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Trevor

I was stunned in my place as her words echoed in my mind.

“I feel so… insecure,” she’d said. Her voice was trembling. The tears streaming down her face were cutting straight to my core. It was an awful feeling seeing Elaine in tears. No, it was horrible!

But her next words hit harder than any blow I’d ever taken.

“Maybe you don’t find me attractive. Maybe I’m just a damaged good… not worth your time… not worthy of you.”

I wanted to say something, but my throat felt like it had closed up.

How could she even think that?

Did she not realize how incredible she was?

The idea that she doubted her worth because of me made my chest ache with guilt.

Before I could respond, she turned toward the door. “If you don’t want me here, I’ll just go home,” she almost whispered.

And that broke something inside me. “Wait!” I blurted out. My heart was pounding so fast as I stepped toward her.

She stopped. But she didn’t turn to face me. I could see her shoulders shaking. I could hear th
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