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Internal Sin: 081

Author: Diana Matthew
last update Last Updated: 2023-11-06 21:29:36

[KAI'S POINT OF VIEW]

I still remember the man in the mirror. It was like I was staring at myself but at the same time, it wasn't me.

I remembered the look in his eyes; they were filled with regret and so much pain that my heart clenched. Those eyes wanted to tell me something, to warn me, but he vanished the moment Ralph entered the bathroom.

That was two days ago, and I still felt strange. I felt a tingling sensation at the tip of my finger as if something was aching to be let go.

I even stood in front of the mirror a few times, hoping the man would reappear and tell me everything, but he never did, and I knew what I saw. He was there.

I sounded crazy, I know but I couldn't help it.

I sighed and ran a hand down my face. I was probably losing my mind.

Suddenly, the loud ringing sound of my phone filled the room. I picked it up from beside me, where I was sitting on the bed, and answered the call.

"Mom,"

"Kai, a…are you home?"

Suddenly, every nerve in my body was screaming in alarm
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