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Internal Sin: 045

Author: Diana Matthew
last update Last Updated: 2023-09-20 08:10:48

[CAMERON’S POINT OF VIEW]

I opened my eyes to find myself staring at an unfamiliar ceiling. I blinked the fog from my vision and bolted to a sitting position on a bed that clearly was not mine. The room was completely unfamiliar; it was made entirely of wood and had an ancient design.

Where was I? Where was this place? Unanswered questions lingered in my mind as I tried to piece together what happened before everything went black, but my mind was blank, instead inviting an excruciating headache that made me groan.

With confusion, I tried to get out of bed as my feet touched the soft rug on the floor, but then the door opened and the last people I expected to see again on this planet walked in, the only people who made me believe that maybe there was such a thing as a soulmate and love was all sunshine and rainbows, and I was just unlucky.

"Grandma! Grandpa!" I yelled out in a sense of elation that I had not experienced in a while and I suddenly felt alive. I leaped from the bed and
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    (CAMERON'S POINT OF VIEW)We were almost at the door when I changed my mind and brought him around to face me. He looked at me puzzledly and parted his lips to speak, but I cut him off as I grabbed his face with both hands and kissed him square on the lips.He immediately grabbed my hands on his face and broke the kiss. He raised an inquisitive brow.I fixed my gaze on him intently. "I do not want dinner; I want you."His eyes cleared of confusion, and his arm snaked around my waist, drawing me to his body. I could feel his breath against my ear as he moved his face closer to mine, causing an ache to swell inside of me. "Can you handle it, human?" He whispered against my ear before biting into my earlobe, causing me to grasp both his shoulders and squeeze. Rhys tightened his grip on me.I wanted this so bad, but at the same time, I didn't know what I was getting into. He was a demon, and I was a mere human, but I didn't care; I wanted to experience something new with him. "I can."H

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    (CAMERON'S POINT OF VIEW)When I gained consciousness, my whole body was screaming and begging for help.With difficulty, I pushed myself to a sitting position and cried out pain at the anguish on my backside."I thought you could take it." Rhys mocking voice echoed in my head. I scoffed. I did take it, even though I passed out from intensity and wild sensations. So, this was how having sex with a demon felt?I looked at the side beside the bed; Rhys was gone. I looked down at myself; I was wearing Rhys'shirt. I smiled and inhaled it. It was perfect, and suddenly, it felt like all my problems were gone.With a groan, I pushed myself off the bed, letting out another groan once my feet touched the floor. Then, my gaze landed on my phone, sitting on the table. I dragged my feet over and picked it up, and once I turned it on, it was filled with notifications, hundreds of them from my mom, and they were dead threats.She didn't know where I was, and that was enough. Without a second thou

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    (CAMERON’S POINT OF VIEW)Nature was an intriguing phenomenon. There was a lot to anticipate, and even more to draw.The mountains, streams, small lakes, trees, or, in this case, the sight of Rhys lying in the middle of the field, staring up at the sky, were more captivating, and in no time, his face had once again filled my canvas.The demon was perfect, and it was only fitting that he was not human because no human could match his beauty, and he belonged to me alone. Mine to look at,mine to touch, and do whatever I please.It had been a week since Rhys had taken me to stay with my grandparents, and it had been the most peaceful week of my life; it was almost unreal, but I loved every second of it because living in complete obscurity was the ideal existence. I wouldn't mind living like this for the rest of my life.My pencil abruptly stopped moving on the canvas as a thought entered my mind. Wouldn't It be wishful thinking if I were to think of forever with Rhys? We didn't belong i

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    (KAI'S POINT OF VIEW)When I walked out of Cameron's hospital room, everything in me told me to stay and protect him because just looking at his soulmate told me there was nothing good spelled around him. But he insisted I leave. He was going to be alright, right?My shoulders sagged as I sighed. I was once a victim of violence, but Cameron appeared to be in worse shape than I was. At least I wasn't being abused by the one who was supposed to love and care for me. A soulmate. Apparently, it wasn't all rainbows and sunshine, but I didn't have the right to say much because I didn't have one. I knew nothing about having a soulmate, but if having a soulmate meant being with that bastard in there, I would rather not have one. I loved the way my life was. After all, I had Ralph with me. With another sigh, I continued on my way. Rhys was there. If he was anything like Ralph said he was, he would protect him. Being occupied with my thoughts, I didn't hear the footsteps of someone coming

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    (RALPH’S POINT OF VIEW)"You have repeatedly let me down, Ralph. Why should I make an exception for you?"The voice echoed and appeared from nowhere in the depths of the pitless void I was in. I immediately knelt on one of my knees on a pitless floor and bowed my head. “Fath…” I started but was interrupted by a strong gust of wind that nearly knocked me down."I do not address you as your father. I speak to you as your master.'' The caliginous, cavernous voice suddenly came so close to my ear that the words were now imprinted in my mind. I firmly gripped my knee while maintaining my hunched posture. “Yes, master.”“You disappoint me, Ralph. I had hoped you were distinct from that brother of yours, but you have let me down more times than he has.” The voice tsked, and once more I felt a hefty gust of wind hit my face, but I was able to maintain my stance. "For a demon, obtaining a human's heart is the simplest task."It was a simple task, but Kai was not just another human. "I know Ma

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  • INTERNAL SIN   Internal Sin: 051

    (RALPH'S POINT OF VIEW)"He has gone nuts!" I clamored as soon as Rhys appeared beside me at the top of a construction building. "He thinks he has a soulmate, and that's utter bullshit. He doesn't even have a soul or a life like other humans; how can he have what they have?" I chuckled bitterly. "He's human, Ralph. No matter what or who he was in a previous life, he is now a regular person who thinks everyone has guardian angels and soulmates. You claim to be his angel, so he believes he, like everyone else, has a soulmate." Rhys shrugged as he crossed his arms across his chest."But he doesn't have a soulmate. If he has one, there is no way he will fall in love with me, no way I will have his heart and no way I will get my memories back.""Perhaps this is a sign that you should abandon your plan to give his heart to that father of ours."I gave Rhys a sharp look with my jaw clenched in sudden anger that he was provoking. "Will you then tell me what happened that caused me to sleep

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  • INTERNAL SIN   Internal Sin: 052

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    (KAI'S POINT OF VIEW)Ralph now had a distinct air about him. I mean, there was a lot different about him since he claimed to be a saint but did not act like one, but I noticed that change when he walked in after going missing for two days with a strangling red mark on his neck that refused to heal and became vibrant whenever I tried to apply ointment, making it even more obvious that it was not a human that made that mark because Ralph would never allow them to get close enough.I would have asked if he was not acting strangely since he returned. He kept a hawk's eye on me, a dark look in his golden eyes that would occasionally flicker to a familiar red without him realizing it—a pair of red eyes that I only see in my dreams.There was a lot I did not know about Ralph, a lot he was keeping from me, and a lot I was afraid to find out because I knew most of it involved me, and I did not want anything to disrupt my peace of mind, even if it meant the entire world dying. I didn't give a

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  • INTERNAL SIN   Internal Sin: 093

    [RALPH'S POINT OF VIEW]"I'm sorry," I muttered weakly, looking into his eyes, hoping he would understand. "Perhaps you forget we are still here." Xavier snorted. Cameron's gaze was on Kai when I turned around, and he had a cunning look in his eyes and a smirk on his lips. I shielded Kai's eyes from his evil gaze, but I was gently pushed aside. "I'm not some damsel in distress. I don't need you to protect me. I can take him out myself." He glared.I couldn't help the tiny smile that occupied my lips as he pointed his sword at Cameron and Xavier. "Now, who wants a taste of my sword first?" I stood beside him. He gave me a side-eye. "After them, you're next." He gritted, and I would gladly accept his blade."What makes you think you are a match for me?" Cameron smirked. "Let’s not make this difficult for you, darling; give me what I want, and you can sleep peacefully without worrying about whether you are a human or a golden guardian. You can come to me willingly, or I will come to

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