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Internal Sin: 053

Author: Diana Matthew
last update Last Updated: 2023-10-01 22:21:00

(KAI'S POINT OF VIEW)

Ralph now had a distinct air about him. I mean, there was a lot different about him since he claimed to be a saint but did not act like one, but I noticed that change when he walked in after going missing for two days with a strangling red mark on his neck that refused to heal and became vibrant whenever I tried to apply ointment, making it even more obvious that it was not a human that made that mark because Ralph would never allow them to get close enough.

I would have asked if he was not acting strangely since he returned. He kept a hawk's eye on me, a dark look in his golden eyes that would occasionally flicker to a familiar red without him realizing it—a pair of red eyes that I only see in my dreams.

There was a lot I did not know about Ralph, a lot he was keeping from me, and a lot I was afraid to find out because I knew most of it involved me, and I did not want anything to disrupt my peace of mind, even if it meant the entire world dying. I didn't give a
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    (KAI'S POINT OF VIEW)Just like that, a month flew by, and a lot happened in that month, much of it involving Arryn and me.He showed up every day, and each day was a new and different gift. Accepting gifts from him felt awkward at first, but he assured me it was fine. But seriously, I did not need those gifts, but that seemed to be his love language, or so I assumed.Even though we have not kissed yet, and for some strange reason, I was not anticipating it, we were growing closer every day, and he had made me feel what it meant to have a soulmate.A reason that might involve RalphWhen I said a lot had happened, I also meant Ralph. He was always out and rarely came home, and the red mark on his neck was spreading and becoming more prominent. It was concerning, but whenever I inquired, he dismissed me. I felt like we were drafting apart, and I felt like it was my fault.I was the one who pushed him away when Arryn entered the picture, but it wasn't something I could control. Arryn wa

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  • INTERNAL SIN   Internal Sin: 055

    (KAI'S POINT OF VIEW)My dreams had changed; instead of feeling, I was now watching while fully aware that I was dreaming.The man perched atop a structure had my face; he was identical to me but also distinct from me due to his golden armor, enormous white wings, and golden eyes.He watched the world below him with a calculating gaze as if he were ready to jump into the first fight or use his body as a shield to protect the world beneath him.He appeared to be a fighter, a protector who would go to any length to protect what he was assigned to. He looked devoted. His focus was undivided, but he lacked warmth; he was as cold as ice. "You can take your gaze away for a moment, you know. The world isn't going to come to an end if you look away."A familiar voice spoke, and in an instant, Ralph's familiar features appeared beside him, but Ralph looked different. The wings on his back weren't white; they were a dark shade of black. His hair was golden, but his eyes weren't hazel; they wer

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  • INTERNAL SIN   Internal Sin: 056

    (KAI'S POINT OF VIEW)Arryn was sick.When I arrived at his apartment building, I tried not to notice the luxury; even the elevator was classic.People gave me strange looks, probably wondering what a poor-looking boy was doing in such a posh building. I walked faster, my hoodie thrown over my head, to the back of the elevator that took us to the fourth floor, where Arryn lived. When the elevator finally stopped with a beep, I dashed out and to Arryn's door.There were only three rooms on this floor, so it was not difficult to find his. I stood outside his door, a slight frown on my face, as I heard a female giggle coming from the other side. When I knocked on his door, the laughter came to a halt.I almost thought I heard it wrong, but when the door opened to reveal a girl, I was proven wrong. She beamed. "Hi, you must be Kai?"I nodded and took a quick scan. She was attractive, slender, and dressed in a mini-dress that reached her mid-thigh."Come on in, Arryn has been waiting for

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  • INTERNAL SIN   Internal Sin: 057

    (KAI'S POINT OF VIEW)A week went by before I saw Arryn again. I stared at him blankly as I opened the door. He smiled as he extended a bouquet to me."Hi." "Hi," I answered back, accepting the flowers from him since I couldn't reject them anyway. I looked down and noticed a shopping bag in his hand. I exhaled a sigh. "You should stop getting me presents." "I'm sorry, but you can ask for anything but that. I enjoy getting you gifts." He held up the bag. "Get dressed; we are going out."I raised an eyebrow. "Going out?"He nodded. "I want to make amends for what happened the last time. I was miserable. This is my way of apologizing. So, will you go out with me?" He looked optimistically at me.I looked from the stretched-out bag to his face. Could I say no? "Sure." I took the bag from him. "Do you want to come in?" "No. I’ll be here waiting." I nodded and went back in and back to my bedroom. Ralph was lying on the bed. He didn't look at me as he spoke. "Your soulmate is here.""Hmm

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  • INTERNAL SIN   Internal Sin: 058

    (RALPH'S POINT OF VIEW)I gave him the time and space he wanted. I enlarged the gap he created because I promised not to interfere in his relationship with that soulmate of his. I let him do whatever he wanted, even to the point of lying to me to coat Arryn for the bruise on his stomach and the cut on his face.He was taking me for a fool and I wasn't.With a crook of my head, I watched as the human slept without a care in the world while I rowed the urge to take him apart and make sure he didn't ever open his eyes again.Having had enough of watching the bastard sleep, I snapped my fingers and the idiot was jolting to a sitting position, wide awake. He panted and I let him take his time to calm his ranging heartbeats because I felt like ripping it out and feeding on it.When he finally noticed me, he jostled on the bed and bashed his head on the nightstand. "Y-y-you-" he stuttered messlessly. "How did you get in? What are you doing here?"I snickered and stepped forward. He moved bac

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  • INTERNAL SIN   Internal Sin: 059

    (KAI'S POINT OF VIEW)"I've been waiting for you.""Why?" I asked him or I asked myself because I realized that this person in front of me—this person dressed in armor, golden eyes, golden locks, and the most beautiful white wings—this person was me.Because I feel them. The emotions swimming in his eyes, the spurt of anguish in his veins, and the pang in his heart. I felt all of them."It's our responsibility to protect the world." He went on."That's what makes us different. I don't care about the world.""You should. Without the world, we have nothing. You can't let them take that away from us. He doesn't love us, he never did and he won't in this life. Do you know what he wants?" He questioned, advancing on me. He pointed his finger on my chest. "The heart. He wants our heart and if you don't stop now, he will have our heart.""We love him."He threw his head back and cracked up. "Love?" When he looked back at me, his eyes looked like they were bleeding. I felt my heart ache. "We

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  • INTERNAL SIN   Internal Sin: 060

    (KAI'S POINT OF VIEW)A week passed, and I remained in Reuben's home with his soulmate. I knew I was a burden to the couple, but I could not bring myself to go home knowing I would have to face Ralph, and I was not prepared for that.He hadn't come to find me yet, which was good. Only if fate had the same plans as me, my life would have gone as smoothly as the back of a knife, but as I watched Reuben enter the guest room I had been hiding in—it didn't. I needed to remain hidden for a little while longer and pay attention to my thoughts."You have a visitor." He announced, then shrugged and walked out.Despite having a bad feeling in my stomach, I dragged myself out of bed and walked out of the room.I went into the living room and found the last person I wanted to see on this planet, if not ever. I came to a halt as he turned his gaze to me. "What are you doing here?" I blurted out. “How did you know I was here?"Arryn rose from his seat. He had healed from his wounds, but his arms st

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  • INTERNAL SIN   Internal Sin: 061

    (KAI’S POINT OF VIEW)Ralph opened the door when I returned home. Before he looked into my eyes, he gave me a downcast look as if looking for something. I stared back, unfluctuating, making no attempt to avert my eyes.“Had enough of the space?” The supercilious bastard grilled before scoffing and traversing his arms over his chest.Some guardian angel he was. I didn’t answer; instead, I seized him by the wrist, hauled him into the room, and slammed the door with my foot. Once inside, I slammed him against the nearest wall, trapping him between my arms and the wall. Astonishment flashed through his eyes, but it vanished as soon as his lips stretched into a smirk. "Are we getting bolder now?" I searched his eyes, wanting to find something, anything, but I couldn't read them, so I asked. “What do you want from me, Ralph?” The question immediately made him lose his smirk. I carried on. “Do you want my heart because you want power, or do you love me, Ralph, and don't fucking lie to me?”

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