I woke up to Rig’s touch, and it was so delicious, prickling and tingling down my back, I didn’t want to move at first.
But then he sighed. Only a small sigh. A heavy breath. But I felt… something. I could feel that something was wrong. Even though he touched me so gently and lay so quietly… I could feel him.
“What’s wrong?”
I had to turn around to face him and ask a second time before he admitted it.
“I’m just… terrified to lose you.”
Seeing the blazing love in his eyes, that burning
If you like music while you read, try “Meaning” by Nathan Wagner. It’s what I listened to while writing Rig’s perspective here.*****~ RIG ~Loving Cara was a bird of prey, with inch-long talons buried in my heart. It lifted me off my feet and shot me into the atmosphere.I could scream and close my eyes, or I could marvel at how small the world looked from here.My entire body trembled.Surrender. Surrender. Surrender.The word rolled in my head like waves pounding the beach, incessant, but comforting.Trust.Give everything.
If you like music while you read, try “Surrender” by Natalie Taylor. It’s what I listened to while writing this song, and is perfect for Cara’s heart here!*****~ CARA ~Rig taking me the second time was new and different, and utterly overwhelming.His intensity in his kiss, in his eyes, had already got my body thrilling. But there was something else—something he pulled from the darkness… as if he was giving it away. Giving it to me.He entered me and my head fell back against my will, a strange noise breaking in my throat.Above me he groaned my name, his breath hissing between his teeth. Fisting the pillow next to my head, he looked as if he might actually lose
~ RIG ~My chest heaved. I was afraid I was going to crush her, so I forced myself up onto my elbow, but I couldn’t bear the thought of separating from her yet, so I just laid there, gaping at her like an idiot, my hair falling into my eyes.“Cara… holy shit, did you feel that?”Her eyes sparkled when she opened them, her face softened by a beaming smile. “Are you serious? Of course I felt it. That was the bond?” Then her eyes dropped to my neck and widened and she clapped a hand there. “Shit! Rig—I’m so sorry! I bit you!”I laughed—giggled like a girl. “That’s the marking, Cara. It’s what wolves do when the bond completes. I didn’t even think about it—”
~ CARA ~There was an incredible moment when Rig started putting images and memories in my head—they were so much more than anything I could see with my eyes. Colored by feelings and sensations.He showed me the night he'd first accepted the bond, back when I was still completely ignorant.I felt the dual resolution and resignation in him, the knowledge that he was doomed to love me for the rest of his life whether I could feel the bond or not. The fear he'd felt that I wouldn't believe he'd committed to me.And his disgust with himself when I thought he was still sleeping with others.
~ RIG ~The next morning I brought her breakfast to the room.I made some toast and threw fruit, cheese and a couple glasses of orange juice on a tray and carried it back to the bedroom to find Cara standing at the window looking out at the trees in the dawn light.There were no lights on—neither of us needed them even when it was dark—so her small form was silhouetted at the window, but glowing at the edges from the pink light outside.She stood there in one of my robes that hung in the closet here. It was too big for her so she’d rolled up the sleeves. Her hair was messy, and when she turned her head, her lips were swollen from my kisses.She took my breath away.
~ CARA ~Nerves fluttered in my stomach, outright fear shoved adrenaline through my veins.Rig sat with his elbows on the table and his head in his hands, snarling at himself. “…didn’t think it all through. I was so sure we had it… I was so sure…”I reached across the little table and put a hand on his arm—it was steel under my hand. He was in crisis and I hated that I had no idea what to do to help him.“Rig, there’s no point whipping yourself with it now, it’s done. We have to… to figure out what we’re going to do when we leave, right?”He nodded, but didn’t speak, his eyes open but fixed on nothing, his jaw too tight I was worried he
If you like music while you read, try “River” by Bishop Briggs. It’s what I was listening to while writing this scene!*****~ CARA ~I giggled when he picked me up, but the nerves and tension of our conversation were still distracting me when he gently placed me back on my feet in the large bathroom.It was a beautiful little room—gold and brown marble tile, natural wood cabinets, a massive mirror over the sink countertop with lights marching in line around it, and thick, plush rugs on the cold floors.“Shower or bath?” Rig asked, his voice deep and rough.“Never have I ever…” I said a little breathlessly, then lost my nerve. “You choose,&
~ CARA ~I stood in the shower, hair twisted on top of my head, water rushing over my shoulders and back, and Rig, eyes hotter than the scalding water that was turning my skin pink, knelt in front of me, running soapy hands up my legs way too slowly.He’d already washed my back, my sides, my breasts—standing behind me so the water hit me in the chest and running his hands all over my torso. But then, just when he’d washed low on my belly with both hands and I thought he’d delve between my leg,s he’d turned me around and dropped.Now small suds ran down my legs. Each of his large hands cupped the backs of my calves and dragged up, making my skin goosebump all the way to my hip.When he reached the back of my thighs, his fingers curling between