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Chapter 50 - The darkness in my world
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2024-10-29 19:42:56A few hours ealier
We walk down this grimy alley, the kind that always smells like a mix of piss and regret, and I can’t shake thoughts of Celeste. I know, it's stupid to be thinking about a girl when you're about to handle business, but she's stuck in my head. our kiss is tsuck in my head. The feel of her lips on mine, I want more of that and then I want other things she'll never be willing to give me. But I want them anyway. It’s like she’s got a hold on me that I can’t break. But tonight, I’ve got to push all that aside.
"He's in there," Travis says, nodding toward this rundown warehouse at the end of the alley. The place looks like it ha bseen abandoned for years, windows boarded up, paint peeling off the walls. Perfect spot for scum like this dealer to hide out.
"You sure you wanna do this yourself?" Travis asks, his voice low. "I can take care of it."
I shake my head. "No. This one's personal."
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