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Volume 1: Ch.14
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2024-10-29 19:42:56- The scum’s wish-
April made a choice to tell him. Even though she knew less about him, it was a spur of moment decision to trust him. The teacher already left with instruction in the board, some were already starting the activity while other are likes, chatting or frolicking around.
Wayne watched her as he waited for her answer, his eyes was fixed at her as April nervously exhaled.
“W-well, t-this, I mean” she finds it difficult to start her sentence. She had doubts inside her, but she realized there’s no reason to be afraid of. In the first place she had wondered why she kept it a secret.
“Why don’t we keep it as an open secret?”
It was her own words few years ago when they just started dating. “I’m really embarrassed talking, y-you know me I never imagined dating or whatever.” She told Jm. But a lot of years has passed and it was kept that way. “I don’t have re
LeGrinchHey guys! I hope you enjoy chapter 14, hope I can publish chapter 15 tomorrow but I have modules to do. Maybe I'll update it on Thursday.
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