Choices and Consequences

"Argh!" I screamed in frustration when I remembered that kiss from last Friday. 

"What got your panties twisted, girl?" Theo raised his brow at me. 

"Nothing!" I answered more forcefully than I intended to. He shrugged and rolled his eyes. 

I felt guilty and giddy. He has a chosen mate, for goodness' sake! I felt guilty that I'm giddy. But why would I feel guilty when my mother paired him with me? I wish I could just talk to her in times like this but she’s as evasive as my mate.

"We uh… kissed," I whispered as I'm unable to hold it in. I'm an extrovert. 

"You whore! Oh my goddess! Who?! Is he hot?" He fired rapidly. 

"Of course! It was my mate" I sniffed. 

He looked at me with wide eyes.

"So, was it good?" His hand covered his mouth.

“I feel guilty about Yvette,” I muttered.

I looked at the floor in shame. 

“Oh wow. You kissed your mate and you felt guilty because of some other woman who’s claiming your mate as hers? Please don’t be stupid,” he crossed his arms.

"Forget it. It happened last Friday and I haven't seen him since. It was just a kiss" I sighed. Maybe he and Yvette had a fight and he took it out on me? But what he said… Maybe, just maybe I have a chance in this?

"What, he kissed you and just vanished in thin air?! No claiming or showering you with sweet words?" He growled. 

"He needs to be punished for disrespecting a goddess!" His eyes flickered from brown to silver.

"He is my mate, Theo! He can do whatever he wants with me!” I shot back and his wolf whimpered at the tone I used. A thunder rumbled from a distance.

“I’m sorry. This topic just gets the best of me,” I took calming breaths and looked at him with puppy eyes. I know it won’t work on him though because he is gay.

“You know, if people are observant enough, the two of you can’t hide the fact that you are mates. Looking back at the way he gazed at you at the Emergency Room back then. This attraction you both have for each other, it’s pretty obvious you know. If someone is as observant as me, you’ll be recognized as mates. I think that Yvette woman already knows that Alpha Hunter already found his mate but just she wouldn’t budge,” he pointed out and I nodded in realization.

“They’re staying for two more weeks, Theo,” I exhaled.

“I don’t think I can stop him if he does that again, nor can I stop myself from doing something like that to him if we ever find ourselves alone,” I started to tear up. Theo looked at me as if saying ‘duh’.

Oh, mother. Why hasn’t he claimed me yet? I want more than this physical tension we were building up. I want his commitment.

Someone knocked on my office door and a nurse greeted us.

“Hi Doc. Uhm, the Alpha of Everest pack is here to talk to you. Should I send him in?” she asked and Theo and I exchanged glances.

I nodded without thinking.

“Don’t be too easy, okay? You are Lux Irene Mooncrest, a half goddess,” he turned to me as the nurse vanished.

“I can’t think right now, okay?!” I snapped at him with shaking hands. My heart shook in anticipation.

He hissed at me and looked at my overall appearance.

“Why in the hell are you wearing your bunny slippers?! Go change into your heels. Hurry he’s coming!” he half whispered, half yelled.

My feet located my heels under my oak table and slipped them on just in time as his head popped in from the door which made me sit on my swivel chair accidentally.

“Hello, Alpha!” Theo greeted him and straightened up. He was leaning on the long tiled sink installed at my office for my experiments.

“Come in! I was just leaving,” he smiled pleasantly at him. He gave me a knowing look and went out of the room.

I cleared my throat when we were left alone in my office.

I stared at him. His hair looked so soft. I know they feel soft too. I clasped my hands together at the sensations I imagine if we ever get to touch again. His clean shaven jaw clenched and my eyes snapped back at his. 

“Can I help you?” I asked in a small voice. 

He looked around and his burning gaze snapped back at me.

“Yeah. I need you to check something,” he went towards the counter part of my sink and I reluctantly left the safety of my desk.

I stood next to him as he opened his phone’s image gallery.

“Do you recognize this plant? It doesn’t look exactly like wolfsbane but it looks like one,” he told me and I checked his phone which was lying on top of the counter.

I felt him shift behind me. He placed his left hand on the counter, his right gathered my hair in his fist. I gasped. I have never allowed anyone to get this close to me, let alone do something like this.

I felt pain from his grip, yet tingles erupted at unusual places in my body.

“You smell so good,” he muttered. His breath softly hitting the side of my neck. 

“Alpha,” I managed to whisper.

He turned me to him and the look on his face froze me to the ground. Why does he look mad?

His gaze dropped at the outline of my square necked shirt and he growled.

“Mine,” he fisted my hair again  and tugged on them to angle my face towards him. A moan involuntarily escaped my lips.

I felt his fangs start to elongate as he molded his lips against mine. I struggled against his hold but he was just stronger than me. His lips moved from mine to my jaw then to my neck. He showered small kisses to that part where wolves mark their mate. I shivered and whimpered.

“Yes! Yes! Mark me now, my alpha!” my wolf shouted in frenzy.

His other hand left my hair and cupped my face tenderly.

He stared at me. He was breathing heavily just like me.

My eyes watered. It happened again! I don’t know but I still felt sorry for Yvette and for myself. 

“You have a chosen mate,” I whispered.

“Please. We can’t keep on doing this. What if she finds out?” I cried.

His thumb wiped my tears and pulled me in a crushing hug.

“But you’re my mate,“ he sighed and I cried in his embrace. I want to stay like this and freeze time. 

“She won’t know,” he said as he held me tighter.

I looked away as he let go of me. Why can’t he just reject her and claim me instead? Isn’t that what he’s supposed to do? Does he know how he’s hurting me by keeping Yvette while doing all these to me?

“We can’t do this anymore,” I said without looking at him.

“Can you fight it?” he asked.

I glanced up at him.

“This pull. Can you fight it?” he asked again.

“Because if it feels as good as this, then I have no intention of fighting this,” he licked his lower lips.

“Then what are we if you have Yvette as your mate and luna?” I took calming breaths as this conversation is starting to hurt me in many ways.

“Just give me time,” he answered quickly.

“Are you out of your mind?” I asked in frustration.

“What do you want me to do, Irene?! Just reject her? What if she’s already bearing my pup? I need to weigh the consequences of my choices if I ever make one. It’s something you don’t understand.” 

Lunox whimpered at his harsh words but I held my temper. I am determined not to cause a storm this time.

“So you will just keep me and her? Your mate as your mistress and your woman as your luna, is that it? You have no idea who you’re talking to, Alpha Hunter. Leave my office now,” I blurted and his gaze turned cold.

“I see. See? You don’t understand me” his jaw clenched.

Oh my goodness. If there’s someone who always has to weigh the consequences of their actions here, it’s me. My mood can freaking cause a snowstorm in summer!

“And as for the plant, no I haven’t seen anything like that before. You may leave now, Alpha Hunter. I hope our paths never cross again,” I said and went to sit behind my desk again without sparing him a glance.

He stormed off my office, slamming the door on his way out and I crumbled at my desk.

I stared at the door.

I didn’t mean what I said. 

I would love to see him again even if he makes me feel less of a girl.