleine’s chin, turning her face in every direction, tallying her injuries. She winces lightly and tries to pull away, but I clamp down harder, forcing her to go in my direction, not hers.She is in terrible shape. Her face is black and blue, blood drips from her nose and split lip. A split lip, bruised cheek, bleeding nose, a ring of bruises around her neck. Their handiwork stands out like fresh tattoos on her porcelain skin. She reaches up and grabs my wrist, her eyes pleading with me to let her go. I pay no attention to her. She’s mine, and she will do as I command.She’s broken. Her whole life has been shattered in less than twenty-four hours. She trusted the people around her to be as good as she is. A fatal mistake in this world. There is no honour among thieves.Anger coils in my chest like a living, breathing snake. They dared to touch my Sister Francis. Marred her perfect skin. Destroyed her innocent soul.They are dead men walking. I will strike when the
RafaelI lead Madeleine from the oppressive, disgusting interrogation room. Delilah, Bruce’s wife, gives me a look of death. “You are going to let her go?” she screeches, her voice threatening to burst my eardrums. “The bitch attacked one of your best employees.”God, I hate that woman. Like Bruce, she thinks she’s special because I put her husband in a position of power. They will learn the hard way that none of them are above me, and all of them are worse than Madeleine.I hand Madeleine over to Enzo, and she rushes to Betsy, who is sitting on a plastic chair, her little feet, dressed in white bobby socks and black shoes, swings back and forth while she devours a doughnut. The kid is fucking adorable.With a word, I turn on Delilah, sparing Lola only a passing glance. She’ll get her turn, but for now I have to wait - she’s pregnant and I have standards.“Stay with Betsy,” I order Madeleine, sure that she won’t, can’t, make a run for it. And even if she does, my men will catch up wi
MadeleineBetsy clings to me as we step out of the police station, her small fingers tightening around my dress like a vice. She is too young to understand this world. She doesn’t know that men like Andoletti don’t grant mercy. They take. They destroy.But there was kindness in him when he cleaned Betsy’s face. He was strict, but not cruel. And unlike me, he never lost his temper.Still… I have to keep her safe. Protect her innocence at all costs. I don’t think Rafael would harm her, not like that, but she doesn’t belong in his world, and I can’t let her get too comfortable in it.Enzo opens the backdoor to a black SUV with tinted windows. This is only for a few days, I tell myself as I load Betsy into the backseat. Just until I can find another job. Then I will take Betsy and we’ll leave, like I promised.I’ve managed to keep her safe for three years. Managed to hide the ugliness of the world I dwelled in. I can keep doing it. I don’t need Rafael. If he’s going to pay my debts, Bets
MadeleineNight is falling by the time we drive through the massive wrought iron gates manned by two, armed guards.I’ve been drifting in and out of consciousness for much of the ride. Pain gnaws at my guts and my whole body throbs along to the beat of my heart. I can’t remember the last time I slept or ate. The property is surrounded by high walls, with CCTV cameras monitoring every angle. The sprawling mansion looms overhead, and in the distance I can just make out the glittering lake throwing golden sparks in the setting sun.Enzo steers the car around the circular driveway, and stops right in front of the entrance.Betsy bounces up and looks around with curious eyes. Her energy is boundless. “Is this our new home?” she asks in a clear voice.No. I’m sure I said the word, but either Betsy didn’t hear or I didn’t actually say it aloud.“Yes,” Rafael answers. “Pretty right?”“Why do you have so many men with guns here?”My insides jolt painfully and my throat burns with bile. “Beca
MadeleineI wake at the break of dawn, suppressing a cry as my body calls out in pain. Despite the sinfully soft, comfortable mattress, everything hurts. From my head to my toes. It feels as if I went through a meat grinder and lived to tell the tale.Betsy!I have to find her. We must leave. The sooner, the better. I don’t know where we’ll go or what we’ll do yet, but I’ll figure it out. I always do.I slowly and carefully roll to the edge of the bed and swing my legs over. The bed is so high, that my feet dangle halfway to the floor, and the thought of jumping down terrifies me. But I desperately need to pee, and I have to find Betsy. The sun is rising, and if she can’t find me by the time she wakes up, she’ll go mad. Rafael was patient with her yesterday, but he’ll get sick of her meltdowns - everyone does in the end.‘You can do this Madeleine,’ I say to myself and jump down, groaning as pain rockets up my legs and spine.I inhale sharply and hold on to the bed to steady myself b
RafaelEnzo comes sauntering over to our table. We've been drinking and joking around for a while now, and he kept himself seperate from us on purpose. That, in itself, is the height of disrespect - not just for me, but also my captains.The old guys have slipped into ‘nostalgia mode,’ as I call it, and they’re talking about the good old days. When they get tipsy, they get weepy about how things used to be easier and different. I doubt it was any easier than it is now, they just forgot the uncertainty, the fear of not knowing when an enemy would come up to you and pull the trigger.During a war, safety isn't guaranteed. Death is. In our line of work, your life is always on the line no matter what, but when there's a war the risk increases ten-fold.Not that anyone would ever admit that they were scared. Everyone’s a hero in their own minds - and so are all the men who died during that time.Everyone falls quiet when Enzo pulls a chair over and takes a seat at the table. He wasn’t par
RafaelFor the first time since the night of the stabbing, Enzo shows up and actually looks surprised to see me out and about, acting as if nothing had happened.I can feel it though. Every passing minute is nothing short of torture, and it's getting progressively worse. “Look who finally decided ta show up,” Paulie says and shoots a nasty glance Enzo’s way.I haven’t spoken to Salvatore yet. I wanted to wait a few more days until I could formulate my thoughts better Right now, all my decisions are driven by pain and rage - and when you feel like that, it's not a good time to make life or death decisions.“Yeah,” Enzo says and holds the present in his hands out to me. “Sorry I’m late, Boss. I had some business.”I glare at my lieutenant, and completely ignore his apology. “You can put your gift on the table over there,” I say and point to a table that’s piled high with colourfully wrapped presents.Enzo looks taken aback at first, but then he nods and heads over to the table.“That p
MadeleineThe men and women split into two groups. The guys congregate around the grill or the coolerboxes filled with beer. The women gather at their tables, in the kitchen to make salads, butter rolls, or to pour ice tea into pitchers.Rafael has a whole staff in the house, but none of them are here today, and I think it's some kind of traditional thing for the women to hang out in the kitchen. The places is crowded, the women are loud, and all of them are complaining about their husbands or children. I find it strange and endearing at the same time.“You’re quiet,” Angelica says as she dumps a container of mayonnaise over some potatoes.“I’m listening,” I answer her.“Oh honey,” one of the women, I think it’s Clara, snort-laughs at me. “You cain’t afford to be quiet. You’re Rafael's wife.”“Fiancèe,” I correct her.“Potato, poe-tah-toe,” she replies. “It’s the same difference to us. You live together as man and wife, you are man and wife.”I blush at the thinly veiled insinuation,
MadeleineThe woman with the big hair throws herself in Rafael’s embrace. I let him go and stand back, watching on as he awkwardly hugs her with one arm. “Raffie,” she exclaims and stands back, then grabs his face between her hands. “Let me look at you. Are you eating enough? Sleeping. You look sick.”Rafael sighs and rolls his eyes, but he doesn't push her away. "I'm fine," he answers and gently pulls her hands from his face.She looks like the grown up version of the girl in the portrait - only with bigger hair and a lot more make-up. I just assume she’s his sister.Out of nowhere, she punches Rafael in the arm. “You don’t call, you don’t write. I should strangle you.”“I'm sorry Angelica,” Rafael says, almost indulgently, and rubs his arm, shutting her out at the same time. “I've been a little busy." He looks around the lawn at the people milling about. "Where is David this time?”“Oh, who knows?” she answers, completely unbothered.“And the kids?”“With Uncle Frankie. You know how
RafaelMadeleine keeps the nightmares away. Her presence alone is enough. She doesn’t need to hold me, or whisper comforts in my ear. Just knowing that she’s next to me helps.I drift off to sleep and don't wake again until the sun lights up the room, and the sound of chirping birds pierces the through my dreams.For the first time in weeks, I feel rested. Refreshed. Still in pain, but I am almost my old self again. I should be able to make it through the cookout okay. I will not be drinking and laughing along with the rest of them, but I will be able to grin and bear it.Frankie can take the children out on the boat. It’s usually my job, something I always enjoy, but I have a feeling my stomach won’t thank me if I take it out on the choppy lake today.“Morning,” Madeleine chirps and comes walking out of the bathroom with wet hair and only a towel wrapped around herself.My heart jumps into my throat, and my body reacts in a surprisingly violent way. If I could move at my regular sp
RafaelI feel a lot better after the transfusion. Ethel was right, I definitely needed it. And so was Madeleine when she told me I had to get proper medical care.But neither of them will ever hear the truth from my lips.The pain is still ever-present. Betsy's kick to my gut did more damage than I thought was possilbe - a little girl like her shouldn't be able to put a grown man out of commission. Part of it is my own, stupid fucking fault. I shouldn’t have picked her up mid-tantrum. Not in my current state anyway.At some point, as I drift in and out of consciousness, Madeleine gest up and leaves the room with Ethel. It’s just me and my thoughts. I try to conjure the image of Sister Francis. The quiet, pretty, understanding girl with her gentle eyes, but she’s gone. Everytime I try to recall her, I see a blank face surrounded by the grey habit of their order.Or Sister Francis melts away, and is replaced by Madeleine.I feel as if I went through a wormhole to an alternate reality
RafaelI am pain. It’s become one with my being. It’s a part of me. At least for now.Walking down the hallway, leaning heavily on Madeleine, is like trekking through an obstacle course filled with broken glass and razor blades tearing at my flesh.God. Even my feet hurt.I didn’t know a person could be in this much pain, bleed as much as I have, and still live to tell the tale.With a sigh and a grunt, I fall on Madeleine’s bed, and just lie there with my feet dangling on the floor. Ethel is close behind, fussing over me like she’s my mother as she lifts my legs up and pulls the comforter over me.She always did like me. Even when we were children. She’d follow me around like a mama hen, making sure I didn’t fall in the water or run off to the guard house. Whenever she was around, she made it her personal mission to keep me away from the wiseguys.She was pissed when I came back. After my father’s funeral, while everyone sat around in the parlour remembering the old man, she pulled
MadeleineBetsy destroyed her room. I knew she would. Thank goodness Rafael removed everything of value from the room - including that expensive looking ballerina figurine.The pretty room, fit for a little princess as she wanted it to be, is now a dump. She destroyed the dollhouse. Her dolls have no heads or legs. The potted plant with the little pink flowers has been overturned and the dirt scattered.She shredded her bedding and tore her pillows open, scattering stuffing all over the room. The pink curtains are in tatters. On the floor, next to the room, is the pair of scissors she used to do it.I’ve never seen this level of destruction from her.Rafael is going to lose his damn mind.I’m going to lose my mind.The anger that washes over me is something I’ve never experienced before. For the first time since I’ve had to take her into my care, I want to put her over my knee and spank her.Betsy is sitting in the middle of the room, covered in dirt, stuffing stuck in her hair like l
MadeleineI watch on in horror as Rafael sinks to the ground, clutching his middle. His shirt is soaked in blood. Ethel rushes over to his side and lifts his shirt, while Marco just stands there like a statue, pale and shocked.I turn on my guard and say the first thing that pops into my head, “Tell no one about this."The young man may be too soft for this line of work, but I know he’s loyal. He sits outside my door, day in and day out, all in an effort to get Rafael’s approval.“Are you sure? Maybe-”“I’m sure,” I interrupt him. “He told me no one can know.”I glare at Ethel who looks up and just nods. “Patient confidentiality. I understand. What do you want to do?”The door rattles as Betsy screams and throws herself against it. It jars my nerves and eats away at my sanity one little bite at a time.All my senses are in overdrive. I don’t know what to do or where to turn. Betsy in one room losing her everloving mind, or Rafael who is bleeding out on the floor.I’m in desperate need