Chapter 82
Ellie
I don’t like it when my friends are attacked or bullied. I have always protected the people that I have loved and I have a way of indirectly with people who attack people who are weaker than them . I’ve always kept my circle small and I have only let people who prove themselves by word and deed into my circle and I know for a fact that; if I ever get into trouble , or need some protection, the same people I have been protecting will protect me . That’s if they know what’s going on because over the years I have learned that the tattle tale sign of someone who wants to control you and abuse you; is to isolate you from the people you love and care about you .Dexter was the biggest lesson I have ever had to learn and the scars I have are nothing compared to what he had put me through when we were in a relationship with each other . He was jealous of my friendship with Sam and when he found out about my other friends , he isol
Chapter 83MaxI don't think I am deserving of Ellie's love. She has been there for me in more ways than one , even when I thought that I was just broken beyond repair. Elie is a fixer and by that I mean that; she hates not making sure that things are fine and that you are well taken care of , and everything is alright .The moment I held Ellie in my arms was the moment I stopped running. I was in pretence mode and I am usually in control of my feelings , but when I saw Ellie's face I cried like a baby and I didn't care who was watching . I missed her and I felt like she was the only one who understood me . She loved me inside out . I even showed her the ugliest parts of me and she accepted me and what she did yesterday was nothing short of heroic . She wrote an article and in it she wrote about me and tried to clean up , balance and shine my already defor
Chapter 84ElliI have always loved being active and since I can do some of the stuff I used to do and I have been given the all clear , I went on a walk instead of a run this morning with Daniel. Before I left the house Blake was already awake and he was doing some sort of research on the Luca airline hostesses , he was really focused , and I knew it was the right time to ask him for a favor .When he told me that the boys were going to play drinking games ; I tapped out and called it a night , and I told them to bring Max back in one piece because he is not a heavy drinker and he didn’t get to go through college because he was schooled by the academy that he played for , and they didn’t teach him how to be a heavy drinker . Max is not a heavy drinker he’d rather take pills … which is also a bad habit because he knows how to hide them. The boys did not listen to me and they ended up wasted . Max had to be carried inside the
Chapter 85MaxI have been feeling a bit off this morning and the main reason for this was because I had, decided to participate in getting drunk with people that have had experience ... My brother included . I was in the car at the backseat drinking water . Note to self if I am ever going to get outrageously drunk and of I ever get asked if I want to participate in binge drinking, the answer for anything to do with alcohol should be; no.I am used to talking other things not this much alcohol and I noticed this morning when my brother was making me the hangover cure that ;Ellie skipped breakfast and she went out walking with Daniel who is a doctor , but I hope she had something to eat after being active . I trusted Ellie with Daniel more than I trust her with Paul .Dan has proven to be a really good friend and I love him to bits . He too has also warned me about
Chapter 86EllieMax has been on edge ever since our conversation at the hotel . I thought I was the one who was supposed to be on edge and a bit off balance because of the past couple of weeks . When he came in with Blake at the hotel room he looked tired and stressed . He ran to give me a hug and I hugged him back . Holding him after all this time felt good , Maxwell always felt like home even when I was seriously mad at him or questioned our relationship.Maxwell wanted privacy ; he wasn't one to just blurt out how he was feeling . As much as he tried sharing some things with his fans , he keeps important or significant events to himself . He was openly private ,and privately open . We ended up having brunch at the hotel since the food market by the sea was full and most of the people who were out with their families. I didn't mind the vibe but for some sort of odd reason; Max did .When we
Chapter 87MaxI hate being disturbed during sexy time . It is unnecessary and really an infringement on my privacy and much needed time with Ellie. We have just gotten back to talking with each other and I couldn’t be more happier .We have had a rough patch and I am very happy that we are working through it .Jimmy just rubbed me up the wrong way . By the end of the week he is going to catch hands , I am going to slap him silly for doing what he did .The national coach doesn’t like me and I knew that putting my hand up for selection would be a waste of time . He indirectly threw stones at me . Something must have happened during practice to make him changed his mind .The only thing I could think of was that ; one of his little darlings , must have gotten injured during practice , and
Chapter 88EllieI don't know what happened one moment I was sitting on the couch with Max and he was telling me how much he loved me . You know some people wait a split second or a lifetime to hear their significant other tell them that they love them and that; their sun rises and sets with them. All that mooshy stuff gets us feeling all fuzzy and warm and it's a high that can't be fabricated or achieved by using drugs or alcohol which is also a drug but a depressant.The time I've spent with Max for the past couple of hours was far from depressing . It was illuminating in more ways than one ,and he just had to be the perfect boyfriend and bring me a peanut butter and banana smoothie . It was delicious and never have I ever not liked anything that Max had ever done for me . He is a chef in the kitchen and the sweetest guy if you don't double cross him .I was sitting
Chapter 89MaxThere were days when I loved going to work because; I was with a woman who didn't treat me with tender, loving care , and the respect I deserved . She even cut me off my own family and vilified them . She made me believe that they didn't care and that She was the only one in the world who cared about me ; but she only wanted someone she could control , and abuse emotionally.The article that Ellie wrote in my defence was accurate . I didn't understand what was going on , because ; the only thing I've ever known was physical and emotional abuse , and when I came clean to Betty about my passes ; she played me like ping pong ball . She played on every emotion , preyed on my insecurities ,and even when we fooled everyone , I couldn't fool myself . She cheated on me and ended up blaming me for her actions.Betty knew that I wanted to be a father and eventually have children with her ; but she didn't want to have kid
Chapter 90EllieJimmy has always known how to trigger Max . I remember Max telling me that he stayed with him when he was at his lowest and he was the only thing he has closest to family. Like Max; he was a Scorpio and he brought out the darker side of Max in the worst way .I know Max and I knew that Jimmy had called him . Poor Doctor Smith was caught in a crossfire he didn't start. It was unfair to him that he knew me as part of Blake's family but not Max because the twins and Max's mother were on my medical aid .When he charged at me I moved back in fear because all his suppressed feelings were resurfacing and she was angry at the wrong person .He has an insatiable appetite for revenge and with all the highs we've had on our relationship , this was a low . He doesn't talk about some of things that he keeps secret and things that a