I put the dress in the basket. I lazily walk over the bed and plop on it. I rub my palm on my cheek and close my eyes. Oddly, I'm feeling calm. I hear the door clicking to open and weigh on the mattress. I keep my eyes close.
A familiar hand brushes on my forehead. I push myself in a sitting position opening my eyes, " Do you need anything? " I ask my mother.
" I know you hate me. Perhaps, it's the last time we are spending time together. " She says.
I control myself not to answer, " How was your journey? " I ask what stuck on my mind first.
" I enjoyed it, " She smiles.
I still love her. After all, she's my mother. But I'll never forgive her and she also knows it very well, " Is something important? " I ask her.
" Why don't you
I take a sip of my latte as I grab the set of my keys from the table. I head toward the garage. I don't want to cancel the wedding, I know it won't kill me but it will kill my heart, the reason for my smile, happiness. Dammit! I'm overthinking. She must have called me to discuss her conditions. Tomorrow is the Haldi ceremony, then Mehndi Ceremony and then the most awaited day of my life with my dream girl, The wedding day. I know it's a casual meeting. She'll not look at me the way I look at her, she'll not feel for me, I feel for her when I behold her. I know she loves me. I simply recall her face when she accepted it in front of me. I wanted to do more than a hug. I love the control on me but when she's around, she makes everything difficult. " Where are you going? " Karan asks, suddenly leaping between me and my car. " To see my love. " I move toward my car but he stops me.
I'm not interested in falling love again. But I've... I can feel it. I perceive only happiness around him. The problem is still there, standing between us like an immovable stone. I got over the breakup with him. I'll never call it a breakup. The breakup happens with the agreement of two people. He left me without saying a word. Cheap! That isn't enough for him, breaking my heart. He began to plant people in my life to ruin me, to get what he couldn't get. Cheapest! Arnav is different from him. He's the same as I dream my husband to be. He only knows that I have a past but he doesn't know it haunts me every night. My nightmares have made my life miserable. I can't live a life like other girls, normal and happy. My tears have dried up, but my heart is still bleeding. Arnav has made this pain disappear, I've had nightmares but he can't stay with me forever. He's going to be my husband, but I don't know, does he want a raped girl as his
I manage to push away the bad memories of the nightmare. I love my dress today. It's a yellow off-shoulder gown with real rose flower's jewellery, " Who made this? It's beautiful. I can smell roses. " I brush my fingers on the red petals of it. Hiding behind the smile, I gaze up at my friends to answer me. " Mini made it for us. '' Sippy engulfs her arms around her, " She actually takes care of us as our mother does. " " Right, " Rita hugs her too, " Our parents are here. " She says to Mini, " They will not allow me to see Guri after the Haldi Ceremony. " She pulls a face. " Don't be a jerk. It's not months and years. Tomorrow mehndi. Then the next day you and Suhana will be married ladies. " Pehu put the bracelet made of red roses around my wrist. All are wearing yellow dresses, Mini, Rita and Pehu are w
Sippy opens the curtains of my room. The sun sinks down over the city. My skin is glowing yellow and I'm smelling like roses. Sinking sun spreads orange all over, making the room glow, " Take a nap. We girls are partying tonight, only ladies. " Mini says, turning from the window, Including our mothers and mother-in-law. " She adds quickly. I was tired before. But the hot bath was really incredible. I can add it in my routine, " Here! Some fruits, juice and sandwiches if you feel hungry. " Sippy slides the tray on the nightstand. " We'll knock at your doorstep at eleven," Mini says as she grips the doorknob. Sippy steps out first and then Mini, " Call me if you need anything. " She meets my eyes for a few seconds. I nod my head and lock the door, closing it after them. My eyes are getting heavy. I walk over the mattress and plop on it, pulling the blanket to my ch
My body gets numbed when I stare down at her message. My smile fades away. The loud music, all babble, noises play in the background. It's my heartbeat that is running rapidly, knocking in my ears. Dammit! She'll be the path to my grave. Vicky jounces me by my shoulder, " What happened? " He asks. James stares down at the screen. He puts his hand on my shoulder, " Talk to her. It could be a prank. " He says. I shake my head, " I need to go. " I say over the music. I hurry toward the door of the club. I shove my hand in my pocket and take out the car's keys. She can't do this to me. I make a call on her number again, it's unreachable. I slip it back and quicken my pace. I unlock my car and get in. The passenger door opens and slams shut, taking Vicky in and James slips in the back seat, " You are looking as i
My heart was beating faster, and I hated myself for doing this to him. I'm worse for him. How could he forgive me so easily, I can see it clearly over his face that I've hurt him. But he needs to know what's he walking in. I want to be with him and push him away. When I thought about all the bad things, Which part bothered me most was unclear. My this deed to him is going to come back to haunt me in my dreams that I've hurt him. Nothing could ever happen between us. It doesn’t make sense, but that part scares me. He stares at me, my heart is beating a mile a minute. He steps back, twirling; he leaves me alone, mulling over what I did to him. I'm feeling so embarrassed right now for my doing. I never want to disappear into thin air so badly. I turn my gaze. The dress is still lying on one side of the mattress. Before my friends att
I take a deep breath and make my way through the door behind Pehu. She has overstepped the boundaries. But I can't blame her. They care for me. They are genuine with me from starting, rare people of my life. The hall which was regally decorated yesterday. It is converted into a dance floor. Dj is playing at one side of the hall, " No one told me about this, set up." I gaze around. " It is a surprise for you. You always wanna go to the club. But you never did out of fear. " Sippy says, coming from behind and putting her arm around my shoulder. " Thanks, it really feels like an actual club. " I smile, meeting my gaze with her. " Suhana! " My mother in law walks toward me, leaving her troop behind. She's wearing a red and dark green suit, Her lipstick was the brightest fluorescent pink, her Punjabi look is really amazing
My brother wants to talk about something essential. But wasn't he attending a bachelor party? Did he witness something unpleasant there? He doesn't want me to marry Arnav. I hurry toward my room. I behold him standing out of the room from the corridor. It makes me tense when I find him with our elder brother. Arrogant bossy huh! I want to snap but I keep quiet, " You don't need to wait outside, " I tell him as I turn the knob and open then to come in. I gesture him to sit but I know both are stubborn and stay on their feet, " Dad has sent something for you. " Ruu says. Big brother hands him a small white bag. Ruu extends his hand. I always get excited when dad brings something to me. I take it eagerly. I put the bag on the table and peep inside it, " Wao! Green, " I fish out the dress. It's a long green floral printed dress
I stare at my image in the mirror. I'm draped into a baby pink gown, pink plump heels, pink lips. I gulp. I never imagined myself in pink colour. It still seems unbelievable that he's behind bars and Harleen helped me. He's found guilty. It has been a month. I don't wanna think about bad memories of my life. I've promised myself to start a new life with my husband. No shadow of my past. We've completed six months of this wedding. Arnav is taking me out, it's another date. He always surprises me and fills my life with happiness. ' My first sight love,' My phone pings, grabbing my attention. I smile, glancing down at his name. I click on it. Arnav brought this dress last night for me. I didn't
She was sleeping when I left for my office. I was waiting for her to make a move. She contacted him via FB when she couldn't get her phone. He called her daily from a private number. It's impossible that I'll put her in danger. When I was in my office. She booked a flight to India. She was doing it again. She was planning to go away without informing me again. "Sir, the plane is ready," Kabir says, walking into my office. I nod my head and grab my phone from the desk. I heave deeply as I dial a number. He answers on the first ring. "Hi, brother." "Are you ready?" I ask. I trace my fingers on the photo frame. Her tongue is stuck out, her eyes are smiling. I glanced at her with a smile. Karan clicked this. Beginni
I'm on the verge of tears. I drop my phone in my handbag. I grab our wedding picture from the nightstand and slip it into the handbag. I sit down on the couch. I grab a paper and pen. ' I'll come home soon. Three or four days! I also need to tell you something. Please, don't get mad like last time. ' I put the pen back. I crack my knuckles. I don't know anything about yesterday. He can do anything, harm me, kill me. I don't know if I'll be able to see my husband again. After knowing what happened in my past, I'm not certain about Arnav. The complicated question is - will he accept me? I'm scared to lose him. After a deep sigh, I throttle the pen between my fingers. I scrub the pen over the paper. &nbs
After they left for California. I returned to our room. I remove my heels and dupatta, putting them on the edge of the mattress. This dress is showing my cleavage. I frown at it. I'm alone in the room. I don't feel it necessary to cover it with a dupatta. I couldn't grope the closet. It's the biggest one. It would take hours. Biting down on my lip, I head toward its door. I swipe the back of my hand over my forehead. I have looked through every possible place. I started from his files, clothes. I couldn't get it anywhere. "Are you looking for something?" I startle and pivot on my heels. He isn't wearing his shirt, only his slacks he wore before
I keep looking at him. My cheek is pressed hard against the pillow. I want it to swallow me. He fastens his cufflinks. There's grace in his every small move. I'm the opposite of him. I'm quarrelsome sometimes, I'm always ready to fight for my rights. He's calm like a calm sea. He handles things with love. He knows to make my anger disappear. I blinked, breaking the spell of my thinking of him. He buttons his waistcoat and grabs his coat from the couch. A chill rakes my body seeping into my bones. The thought of parting from him always frightens me, unsettles me. He inclines down. My nose fills with cedar, sandalwood, Basil. His fingers slide in the back of my head. He pecks on my lips. We greet each other with our genuine smiles. "Don't go anywhere witho
I press my back against the side of the pool and stretch my arms out, gripping the ledge. I haven't felt so stressed before. I can see her from afar. She's still under doss. She should wake up. Pehu couldn't say anything. She doesn't wanna say anything until she talks to her. I stormed out of my office when I got a call from my mother. I clench my teeth. I respect her because she's my mother. She shouldn't do this to her. I shake my head and pull myself out of the pool. I grab the towel and rub it on my nape and head. I slip into a white boxer. I couldn't take my eyes off of her. I don't know. Will she remember me this time? I touch her cheek slightly with the
It was a fatiguing day. My feet are aching walking in heels. He didn't leave my side. His arm stayed around me as he's protecting me from something dangerous. I walk over to the pool after changing into shorts, kick off my slippers, and stick my legs in the water. I smile at him. He keeps himself afloat with small movements of his feet and waves of his strong muscular arms on top of the water. Our gazes lock. He slowly closes the gap between us until he’s directly in front of my legs. He places his hand on the edge as he glances up at me. He smiles. He gives a little push to his body, backward. With slow movements of his arm, he slides away from me. He slinks underwater for a few seconds. When he comes back up again, he wipes all his hair out of his forehead. He ra
Pehu suggested this to me. I hate to see her in pain. But I want her memory to be restored. I couldn't ignore the sheen of pain when she glanced at the counter near the door. I grab the forks and put them on the tray. I unclip the apron and glance at her. She's breathing heavily, "Suhana, what's it?" Immediately, I saunter forward and cup her cheeks. She swivels her neck looking into my eyes. I observe her in concern. "Can we go back to our room? I don't like this place." She says, biting on her trembling lower lip. Tears gathered in her eyes. She blinks staring in my eyes and tears roll down. "S***!" I curl my arm around her waist. Tugging her to my chest, I swipe her in my arms. Her face pressed against my chest and her arms tightened around my neck.
A sense of being watched pickles along my skin as the hair on my back rises. I glance back, snapping my eyes around. I could get nothing. That feeling is still seated inside me. "Are you looking for me?" Harleen says as she stops before her. She's dolled up in a black shoulderless tight gown, exposing her cleavage. I chose to stay quiet. She snorts when I just stare at her. "I was thinking of you as an intelligent woman." She tightens her red lips. "Should I say, you're not welcomed here?" Mini snaps. She glares at Harleen. Her grip tightens around the glass she's holding. "Your mother is so possessive," Harleen mocks her, twisting her lips. "Stay away from h