Lockdown

***** PRESENT *****

{ Lily }

The memories of that day feel very different in hindsight. A lot less horrific, for sure. This is the first time that I allow my brain to go that deep into the memories.

I wish I could go back in time with the knowledge I have now and tell sixteen-year-old Lily that her most traumatic experience was just a stupid game. That her perfect boyfriend never betrayed her and Dean is as good as she thought. And Damon was just playing around with fantasies and sex-stuff that she had no way of understanding at that age.

Now that I’m old and all my innocence is lost, I can understand what he means about it being a role-playing scene in his psychopathic head. Of course, he had no business doing that stuff back then, especially not without discussing it with me prior. Because maybe it was just a ‘scene’ to him, but it was very fucking real to me.

However, Damon is right. Fear and confusion took me prisoner that day, not him. A stronger mind wouldn’t have fal