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Chapter 108
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Bella
“ what do you mean by that ?” He asked , his mystification was palpable and I knew that he didn’t understand what I was trying to say , in fact I didn’t understand it myself . I should be happy , really happy that Jacob wanted to stay close to me , this was what I wanted but I wasn’t happy , I was upset and angry at something , someone all time and Jacob - he was the only one person whom I can find a place to lash out , it was wrong of me to that but this sudden rage in my body that I have been suppressing inside me ever since my mum returned home , ever since my aunt started dropping subtle hints that I wasn’t as good as Lily for Jacob .I had no way to let out that rage , and The realisation that Jacob was trying to control my life against my will . Sneakily , doing his manipulative shit on me - It was the last straw , my fuse that had been whistling and crackling under the lack of sugar and carbs finally blew up .
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A mask was covering her mouth .. the one that was hooked on the machine . Her entire body was covered in bandages at least the part which was free of all the freaking tubes , cords and hospital gown . Seeing her injuries , I might have already lost my mind if it wasn’t already in a turmoil - I wanted to dash out of this room and give Wilkins another round of my pinched but I settled myself with cursing him under my breath .I was feeling so much at the moment , that I didn’t know what exactly I was feeling - there was anger, frustration , guilt but above all I was down right terrified . Her lifeless form , the lifeless way she was lying on the hospital bed that was doing me in .For as long as I have known this girl .. she was always full of zeal and love . She was a spitfire , she was the sweetest and the most smart girl , I have met .I had been so careful , so careful so as to not fall for her but Bella with her wits and quirks not only made m
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JacobI knew that this was real selfish on my part but you know what fuck it , because if I don’t put a stop on my pain right now , it will keep brewing until I was on the verge of dying with it . So better just end it before it becomes too much for me to handle .“ Mom , you don’t owe me a damn thing . But if you really have a pull up there I need you to string it up for me -please bring her back to me because I need her “ still leaning against the cold marble tomb , I uttered my final plea “ if you bring her back I will try my best to be a son that you can be proud of , so please tell that guy to return her back , I will do anything -please mum “Nothing , not even a flicker of grass or any soft caress of wind flew next to me . And I knew she didn’t hear it , And honestly I didn’t blame her because if I was in her place where my own kid loved my murderer instead , I wouldn’t listen to his damn ple
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Jacob"I know you will be really pissed off about this but honestly I don't care because I have been pissed at you all my life and couldn't do a thing to you so yeah - that account is settled . Now we are going to talk about the new one -Bella , she is really a good person , she is loving , compassionate and caring - something I can't say about myself " I stopped breathing hard as emotions clogged my throat , I cleared it before continuing on with my speech that I have prepared after thoughtful consideration " and she is mine , you hear me mine not yours and you have no right to take her because -" my vision went hazy and something warm and wet trickled down my cheeks . I inhaled sharply staring down at the wooden flooring away from the altar " because she is my everything . I know people shit around the word ' love ' a lot now a days but this different . I have already promised her a future together and I can't fulfil that one promise if she is not by my side . " my voic
