Chapter 006

~Gabriel~

I paced back and forth in my room and ran my fingers through my dark shoulder length hair in frustration.

The anger and hate in those hazel brown eyes never left my mind and that only made me more stressed out.

Congratulations to me because now she hates me even more than five years ago.

It's in the middle of the night,I should be sleeping at the moment because of the exhaustion from the journey to the west but here I was,very awake and there was no sign of falling asleep anytime soon.

I couldn't help but get worried about Amanda.Is she asleep or still crying?I have never seen her that angry in my entire life and that's why I was so worried about her.

I know I did wrong to hide everything from her.She needed to know the whole truth.It’s not that I didn't trust her or anything, it's just that I needed some more time.

I had planned that I would tell her immediately when we were done with campus.That I would let her know that I'm not human the way she thought.

I wanted to tell her a thousand and one times but each time I held my tongue because I was afraid of how she would react.

I was afraid that she would desert me because that was what humans did when they found out that their partner was a wolf.They are afraid that some day in their relationship they can turn into an animal that they are and attack them.

I know of many such incidents.I know that wolves can be ruthless and heartless sometimes.However, it's hard to explain to humans that not all wolves behave in such a way.

Only when they are Rogues.

When a wolf is packless is when they go rogue.I know saying all this won't help because Amanda is so angry at me and she didn't want to hear anything about me.Not just anything,but even to see me…

That is how much she hated me…

I remembered all those sweet moments when we made love and my teeth elongated, itching to sink in her neck but I always held myself back since I didn't want to surprise her.

I wished I could tell her earlier…

“Damn it!”

I cursed under my breath, poured another tod of whiskey and gulped.It burned its way down and I cleared my throat.

“Did you hurt my mommy?”

The innocent face of her little daughter was stuck in my mind too.Her angelic voice rang in my mind over and over again.

And yes,I didn't know that she had a daughter.I was surprised when she appeared in the dining room.

I didn't know whether I was supposed to congratulate Amanda for having a daughter or whether to get angry at her because she had fulfilled our dreams of becoming parents someday.

However,she had fulfilled the dream all alone.No! With someone else.

Our dream…

I felt betrayed.

Her daughter is so beautiful and I can tell that there is such a strong connection between the two of them.

It made me feel jealousy even more.If things didn't go west five years ago,that could be our daughter and we could be a happy family right now…

Her daughter is so beautiful just like her mother.She's a small version of Amanda, caring too just like her mother…

I remember the good old days and I took another tod.I know I shouldn't be drinking in the middle of the night but I just couldn't help it…

Even though I didn't want to admit it…I was hurting deep down.I didn't get the chance to make up for the first mistake and here I was,

To make matters worse,I added one more mistake by not being transparent with Amanda from the start.

I can't imagine how she is feeling deep down…

I know the feeling of thinking that you knew someone too well only to find out the exact opposite.

Just like how she thought that I was human only to find out that I was never human.

I never wanted to be the reason why Amanda hurt so much.But yeah,I fucked up and I'm the sole reason.

“Leonard,”I called my beta through the mind link and he groaned in response.

I'm yet to be an Alpha officially because my father is still holding the position.Once I ascend to power, Leonard is going to be my beta.

Not just a beta,he is my best friend too…

“It's in the middle of the night for goddess's sake, Gabriel.”He complained.

“That's why I need to talk to you this late because there is no one I can talk to.”I said and he groaned once again.

I know he was sleeping and exhausted because he accompanied me to the West.It's just that…I don’t have someone else who is that close apart from him.

Friends are supposed to support each other through thick and thin, right?I know this should be my problem alone but not his.However,I needed someone to talk to and Leonard happened to be that “someone”

I didn't want to run mad.At least not before I right or the wrongs.

“Meet me in the backyard in a few.”I told Leonard and he couldn't stop complaining about how late it was and everything.

I walked out of the mansion and the cold breeze hit my skin.I breathed in fresh hair deep in my lungs.

I really needed it.

“What's the matter?Don't tell me there is an attack or something.”Leonard said from behind me and I turned to look for him.

“About the pack, security and everything.”I paused and heaved a deep sigh,”Don't worry about it because everything is fine.”My lips curved into an assurance smile.

I saw Leonard crease his eyebrows in confusion,”What is it then?And don't tell me that you have been drinking because you reek alcohol,Gab”He asked in confusion.

“Well,I met my new family today.”He relaxed a little bit,”So you called me this late only to tell me that?”Leon shook his head in disbelief and a smile graced his lips.

“You mean your new mother and sister?”He asked in curiosity and I nodded.

“Now this is getting interesting,”The smile on his lips only broadened,”Tell me about your sister.Is she beautiful?And is she young?Is she pretty?What about her marital status?”He raised his eyebrows.

All this while I was listening to him.

“Is she single and searching or married?Come on bro.Who knows?I might be your brother-in-law.”He joked like he has always done and I smiled.

I was quiet for a while,”Come on bro don't be mean.”He chuckled.

I heaved a deep sigh to collect myself.

I didn't believe it either.

Still,I couldn't believe that she was my stepsister.It seemed like a dream…

“It's Amanda Williams,”Leon's eyes popped out when he heard my words but composed himself immediately.

He knows her too because we studied in the same campus in the city.

“Please tell me this is a joke,”He laughed,”This ain't funny buddy.”He said dismissively.

“You should move on and accept the reality bro.You need to focus on the future that you have with Alicia.”He paused and heaved a deep sigh.

“I know you loved Amanda so much and it's hard to move on because you patted away in such an unexpected way but…”He went silent for a while once again.

I know Leon knew how much I loved Amanda.However,it's too bad that Amanda doubted my love for her.

I know she's right to doubt but one thing is for sure.I loved her so much.

“Who knows?You might fall in love with Alicia someday and forget about Amanda.You have been looking for her for the past five years bro!”I was quiet as Leon lectured me.

That's true.

I have been looking for her for the past five years but never found a trace of her.

Maybe I didn't put in more effort because…she popped into my life once again without that much effort…