Nathania’s POVIf Nathania said it seemed like Xavier had gone back to withdrawing to himself, it was an understatement. For two weeks, two whole weeks, Xavier lived like she was not in the world. Ever since they came back from Hawaii, he had been ignoring her like she was a carrier of a deadly plague. Even when she goes over to their house to visit Christy, he locks himself in his room and only comes out when he was on his way out and even then, he wouldn’t even glance at him. At first, Nathania had liked it, believing she needed time to get over what happened in Hawaii, however, as the days stretched and Xavier showed no sign of backing down, she knew it had became serious and so tried to ask what his deal with. However, dear ol’ Xavier refused to honor her with his attention and time.It got to a point that she even went looking for him in the nerd house as Nana but only to be told that he has not visited the place since the week that went to Hawaii. And it only made her wonder, if
Xavier’s POVXavier stared at the boy in front of him. Two weeks, for two good weeks he had ignored him, wanting to forget about him and the stuff in Hawaii but every day, every single day, instead of hating him or forgetting him like he had hoped, he had found himself being drawn to him the more and now, here he was, making the first approach. Isn’t he cursed? He almost laughed at himself. In those two weeks, he had tried to understand himself, he had gone to club, meet women, talked to a few, made out with a few but none, absolutely none of them had succeeded in getting this boy out of his mind.He had also visited gay clubs, got hit on by a few but none attracted him like the boy in front of him. He even forced himself to entertain a guy in the club by giving him his full attention but when the guy had touched him, he had felt irritated. And nearly had a fall out with the guy when he wanted to force himself on him. Well, if it wasn’t for the bouncer, Xavier was sure he would have k
Nathania’s POVNathania tossed and turned on her bed. Sleep was impossible like it has been for the past seven days. She still found it hard to believe that she had kissed Xavier. Whether it was only for a second, it was still a big deal for her. She found herself thinking back to that night for the thousandth time. When she had decided to kiss him, she had placed a bet that he would laugh it off, punch or, push her away or withdrew himself. Nothing, absolutely nothing had prepared her for the fact that Xavier would stand his ground and that she would kiss him.She could still remember how shocked she was and how Xavier had stood staring at her, not saying anything or even shouting at her. She on the other hand had been to shocked to say a word and if it wasn’t for Teresa coming out for that moment and saying that she had been looking for her, she wondered how she would have escaped Xavier that night because she had used Teresa as an excuse and also begging Xavier to take her home bec
Xavier’s POVXavier had just walked out of the nerd house, feeling angry at himself for coming second yet again in the competition and this time, he only had one person to blame: Oliver. Right after that night of tasting his lips, even though it was just for a second, Oliver had gone around avoiding him. Even though he would purposely sit on his bike to wait for him to arrive, as soon as Oliver does and saw him, he would quickly park his truck and make an excuse to rush inside the school. Once Xavier had run after him but seeing how the few students that had arrived then were staring at them, he had let Oliver go and never was able to catch him alone.Now as he stood in front of the Nerd house, about to go down to his bike, he saw a silhouette walking down the streets and he guess he has embedded the way he looks and walks inside him for he knew instantly with one glance that that was Oliver. As he wondered what he could be doing there and was still considering whether to call out for
Nathania’s POVNathania couldn’t understand what was wrong with Xavier. If he called her Ollie, it means he knew it was her, that he knew her as Oliver and yet he was being this touchy? She couldn’t understand him, she was finding it really difficult to read him. A part of her was telling her that he was teasing her, and the best thing to do was to react by pushing him away and calling him out on his actions. However, to think it was one thing and doing it was another. Her hands were placed on his chest and his body warmth burnt like a scorching fire, yet she couldn’t take her hands away. She could feel his muscles underneath his shirt and all she wanted to do was to rip the shirt open and feel those abs skin to skin. However, she had to remind herself who was in front of her. Gracious, it was Xavier for crying out loud.“You are not speaking, what’s the matter? Cat caught your tongue? Or in this case, is it me?” Xavier asked, his voice was playful, proving to Nathania that she was ri
Nathania’s POV Nathania parked her truck in the lot, for once since she could remember, she couldn’t find Xavier’s black bike in the lot. She had come a little late herself but Xavier seemed not to be coming in today and she wondered if it was because of that night in the alley. Right after Xavier had broken the kiss, with both of them breathless, she had pushed him and ran out of the alley. A part of her had thought he would follow but he didn’t and neither did he contact throughout the weekend. She had been restless, so restless and a lot of times she had picked up her phone to call Teresa and ask for his number but not once did she carry it out.Even when she sees Teresa’s call, her heart would miss a beat before she would answer, hoping that it was him that was calling with Teresa’s phone but not once did that happen. And now, here she was in the parking lot, after calming herself down with the fact that she would see him today and that they would talk about everything and only f
Nathania’s POVIt’s been three days since the announcement in the assembly and no one has seen or heard from Tyler. Chloe had slipped into coma and no one knows when she would wake up. Everyone was looking for Tyler and even his parents had filed for missing person report as Tyler has not been seen since the night of the accident. While it was a big news in school as everyone was wondering what could have really happened and while Tyler had ran away from home, Nathania was more worried about Xavier and why he was acting and living like she doesn’t exist. He has not said a word today and when she would try to approach him, she would always chicken out, afraid of what he would tell her or what she would say to him.Not able to take it anymore, she decided to approach him in a way she wouldn’t have to be afraid or worried with how he would treat her. She dressed in a nice floral gown, her long hair was let down and she tried to apply a simple and light makeup. Satisfied with how she look
Xavier’s POVXavier had laid out the invite before he could take it back. He had wanted to go to the gig after watching the competition but now looking at Nana, he realized that she would be the perfect distraction for him. He lifted his bike seat and fetched out a spare helmet, he turned to her with a smile. “I promise to have you home before your grandma notices.”Nathania laughed. “I wasn’t worried about that.”“Then where you worried at all?” He raised an eyebrow, eager to know what she must be thinking.“Well,” she shrugged. “It was one thing to have a late dinner with you in my town and it’s another going to the city with you at seven in the evening.”“Oh,” Xavier nodded. “I can see what you are doing there. You still haven’t gotten the bad boy theory about me out of your head.”“Would you blame me?” She laughed, “look at yourself, do you think anyone would believe you are a nerd?”“I’m a nerd and I take pride in it.” He chuckled, enjoying the little banter.“Oh really? I bet a
Nathania’s POVCatherine’s rejection indeed reigned the school for days until the news of Chloe waking up from the hospital and Tyler being found made everyone forget. Chloe had confessed to Tyler being innocent and having nothing to do with her accident but everyone wanted to know why Tyler was hiding and only came out when she woke up. No one knew the full details and the principal had told everyone to leave the case to the authority to focus on their exams coming up. Nathania had been trying her best to meet with Xavier but all to no avail.She had even purposely gone over to his room on the days on visiting Teresa but only to discover the room always locked. No matter how she tried to make a contact, it was Xavier always knew what she was planning and was prepared for her. She even tried calling him with a payphone and he picked up, but that only happened once. He had ended the call instantly when he discovered she was the one and hadn’t picked up any call from a payphone again or
Nathania’s POVXavier didn’t come to any of the morning classes and neither was he seen at P.E. Nathania knew he must have gone off somewhere to be alone and may be avoiding her. She just wished she knew all the hiding places he usually frequented to sleep but sadly, she only knew of the Library and since the teacher found him that day in the storage room, the room was always locked and she had heard Xavier complain about it a few times. As she packed her books to get ready to head for the cafeteria, a loud commotion sounded on the hallway along with excited screams of students. The rest of the students in the class all rushed out to know what was going on and Nathania’s interest was picked as well as she grabbed her back and left the classroom.Getting the lockers hallway, she saw a crowd of students, everyone was whispering and she could make out from their conversation that someone was confessing to someone and the girls high pitched voice was urging the one being confessed to, to
Nathania’s POVNathania stiffened at the sound of Xavier raising his voice. She knew it would be like this, even she would find it difficult to forgive herself for what she did. No matter how justifiable her reason may be, it doesn’t remove the fact that she played with his emotions and gave him a lot oof emotional break down.“Do you know what I went through?” Xavier asked. “I had to fight with myself about my orientation. I knew I was straight, I have always been. But from our trip to Hawaii, I haven’t been myself, thinking about and wondering what was going on with me. Nana, no matter how you look at this, you really broke me. And to think I had altered my orientation just to be with you, do you know what that means?”“I’m sorry,” Nathania said and Xavier scoffed and stood up.“You know, ‘I’m sorry’ were the words my mother heard a lot from my father after finding out he already have a family. Judging our case, it doesn’t look too different from what my Dad did to my Mom. I’m sorry
Xavier’s POV“Xavier, I’m sorry, please,” Nathania said but Xavier was not himself. His mind was going through a lot of thoughts and the most affected was his heart. How could she play him like this? And then again, why? Everyone in school believes her to be a boy, why did she lie about her identity, about her gender? Xavier ran his fingers through his long hair, he opened his mouth to speak but no words came out. He brought the glass of water to his lips and nearly emptied the it in one sip. He placed the glass on the coffee table and stared at the girl in front of him, her beautiful gray eyes were covered in tears but he didn’t want to be affected by it, in as much as it was a hard battle to win. He just couldn’t believe that she has been deceiving him for months, months!“Why?” He asked in the end, “why do you it?”“Can you sit down?” Nana asked.He struggled but at the end, he sat down, his eyes not leaving her for one second when she sat opposite him once more. “I have a brothe
Nathania’s POVNathania had found it hard sleeping or doing anything else. Her mind was always preoccupied with Xavier’s confession and what she has to do about it. No matter how she thinks about it or look at it, the only way she can be together with Xavier is by telling him the truth. However, the problem now was how would she do it? How will she approach the topic? When her Granny told her to help her get her medication and the chemist didn’t have it, she didn’t think twice on driving to the city to get it. Anything to get her busy and prevent her from thinking about her situation with Xavier. When the old man asked her to help him get some beverages, she was happy as well, the more busy she can get, the better.Now standing in front of the Chemist, standing face to face with Xavier and knowing deep down in her heart that he must have heard their discussion and even if he didn’t, he could obviously see Oliver’s car, she was actually relieved than scared. Now, she would have no choi
Xavier’s POVXavier kept going through his words he had prepared for Nana in his mind as he ride to her place. It was until he heard a loud honk and the angry voice of the driver speeding past him that he decided to keep his mind clear until he reaches the town. Approaching the town, he stopped in front of the Nerd house and took off his helmet, staring in front of him, the street that leads to Nana’s Neighborhood. Oliver had left his house yesterday immediately after leaving his room. He could still remember Teresa sulking over it that she even came to his room to ask him what they talked about and why Oliver had to leave so soon. He had spent the whole night wondering if maybe he did the right thing? Should he have waited a little more before confessing to him? But why wait? Oliver lets him do whatever he wants with him and he shouldn’t be blamed if he wants to do more than just stealing kisses. He shouldn’t be blamed if he wants to openly claim him and be with him. He sighed and s
Nathania’s POVNathania had been shocked seeing Xavier with two different eye colors, at first, she had thought he had on lens until he told her to ask. And now hearing his story and discovering that he has been wearing contacts all his life simply because he thought his eyes were not beautiful was a big surprise to her. She slowly approached him, being sure not to overstep her boundaries despite knowing Xavier had kissed her as Oliver a good number of times but since he had said nothing, she just doesn’t know where she stands with him, even as Nana.“You can’t possibly know what I’m thinking.” She said.“Of course I do, you have been quiet, obviously,” he rolled his eyes.“Just because I am quiet doesn’t mean I think your eyes are not beautiful. Xavier, you do know that some people are born like this, right?”“Yes, but theirs are different, it wasn’t caused by an accident.”“Can I ask you something?” She asked and when he nodded, she licked her lips, “why is that you didn’t hate the
Xavier’s POVThe days grew longer with Xavier spending time with Nana and the little he can with Oliver. With each passing day, he was getting to the conclusion that he was falling for both of them and hard. He still has his secret alone times with Oliver while he openly asked Nana out to dates. With each passing moments, he knew that being with both of them would do nothing but hurt him, however, he doesn’t know the one to let go. He loves his open outing and flirts with Nana but also cherish secret moments with Oliver. He knew he can’t go on like this, he would have to let one go and the best person to let go is none other than Oliver. And he has reasons for that to be. Teresa loves Oliver, he could see it, besides, which girl would happily date a guy that won’t kiss or touch her? So taking Oliver away from her would hurt her and it might ruin his relationship with his uncle and aunt.But at the same time, he wants to help Oliver to come out. It was official, Oliver is gay, if not,
Xavier’s POVOn getting to her neighborhood, Xavier remembered what she had said the first time and stopped in the spot he always did during the times he came looking for her. They both climbed down from the bike and Nathania handed him her helmet.“I had a really great time.” She smiled in thanks.Xavier took the helmet with a smile. “Me too. You made me forget about a lot of things but got me to talk about a lot of things.” They both chuckled at that. “When next we meet, it’s your turn telling me about your family. I will like to know a little about you.” That was true but he really just wants to know if she was related to Oliver, but he can’t tell her that.“Of course.”“Now can I have your number?” He raised an eyebrow.“Actually, my phone has an issue but I can give you my granny’s number. She hardly uses it her phone so feel free to call anytime from six pm.”Xavier nodded with a light chuckle, “I will be sure to.” He handed her his phone and she punched in the number and handed