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18| His Friendship Is All I Have
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2020-07-30 04:40:56Emily's Pov:
"Emi."
Holy bullshit! Edward heard me.
He saw me talking to a cake confessing my feelings for him! I pushed my face into dung mentally.
Okay, don't panic, Emily! This happens, it is life, it is love but… It's my fucking birthday as well, my inner voice shouted.
I looked at my right and left, planning a route of escape. Because I ain't no fairy tale princess who thinks that when her prince would hear of her secret feelings for him, he would confess romantically in front of her, kissing her and then they live happily ever after! That bullshit wasn't taking anyone anywhere.
I know very well where I am standing in my life right now and how much a person likes me or loves me because if that weren't the case, I would never have gotten myself in this fake marriage from the start.
That's why I rea
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