~Amanda~
“What do you mean I don't have enough blood to donate to my daughter?”I asked in confusion because I couldn't understand what she meant.“I think you're mistaken because I have been taking good care of myself!I have been eating alot of fruits and vegetables.”I protested,not believing what the lab technician said.“I'm sorry but that is the truth,Mrs.”She looked at me with apologetic eyes.“Liar!”I yelled at the lady and she took a step back,fear written all over her face.“Can you please leave us alone?”I heard Lucia ask the lady and soon after the laboratory door shut.“You need to calm down,Amanda.”Lucia said in a gentle voice,”How?”I asked in almost a whisper but loud enough for Lucia to hear.Lucia was speechless when she heard my question.I could imagine how I was supposed to calm down when my daughter's life was at risk.No!There was no way I was going to calm down.“How am I supposed to calm down when my daughter's life is hanging by a~AmandaMy heart ached inside my chest when I admitted the damn truth that I was in no position to donate blood to my daughter even if I wanted to.There is no painful feeling compared to a parent being in no position to hold his/her child when they are in great danger of losing their lives.I know anyone who has a kid out there can relate…It was silent on the other end of the phone call for a while,perhaps he was taking in the information that I had just fed him.“You…you mean Ariana?”For the first time in my entire life,I heard him stutter.I could hear the uncertainty in his voice.He couldn't believe that Aria is his child.I mean our child.I knew he would react that way because he never new about it for fucking five years.“Yes,”I heaved a deep sigh.”Ariana is our daughter and she needs your help.The clock is ticking and we don't have that much time.Please save our daughter.I can't lose her.We can't lose our daughter.You’re the only person who can save her
~Gabriel~“Amanda please wake up!Please don't do this to me.Our daughter needs you,she needs us.You can't leave us when we need you the most.I know I have wronged you big time and I'm sorry.I’m sincerely sorry.Please wake up!”I pleaded, holding her in my arms and hoped that she would be able to hear my plea and open her eyes but…all that was in vain.She couldn't even bart her eyelashes and that only made me more worried.Fear crept in my heart when the thought of possibly losing Amanda popped in my head.No!I wasn't ready to lose her and never will be ready to lose her.Not when we have so many things that are unsettled between us.“Amanda!”I shouted, holding her so close to my chest.I have been wanting to hold her this close,but not in situation.I been looking forward to holding her close to my chest as we laugh,talk and tease around as I looked into those brown Hazel eyes that I loved so much.“What happened to her?”Lucia inquired and I could feel worry in her v
~Gabriel~I felt unworthy to look at Ariana's face because…I have been missing her entire life.I couldn't imagine all the difficulties that she went through growing up with a single parent.I couldn't help it but imagine Aria watching other kids happily playing with their Daddies.I was mad at myself when the mere thought of it popped into my mind.“Please forgive Daddy for not knowing that you existed.''I apologise once again, guilt consuming me.I know a simple “sorry” wasn't enough to make up for all those days that I missed her birthday.I know a simple sorry wasn't enough to make up for everytime Ariana yearned for father's love but I was not there to give it to her.I know a simple apology wasn't enough to make up for all those days that she fell sick but I was not around to take care of her.I know a simple apology was not enough for not being around when she was born.However,I hoped that she would someday forgive me.I hoped that someday,Ariana would und
~Amanda~I blinked countless times to get rid of the blurry vision.My headache terribly and a strong smell of chlorine hit my nostrils.When I my eyes fully opened,I was met with a pair of grey piercing eyes and I couldn't help it but frown, wondering what the hell was going on.Gabriel's lips curved into a smile and I could see relief in his eyes.”You're finally awake,Amanda.I was so worried about you.How are you feeling?Are you hungry or do you feel thirsty?”Gabriel asked politely and I could feel the concern in his voice.I snapped when I recalled my daughter's condition.“Ariana!I have to go and check on my daughter.”I was about to get off the bed but Gabriel held my hand. I turned to look at his hand on mine,then raised my face slowly and looked at him,our eyes locked.“You don't need to worry about anything because Ariana is doing perfectly fine.Our daughter is okay.Mom is watching over Ariana.
~Amanda~ It was quiet for a while inside the room.Gabriel’s questions made my heart ache.I know he has the right to ask questions because he is Ariana's Dad but…does he know how the fucking question caused so much pain to me?I heaved a deep sigh to calm down.“I found out a few days before graduation.I kept it to myself because I wanted it to be a surprise.I was planning to let you know that we were going to be parents on the last day of campus.”I paused to take a breath.“When I received the text message from you asking me to come at your apartment the same day,I was so excited to tell you the news and that's why I came immediately but…”I was silent for a while,the painful memories replayed in my head and my heart twisted inside my chest,as though someone was squeezing it into a tiny ball and it was becoming hard for me to breath.“I was heartbroken instead.I couldn't bring myself to tell you about the pre
~Amanda~Gabriel's question caught me off guard.I wasn't expecting him to ask me such a sensitive question.It was quiet for a while then I heaved a deep breath.“Can we talk from the balcony?”I asked and he nodded almost immediately.“Sure,”He said with a smile.I led the way and he followed behind me.“I will only allow you to be a father to Ariana under one condition.”I turned my head gently to look at Gabriel who was paying full attention.“And…what is the condition?”He asked hesitantly as though he wasn't sure if he wanted to hear my response.I heaved a deep sigh.“You are not allowed to tell Ariana that you're her father!You'll remain an uncle to her.I don't want Ariana to be affected by all this.That is why I didn't tell you that she's our daughter.It’s because I'm trying to protect her.”I paused to take a breath.“We will tell her the truth when she's mature enough
~Amanda~ “I know I can't make up for the lost time.Giving Ariana a complete family is the least I can do.I fully understand that things between us aren'that...good but can you please allow me to make it up for you and our daughter?I promise that if you give me this chance I won't fuck it up.”He looked at me with pleading eyes.I was quiet for a while, processing what Gabriel had just said.I wanted to grant my daughter's wish too because that is how much I care about Ariana.I will give up everything to make sure that she gets what she wishes for.However,I know that was not the right thing to do.Many people will hurt in the process and I didn't want to be the reason why someone hurts.I didn't want to be mean…Alicia will be affected and I didn't want that to happen.I know how it feels like watching your dreams crumble before your eyes.I know Alicia loves Gabriel so much because I saw it in her eyes when he l
~Amanda~A FEW DAYS LATER “It's time to take your medicine Ariana.”Gabriel announced as soon as we arrived in our daughter's room from the dining room.Ariana made a funny face when she heard Gabriel's words and I couldn't help it but smile.She doesn't like medicines, everyone knows that.However,I think she has no choice but to take it.I placed Ariana on the bed then held her little hands in mine, giving them a gentle squeeze.I raised my head to look into my daughter's brown hazel eyes which resembles mine.“Uncle Gabriel is right.It's time to take your medicines dear.”Ariana looked at me with a pout,being sturbbon like always whenever she heard the mention of the word “medicine”.“You need to take the medicines as prescribed by the doctor so that you don't get sick again, darling.Do you want to make your mommy, grandma, grandpa, and uncle worried again?”I asked my daughter and she shook her head almost immediately.“I don't want to make you worried, mommy.”Ariana said and my lips cu