Hidden feelings

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    🌿 Heidi’s POV🌿

 The best feeling in the world is knowing that someone out there gat your back, that someone out there would fight for you even when you are not there.

Yeah, for me, that’s the best feeling.

And that person to me, is Lucas Rodriguez. He’s someone I grew up with, we were practically birthed in the same neighborhood. We’ve known each other all our lives, and the bond between us was bigger than what most siblings could have.

My bestie. My first love. My everything – well –apart from my father who had taken care of me ever since Mom left. He also means a lot to me.

People would always mistake me for a boy at first sight. Only when they look harder would they realize I was a girl.

And why did I become a tomboy? Because Lucas was like my twin. I learned how to dress like him, learned how to drum like him but never cut my hair which I always plaited into two rough ponytails.

I would say I wasn’t a bit attractive, maybe it was my dress sense, my boyish lifestyle.

I’ve never had a female friend apart from the girl, Aryan who lived next door with her grandmother. We only said hello, chatted about  school since we were in the same class.

As an only child, I never knew what it felt like to have a sibling, never knew what it felt like to have a mother’s love.

Is it the same as being loved by your father? Well, I don’t know…

“Gotcha!”  A familiar voice sounded behind me in the almost empty class. Our class was the most beautiful out of the classrooms in Cloverdale High. Well, I know this because I’ve been to the six senior classrooms.

Maybe it was because we had so much art students. There were four rows and three lines of seats, well arranged with beautiful paintings on the milk colored wall.

I giggled and turned to see Lucas coming with my lunch. “You took so long.” I accused.

He turned the seat in front of me, sat on it and put the plastic bag of food on my desk. We weren’t in the same class but he found out time every lunch break to bring me my food.

“How about that guy? Your desk mate? Does he still bother you?” Lucas asked as he emptied the plastic bag.

I smiled and nodded. I loved it when he asks about my male troublers. “ He’s gone out for lunch break.”

“Next time he does anything funny, I’m gonna break his neck. He shouldn’t try it.” Lucas spoke as though my desk mate was there.

I laughed again, and started munching on my doughnut. “Are you coming over tonight? I don’t wanna be alone, my dad is going on a business trip today.”

Lucas put his hands under his chin, his eyes staring directly straight into mine. “What is in for me?”

“A bowl of milky popcorn, a big cup of ice cream for us, plenty of sodas, homemade pizza.” I listed, staring at the ceiling as I counted with my fingers.

Lucas was smiling when I looked at him. “I’ve known you since we were kids, Heidi. You hardly keep up with your words, hmm.”

I laughed. “This time, it’s different. I will make the order once I get home, my dad’s gonna give me one of his credit card for the weekend while he’s away.”

“Deal then! But if you go back on your word this time, I’m gonna give you a huge peck on that cute cheek of yours.”

I chuckled. “I’d love that. A huge kiss wouldn’t be bad too.”

Lucas laughed and pulled at one of my rough pigtail. “When did you become so spoilt?”

I rolled my eyes, sipped slowly from my milkshake. The bell rang just then and Lucas got up on his feet. “See you later, miss.” He bent, planted a soft Peck on my left cheek before leaving the classroom.

I raised my fingers slowly to my face, to the particular spot where Lucas pecked me and caressed with a smile.

Funny how my heart skips whenever he did that. I didn’t know what was happening to me back when, why I used to feel that way.

Students began trooping back into the class for the remaining classes, and all I could think of was how the night was gonna be. It wouldn’t be our first time spending the night together, but this time around, feelings has changed. Something else was happening.

I was beginning to notice things I didn’t notice when I was ten. I was beginning to notice how cute my best friend was, how manly he appeared, how handsome he’s becoming.

A lot of things!

“Tomboy.” My desk mate and the class bully, Nate whispered into my ear. Only then did I realize that the teacher was already in the class.

I turned to look at him with a warning look on my face. “Stay away from me.” I said the words through clenched teeth.

I couldn’t just wait to leave the class, run home and order for my ice cream and popcorn. The night was gonna be different. I could feel it.