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Chapter Fifty

Author: Jayson
last update Last Updated: 2022-12-19 11:24:56

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Songs: Black Hole Sun by Soundgarden, Claude's Girl by Marika Hackman

Training the next day with Rose started right on time. I thought about calling it off at least a dozen times on the way down there. It was stupid of me to agree to it—masochism at its finest. I should have never said yes, but when she claimed it could help her with her memory recovery, how could I say no?

Although, I could hardly affirm those first few days as actual training. They pretty much consisted of one thing: running. Not only were her injuries still not fully healed, but there was another predicament plaguing my mind. I didn't know how I was going to touch her.

Since that night in my room where I'd foolishly pulled her into my arms, I was terrified of being close to her again. The feeling of her warm body pressed against me gave me more comfort than I'd felt in months, only to be ripped away by the cruel reality that she was no longer someone I could seek comfort in. I was a fucking idiot to have caved
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