Bella
“ where have you been ?” This is the first thing that my mum have to say to me the second I push open the door to my house . It wasn’t that she didn’t know where I was - she just wanted me to say it.
“ You already know it mum “ I told her as I walk past her “ And don’t tell me that I’m living in a sin , there is no point in saying that and its too late for that as well “
I don’t want to discuss my s*x life with my mum but she was getting on my nerves and why in the world was this room swirling around ? It seems to be spinning around .
“ Bella , you can’t - I didn’t raise you like this !” She snapped rushing after me , I clutched on the stair banister , as nausea struck me like a crushing wave .
“ woah , are you okay ?” Chris who was coming down the stairs took one look of my face and held me up as my knees gave out .
I swallowed hard trying to suppress the acid and nausea that was churning in my stomach and tryi
Jacob“ Jacob “ Selina and Ron yelled from the waiting room , apparently Bella did code in the ambulance while they were bringing her here but the medics managed to bring her back just in time . My brain had stopped functioning the second I heard Selina say that Bella had coded on her way to the hospital , and it was only because of Seth and Conan’s dual efforts that they were able to bring me back before I slip out of my sanity .I marched over to them , like a man on a mission “ where is she ?”I needed to see Bella , touch her , feel her - kiss her. I needed to know that she was alright , she was going to be okay - she had to be okay because she couldn’t die . I loved her and I needed her , even more than that I thought I did . And I only realised it when she was this close to slipping out of my grasp , I have always been afraid of needing people in my life , and Bella was the only exception that I let ins
" Jacob calm down " said Conan before taking slow steps towards me , as if he conscious that I was literally on the verge of either collapsing the fuck down or throttle Bella 's mother " Don't do anything you might regret calm down . I know you are suffering and it's really hard but you need to step back "No , I didn't have to do that at all . It was so easy for this woman to decide ' what's good ' for Bella without asking her first , without letting us know first - maybe it was high time for me to send her in a psychiatrist ward without letting her know about it too because apparently that's what good for her isn't it ?" Jake " drawled ConanHarming someone in the of ' its for the best ' was exactly what Ms Hamilton was good at wasn't she ? Now why don't I do what's good for her and take her to a psychiatrist , letting the entire world know how this classy , good looking woman was nothing but a mental patient . That would kill her alright ? Maybe
Jacob“ Young man you have no idea what you are talking about “ said Franklin his eyes narrowed dangerously “ don’t even try to talk about matters that you might not even have an inkling about or you might find yourself to very indeed sorry in the future ““ You are threatening me ?”Chris asked , pointing to himself “ you are actually threatening me old man ?”“ I’m not threatening you “ said Franklin as if he was stating nothing but valid understandable facts “ I’m telling you the truth , you have no idea what my daughter is going through - and you have no right to say anything -““ He doesn’t have the right but I do right ?” Cutting him off I asked “ I have the right to know why despite knowing that Helena is nothing more than a selfish child who cares nothing about anyone else but herself - who only saw to her own needs “ I paused try
Jacob“ Is he ?” asked Dante straightening his shoulders , his expression hardening “ if so why did you use him to calm your daughter down ? As her claimed son and your grandson , you should have never asked Jacob to do what you asked him to do , you would have never lied to me saying that you were introducing some one else with their consent to act as your daughter’s suppressants and help her calm down when the truth was that you were pushing my son ! To do this dirty job you bastard ! “ roared Dante before punching Franklin in the face which was already bleeding pretty badly because of all the punches that I have thrown in his face .“ You messed with my wife , I didn’t say a thing because I couldn’t do anything then but you actually dared to stretch your dirty perverted claws to my son - what did you think that I would never find about it huh ?” Dante punched Franklin again so hard that the latter
Jacob" Its well and good that you confronted him in the hospital " said Dante breaking the silence once the two of us were alone , I didn't say anything I didn't know what to say because I couldn't say anything . There was too much to reel in and as cold and stoic everyone believed me to be , I wasn't that unbothered. I felt things , I had my own emotions and I felt scared and anxious as well ." Her name was Ellie , I called her El for short .She was bubbly and a little ray of sunshine the first time I saw her , it was as if she just shot right through my chest - I didn't even know that I needed someone until I saw her . But the second my eyes locked on her , I knew she was the one " Dante said with a smile , that made his eyes crinkle, I always thought that Dante didn't smile , hell he didn't even feel anything . But turns out , I was wrong , he did feel several things -just for the right person .Aren't you the same ? Taunted my heart .
JacobNot only because she would tell me that everything was gonna be okay but also because she wouldn't sugarcoat shit - she would ask me to be a man and face the things that were being thrown in my life one after the another . Throw some random quotes like ' Its God's will ' and what not and I will listen to everything that she gotta say because she was the only person who could keep me grounded at this moment before I lose my fucking rationality .The thing was I needed her here , to be with me .To be just by my side .Because she was the only one who could trigger the right strings in my body . She was the only one who could light up my freaking world , while I was feeling like I was being swallowed in darkness .But the thing was she wasn't here . And despite all my efforts to turn down the churning of my heart , I couldn't go numb and there was not a single possible chance for me to turn it all off . I can't
A mask was covering her mouth .. the one that was hooked on the machine . Her entire body was covered in bandages at least the part which was free of all the freaking tubes , cords and hospital gown . Seeing her injuries , I might have already lost my mind if it wasn’t already in a turmoil - I wanted to dash out of this room and give Wilkins another round of my pinched but I settled myself with cursing him under my breath .I was feeling so much at the moment , that I didn’t know what exactly I was feeling - there was anger, frustration , guilt but above all I was down right terrified . Her lifeless form , the lifeless way she was lying on the hospital bed that was doing me in .For as long as I have known this girl .. she was always full of zeal and love . She was a spitfire , she was the sweetest and the most smart girl , I have met .I had been so careful , so careful so as to not fall for her but Bella with her wits and quirks not only made m
Jacob" Was she right ? What am I even asking - if course Selina was right " it has been more than twenty four hours and other than the constant beep beep of the Implantable Cardiac Defibrillator , there was no sound in the room . It was dead silent and I hated it , I hate seeing her lying so quietly on the hospital bed - my Bella wasn't quiet , she wasn't shy and introverted yes but never quiet . I missed her eye-rolls , her quirky sass and her sarcastic jabs , I brushed away the lock of hair from her forehead and planted a kiss on the back of her hand .I wanted her to respond to me but just like the past thirty seven hours , nineteen minutes and seven seconds -I didn't get a response . No , if you are thinking that I was so out of my tree that I was actually counting seconds , minutes and hours- I wasn't . But I did set a timer and it wasn't helping , if anything it was like a constant reminder of the hours that I have spent without her .The